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The Death Of Me
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2021-10-08 20:06:29Breathe… Lexi breathe… Just think about this.
What do I say to Lucas? Does he know? Or am I being paranoid?
Yet, “Baby doll, I know you from somewhere.”
With absolute terror in my eyes, I try to avoid making contact with those soft hazel eyes which I can so easily give into right now to make all of this go away. Then I softly, with trembling lips, find the words as calmly, “From the club, of course.”
He only but shakes his head at me, “No, I know you from somewhere else.”
The instant his words hit the tip of his tongue, my entire world comes crashing into a black abyss. There is a shaking of the edges of my self-control as I am about to lose every inch of me that is keeping that beast in control. I cannot crash now, not here, not now, not in front of Lucas.
Taking Lucas's hand, I slide it up my thigh….
His hand grips tightly onto my waist. My hand is moving up his leg; his body
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