“Insurgence and all forms of evil in a society doesn't describes her as a failure, but vividly shows a lack of love for one another.”
― Michael Bassey Johnson
Pagkatapos magdismissed ang huling klase ay agad kong inayos ang mga gamit ko. Sinagot ko ang tawag ni Ivory habang naglalakad papalabas ng classroom.
(Hello ate, papahintay ka po ba? Punta lang muna ako sa hideout saglit)
May tumapik sakin, napalingon ako at nakangiting kumaway sa mga classmate ko. Itinuro ko ang phone na nasa tenga ko, na tinanguan naman nila. Nagpatuloy na ko sa paglalakad habang kausap si Ivory.
“Hindi na bunso. Pupunta pa naman ako sa office ni prof Gonzales. Magtext nalang ako pag magpapasundo na ako later.”
(“Sure ka ba ate? Atsaka wala akong tiwala sa Gonzales nayan, magtext kana agad sakin after mo dyan okay?”) napangiti ako sa boses nitong nag-aalala. Ang pinakamamahal naming makulit na bunso. Bad boy man sya sa paningin ng iba pero para sakin, sya ang pinakamalambing. Syempre, mas malambing nga lang si Helly sa kanya.
Nang mamatay ang tawag ay saktong malapit na ko sa office ni prof. Mabuti nalang talaga mayroong elevator sa school na to.
“Prof?” I softly murmured then knock at the door. Lumipas ang ilang minuto ay wala paring sumasagot sa loob or nagbubukas ng pinto, kaya naman dahan-dahan kong pinihit ang door knob para maghintay na lamang sa office nya.
Inilibot ko ang paningin sa paligid at nakitang wala si prof roon. Tahimik na naupo muna ko sa harap ng lamesa nya. Huminga ng malalim at pinikit ang aking mga mata upang saglit na magpahinga.
It’s Friday, 5:30 pm
Mayroon akong dalawang subject sa araw na to, 2 hours na subject for biology at 4 hours sa major subject ng course ko which is taxonomy, kaya naman pakiramdam ko sobrang na drained at napagod talaga ako.
Lumipas ang ang isang oras ay wala pa ding dumadating na Professor Gonzales. I frustratedly brushed my hair. Tamad na umayos ako ng upo at tumingin sa phone para i-check kung may bagong email si sir, pero nang makitang wala. Nagkaroon ng ilang segundo bago tuluyan ko nang napagdesisyunan na tumayo.
This will not do. He said to me that I should be here after my school hours pero it’s already 6:35 and wala paring dumadating ni anino nya. Sa pagkakaalam ko naman wala na syang klase sa gantong oras.
I sigh. I don’t think he will hear me out anyway. We really need to talk with the dean instead. Papaalis na sana ako ng magvibrate ang phone ko. I received an email. I unlock my phone and read his message.
“There is an emergency. We can talk another day, Miss Folk. Thank you for your understanding.”
Tsk…
Marahas na napabuga ako ng hangin nang mabasa ko iyon. Why he didn’t tell it to me sooner? Edi sana hindi na ko naghintay pa sa office nya. Isinuot ko na ang bag ko at nakangusong nagpatuloy a paglabas ng office. I texted my brother and walk outside this building. Papunta ako ngayon sa open field parking lot para doon na lang hintayin si Ivory.
While walking, I notice the black sky. It’s almost 7 and there are no stars above. I couldn’t even see a glimpse of clouds. Probably, it will rain tonight. I hope Ivory is already here before that happens.
I look at my phone when it vibrated. I saw Ivory replied back.
‘Wait ate, naipit ako sa traffic. I’ll be there in 15’
Hindi naman kalayuan ang hideout nila dito, it is actually 10 minutes only if you’re a slow driver but if your fast. You can get here by 5 minutes. But it depends since highway ang dadaan. Gantong oras kasi ay paniguradong madami ng umuuwi kaya kahit mabilis magpatakbo si Ivory, he can’t escape the traffic.
Lumingon-lingon ako sa paligid, naghahanap ng mauupuan. Madilim, tahimik at kaunti nalang ang mga sasakyan na naka-park dito. I look at my watch.
6:58 pm
Napasinghap ako ng may biglang bumasag sa katahimikan, isang sasakyan ang mabilis na dadaan sa harap ko. Napaatras ako at muntik ng matapilok sa takot na masagasaan nito. Ngunit agad itong umandar paatras at mula sa loob ng sasakyan ay may magaspang na kamay na humila sa akin papasok.
“Ahh, sino kayo!?” takot na sigaw ko at sinuntok ang lalaking may hawak sakin. Pero dahil mahina ako kumpara sa kanya ay nagawa nitong suntukin ang aking sikmura at takpan ang aking bibig.
Naluluhang pilit akong lumaban para makawala sa mahigpit nyang hawak ngunit naramdaman ko na lamang ang pagtusok ng isang karayom sa aking balikat. Ngunit bago ako nawalan ng malay, nakilala ko ang amoy na kinamumuhian ko simula palang.
Two people, in one crime
INVESTIGATOR HALI ADRAL
"Yes. I already got the autopsy report"
(How was it?)
"You should see this by yourself prosecutor"
(Okay. I'll stop by your office Investigator Adral)
"Alight"
I hanged up the call and continue my walk in the almost empty hallway of Forensic Department. Konti lamang ang mga taong dumadaan rito dahil gantong oras madalas ang mga medical examiner ay nasa loob ng laboratory or morgue. Karamihan din kasi sa mga istudyante na gabi na ang uwi ay nasa south side kung saan ang sentro ng Nightlight University Hospital. Naroon din ang mga intern, fellow, nurses and medical practitioners na ang schedule ay graveyard shift.
Napatigil ako sa malaking bintana at napatingala sa langit.
The sky looks so dark from here. Even it's heavy clouds are hiding the shinning stars. Tumingin ako sa aking orasan.
It's almost 7 pm and I think, in just a minute or an hour... it will rain. Kaya kailangan ko ng makauwi kaagad.
Hahakbang na sana ako paalis ng marinig ko ang maingay na pagpapatakbo ng sasakyan. Nanlaki ang aking mga mata ng muntik na nitong mahagip ang babaeng nakatayo roon.
"Fuck!" I cursed loudly.
Hindi na nag-aksaya pa ng minuto. Mabilis na tumakbo ako ng makitang umatras ang sasakyan at hablutin ang babae papasok.
"This is Investigator Adra, block all exit. Check every the cars coming towards the gate. Someone is kidnap. I repeat, block the exit. Closed all gates in this University" matigas kong sambit sa pager na hawak ko at nagmamadaling ginamit ang hagdan sa fire exit na malapit sa parking lot.
"Investigator, this is Officer Cayetano. We are stopped by the crowd. One of the patient here in south is creating a commotion."
"Shit" napamura ako ng marinig iyon. Napalingon-lingon ako sa paligid at mabilis na tumakbo pabalik para sumakay sa elevator.
Pagkapasok ko sa loob ng security room, agad akong tumingin sa mga monitor na naroon. Left side, 4th row in 2nd column. Everyone was focused on the south monitor, that they didn't see what's happening on the other location.
How incompetent.
"Open field parking lot, near gate 3 and 4. I need the cctv footage. Now!" napapitlag ang lahat sa agarang utos ko.
Makalipas lamang ang ilang minuto, lumapit sakin ang isang lalaki at agad na pinakita ang video na nakalagay sa tablet niya. I clenched my jaw upon watching the video. Sumingkit ang mga mata ko ng may mahagip ang camera.
"Stop"
I dialled my phone and call someone who can do the job well.
"Track NYZ 1898 plate number. Someone is kidnap, Elisha."
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