I received a message from Sever the moment my private plane touched the ground. Ilang oras na raw nang umalis si Zalaria na ang paalam ay bibili lang ng kape pero hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa bumabalik. “I already tried tracking her location, pero hindi ko magawa. The tracker could work whether her phone is on or off. But her location won't show up. Isa lang naman ang ibig sabihin niyon, walang signal sa kung nasaan man siya.” I ended our call after knowing what I needed to know. Nakarating na ako't lahat sa condo ko ngunit hindi pa rin siya matawagan. I haven't felt this hopeless before. I have a lot of connections and it was only this time that they all became useless to me. We later found out about the message she received after reporting for her mission. We couldn't read the content since it was a destructive message, but when Sever logged in to the system, he was notified about it as one of the operators. “It was probably your brother. He used your name. I already blocked his
“Kung hindi mo makalimutan kung paano ako humalik, puwede mo namang sabihin.” I didn't expect that. But well, mali ba siya? “Why? Will you kiss me again?” I asked that instantly made her look away. “If I tell you that I am attracted to you, anong gagawin mo?” dagdag ko pa. Nang hindi pa rin siya lumilingon ay ginamit ko na ang hintuturo ko upang iharap ang mukha niya sa akin. “I like how you answered my kisses, Elora. I am fucking addicted.” “I-Isang beses—” “That doesn't really matter.” I leaned closer to her until our faces were just inches away from each other. “Be my personal assistant.” Her eyes looked at mine bravely. Tila hindi manlang tinatablan sa ginagawa ko. “I don't think you need one.” I don't need a personal assistant, but I was sure I need her. “If that means you'll be with me every fucking day, why not?” I raised a brow at her with a teasing smirk plastered on my lips. “Sabi mo gusto mo nang laging may ginagawa. I can assure you that you will not be bo
I let Zalaria talk to our sons and her mother through video call. Bumaba ako mag-isa nang mag-umpisa na ang ceremony. Pagharap ko pa lang sa hindi mabilang na mga camera at maiingay na tao sa labas, alam ko na hindi ko na 'yon uulitin pa. I decided not to continue my plan of attending the grand opening ceremonies. Ang sabi ni Leon ay hindi na talaga kayang maghanap pa ng magiging representatives ko, but when I told him I would triple the pay, my problem was solved. I immediately went back to our room after cutting the ribbon and delivering a short speech. The media wanted to ask me several questions, but I declined. Hindi ko alam kung bakit may kailangan pa silang itanong sa akin kung hindi naman ako relevant dito sa bansang 'to. Isa pa, the hotels would be under Sever's name soon. Isa 'yon sa mga kondisyon niya sa pagpayag niyang maging kanang-kamay ko. The construction of the hotels was already ongoing when he told me his condition was just a fucking joke. Ilang araw siyang tul
The video testimony was playing in front of me. Evidence such as records, photos from a CCTV footage, and stolen pictures were scattered in front of me above the table. “I just received the video testimony last night. Ilang linggo rin ang kinailangan bago siya nagsalita. Malas lang ng nanay mo dahil kailangan ng pera ng dati niyang tauhan na nakalimutan niya yatang ipapatay.” Victoria Lemery Alanis Davion. Hindi siya karapat-dapat para sa apilyedo ng ama ko. The man exposed everything he knows about the assassination of my father and a little bit of information about Vanda. It was my stepmother who planned the assassination, personally. It was her who picked the agents who killed my father— her husband. It was her who leaded the death of my father. Tangina. Hindi ko maisip kung paano niya nasikmurang gawin 'yon sa taong walang ibang ginawa kundi ang mahalin siya. My father never failed to show how she loved her. Halos hindi ko natapos ang video dahil hindi ko kinakaya ang mg
I told her everything she wanted and needed to know. From the history of Derrivy, to my connection with Rye, and about the death of my father. Nagpanggap lang ako na hindi ko alam kung sino ang nagpapatay sa tatay ko at sa kapatid niya dahil hindi ko gustong makilala niya ang babaeng 'yon. I promised to give them justice, at hangga't maaari, ayaw ko siyang gumalaw tungkol doon. Alam kong hindi imposibleng damay na siya at kilala na siya ng babaeng 'yon, kaya hangga't kaya ko siyang ilayo ay 'yon ang gagawin ko. Nilinaw ko na rin sa kaniya kung sino ako sa Sleverions at ang pinagkaiba niyon sa katauhan ko sa Derrivy. Hanggang sa mauwi ang usapan tungkol sa aming dalawa at sa mga anak namin. I answered her questions. I told her the things I thought she needed to know. Mula sa unang desisyon ko para sa mga anak namin hanggang sa huli. I showed her the room filled with my collection of photos of her and our twins. Dinala ko rin siya sa isang kuwarto kung nasaan ang isa pa na koleksyon
“W-Where are you? Ruan, y-yung mga anak natin—” “D-Don't come here, okay? Stay where you are, Zalaria.” Kinasa ni Rye ang kaniyang baril. Hindi siya nagdalawang isip na itutok 'yon sa direksyon ng nanay ni Zalaria. A silenced gun shot followed, causing the woman to collapse after realizing that the bullet hit the wall just inches away beside her. I quickly signaled my men to come and get her, ngunit naging mabilis ang mga tauhan ng lalaki na 'di hamak na mas malapit sa puwesto ng ginang. Dinala nila ang nanay ni Zalaria sa labas ng kuwarto kung nasaan kami. I dropped the call with Zalaria and threw deadly glares at Rye who was already laughing evily while shaking his head. “Make a move and I won't hesitate to kill these two, dear brother,” he warned. Suddenly, silence enveloped the place. The whole room was hushed, yet the silence only fueled the danger around. The fear inside me was ignited. It was the first time I saw my sons in person, but with guns pointed at them. Nakat
“And just like that, we're done!” Zalaria came. For the first time ever, I was in the same room with my sons and her, but all we could do was to stare at each other and talk with our eyes. Hindi ko sila malapitan. Hindi ko sila mahawakan. Hindi ko sila mayakap. Rye made me choose between Zalaria and our twins. I didn't want to choose, handa na akong isuko ang lahat ng meron ako kay Rye huwag lang malayo ang mag-iina ko akin, but Zalaria answered his question for me. “He's choosing his sons over me.” I was released from the ropes ngunit hindi pa rin ako hinayaan ni Rye na makalapit kay Zalaria. I couldn't be careless because my sons were still in danger. It was also the first time I carried Ruin in my arms. Nanginginig pa ang mga braso ko noong mga oras na 'yon habang pinapatahan siya mula sa pag-iyak. It was the weakest point in my life. Hindi ako makapagdesisyon nang maayos sapagkat ang mga anak ko at ang babaeng mahal ko ang nakasalalay. When Zalaria entered the room,
Dalawang araw na ang nakalipas simula nang mangyari 'yon. “Your mother must be furious right now. According to our spy, Vanda have lost half of their income globally in just one week.” It was a good sign. Sooner or later posibleng malaman na ng grupo na ang Sleverions ang dahilan kung bakit unti-unting pumapalya ang kanilang mga transactions, ngunit wala akong pakialam. Handa ang Sleverions sa anumang gagawin nila. It was my goal— to make her aware that I would cause her downfall and she would pay for everything she did. Wala siyang magagawa upang maisalba ang lahat ng bagay na akala niyang mananatili sa buhay niya. Hindi niya ako anak. She was never a mother to me. “Sooner of later, Vanda would lose its assets too.” I couldn't wait for it to happen. Altro and I were talking at the balcony. It was raining outside. Medyo naninibago rin ang mga anak ko sa lugar kaya hindi ako makaalis. Nahihirapan ang mga kinuha kong katulong sa pag-aalaga sa pagpapatahan sa kanila sa tuwing s
Ano ang nagtutulak sa 'yo upang patuloy na mabuhay?Five years ago, I used to call myself a slave of money. Hindi ko itatanggi. Pinasok ko ang trabahong dahilan upang mamulat ako sa madilim na reyalidad ng mundo sa kadahilanang kailangan ko ng pera.I needed money for my mother's medication and to sustain my daily needs to be able to continue living because I had no father to do so for us.“Sister! Zalaria, congratulations on your wedding! I'm sorry I wasn't able to come.” “No worries, Astean. Ang importante, nagpakita ka na sa akin.” At first, I was scared to enter the world of Derrivy. Entering the job means digging your own grave. Makakaya ko ba? It was scary. I could die anytime during a mission. Isang pagkakamali lang at lilisanin ko ang mundong 'to nang walang paalam sa kahit sino. It was like selling my life and soul for a huge amount of money. However, I saw it as my only hope. Hindi sapat ang kinikita ko noon bilang isang trainer at lumala na ang sakit ng nanay ko. So I
“Nasa baba na si Asteon, anak.” It was my mother who informed me. Pinapatulog ko sina Ruin at Aero nang pumasok siya sa kuwarto ko upang ibalita ang pagdating ng kapatid ko. Tulog na si Hera ngunit ang dalawa ay dilat na dilat pa ang mga mata. “Nakausap ko ang kapatid mo. Grabe, parang kailan lang. Ang bilis niyong tumanda.” My mother gave me a gentle smile. “Ako na ang bahala sa dalawa. Bumaba ka na ro'n, anak. Hinihintay ka nila.” Tumango ako at niyakap si Nanay. “Salamat po, 'Nay.” Buti na lang at hindi umalma ang dalawa kaya naging madali ang pag-alis ko sa tabi nila. Pagbaba ko, naabutan ko si Ruan na kausap si Asteon. They looked serious. Dinahan-dahan ko pa ang paglabas ko sa elevator upang hindi nila ako agad mapansin, ngunit agad lumingon sa akin si Ruan. Marahan akong ngumiti sa dalawa habang papalapit. Asteon looked at me with hesitation, worry, and fear in his eyes na ikinanabahala ko. “Ate—” I cut him off with a tight hug. “Bakit kung makatingin ka sa akin para n
We decided to throw a small celebration after Hera turned one month old. Naging daan na rin 'yon upang makauwi ang mga kaibigan ni Ruan na sina Altro, Haiver, Alshiro, Caiusent, at Ervo. Rye was also invited by Ruan, ngunit binalita ng lalaki na hindi siya sigurado kung makakadalo ba siya.Despite that, he didn't fail to greet our daughter. He even sent her a gift. “Hoy! Nasaan ka na? 'Yang cake na lang ang kulang,” reklamo ko kay Sever dahil siya na lang ang wala. Handa na ang lahat ng mga pagkain at puro mga ulam 'yon dahil lunchtime ang party. Gumawa rin ako ng dessert pero siyempre, hindi kumpleto ang celebration kapag walang cake. Nagpa-order ako kay Sever na aabutin pa yata ng isang buwan bago makarating.Si Nanay ay abala sa pag-aayos ng mga handa sa mahabang lamesa na kaka-set up lang din namin. Nandoon na ang lahat at dahil segurista ang nanay ko, siyempre uulit-ulitin niya 'yon tignan. Sina Ruin at Aero naman ay tuwang-tuwa dahil kalaro nila ang limang kaibigan ni Ruan. A
Dumating ang araw ng aming pag-alis pabalik sa Pilipinas. Naimpake na ang lahat ng aming gamit at handa na kaming lumipad. Bumalik na si Ervo sa Espanya dahil kinailangan. Bago 'yon ay ilang beses namin siyang pinasalamatan dahil sa pagpapatuloy niya sa amin dito. Si Haiver at Sever naman ay kasama naming uuwi sa Pilipinas. I was pushing the stroller where Hera was lying down and sleeping. Si Nanay naman ay abala pa rin sa pagche-check kung kumpleto ba ang mga naimpake namin kahit ilang beses na namin 'yon nasigurado na kumpleto 'yon kahapon pa. Kasalukuyan naming hinihintay ang van kung saan kami sasakay patungo sa airport. Helicopter sana upang mas mabilis ngunit naisip namin na hindi kakayanin ng mga bata. Ruin raised his arms to ask his father to carry him. “Where are we going, Daddy?” he wondered. Si Aero naman ay napakapit sa damit ko habang nakatayo sa gilid ko. Ruan gave them a gentle smile. “To our home, my son. We're going to our home.” Hindi ko alam ngunit tila pum
“Tell me what happened, Sever.” “Mula saan?” I shifted on my seat to face him. “Mula noong umalis kami.” “Wala namang masiyadong nangyari.” Umirap ako. “Pati ba naman ikaw, magsisinungaling sa akin?” Kumamot sa ulo si Sever. “Damn. Wala kang sasabihin kay Ruan, ha? Wala kang isusumbong na ako ang nagsabi sa 'yo.” My assumption was right. Sinabihan nga ni Ruan ang lalaki na huwag magsasabi sa akin. Siguro ay gano'n din ang ginawa niya kina Haiver at Ervo kaya ayaw nilang sabihin sa akin ang totoong nangyari. “Ayaw niyang malaman mo hindi dahil sa wala kang karapatan. Ayaw niyang malaman mo kasi ayaw ka niyang mag-alala pa dahil tapos na.” May nangyari talaga na dapat kong malaman. “Ano nga ang nangyari?” I asked impatiently. Nababahala ako dahil baka mamaya ay bumaba na si Ruan dahil pinapatulog lang naman niya yung kambal sa kuwarto. “Noong umalis ka dala ang mga anak niyo, alam mo bang hindi namin siya nakausap nang isang linggo? He became too focused on his plan of
Hera got his father's eyes, but she looks exactly like me. Tuwang-tuwa ang nanay ko habang ipinapakita sa lahat ang litrato ko noong sanggol pa lang ako kung saan kamukhang-kamukha ko si Hera. I have to agree too, our princess was my carbon copy. Labis ang tuwa na naramdaman ko dahil sa wakas, may kamukha na rin ako sa mga anak ko at hindi na ako ampon sa pamilyang ito. Gising si Hera ngunit hindi siya umiiyak. She was just looking at me like she could already see me. Halos manghina ang mga kamay ko habang buhat ko ang maliit niyang katawan. She was so small, fragile, and cute. Hindi rin mapakali sina Ruin at Aero sa kakasilip ng kaniyang mukha kaya naman natutuwa ako. I looked at Ruan who was sitting at my right side. Naluluha ang mga mata niya habang pinagmamasdan kami. I smiled at him. “Carry your daughter, Ruan.” Takot na umiling ang lalaki. “I-I... I don't know how. I might drop her.” Bahagya akong natawa at agad na tinuruan ang lalaki ng tamang posisyon sa pagkarga ng
I opened my eyes weakly, only to close it when the strong light hurt my eyes instantly. I counted a few seconds before slowly opening my eyes again. This time, my vision gradually adjusted with the light until it was no longer hurting my eyes. The white ceiling of the room welcomed my sight. “Anak, kumusta?” I thought I was alone inside the room until my mother rushed toward me to check on me. Agad kong naramdaman ang marahan niyang paghaplos sa buhok ko. “Ayos na po ako, 'Nay.” I slowly adjusted my position on the bed. Mula sa pagkakahiga ay maingat akong sumandal sa headboard ng kama. Dahil sa paggalaw ay naramdaman ko ang labis na sakit sa ibabang bahagi ng katawan ko. I scanned the whole room, hoping to see someone other than my mother but, we were alone inside. It was just the two of us. There was no trace that the man I have been longing to see was here. For a minute I thought that it was just my hallucination. Baka gawa-agawa lang 'yon ng utak ko dahil sa labis na pangungu
“Very good! Give Mommy a kiss!” Sabay na dumapo ang labi ng mga anak ko sa magkabilang pisngi ko. Natunaw naman ang puso ko nang sinunod nilang halikan ang umbok ng tiyan ko. “What's her name again, Mommy?” Ruin asked while drawing circles on my baby bump. Si Aero naman ay isinandal ang pisngi niya sa braso ko gaya ng lagi niyang ginagawa. Ngumiti ako. “We'll call her Hera.” “Just Hera?” Aero mumbled beside me. Umiling ako bago maingat na inayos ang buhok na humaharang sa mukha niya, gano'n din ang kay Ruin. “She will be Hera Tiana Anastasia Danery.” Agad na nalukot ang kanilang mukha sa sinabi ko. “Mommy! That's too long!” “She'll suffer from writing her name like us!” Agad akong tumawa sa aking mga narinig. “It's okay, boys! She'll love it when she grow up. It's long because I want her to have both of your initials.” Mukhang hindi nila matanggap na mahihirapan magsulat ng pangalan ang kapatid nila dahil sa ibinigay kong pangalan niya. They're already this thoughtful. Hi
He'll be here, soon. Haiver and Ervo told me Ruan was doing fine and I believed them. They told me he'll be here soon... pero manganganak na lang ako ay wala pa rin siya. Eight months. It has been eight fucking months. Nakailang sipa na ang anak namin mula sa loob ng tiyan ko ngunit hindi ko pa rin siya nakikita. “Mommy... why are you crying?” My teary eyes met Aero's worried grey eyes. Mas lalo akong naiyak dahil nakita ko bigla ang mukha ng tatay nila sa mga mata niya. Kung paano tumingin sa akin ang mga anak ko... gano'n din ang tatay nila. Grabeng pangungulila na 'to. Hindi ko na kinakaya. “I-I miss your Daddy, baby ko.” “Daddy?” Ruin stopped playing to look up to me. “Me too! I miss Daddy!” Nagulat ako nang biglang tumayo si Aero mula sa pagkakaupo sa sahig upang yakapin ako. Nanlalambing at marahan niyang ipinatong ang maliit na mukha sa ibabaw ng tiyan ko at tumingala sa akin. “That's okay, Mommy. Daddy will be here soon,” he comforted me with his gentle voice.