chapter thirty one

People say they want their lovers or more precisely, their loved ones to never hurt but I wish she does. I wish that the ache I have in my chest bounces of hers and we both feel the same way so she knows it's time to come home. Birds do fly miles but their nest is still their home.

 

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"What are we doing for your bachelor's?", Minjae teased bumping her shoulder against Joon's. He blushed pressing his lips together in a shy smile and chuckled. 

"Kim told me there were some really nice bars around Daegu and he already had his bachelor's back in Seoul so it'll just be you, me, Young-Jae, and Hyun. I hope that won't make Young-Jae uncomfortable," he whispered the last part since the boy was just a few feet away, struggling with his shirt buttons in their room. 

"I don't know,

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