They kept staring at me with widened eyes. I knew my aunt was so shocked to hear my refusal of this relationship, knowing fully well that I had made a promise to move on. Well, this wasn't something that was so easy. There was really no way I could forget about the woman I loved, in only two months.
Tanya and I had been friends for five years. Afterwards, we had made a decision to create a relationship between us. Yes, she had always been mean and blatant when speaking hurtful words, but that hadn't made me stop loving her. Literally, before I had caught her with another man, I had decided to propose to her. Little had I known that she had been hanging around with other men.
A river of carbon dioxide eluded my nostrils, and I looked away from them. "This is my decision. I'll be upstairs, if anyone needs me. But…" I turned to them. "Please, no one should try to influence my decision. Instead, respect it."
With that, I made my way to the stairs, heading to my room. As I did so, Peggy began lamenting, but I just couldn't pay attention to that right now. I had to relax first.
***
Okay, yes. I would admit that I was pretty embarrassed to know that I had broken my promise to my aunt. She had been so, so excited that I was finally going to take action in helping myself, but well, I had broken that promise once again. That was pretty shameful. I hadn't even gone downstairs to have dinner.
Grabbing my laptop, I stepped into the balcony. For a while, I needed to relax, so I guessed staring out at the view from the balcony would be a good option. I didn't think twice before walking towards the guardrail. I leaned over it, and sighed out loud, worshipping the beauty of the night clouds.
Tanya. Once again, she was all I could think of. No matter how hard I tried to get her off my mind, it wasn't working. Why had I made myself fall in love with her this much? What had I done to myself?
The door of the balcony sounded, which pulled me off my thoughts. Turning around to take a glimpse at who had stepped in, I exhaled on seeing my maid, Kate. I just looked away, and walked over to my laptop.
"What do you want? I haven't asked you to bring anything for me, have I?" I questioned her. I sat on the blue furry couch by the center of the large balcony, grabbed my laptop from the small table in front of me, turned it on, and cleared my throat before glancing at her.
As always, her hands were behind her, her eyes down. "S-Sir." Of course, she stammered. That was something she always did. "Miss Rhonda needs to see you. She asked me to inform you about it."
Something tickled the pit of my stomach. I was nervous. I had been expecting her to come around, and yes, it was going to happen.
"Let her come in," I ordered, being quite reluctant about it.
"Okay."
She stepped out of the balcony. As soon as she did so, I took a breath. I was never scared of anything, but speaking to my aunt felt crazy and maybe creepy.
Hearing the sound of the door, I stood up, and walked to her before she reached me. My hands linked behind me, my eyebrows raising at her.
"Hi." I tried as much as possible to sound polite.
She swallowed. "And, what is this? A game?"
"Aunt, it's not—"
"Are you not worried about your own life?" A tear escaped her eye. She sniffled, swallowed, and blinked to probably hold back her tears. "Wait, did you agree to it only to break your promise?"
"See, I-I'm not ready yet. I mean, I… don't think I can do it," I explained
She took my hands. "Ivan, you're like a son to me. You're as important as your cousin, Raymond. I love you the same way I love my own children. Ever since you came into my life, I've been so blessed everyday. So, it hurts to see you not moving on in life."
I sighed. "I understand you. Yes, truly, I want to make y'all happy. I know you wish me well. But—"
"But what?" That came out in a whisper. She raised her hands to my jaw, gently cupping them around it. "Sweetheart, what's going on? What's happening to you? I've been extremely worried about you. You keep asking me why I look so tired all the time. The truth is, I do have sleepless nights worrying about you. Your father abandoned you, and gave you to me. My duty is to make you live a good life."
"Aunt…" I gulped. "I still love Tanya very much. I'm sorry, but I can't like anyone else for now. I wanna get rid of her, but it's not working."
"Tanya?" she whispered. She moved her lips for a while, but instead of uttering words, she only kept crying. The way her hands pulled away from my jaw made it seem like she lost control of them. Abruptly, she sobbed, shaking her head gently. She looked angry, scared, and bitter. Yes, I understood those emotions in her eyes.
"Hm." I nodded.
She chortled. "Is this how much you respect me? You want to be with the woman who hit the person you see as a mom? Ivan, she hit me about three times. She knocked my head against the wall. And, for goodness sake, she cheated on you. Are you this blinded by your love for her?"
"Yes, but—"
"No!" Once again, she cut me off. "She's not the right one for you. While you guys were dating, you always had one issue or another. You never agreed with anything. How can you make her your soulmate? Is she even fit for a woman you wanna spend the rest of your life with? Do you want her to get you killed?"
I looked away. "Yes, I get you." My voice was low and shaky as if there were rocks in my vocal cord. "She did all of those. And, that's the reason I decided to separate from her. But, the truth is, I'm incomplete without her."
"Have you even tried looking for a better woman? Have you attempted to love someone else?" She pulled my jaw, so I'd look at her. "Please, Ivan. It hurts my heart to see you this way. Take a first step by meeting up with the lady. She's from a very good home, and I know it. Her parents and I are good friends. We've known each other for twenty five years."
I sighed in confusion. "I'm just… tired of everything. My life never stops being a mess. When things began falling apart for me, I always had hope that before I turned thirty, I'd be fine. But, at the age of thirty one, everything's still so terrible for me. It's unfair."
She whimpered. "I'm so sorry, my boy. Guess I've not tried my best for you. My plan has always been to make you happy. But, it just isn't working. I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry."
A bit emotional, I smiled. I rubbed my thumb finger against her cheek, wiped off her tears, and dropped a kiss on her forehead. "Aunt, don't say that ever again. You're the most supportive person in my life. I appreciate everything you do for me. You never make me miss my parents. You've been everything in my life."
"Honey, please go to her tomorrow evening. You'll like her." She smiled as well, swallowing her tears. "I assure you of that. Please, do."
After a moment of being silent, I sighed in surrender, and nodded in defeat. "Okay. I'll go. I'll move on."
Saying that, her face beamed with that cute smile. "That's my boy." She stepped close, and embraced me tightly.
I shut my eyes as we hugged. I was trying so much to hold back my pain.
Finally, this was happening. I was going to move on. It still felt so unreal.
***
My aunt and Peggy eventually concluded that I had my date at the restaurant. Well, I agreed with that. I rented the entire place for the evening, and had specially asked the restaurant owner to design my table with artificial roses. It was really, really weird that I had spent so much money on something I was apathetic to.
I scrolled through my mail, rolling my eyes anytime I spotted a message from work. I had told them that they shouldn't bother me for the evening, but they never seemed to listen to me. A bit frustrated, I dropped the phone on the table, exhaling as if the pressure of the whole world was borne on me.
Glancing at my wristwatch, the crinkling sound of heels hitting the hard marble floor beneath me, caught my attention. It made me move my eyes in the direction of the door, which was where the sound was coming from. And, when my eyes caught the creature that was walking toward me, I felt something chirp in my heart. Was this the same person in the pictures I had been seeing?
As she walked gently, her hips swayed back and forth like a runway model's. The black pencil gown she wore hugged her body, outlining the moderate curves she possessed. My eyes moved a bit upward, and the heat I felt made me think my heart would crush due to my admiration for her. She flipped her long, brown hair past her shoulder, those cognac brown eyes moving around as if they were seeking something. Between them, her nose stood straight, seeming unnatural and smooth. She blinked slowly, smiled warmly, sat gently by the other side of the table, and cleared her throat.
"Don't stare too much. I'm just a human. Rae Tyrone is my name," she stated.
I blinked like a maniac. After hearing her speak, I realized that my jaw had been dropped all along.
Gosh, this was embarrassing. But woah, was this person a goddess?
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I cleared my throat. That was how I could cover up this embarrassment. Also, I was forced to put on a stern look. She seemed to have some attitude, which wasn't something I appreciated very much. She had only spoken a few words, but the sassy spirit was so, so vivid. Who was she?"Rae." I leaned into my seat, drumming my fingers against the table, ensuring that I sounded so indifferent to this meet up.She cleared her throat as well. And yes, the stern look on her face was the attitude. "You're… Ivan, right?"I chortled, glimpsed sideways, and turned to her. "Tryna pretend like you don't know me? Wow.""Excuse me?" Her left eyebrow cocked at me. "I… don't get you." 
With a deep glare hanging on my eyebrows, I stormed toward them. I was very furious, and maybe confused. That was no good way to treat a person. Especially a woman. "You think you can go away with it?!" He grabbed her jaw again. Attempting to hit her for a second time, I held his wrist, stood in between them, and shot hard scowls at him. "How. Dare. You." My teeth were gritted. I tightened his wrist, breathing hard as we faced each other. He scoffed. "Who the heck are you? Her boyfriend?" I shut my eyes and sighed. "Are you crazy? How can you hit her? Don't you have respect for a lady? This can get you to jail, you know?" "Hey! B
I parked my car in the parking lot of her condominium, hopped out of it, and headed to her. As soon as I stepped out of the elevator, my eyes caught one of our good friends, Greg, but I decided to ignore him. He was a great talker, so starting a conversation with him just wasn't advisable.Finally, I reached her door. Though I knew the pin code of the door, I was really hesitant to insert it. It felt like I was a stranger. Should I just press the doorbell, I thought. No, that wasn't a good choice either. Not hesitating further, I inserted the code, and walked in.As if I hadn't ever been here, I scrolled my eyes around the place. To my surprise, the portrait of her and I was still laid beside the huge television. There was no doubt that she also hadn't gotten rid of me yet.
Drake and Pablo stared at me as if they were scared to lose their lives. I glared so much at them, like they were the reason for my predicament. They were probably thinking they had done something bad to me, but well, I was moody only because I had seen Tanya tonight. I leaned over my car, my hands curled in a fist. "You both are dismissed. Stay in your quarters, and get ready to leave for work by six in the morning." They nodded, putting their eyes down. "Take my car to the garage." I threw my keys at Pablo, and walked past them like an angry Lion. Getting to the huge door, I inserted the pin code, and walked in. Since this was eleven in the night, I didn't think anyone would be awake. I j
This was the one time I wished the floor would swallow me. I was overly confused, wondering how anyone would dare to come in here. I knew Drake and Pablo had become a bit lazy these days, but what about the security section in the building? This seemed stupid."What do you want?" I dared to speak.They were wearing black chino pants, and black jackets. One of them looked Asian, while the other one was a blonde, white man. The Asian guy grabbed a lighter from his pocket, holding it up in the air.He scoffed. "It's either we shoot you, or we burn this place. Don't ask us what we want. You've tried playing with a devil."I rolled my eyes in disgust. "Go straight to the point."
She blinked weirdly, quirking her eyebrows at me. "What? Why glare so much? Have I said anything wrong?" She walked to the other end of the table, staring at the files on it. "I don't like when things are being done slowly. It makes me wonder if you're even interested in having an heir."I still couldn't think of the right thing to do to her. Should I just get her arrested or something? Or, should I ask my men to get her killed? Or, should I kill her myself?"In case—""That's enough." I tried to be as calm as possible. I hurried over to her, grabbed her arm, and turned her to look at me. "I'm not getting married to you. I'm rejecting the proposal. Leave now. Leave."She scorned. "What do you mean? You can't r
Rae turned to me, darting hard scowls at me, as if I had been the one who had thrown insults at her. "Ivan, who's this idiot?" she asked.I knew I could easily ignore her question, but I felt a bit obliged to give her an answer. Frustrated, I ran my palm through my face, turned to Tanya, and sighed out loud."Why are you here? Thought I asked you to not come here ever again," I marked out.She chuckled. That sinister chuckle. "Excuse me?" Her eyebrow corked at me. "Um, don't tell me you're trying to defend her. Dude, she's just your mistress. I'm the main woman here."I shook my head. "You don't own that title anymore. I might not be in love with her, but it's not right for you to disrespect her."
I couldn't lean into the couch I was seated on, cause I couldn't trust it. What if there was a scorpion in it? It was made of an old, soft cotton, looking quite wretched. Rae's mom grinned at me, sitting on the couch opposite me. I knew she was trying to observe whether or not I was comfortable, so I was trying as much as possible to seem fine. "Do you mind drinking tea?" she asked. I shook my head. "No, no. I'm fine. I'm okay." "Oh, okay." She grinned even more. Leaning my elbows on my knees, I intertwined my fingers in each other, scrolling my eyes around the room, literally scrutinizing the place. To me, this place seemed like a container, not a house. Fine, it was neat, the interi
Looking out at the view from the huge window which was almost the size of a door, I blinked multiple times to hold back my tears. The moment a little breeze hit my open chest, I shuddered a little and breathed out loud. Wrapping my arms around myself to create warmth, I turned around and just walked to the huge bed.I felt lonely.Before leaving the mansion with Ivan, I had been hopeful that things would work out well for us, but then, he had to fuck it all up. This was past ten, yet, he hadn't come home.I really wondered why I was waiting for him. I was being hopeful that he'd show up and tell me how much he missed me.Why had he made me feel so joyful tonight, only for him to ruin it all?
Not wanting to experience this frustration any longer, I decided to move back a little. I just stood here like an idiot, hating myself for feeling so jealous."Does it still hurt so much? You need to see the doctor?" He kept massaging her feet.She tugged her hand to his arm, shook her head, pouted, and squeezed her face harder. "Please, don't massage it further. It hurts even more."He glimpsed at me but turned back to her immediately. "This is why you should always be careful. Should I get you some ice?""I don't mean to bother you." Again, she sniffled. "But yes, please do that. I'm in so much pain."He breathed out in frustration. "Gosh, I d
I didn't know how to control my fright. I wouldn't have ever thought I would become this scared of a person. Well, this fear was inevitable.Only yesterday, Raymond and Rhonda had been talking about how much they hated Ivan. Raymond had even said he wished Ivan would just die. But while we were leaving the mansion, Rhonda had acted like the sweetest person in the world. To be honest, I really didn't know much about her. I didn't even know how she got to know me.On a fateful day, last year, she had walked up to me and had introduced herself as Ivan's aunt. She has said I could get what was rightfully mine if we would just work together. And yes, I had agreed to it. After all, I had always been a pained person. I had just seen it as an opportunity to be who I was meant to be. But, now that I was thinking about it, I was sc
I would admit that I was feeling quite weird about this date. Putting it in a more specific way, I was shy. This was totally crazy and confusing, but it was the crazy truth. I was really starting to wonder if my annoyance toward Rae being indifferent to me was me starting to like her in a way. No, not like I really liked her, but being honest, I liked being with her, liked staring at her, and liked hearing her say something. It felt like although she had always been trying to push me away from her, it made me feel the need to know her more.Was all of this due to my loneliness? Or had I decided to truly move on?Taking a deep breath, I turned around to walk into my room. And just taking a step in, I halted in my tracks.Sweet Lord, this woman was beautiful.
As Jason packed his bags, getting ready to leave my place, I stared at the phone Antonio had given to me. To be honest, I wasn't willing to go through everything on Rae's phone. Suddenly, I started to feel like I was going to invade her privacy. I couldn't imagine what it'd be like to have someone go through my private messages and calls. That was absurd."You got a new phone?" I looked up at Jason when he asked me that.I nodded. "Kinda."He let out a throaty laugh, dropping his bag on my table. "Why? You've already got one. You're planning to give it to a woman or something?""Not that.""Then?" He gave me a questioning look. Woah, why was he
It had been a while since Antonio came over to my place. I never liked him around because he was either always flirting with the maids or saying crazy things that never stopped boring me. If I hadn't promised myself to not go to work all through the week, I would have surely not have let him come here.He switched on the new phone he had gotten me, gave it to me, and sucked his teeth. "That's it. It's been linked to hers. Any information you need on her phone, you can find it there.""Including her mails and bank transactions?" I asked.He snorted. "Of course. Anything you can think of.""Alright. Will send you the money." I put the phone on the center table, then set my gaze on him.
This evening was a very awkward one for me. Every now and then, Rhonda and I glimpsed at each other. I was really wondering if Ivan noticed how uncomfortable I was beside her. Well, I hoped he didn't notice it."So, how've you guys been?" she asked Ivan.With mouthful of pancake, he mumbled, "Great, great. My business has been going fine, and uh, my mental health has been cool lately."She beamed with a smile. The smile with a devilish intention. "Aw… sweet. I'm happy about that. And what about your social life? How's your—" she glanced at me. "—relationship with her? I believe I can see some improvements. I see you've been—"With a fake cough, I cut her off. I acted like I choke
Brenda glared as she pulled her arms around her chest. She snapped her neck in the direction of my car window, sulking so much, and tapping her feet against the floor of my car. Whenever she was super upset, this was how she behaved. I let out a sigh, a sigh of surrender. "Alright then. I give up. Bad that you don't wanna come in, but I think I understand you." "You think?!" She snapped, her eyes widened at me. "You're not married to a human! My refusal is valid. Literally, he embarrassed me so much. I just can't imagine going back into that place." I giggled. This wasn't funny at all, but it just made me laugh. "Oh, sorry, sorry." I waved my hands at her to apologize for laughing, trying so much to hold back my laughter. "Okay, girl. I get you. A hundred percent
One bad thing I knew about Dale was his anger. Whenever he got angry, it was so hard to try to make him feel better. He could go angry for a month, and wouldn't even think of giving me a call. And, now that he thought I was going too far in this game, there was no doubt that he would interfere in this, and even ruin all of my hard work. Gulping, I turned to him. His stare became even intenser, no sign of sympathy or remorse hanging in those eyes. "They won't stop attacking you, will they?" He smirked. "Guess it's because they need their boss to ask them to leave. With a snap of my finger, they'll disappear." I swallowed the lump of tears in my throat. He had planned all this? Being careful, not wanting Ivan to know Dale and I knew each other, I looked away.