That question stuck on my head three days later. Last time I couldn't answer it because Olivia got called and we had to cut our call short.Since then I was really wondering if I was okay with Tawny knowing about us. I mean what would happen? Would she cut us out? I mean she always screams that we are adults, so would she be an adult and let us be because we make each other happy?I had a lot on my mind, so much I was worrying about and I didn't even know how to address it to Olivia without sounding like I didn't want Tawny to know. Tawny was just a different case when it came to this, I had no idea how she'd react, and I know exactly that things affect her heart. "earth to you Amora.." Aiden said and I furrowed my brows at her, "Aiden.. What's up..?" "hey... How are you doing?" "dude... When you ask me that you literally follow up with the most weird questions.. So what's up?" She laughed, "well I'm just asking now. You have been standing there staring at that empty cup. I though
Being back in SA after a good 11 months away felt a little weird. I felt like I was out of place at first. Then I had to be reminded that I was home when electricity left right after getting off at the airport. Load shedding was the best thing to welcome me back, reminding me of the darker days to come. I was shocked to feel hands around my waist while I was waiting for my laggage. I quickly turned around, "what the...? Babeee? How the fuck are you even here?"She literally pulled me into a long deep kiss and I laughed as I kissed her back.We pulled away and she smiled, "I told them someone was dying.. Now look at you dying and not seeing your laggage.."I rolled my eyes at her and pulled her into another hug before kissing her neck, "I thought you'd be at the hospital... I'm not complaining though coz I missed you.""I told them someone is dying at the airport.." another voice said and I laughed at Paris, "Wooow how on earth did they allow you guys in here?""I'm one of the biggest
Her beautiful place had my jaw on the floor. Honestly!! Who the fuck was she??? It was out of this world. I was amazed when I looked at a palace type house there. It was like a movie, not reality. It was extraordinary. The house was in the middle of a large area and I have never seen anything like this, or perhaps may have read about it in novels.I looked at her and then back at the house. She sighed, "oh my fucking God I should have sold this."My eyes popped wide open in shock, "sold it? You own a fucking palace Olivia..."I have never felt so intimidated my whole life. I felt so small like I didn't even belong here."Miss Mercury... You're back.. Can we take your coat." one woman said as soon as she opened the door that was still in front of us.The place was a little bit outside of Johannesburg, surrounded by trees. It looked like those palace you use for movie set ups and belonged to the king and queen of that area. I couldn't believe it, it was Olivias.It really got worse no
The pictures that were hanging on the wall didn't do it any justice at all... A kitchenette, dining section and living room constituted its common areas. While two bedrooms connected by a little curtain made up its private spaces. As suggested by the outdated bathroom-between-rooms layout, and the history that Liv has been telling me about the place, the building was one of the older ones here in Johannesburg. In terms of square feet though, compared with the modern condo units that fell within my price range, this little place took me back to my university dorm with my snake loving friend Freya... Size-wise, it was not a penthouse, but at least it wasn't a shoebox like my dorm either."so... Will this be good? Of course we will have to remove those few cardboards there and create more space.. But is it good for you to paint here?" my girlfriend asked making me smile. What primarily drew me in though was the living room. It was bordered by a mix of exposed red-brick walls and plain w
The following day felt like heaven... Being woken up by small kissed on my face and then down to my bare body.All this was bringing back memories of last night and thinking about them got me dump in between my legs.I slowly opened my eyes and saw her with the most beautiful smile on her face, "heeeey Princess...""hey you..." I said brushing her head. She kissed my chest and then came up to lay on top of me. Without even thinking I took my hand to her nipple and started playing with the piercing there."so Dr Mercury... Mind telling me why you have a piercing on your fucking nipple? Don't get me wrong... It's sexy, but why?" I asked still playing with the metal thing on her nipple. There was silence. "Liv..." I said but she had suddenly gone quiet and her breathing had changed. Her hands were grabbing my waist a little bit tighter."babe..." I called her out but this time I shifted my head a bit to see her face.God! The look on her face I'd never be able to forget. She had her eye
Olivia was right, waking up without her really sucked.. Worse when I thought about how great was the waking up yesterday. I mean so many orgasms in the morning were suck a good thing.I sighed though and got up from the bed. The sun was luckily shining out today, pretty good weather.So I didn't sleep at Olivia's place like she asked last night, she got called in and I left coz I was a little bit bored.A light knock had me turning to the door.'breakfast is ready.' my sister said on the other side and I quickly went to the bathroom before going to join her to just freshen up and brush my teeth."so... How are you? You were tired when you got here and went right to bed."I tried to hide the smile on my face, "yeah.. I was tired.""what did you and Liv do? Go hiking...?"I laughed at how she didn't name a spade exactly what it is, a spade."no Paris... Olivia had other plans. Plans that kept me up all night.""okay.. Never talk about how tired you are... change of topic, when are you s
The last time I was this hurt and so mad to a point where I had no inspiration was when my parents passed away. It was hard to get back from that. So hard. Luna was like family to me. Now I felt like I was heading towards the same road and the thought of that killed me.I stared blankly at my painting material in front of me, all of them untouched for the past hour, but they probably enj3 me just staring at them.My mind was busy thinking about things I should have said to Luna. How inconsiderate she was being right now, standing up for Tawny after what I've been through with the woman. Was she picking Tawny's happiness over mine? You would think she'd want me to get someone who will not make me feel the way Tawny made me feel, but then by the looks of it, she didn't. She just wanted me to always be hung up on Tawny even though she was happy with skmeone else where she was.It pissed me off all over again to be thinking about this. If Luna wanted Tawny then she could wait for her, n
At first I was in panic mode not knowing what to expect or what was going to happen the second Liv hang up her phone. Tawny sounded a little big wrastled like there was something bothering her."is she okay?" I asked and Liv shook her head no, "she wouldn't come here at 11pm if she was princess."I took my plate, "yeah stupid question... alright. Maybe I'll go to your bedroom.""yeah... I'll see you when I'm done with her. I'm sorry.""heyyy. This is not your fault so don't apologize. She's not okay and she's your best friend. Go." I said. God Olivia wanted to be my hero forever? She needed to no lt neglect her best friend.She pulled me into a kiss, "like I said. You're the best."I smiled and watched her go downstairs. I took the tray she came with and headed to her bedroom on the 3rd floor. I wanted to be as far away from them as possible.I got up there, closed the door and set the tray on the headboard before starting to eat. As much as I sent myself far from me and tried to eat
After the talk I had with Luna I knew I needed to do a deeper introspection on myself so that I could move forward fully like I had been advised.You know life was really hard to get. It's not like I had never been through something like this before. I have lost a loved one before. My parents, but then I guess it was different somehow because I knew with them I couldn't replace them even with any person that wanted to take the parent role in my life, somehow they could never be what my parents were, they could never give birth to me... But when it came to a partner. It was so scary. Letting go of Olivia meant opening up to someone else and being that vulnerable again. It meant forgetting what she and I shared and living with this other human being. The thought of that scared me and it also made me feel uneasy. Liv meant the world to me, and moving on fully felt like saying goodbye forever.But Luna was telling the truth. I needed to admit that she was no more so I could live my life.
After the letter my life seemed to have hit a whole full stop. Everything stopped and I started to question it all.What on earth was going on. And what was the conversation between Tawny and Olivia the day before her death.I couldn't believe that two years down the line I was still asking myself the same question. I literally asked her this before she passed away and she just couldn't tell me.. Then now this surfaces two years later.. Well, maybe if I had read the letter earlier it was going to appear then, but still I wasn't ready to read the letter back then."so what are you thinking?""I don't know... Lots of people now want to be associated with me because business is booming. Could we meet the three artists and see if they are really worth it so I can decide if I really want another gallery or just a whole new idea coz it just hit me..""as much as I love the business you and how much you're so concentrating on that.. I actually wasn't talking about that. I meant the thoughts
Today we would be dating for 3 full years.. It was one and a half year since she passed away.. But it was our anniversary. I stupidly got the reminder from my calender and now I was in my apartment looking for something I didn't know. I felt like I was going to lose my mind had I not found it... whatever it was."hey... Amora." Tawny said behind me and I quickly turned to her, "what are you doing here?" I snapped and she looked at me confused, "you texted me. It didn't make sense so I came here to make sure that you were okay."I turned around, "I'm looking for something okay.. Just... Just please.." I left my sentence short and went to my kitchen and opened and closed every drawer."Mimi..." Tawny said and I turned around to her and yelled, "don't... You don't fucking get to call me that. Not after everything you have put me through. You don't get to call me by a pat name."She looked ate so confused... And then I saw her face soften. She shook her head a bit and walked towards me.W
Helping Luh plan for her wedding felt like I was doing it for me. She wanted things I felt I'd have wanted and I was enjoying every moment of it.So when I finally saw the end product, I could not be happier at that moment. I felt so proud of myself and where I've become. I looked around the room, I couldn’t believe that I was the best woman or should I say maid of honor for my best friend’s wedding, especially after everything that had went down in the past two years and us splitting up a little bit. I never thought that I would experience this at all. But I felt so blessed to be here. Her husband looked so out of place in a black taxedo that had a little split on the back instead of the fireman’s suit that he was accustomed to wearing everyday at work. He looked way more cute by the way. My mind took me down the memory lane when I saw my best friend. I had met her many years ago when she joined the same primary school as I, and now I was given the honor of being her maid of hono
I was really shocked when the following day arrived and my name wasn't being smeared on the internet about the incident that happened at Kiddies with Tawny. But then again I guess what she said really got to those people and they didn't post about it. And since the talk in the car, my relationship with Tawny was still okay, she was still herself which was what I loved but she respected me and my decision not to cross any boundaries.In two days though, she was going to be out of rehab and she was going to be back in the real world. That kinda made me happy, she has made such a big progress."hey dude... Have you called my make up artist?" that was Luna freaking out again and I sighed, "just because you ask 4 times it won't change.. Yes I did.. Now stop worrying. You're getting married in 3 days."She smiled, "oh my God what if this is the biggest mistake of my life. We've only known each other for a little less than two years. I can't be very sure about him right now. I can't marry t
I got out of the dress and folded it then put it on the chair before wearing my clothes. I was starting to get mad. I felt like I was betraying Olivia. So whatever happened made me feel guilty. Like how could she not think, I just lost Olivia a few months ago. Now she wanted to step in. I wanted to support her and make sure she was okay or at least let her know that she had a friend in me. But she wasn't paying attention to that, she thought more could come out of this. "Amora look, I'm sorry." Tawny said joining me, she was now fully dressed back to her clothes...and I ignored her and finished up what I was doing."Amora please talk to me.""and say what?"She's shrugged, "I don't know... Anything.""I have nothing to say.""well I do. I'm not sorry for attempting to kiss you coz I didn't do that by mistake... But I'm just sorry I made you uncomfortable."I shook my head, she had no idea how she made me feel. Uncomfortable wasn't even close to describing it."Amora...""you made me
Moving back to my place wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. It just had so many memories I was terrified of revisiting.I hated it so much but I knew I had to do it. I couldn't live at Paris's place forever.. And I couldn't sell this place either, a lot of good things happened here. So I wasn't going to allow the same memories that made me happy to push me to get rid of my place.I'd literally feel her presence or feel like she'd walk in. Being back there made her death so real. A knock on the door would have me expecting her. The calls we used to have on her night shift. How I'd wake up with food or with her cuddling me. All that made me come to terms with the fact that she wasn't here anymore. She was gone. I sighed and shifted the matras in my bedroom. Like I said, I needed to clean this place. Luna was downstairs helping me. After full two hours I was done in my bedroom and it felt like it was all new. Maybe it was the new bedsheets, curtains and blankets I bought. I smile
"do you know where Tawny is? I mean she said she'll be at my wedding but she disappeared. No one knows where she is." Luna asked walking in with a bag full of groceries. I quickly got up and ran to her to help, "couldn't you just tell me you had plastic bags so I can get you... Is it everything?" "it's fine I asked you a question. Do you know where she is?"I didn't know why she was pressing on this."why would I know?"She shrugged, "I don't know. I just don't want her to not come to my wedding after promising she will. The Media is busy eating her up and making up stories about her going crazy since the outburst at your opening."I sighed, this was what I hated about the media. The ability to make one and also break them. It was just too much. "yeah I hate the media dude. Stop listening to it. Tawny will come to your wedding. What did you want her to do?""I don't know..." she said with another shrug, "maybe her to learn my steps so that she can dance.. By the way you and her are
When Tawny was ready, like I promised, I took her to rehab and dropped her off. "thank you for doing this." she said. I gave her a small smile and decided to joke a little, "it's not a big deal. I just wanted to make sure you really come here you know."She smiled a bit and just looked at me. She looked as if there was something she wanted to say but couldn't. She then shook her head and that's when I knew that she definitely stopped herself from saying what she wanted to say. So I asked," what? "She continued to shake her head no, "umh. Naah, Amora you've already done enough. I can't burden you with me and all my shit.""hey... Besides me joking about bringing you here so I could know you are really here.. I came because I wanted and I wanted you to know that you have support. So I am here, talk to me about anything. It's not a burden at all." She nodded her head a little bit before saying," so... Incase anything happens to me. I want you to know that... "My eyes shot wide open