At first I was in panic mode not knowing what to expect or what was going to happen the second Liv hang up her phone. Tawny sounded a little big wrastled like there was something bothering her."is she okay?" I asked and Liv shook her head no, "she wouldn't come here at 11pm if she was princess."I took my plate, "yeah stupid question... alright. Maybe I'll go to your bedroom.""yeah... I'll see you when I'm done with her. I'm sorry.""heyyy. This is not your fault so don't apologize. She's not okay and she's your best friend. Go." I said. God Olivia wanted to be my hero forever? She needed to no lt neglect her best friend.She pulled me into a kiss, "like I said. You're the best."I smiled and watched her go downstairs. I took the tray she came with and headed to her bedroom on the 3rd floor. I wanted to be as far away from them as possible.I got up there, closed the door and set the tray on the headboard before starting to eat. As much as I sent myself far from me and tried to eat
Christmas...It has always been so different without my parents. It used to be traditional with them. Little fake family tree, lights and a little decorations on it then 4 gifts under it. Just something enough for us.Since they passed away, all that stopped, it's like they passed with it because I didn't even celebrate Christmas. This year was going to be different though because Olivia asked me to join hers. Paris was happy that my girlfriend did that... And she was also invited."I still don't think we should have gifts..""well little sister, you really need to know how to behave to impress the in-laws. It's not about the gift. It's about being polite." my sister said to me. I sighed, "what the hell am I even supposed to wear?""I don't know... A dress. Please don't wear a short."I sighed feeling defeated, "fine I'm not going then.""whyyy""these are Olivia's parents okay. Not some people her age. People who gave birth to her. What if they don't like me or they disapprove? Did
"mom!!!" Olivia, warned her mother, her voice was stern."what? It was just a question." the older woman said finding no fault in what she asked me."our food haven't even arrived and you're asking uncomfortable questions like that already? I..."I decided to cut my girlfriend off before this turned into something bigger than it already was, "Olivia and I have been seeing each other for just a few months Mrs Mercury.""and what do you do for a living? Are you at university?""no.. I actually finished university last year.. I'm going to start my second year at a project that I was selected to be a part of in Bangkok, in Thailand.""Thailand? You stay in in Bangkok?" she asked and then turned to her daughter, "us that why you went there last year? For her? Who's paying for her stay there? Her flat? Her food? Are you doing all that?""you do know that Amora Black happens to also have a sister who owns and runs a whole Magazine that is number one in the country...? Meaning that sister cou
Once my old bedroom's door shut behind us, I pushed Liv onto the freshly made bed and climbed on top of her. I began kissing her into the fluffy pillows, pressing my still-clothed center against her thigh. I groaned, frustrated by the multiple layers of clothing still keeping us apart. I broke the kiss then blindly clawed at her shirt, hoping she'd get the message and take it off. "Impatient so much princess," she commented as she yanked her top above her head. She quickly got rid of her bra, too, uncaringly flinging the garments away from us.Slipping my shirt off. Her two hands then squeezed my bra-clad boobs. "I've wanted to see these since you I saw you in the morning. Worse when you were sitting next to me at the table.." she stated, reaching behind me to unhook the clasp of my bra.She hastily wrapped her lips around one of puffy nipples. She alternated between them, making soft sucking noises every now and then. Her tongue was flicking against each tip. And each swipe made me
New year... Who new I could actually enjoy all the Christmas holidays the way I was right now? Not me.Over a year ago if you would have told me I'd be in a relationship with someone who cared for me fully I'd have laughed at your face, if you would have told me I'd be spending new year with my sister, her ex fiance, my secret girlfriend, a woman I was soon to meet who has been with Paris for over a year. I'd have told you that you've lost your mind. But here I was living that life exactly how I never imagined it. "do you think this is a good idea still?" I asked Tyra and she shrugged, "I'm not the one in some entangled relationship between best friends you know."I hated her. So she figured out that there was really something going on between me and Olivia that day I visited her. Nothing I said convinced her otherwise."you're not very helpful.." I whispered and she laughed, "come on. You should relax and have some fun. But the day this all unfolds please call me or wake me up... Go
"Olivia..."She started walking away.God! What the hell was it with them walking away from a conversation..? "Olivia I'm talking to you. The least you could do is pay attention to me and not walk away. Please."She sighed and turned around to look at me, "talking about what to me? Better not be Tawny. I've seen enough I think.""seen what? Her trying to stop me from getting hit by a car? Are you mad that she saved my life."She sighed and kept walking. I was tired. Whatever Tawny said made me emotionally tired."fine... I'm sorry that all of this and what Tawny said in there suffocated me and I needed some fresh air. I'm sorry that I heard you were going to check on me only to see Tawny behind me. Please... Please Liv you're the last person I want to be pissed at. Tawny alone is enough."" pissed at me for what Amora?"" for walking away while you could literally ask me like any normal person would what happened and I'd be honest with you. God! To think I didn't even want to be here
It sucked so bad that I needed to fly back to Thailand. Being with Olivia these past two weeks made me yearn for her more and want to be closer to her more. I honestly was going to suffer with the long distance between us and our busy schedules."I want to paint again." I said quietly, "in your house where everything else doesn't matter but the moment I'm in. I want that. I don't wanna be somewhere in Thailand far away from you."Liv giggled before throwing me with a shirt, "wanna take this with..."I gave it a look at smiled when I noticed it wasn't mine but hers, "maybe your undies too..""stop making me horny. We are supposed to finish packing so we can go out. Tomorrow you're flying." "don't remind me..." I said suddenly feeling like shit, "I don't want to be away from you.""we talked about this princess. It's only this year.. And I'll see you every two months if not every month.""every month is going to be a lot of money wasted you know that.. I don't want to feel guilty that
Even though I spent a little over two weeks back home, being back in Thailand felt a bit weird. Maybe because there wasn't that homely thing I felt or maybe because my girlfriend was not there... The fact is there was just something missing.I continued though to do my work. Three weeks down the line I asked to have a meeting with Abigail."hey... What is it?" she asked the second I walked in her office."a how are you would be highly appreciated Abigail."The older woman laughed, "right... How are you Amora..?"Ever since I knew she was girlfriends with Thalia she was now calling me by my name and not being professional like she used to."I'm great thank you for asking and how are you doing Abigail?" I said sitting down and she continued to laugh while shaking her head, "Amora what do I owe this pleasure?""I wanted to discuss my contract with you."She smiled, "Tyra warned me that this would happen. I thought we were treating you like a king.""you guys are treating me very well...
After the talk I had with Luna I knew I needed to do a deeper introspection on myself so that I could move forward fully like I had been advised.You know life was really hard to get. It's not like I had never been through something like this before. I have lost a loved one before. My parents, but then I guess it was different somehow because I knew with them I couldn't replace them even with any person that wanted to take the parent role in my life, somehow they could never be what my parents were, they could never give birth to me... But when it came to a partner. It was so scary. Letting go of Olivia meant opening up to someone else and being that vulnerable again. It meant forgetting what she and I shared and living with this other human being. The thought of that scared me and it also made me feel uneasy. Liv meant the world to me, and moving on fully felt like saying goodbye forever.But Luna was telling the truth. I needed to admit that she was no more so I could live my life.
After the letter my life seemed to have hit a whole full stop. Everything stopped and I started to question it all.What on earth was going on. And what was the conversation between Tawny and Olivia the day before her death.I couldn't believe that two years down the line I was still asking myself the same question. I literally asked her this before she passed away and she just couldn't tell me.. Then now this surfaces two years later.. Well, maybe if I had read the letter earlier it was going to appear then, but still I wasn't ready to read the letter back then."so what are you thinking?""I don't know... Lots of people now want to be associated with me because business is booming. Could we meet the three artists and see if they are really worth it so I can decide if I really want another gallery or just a whole new idea coz it just hit me..""as much as I love the business you and how much you're so concentrating on that.. I actually wasn't talking about that. I meant the thoughts
Today we would be dating for 3 full years.. It was one and a half year since she passed away.. But it was our anniversary. I stupidly got the reminder from my calender and now I was in my apartment looking for something I didn't know. I felt like I was going to lose my mind had I not found it... whatever it was."hey... Amora." Tawny said behind me and I quickly turned to her, "what are you doing here?" I snapped and she looked at me confused, "you texted me. It didn't make sense so I came here to make sure that you were okay."I turned around, "I'm looking for something okay.. Just... Just please.." I left my sentence short and went to my kitchen and opened and closed every drawer."Mimi..." Tawny said and I turned around to her and yelled, "don't... You don't fucking get to call me that. Not after everything you have put me through. You don't get to call me by a pat name."She looked ate so confused... And then I saw her face soften. She shook her head a bit and walked towards me.W
Helping Luh plan for her wedding felt like I was doing it for me. She wanted things I felt I'd have wanted and I was enjoying every moment of it.So when I finally saw the end product, I could not be happier at that moment. I felt so proud of myself and where I've become. I looked around the room, I couldn’t believe that I was the best woman or should I say maid of honor for my best friend’s wedding, especially after everything that had went down in the past two years and us splitting up a little bit. I never thought that I would experience this at all. But I felt so blessed to be here. Her husband looked so out of place in a black taxedo that had a little split on the back instead of the fireman’s suit that he was accustomed to wearing everyday at work. He looked way more cute by the way. My mind took me down the memory lane when I saw my best friend. I had met her many years ago when she joined the same primary school as I, and now I was given the honor of being her maid of hono
I was really shocked when the following day arrived and my name wasn't being smeared on the internet about the incident that happened at Kiddies with Tawny. But then again I guess what she said really got to those people and they didn't post about it. And since the talk in the car, my relationship with Tawny was still okay, she was still herself which was what I loved but she respected me and my decision not to cross any boundaries.In two days though, she was going to be out of rehab and she was going to be back in the real world. That kinda made me happy, she has made such a big progress."hey dude... Have you called my make up artist?" that was Luna freaking out again and I sighed, "just because you ask 4 times it won't change.. Yes I did.. Now stop worrying. You're getting married in 3 days."She smiled, "oh my God what if this is the biggest mistake of my life. We've only known each other for a little less than two years. I can't be very sure about him right now. I can't marry t
I got out of the dress and folded it then put it on the chair before wearing my clothes. I was starting to get mad. I felt like I was betraying Olivia. So whatever happened made me feel guilty. Like how could she not think, I just lost Olivia a few months ago. Now she wanted to step in. I wanted to support her and make sure she was okay or at least let her know that she had a friend in me. But she wasn't paying attention to that, she thought more could come out of this. "Amora look, I'm sorry." Tawny said joining me, she was now fully dressed back to her clothes...and I ignored her and finished up what I was doing."Amora please talk to me.""and say what?"She's shrugged, "I don't know... Anything.""I have nothing to say.""well I do. I'm not sorry for attempting to kiss you coz I didn't do that by mistake... But I'm just sorry I made you uncomfortable."I shook my head, she had no idea how she made me feel. Uncomfortable wasn't even close to describing it."Amora...""you made me
Moving back to my place wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. It just had so many memories I was terrified of revisiting.I hated it so much but I knew I had to do it. I couldn't live at Paris's place forever.. And I couldn't sell this place either, a lot of good things happened here. So I wasn't going to allow the same memories that made me happy to push me to get rid of my place.I'd literally feel her presence or feel like she'd walk in. Being back there made her death so real. A knock on the door would have me expecting her. The calls we used to have on her night shift. How I'd wake up with food or with her cuddling me. All that made me come to terms with the fact that she wasn't here anymore. She was gone. I sighed and shifted the matras in my bedroom. Like I said, I needed to clean this place. Luna was downstairs helping me. After full two hours I was done in my bedroom and it felt like it was all new. Maybe it was the new bedsheets, curtains and blankets I bought. I smile
"do you know where Tawny is? I mean she said she'll be at my wedding but she disappeared. No one knows where she is." Luna asked walking in with a bag full of groceries. I quickly got up and ran to her to help, "couldn't you just tell me you had plastic bags so I can get you... Is it everything?" "it's fine I asked you a question. Do you know where she is?"I didn't know why she was pressing on this."why would I know?"She shrugged, "I don't know. I just don't want her to not come to my wedding after promising she will. The Media is busy eating her up and making up stories about her going crazy since the outburst at your opening."I sighed, this was what I hated about the media. The ability to make one and also break them. It was just too much. "yeah I hate the media dude. Stop listening to it. Tawny will come to your wedding. What did you want her to do?""I don't know..." she said with another shrug, "maybe her to learn my steps so that she can dance.. By the way you and her are
When Tawny was ready, like I promised, I took her to rehab and dropped her off. "thank you for doing this." she said. I gave her a small smile and decided to joke a little, "it's not a big deal. I just wanted to make sure you really come here you know."She smiled a bit and just looked at me. She looked as if there was something she wanted to say but couldn't. She then shook her head and that's when I knew that she definitely stopped herself from saying what she wanted to say. So I asked," what? "She continued to shake her head no, "umh. Naah, Amora you've already done enough. I can't burden you with me and all my shit.""hey... Besides me joking about bringing you here so I could know you are really here.. I came because I wanted and I wanted you to know that you have support. So I am here, talk to me about anything. It's not a burden at all." She nodded her head a little bit before saying," so... Incase anything happens to me. I want you to know that... "My eyes shot wide open