Chapter 225 Cleo There's been times when I've been mad at my husband and there have been times when I've been so angry to the point where I don't want to see him I don't even want to talk to him I don't even want to touch him and what we going through is anything to go by I know for a fact that I am livid scared I'm confused as to what decision to make with regards to my relationship with Michelangelo because he has the ability to be good he has the capacity to do great things but he always gets in his own way. I've seen him angry. I've witnessed his fury in action . I have seen how he can lose it at the drop of a hat and that's because he is not in control of what's going on. Then there is the man that married the sweetest , kindest , down-to-earth and supportive guy you'll ever meet. He is first of all a great father, a loving husband and a calming force to my raging waters. You can't fault him on anything here is that good and he is that perfect but he has two sides that I'm s
Chapter 226 Angelo We always make sure that the kids are well taken care of and that they are safe and I always make sure that the kids are ok even if we go out or even if we are near water because I know that accidents can happen on sometimes it's no one's fault but in this case I feel so guilty my wife might feel guilty but I'm the one who was taking care of the kids and she was the one who was coming in for dinner by invite from our baby girl who is no on a ventilator. The last thing I wanted to do was just cause discord within our family because everything was going well until that game that I had tendered and the night that I lost control it wasn't entirely of my own doing but some of the stuff that I said was what I was feeling and it came out wrong way I know I should have just told my wife what I had heard and what I didn't believe because I didn't believe what that one was telling me. Even though she isn't saying it, Cleopatra thinks that I wanted to believe the lies I wa
Chapter 227 Cleo Something about this whole situation doesn't feel like I shouldn't be here blaming myself about something I have no control over but yet I am because I'm a parent and the safety of my kids does matter and the doctor came out the doctor wasn't as clear as I hoped that they be there just told me that they were keeping her overnight for observation and they will let me know what was going on and what was wrong with my baby girl after I see some improvement and come with something solid. If my son wasn't around I would have already thrown if it would have already told them that they are not giving me the kind of information I need and I needed clear information and when Michelangelo just walked out and went to the cafeteria and you that something was a bit offish because he was more energetic than he was he's not a night owl during the day person and I sometimes morning person and depending on what he has going on or what he has to do by the time the clock strikes 10 he
Chapter 228Angelo There are days when you know you've messed up do you need to take accountability for the mess you've made I used to know how to hide the stuff that I did that was messy but now that I'm married I can't do that I realized that it is selfish and it is just plain disrespectful to do things behind someone's back without seeing if there's a way to deal with a problem head on.Addictions don't just appear out of nowhere they are a result of an accumulation of coping mechanisms and once you find a coping mechanism use it as a coping mechanism until you realize that your coping mechanism is either healthy or unhealthy. I always had an addictive personality and at some point they thought that I was using my wife as a drug you can never get rid of the water marks that are left after your former life which you can do is learn from the mistakes that you've made and try to be a better man in my case relapsing is becoming pretty normal because I haven't been in control of my own
Chapter 229 Cleo Part of my job requires me not sure if you're my true identity him and if I have revealed my true identity and have already gotten the people who had decided that it was okay to arrest me and front of my kid, and a whole lot more trouble than they were in for suspecting that I was responsible for my daughter being kept overnight for observation. They took in both Nicolai and Fabio . Luigi made sure that Pio stayed with him. I knew that Daniel was on his way and he was given security clearance by both sides. He was allowed to go freely because he was a doctor and he was a doctor for both families , he had also saved Maria's life before. When Michelangelo decided that it was ok to fall ill and run to the men's bathroom to do whatever you wanted to do to go straighten himself out also wear himself out like clockwork the doctors came in with the security and I was taken in full stop the first thing they did was search me and not only did they search the jacket I was
Chapter 230 Angelo There is something sweet about falling is the free fall and the knowledge of knowing that we're about to fall over into something that's good or fall from grace but falling is the sweetest feeling ever until it's not until you hit the ground and we had to grind you realize the gravity of the situation that you've created by falling from grace when Mike is falling off the wagon again because I promised my wife that I would not subject her to what I submitted her too and yet I'm doing it again. I submitted my other girlfriends to my drinking to my drug use and two pretty much bad behavior but with her I want to change I don't want to be the same day hours after it's so much for so long to tell myself that I don't deserve anything but that happens to me or everything that's happening to me as of my own doing yes some of the stuff that's happened to me as of my own doing and I take full responsibility for it but some of the things that I did or not. I didn't ask to
Chapter 231 Cleo I've always had a tendency to get into self-preservation mode when things go wrong or when I feel attacked I didn't see what happened coming I didn't anticipate what happened to happen because normally I would think out scenarios in my head Notre thinking out scenarios in my head I would think of possible problems that may arise from those scenarios in my head and then from the possible problems that could arise I make contingency plans . Call it obsessive compulsive behavior , but it's what I do when I analyze things .So I would think out the whole problem, come up with possible problems that that problem may cause and then come up with contingency plans for those problems . I've always also been a good read of people so I would know what to expect from a certain person so when what happened happened at the hospital I wasn't send me shark normally I'm a fighter but this time I didn't fight I just complied with whatever the hell they told me to do and that includ
Chapter 232 Angelo I've always been able to pull myself out of the darkness and some kisses I've had my wife help me with fighting my demons and she also fits my demons for me as I don't feel that I'm already of what I have and I guess it's just me being unsatisfied and it has nothing to do about her.Cleopatra has always given me 110 percent and she has never not once given me any reason to doubt her but my past experience with her and makes me not want to trust anyone fully and I think I was right about needing some time to process everything and processing my behavior too. the last thing I wanted to be was a danger to my children and the last thing I want to do was put my children in danger and it wasn't there with my daughter I don't know what happened you have been telling a different story my son didn't want to talk to me my daughter don't want to talk to me before they left I would have woken up and even when I try to call them they don't want to talk to me my mother was with