"Where have you been?" I flinch and rooted on my spot upon hearing that familiar hardening tone of voice.
My eyes slowly widened seeing the familiar silhouette of a man, sitting on the dark corner of my room. I blink my eyes not believing what my eyes making me see.
He's here? What is he doing here?
"I wanna do bad things with you my flower, I been waiting for you" he said in low husky tone just enough for me to heard him.
I didn't able to answer, still surprised.
I narrowed my eyes to see him clearly, and I wasn't mistaken as I saw his lips curved into a malicious smile. I immediately step back, realizing that it was really him.
It's definitely him. I'm not hallucinating.
"Did cat got your tongue honey?" He playfully ask me, hearing the manly tone of his natural foreign accent.
"V-Vicenzo..." I whisper still startled with his presence.
A dangerous smirked form in his lips again as he stand on his seat. I automatically take a step backward for the second time seeing his sudden move.
"Ah... sound so nice hearing my name rolled in your sweet tongue flower, but still I preferred to be called in a holy way baby" He groaned removing his tie .
I gulped and slightly bit my lower lip, I'm now seeing him clearly.
With heavy breath I carefully eyed him as he finally remove his black coat. I just realize that he's wearing a corporate attire. My mind suddenly wonder where he has been? I haven't seen him these past few days.
"Why still standing there? Mind if you help me?" He utter sheepishly making me blink my eyes again.
What?!
He tilted his head "Still scared of me?" He asked making me lift my head with my chin held high.
Automatically, I met his piercing gaze "No! Definitely not!" I quickly replied afraid that he might intimidate me more .
He chuckle lowly still sound so manly in my ears. I licked my lower lip because of that and shook my head as I felt a little shame of myself.
Did I sound so defensive? I hope not.
"Come here, let me feel your skin then" he said lowly after a long silence.
I lift my head and seriousness is visible in his deep charcoal grey eyes that drowns me every time I look at him. And I was lost again.I was lost with his stare.
Realizing something, my voice came out on it's own.
"You... you look worn out" I utter out of nowhere feeling concern while staring at his tired looking face.
"Yes baby, I am. So come closer and let me regain my strength" he replied in controlled voice.
My heart skip a bit, probably because of nervousness. I'm still intimidated with his presence that shouting dominance and power.
With the last ounce of bravery, I dare to step closer to him. I dare to step close to the man who can kill someone in an instant, a man who doesn’t even know the word mercy, a dangerous man who save me.
Walking close to him is just like entering to the lions den. Dangerous, very hazardous, very threatening.
I stop .
Out of nowhere I stop when I was about three steps away from him. Perhaps my consciousness is forbidding me, sending warning that it would be life threatening if I continue this. This connection that I had with him.
But what can I do?
"Closer" he roughly said sound so impatient.
I licked my lower lip trying to maintain my eye contact with him "I- I have something to tell you-."
I didn't able to finished my sentence when he pulled me closer to him and firmly grip my waist to steady my position.
My eyes widened with that sudden move and shocked is evident on my face, but his lips move forming an amusing smile as he lean closer to me giving me slight kisses on my temple.
"Shocked?" He whisper in low raspy voice feeling his breath on my skin.
I blink my eyes three times. That was fast!
Slightly, I move my eyes to glance him and pouted my lips as I grip his firm biceps "You startled me" I whisper.
"Pfft should I say sorry?" He teasingly ask me concealing his chuckle while showering me with his soft kisses on my right cheek.
"Can I demand that?" I retorted and this time he didn't able to hide his laughed.
He laughed lowly pulling me closer to him, closing the little distance between us.
I sighed feeling the comfort that he gives me. This is more scary than what I imagine. Indeed life threatening.
I shouldn't feel comfortable with him yet here I am, feeling safe and secure with his mere touch and kisses. And I'm afraid that sooner or later I will betrayed myself. I will let my guards down because of the comfort I felt with him. This is what I fear, because this feeling is dangerous.
It can kill me...
"Not scared anymore?" He inquire as his lips travel down to my jaw.
I bit my lower lip. He's getting touchy again which doesn’t complement to his rough facade.
"I never get scared" I firmly replied pressing my lips together.
He stop what his doing and level his face to me.
"Uh huh?" He hissed playfully provoking me moving his brows up and down.
I wanted to laughed because it doesn't suit him. He looks so dominant and menacing and yet he's raising his eyebrow like a freaking gay ?
Instead of smiling to hide my giggle, I licked my lower lip and furrowed my eyebrow.
"You don't believe me" I mumble which he slowly shake his head still looking at me seriously .
His stoic serious face is his natural facial expression. Although it might be nothing for him, this mere emotionless face of him is already screaming with roughness, unyielding power, authority and dominance that people will doubt to cross their paths with him.
But despise with that menacing look, this man is unlawfully gorgeous, no wonder women are swooning over his feet .
"I am" he spoke and straighten my creased forehead "Stop creasing your forehead. I believe you of course" he added.
I mentally rolled my eyes. He was just creasing his forehead a while ago and I didn't even make a comment about it.
"I know what your thinking" he mutter under his breath sound so rough and harsh yet in controlled tone .
He's not mad nor annoyed. He looks perfectly fine with that serious face.
"I need to take shower and change my clothes" I told him to change the topic .
But instead of letting me go, he snake his arm around my waist resting his firm hand on the slender part of my back and lean closer on my neck sniffing my scent.
"Hey" I called him trying to pushed him away.
"Later" he groaned and guide me towards our bed.
He sit on the edge and guide me to sit on his lap facing him with my legs wide open while he was in the middle.
"I miss my black swan, my flower, my honey baby" he softly whisper with a little mixture of his hard tone that become his natural level of voice.
I pouted, this is not so him.
"I will sit on the bed, you look worn out and surely you're tired and I'm heavy-"
"Can I kiss you?" He bluntly ask me cutting me off with my sentence while eyeing me with his hooded eyes .
I stilled and blink my eyes. Did he just...
"You're asking" I unbelievably stated.
He intently gaze on my eyes as his adams apple move "I'm trying to be respectful to you flower. I'm really trying" he mutter in hard serious tone, looking at me with sincerity on his eyes.
A smile curved in my lips instantly. I guess I should accept the fact that I'm going to die soon, because the tie that we have together is getting toughed and thicker.
I lean closer to him "What do my Saint Vicenzo want then?" I whisper under my breath making him grin mischievously.
"A dance of a black swan, can you do that for me baby?" He said in low husky tone .
I carefully touch his arm and his body instantly get tensed and went rigid when I start massaging the firm muscle of his chiseled arm feeling the hotness of his skin despite the clothes his wearing before I reach him to kiss the side of his lips.
"We're not going to play honey, just a reminder " he impatiently hissed. "And damn! Don't make me lose my patience flower. I wanted to respect you" he continue gritting his teeth with clenching jaw .
I laughed and shake my head.
Short tempered Saint Vicenzo Santorini. Don't be fool by his name, because he's no a saint neither an angel. He's a typical mafia heir who will do everything to prove that he's Vicenzo Santorini, a man who will conquer everything just to win a battle.
My sweat is all over my face as I sitted on the floor curling my legs for me to remove my pointe shoes. I practice enoughed for this day, I also need to rest for me to gain strength for tomorrow's preparation for the upcoming event of Zeneca Ballet.Sighing, I rested my back on the wall while staring the white face towel hanged on the ballet barre inside this room. I don't have the strength anymore to stand up, that's why I didn't wipe my sweat yet. Maybe later, I just need to breath evenly.I lean the back of my head on the wall for me to feel more comfortable and close my eyes while my right arm is resting on my right knee feeling the silence inside the dance studio. But then, the door open harshly creating an unwanted sound causing my brows to furrowed."Anna!" yelled by the familiar voice of a woman followed by the sound of her heavy footsteps.I don't need to open my eyes to figure out who was it. It was definitely my sister Aliah.
"Svanna" I heard Dad said in warning tone when I just stared the hand of this man in front of me.Everyone are silent as the man in front of me patiently wait for me to accept the handshake. I bit my lower lip and fisted my hand."Svanna Rose, what are you doing?" I heard Dad utter in his serious stern voice.I eyed his hand and then lift my head. His hodded eyes and unlawful beauty is screaming with roughness and unyielding authority, and it was my instinctive reaction to step back again with hesitation. He look so dominant and dangerous and although he was now three feet away from me, I'm scared that he might slit my throat because honestly, he looks like he can kill someone in just a blink of an eye."Svanna, take his hand. You're making a scene" Aliah whisper beside me. I nod my head and took a deep breath forcing myself to take his hand.But my eyes widened when he suddenly hold my hand tightly and pulled me closer to h
"What the hell are you talking about?!" I exclaimed glaring at him with my gritted teeth."I guess you're still not aware of what is happening" he stated in his manly voice sounding so foreign in my ears."What do you mean?" I ask curiously but nervously.He take a step towards me and in every step that he made is so sure and intimidating and all I could do is to step back."Your father. He gave you to me in exchange of the sponsorship" he stated looking at me straight in my eyes.My lips tremble not wanting to believe him. Why would I believe him? I don't even know him personally. I just met him a while ago. He's lying, he's definitely lying."My father will never do that" I retorted shaking my head."You're wrong honey, your father just sold you to me a while ago" he said in controlled voice"NO!" I shout, provoke with his sudden announcement.Daddy will never do that to me. He will never
Im wearing a long black cotton dress just above my ankle and black flat sandals to free my feet from the pointe shoes I'm wearing during the performance.I'm now sitting comfortably on the back seat of the car eating an ice cream to calm myself.I will deal the calories later."I almost got hit by a truck"I said talking to Gordon who's driving the car. He's looking straight to the road not giving me a single glance.I can't imagine what will happen to me if I was really hit by that ten wheeler truck. Probably I would die. Well, I would rather choose to die than to live without my feet and legs. I will keep on dancing until my last breath. The only thing that could stop me from dancing is death."I saw what happen Young Lady, I'm sorry I wasn't there with you" he apologetically replied. He should be.I nod my head and let the ice cream melt inside my mouth savoring it's flavor. The celebration is still ongoing but I do
Pieces of broken glasses are scattered on the floor. Daddy is standing near the corner table while Mommy Adeline is in the middle of the living room holding a sharp long piece of broken glass.I was dragged back to my reverie when a blood drops on the floor continously."Dad!" I shout in panicked and immediately run towards them."Stop right there Svanna" Dad stop me in strict voice while looking at Mommy Adeline."Mommy Adie..." I whisper under my breath feeling terrified seeing the blood on the floor.Mommy Adeline is obviously wounded, seeing her how she grip the sharp broken glass is enough for me to conclude.What is happening? Are they fighting ?"Do not take a step Svanna, you might harm your feet. The floor is not safe for you and to Aliah" Dad said seriouslyI look at Mommy Adeline, she's not saying anything and it's confusing me more."What's really happening Dad? What did you do to Mommy Adie?" I a
It was a very unusual morning . For the past years living together with my haft sister and Step-mother, this is the first time I'm going to eat breakfast with them that's why it feel so strange. This morning is exceptional."Thank you" I whisper when Yaya Adelphi put down a glass of warm water for me.She just smile and tap my shoulder and then she go back to the kitchen."Do you know what happen last night? Did Mommy Adie and Daddy had an argument after the party?" I can't help but to ask Aliah who's sitting across to meShe lift her head and crossed her arm raising her eyebrow to me. I wanted to rolled my eyes because of her unpleasant attitude, but then I wanted to show some respect in front of the food. I don't want to start an arguments too."You don't have to answer me" I said plainly and put some strawberry jam on my slice bread.I heard her snorted as she continue eating her cereals. I'm eating too much carbs lately
"Dad answer me!" I scream loudly while my tears are streaming down to my face."Don't raised your voice young woman! I'm still your father" he authoritatively stated and all I could do is to shake my head.Did he really betrayed me? Did he really gave me to Santorini for the sake of the sponsorship that he wanted? How could he do that to me?"I have nothing to explain Svanna, wipe your tears and go back to your room" he remark and turn his back on me.A sob escape in my mouth before I left his office, I even saw Aliah on the doorway but I just ignore her and run back to my room.I lock my door and slammed myself on the bed hugging the pillow to find comfort. But then no matter how I tried to hug the pillow I used to be my shoulder to lean on, the heavy feeling on my chest just become difficult to handle. How could my father do that? He doesn't even explain his self. He should at least explain everything to me.I
"What are you doing here?" I hissed in panicked and walk closer to him. I roamed my eyes around afraid that someone might caught me."I didn't know you can climb that high" he utter in low baritone voice.It was my instinctive reaction to step back. He's really intimidating everytime he utter a words. He sound so authoritative although he's just being casual to me, I guess?"Just pretend you didn't saw me" I told him and fix my shirt and cap.I start walking when he intentionally block my way. Forehead creased I raised my head and was about to exclaimed but for the first time I lost my words seeing him standing in front of me.His two block messy hair makes him more gorgeous. With his well shaped manly eyebrows, dark grey piercing eyes that are intense when he look at me, straight and pointed nose, sexy moistened lips that he just licked a while ago, well sculpted jaw line that clenched when he's annoyed is enoughed fo
Svanna Rose Zeneca-SantoriniWhen Vicenzo said that 'this is now over' he was wrong. That is just the end of our first journey together and the beginning of another battle that we must conquer together. During that last fight with Flacara Mafia, everything changes. Gordon died... Mom killed him intentionally. I couldn't accept it. But I need to be strong because he told me that he wanted to see me rising from the spotlight.I thought being the prima ballerina is the peak of my dreams. But then I realize that I just wanted to have Vicenzo stay with me the rest of our life. I don't need to be the prima ballerina of Zeneca Ballet or to be the white swan of Swan Lake play. Because I am already the prima ballerina to my own story and I just have to recognize that the main character doesn't just always play at the center. She could be a black swan like me.And this is my last dance, my last dance as the black swan. Because
When you thought everything is okay, reality will suddenly slapped you real hard- that no matter how good everything was, bad things is still right behind the corner waiting for the right time to strike again and mess your life again.It's always like that. You're a happy and then you're sad later. If you're sad now, you're happy later. It is a continuous cycle, a very redundant scenario. It was like a story that has a same plot but with different lines. It so fuck up!Before I end up in this kind of mess, in this kind of danger- everything is just good compare now. I have a peaceful and quite life away from trouble. I know it's boring because I spent all my life in dancing isolating myself from the people around me.I don't have a good relationship to my father, we don't usually talk, we don't even eat a meal together. I am not that welcome to the eyes of Mommy Adie even to Aliah, my haft sister. I was the black swan of the Zeneca family. I exist but only as th
"Where did you go?"I lift my head and I saw Vicenzo looking at me seriously. His rugged face is screaming with annoyance. He doesn't look pleased and I know the reason why.But instead of being scared with his unwelcoming greeting, I walk fast towards him and hug him tightly. I felt him stilled and his body went rigid with our sudden contact. But later after I felt his arm wrap around my waist and possessively pulled me even more to him.He's sitting on the single couch while I'm sitting on the top of his lap facing him with my legs wide open. Our position is quite awkward but I don't really care, I feel bad because of what happen."Tell me what happen?" He whisper while caressing my back.I sniff and buried my face on his neck "I miss Mom..." I whisper.He sigh "That's why you sneak out?" He utter in a controlled tone of voice.I pulled away and face him. His brows furrowed when he saw the dry tears in my face but later on his face
"No..." I shake my head and close my eyes "No...this is not true. I am just hallucinating. This is not true" I mumble to myself and pulled my hair.There's no way my Mom is alive after all these years. I always visit her grave, I always visit her whenever I miss her. Whenever I felt like everything seems against me. Whenever I felt alone..."You are not hallucinating Chèrie," Gianni said behind me "Tita Vanda is alive. She's alive Svanna Rose. The reason why Tito Roman doesn't want you to visit her grave is because she was never been buried-""No!" I scream, shaking my head "Mom is dead! She's not my Mom!" I exclaimed crying while looking at the woman in front of me who look exactly like me."Tito Romano never visit her grave, it's because he know that Tita Vanda never die in the first place-""Stop it Gianni!" I cut him off, breathing heavily while my eyes is clouded with tears.I shook my head and step back. My heart is beating fast
Let's meet...I close my eyes and took a deep breath. Wearing a black longsleeve top and black gap fit leggings I sneak out to the backyard of the mansion. It took me almost ten minutes before I successfully climb the tall wall that surrounded the mansion. I actually make sure that Vicenzo men is done checking the area before I sneak out.I honestly don't know why do I need to sneak out. But then my instinct is telling me that Vicenzo will not let me if I ask him to meet Gianni knowing that Calcifer and Greco has a suspicion to my cousin.I'm stubborn, I know that. But I really need to do this. I don't understand what does he mean by his message. Mom is alive? And he doesn't want Vicenzo to be my husband? That's absurd! That's crazy.I sigh and fix my black cap before I run away, making sure that nobody notice my disappearance. I immediately call a cab and give the address to the driver who keep on glancing at me because of my weirdness. Oh yeah,
I am crying non-stop, I don't know what to do. Dra. Mhalia is trying to reach me out and talk to me but I couldn't open my mouth to speak back. The image of Piato being shot in his shot as he slowly fell on the floor keep on rolling back inside my head. It keep on replaying like a broken movie tape. It won't stop bugging me. I am guilty, scared, and anxious."Mrs. Santorini..." Dra. Mhalia whisper, wanting to get my attention.With weary eyes, I turn my gaze at her. She's sitting on the chair beside my bed wearing the same white lab gown. I sniff when she smile at me, as if she's telling me that everything is alright without uttering a word."W-Where's Vicenzo?" I stuttered.I'm the first one who break the sound of my soft cries. I brush off those dry tears in my face. Worries is very visible in my eyes and I couldn't hide it. How will I do that if I am eating my guilt. I am asking them what happen to Piato but none of them gave me an assuring answer. The
"I don't understand him..." I whisper when I get back inside the car.I felt Piato look at me through the rearview mirror but I just remain my gaze out of the window staring at Gianni who's still standing in front of my mother's tombstone facing us.I suddenly recall what Calcifer told me. He said Gianni didn't attend the last board meeting after his business trip in Russia. I don't exactly know what kind of business he went there, but Cal said that there is something odd with my cousin and he will figure it out and inform me.I took a deep breath and my phone suddenly rang. Without a second thought, I pull it out from my clutch bag. Vicenzo's name flashes on the screen so I immediately press the answer button, afraid that I might worry him."Where are you?" He asks in a low controlled tone of voice without greeting me.I bit my lower lip and hesitantly look at Piato who also looks nervous because of the sudden call."I'm on my way home now"
After spending a week on our honeymoon, everything turns back to normal. Daddy Victor and some of Vicenzo's cousins return to Italy. While Vicenzo on the other hand is now busy managing his company. He has loads of paper works to do, and I heard Greco is already complaining about those business proposals that have not been reviewed yet.But despite his busy schedule, he always makes time for me. He wakes up early than usual to prepare our breakfast- yes! He's like a house husband, he's the one who makes our breakfast. He even memorizes my diet plan. For the past few days, I really feel how Vicenzo exerts too much effort to become the husband that he promised to me.He's very patient with my schedule, Calcifer always makes fun of him calling him 'Mr. understanding husband' because of his sudden changes. Although he came home late, he was still able to wake up early the next day. He's not that grumpy as before, he is always gentle and calm now. But one thing that will ne
I softly moan when I felt the sunbeam kissed my face. I turn around facing my back to the window hiding my face on the pillow I'm hugging. I am still sleepy, and my body still can feel what happen last night.I felt my face flushed although I'm haft asleep. Remembering the intimate night with my husband makes me blush. It seems like my face heated on its own so I cover my face even more.But then I felt a strong arm rested on my waist and then the bed move. The smell of bath soap invades my nostrils when I felt something soft touch the side of my forehead. My nose should be irritated with the sudden scent but then, it smells so nice being whiffed by a scent of cool mint. My soreness seems like disappear, everything feels so good and warm now, when the arm pulled me, caging me into a tight embrace."Wake up now, sleepyhead" I heard Vicenzo whisper in my left ear using his hoarse voice.I moan softly again with that simple sweet gesture from him. He always