Im wearing a long black cotton dress just above my ankle and black flat sandals to free my feet from the pointe shoes I'm wearing during the performance.
I'm now sitting comfortably on the back seat of the car eating an ice cream to calm myself.
I will deal the calories later.
"I almost got hit by a truck"I said talking to Gordon who's driving the car. He's looking straight to the road not giving me a single glance.
I can't imagine what will happen to me if I was really hit by that ten wheeler truck. Probably I would die. Well, I would rather choose to die than to live without my feet and legs. I will keep on dancing until my last breath. The only thing that could stop me from dancing is death.
"I saw what happen Young Lady, I'm sorry I wasn't there with you" he apologetically replied. He should be.
I nod my head and let the ice cream melt inside my mouth savoring it's flavor. The celebration is still ongoing but I don't want to stay to celebrate. I wanted to go home and talk to my father.
"Someone save me though, so it's okay. I am thankfully not hurt because of him" I stated while looking outside the car window
We really talk like this. We don't usually talk while facing each other. I notice that Gordon is kinda strict with his rules and he really doesn't want to step the line between me he's so called 'young lady' and him my so called 'bodyguard'. I am not that sensitive, actually he can treat me casually because he's really like a father to me.
I remember, when I was five years old and my mother already enrolled me to ballet school abroad. During my rehearsal Mom was not there because she's the Prima Ballerina in the Zeneca Ballet, and Gordon is the only person who was there together with my Yaya Adelphi.
"Mr. Santorini" He mutter surprisingly. I turn my head to look at him and he's still seriously looking at the road.
I blink my eyes and nod my head pulling my legs up on the chair "Yes, that mysterious man" I whisper and gaze back outside the car window.
"You need to stay away from him Young Lady" he said and I raised my hand giving him a thumbs up.
"Definitely right. Don't worry, I am scared with him too" I agreed resting my chin on my knees still eating the ice cream "But he said something to me a while ago " I murmured
Sighing I lost in my own thoughts while looking outside the car window hugging my legs. I hope he's really lying.
"Your father, do you think you can stop him?" Gordon ask curiously which is really surprising.
He rarely ask questions regarding our family issues.
With my narrowed eyes I glance back to him "Stop him to?" I inquire
He look at me in the rear view mirror and he turn his haze back to the road.
"The sponsorship he wanted from Santorini" he stated in the matter of fact tone.
Silence envelope us when I can't find a words to say, because honestly although I am his daughter I can't disapprove nor disagree with him. I bit my lower lip and fisted my head as I remember what Vicenezo Santorini said.
'He gave you to me in exchange of the sponsorship'
'-your father just sold you to me a while ago'
'You are my promise bride flower'
I frustratingly shake my head. No! Dad won't do that to me. That Santorini is just messing around, he just wanted to fool me and make fun of me. Dad maybe so desperate to have their sponsorship but I'm sure that he won't do something like what Santorini said.
"I believe Daddy. I have a faith on him..." I voice out and smile while looking outside the window
It was a long ride before I saw the familiar steel gate of our house. I unbuckle my seatbelt and immediately open the car door as it stop. I glance around for a while to find Yaya Adelphi but then I guess she's not here, probably Aliah tagged her along to make her a chaperone tsk.
I walk upstairs and go straight to my room, instantly I remove my clothes and lay down on my bed. I shut my eyes feeling lethargic all of a sudden, too much happening for this day. I reach the pillow beside me and buried my face on it letting myself drifted into sleep.
HOURS LATER...
I open my eyes when I heard a loud thud sound followed by a sound of broken glass.
What was that?
I search the black wall clock in my room to check the time, frowning I slowly get up on my bed slightly shiver when the wind blows. The two sliding door in the balcony is open, causing the curtains to sway following the direction of the wind. Realization hits me, I'm just wearing my undergarments.
I mentally slap my forehead and get up walking towards the closet to find something comfortable to wear.
It's already 9: 08 in the evening so I decided to just wear a floral silk night dress. I didn't notice the time, I slept for about 8 hours that's why my back is giving me a discomfort feeling.
I grab my night robe and decided to close the open sliding door because the night breeze is too cold for me, but before I could do that I heard another sound of broken glass. My forehead creased as I walk fast towards the door. I immediately grab the doorknob and open it but the hallway is silent. No walking footsteps nor creepy sound of the wind.
"Am I hallucinating? " I whisper to myself and was about to close my door when a loud slammed on the floor echo that startled me.
Feeling alarmed and at the same time afraid I walk fast downstairs, but to my surprise I saw my father and Mommy Adeline in the living room making my forehead creased.
I take a step closer but stop mid air and my eyes widened as I saw a blood on the floor.
Pieces of broken glasses are scattered on the floor. Daddy is standing near the corner table while Mommy Adeline is in the middle of the living room holding a sharp long piece of broken glass.I was dragged back to my reverie when a blood drops on the floor continously."Dad!" I shout in panicked and immediately run towards them."Stop right there Svanna" Dad stop me in strict voice while looking at Mommy Adeline."Mommy Adie..." I whisper under my breath feeling terrified seeing the blood on the floor.Mommy Adeline is obviously wounded, seeing her how she grip the sharp broken glass is enough for me to conclude.What is happening? Are they fighting ?"Do not take a step Svanna, you might harm your feet. The floor is not safe for you and to Aliah" Dad said seriouslyI look at Mommy Adeline, she's not saying anything and it's confusing me more."What's really happening Dad? What did you do to Mommy Adie?" I a
It was a very unusual morning . For the past years living together with my haft sister and Step-mother, this is the first time I'm going to eat breakfast with them that's why it feel so strange. This morning is exceptional."Thank you" I whisper when Yaya Adelphi put down a glass of warm water for me.She just smile and tap my shoulder and then she go back to the kitchen."Do you know what happen last night? Did Mommy Adie and Daddy had an argument after the party?" I can't help but to ask Aliah who's sitting across to meShe lift her head and crossed her arm raising her eyebrow to me. I wanted to rolled my eyes because of her unpleasant attitude, but then I wanted to show some respect in front of the food. I don't want to start an arguments too."You don't have to answer me" I said plainly and put some strawberry jam on my slice bread.I heard her snorted as she continue eating her cereals. I'm eating too much carbs lately
"Dad answer me!" I scream loudly while my tears are streaming down to my face."Don't raised your voice young woman! I'm still your father" he authoritatively stated and all I could do is to shake my head.Did he really betrayed me? Did he really gave me to Santorini for the sake of the sponsorship that he wanted? How could he do that to me?"I have nothing to explain Svanna, wipe your tears and go back to your room" he remark and turn his back on me.A sob escape in my mouth before I left his office, I even saw Aliah on the doorway but I just ignore her and run back to my room.I lock my door and slammed myself on the bed hugging the pillow to find comfort. But then no matter how I tried to hug the pillow I used to be my shoulder to lean on, the heavy feeling on my chest just become difficult to handle. How could my father do that? He doesn't even explain his self. He should at least explain everything to me.I
"What are you doing here?" I hissed in panicked and walk closer to him. I roamed my eyes around afraid that someone might caught me."I didn't know you can climb that high" he utter in low baritone voice.It was my instinctive reaction to step back. He's really intimidating everytime he utter a words. He sound so authoritative although he's just being casual to me, I guess?"Just pretend you didn't saw me" I told him and fix my shirt and cap.I start walking when he intentionally block my way. Forehead creased I raised my head and was about to exclaimed but for the first time I lost my words seeing him standing in front of me.His two block messy hair makes him more gorgeous. With his well shaped manly eyebrows, dark grey piercing eyes that are intense when he look at me, straight and pointed nose, sexy moistened lips that he just licked a while ago, well sculpted jaw line that clenched when he's annoyed is enoughed fo
We walk silently and every time the wind blows Vicenzo hand instantly rubbed my back slowly and I can't help but to frown because of discomfort.We walk for more seconds and stop when I saw the small ballerina statue that was place in front of the grave of my mother.Automatically my lips curved into a smile and walk closer."It's been a long time Mom" I greeted with a smile and sitted on the ground "I'm sorry, I didn't planned my visit that's why I don't have flowers with me" I smilingly mutterMy hand trace her name that was carved on the stone. Dad doesn't want me to visit her, I don't know her reason but he's not allowing me to visit Mom even on her death anniversary."I'm a prima ballerina now. Dad permitted me to dance in the famouse Zeneca Theater, and it feel so great. I was like floating" I said chuckling pulling the grass on the ground.The night breeze is giving me comfort although I'm shivering a little.&n
"First posistion, Second position, Third posistion, Fourth posistion, Fifth posistion... one, one two four. one, one two five. one, one two lift" I spin using my one foot extending the other one. I do it continuously until I reach the barre.I inhale and exhale and hold the barre tightly, bending my body extending my legs on my back trying to reach my toe with my hand before I turn around lifting my body with my haft bend feet after a successful move. And then I collapsed on the floor breathing heavily because of exerting too much energy.I groaned because of the muscle ache on my legs. I've been practicing since this morning. I gained weight a littl maybe because I ate a lot lately so I need to burn some fats, also my mind is in chaos right now. I still can remember the last time I saw Vicenzo, it's been two days now. My father is not talking to me, he is mad obviously but then I don't understand.Why would he get mad at me? It should be the other way around be
"Vicenzo came here before he left the country. Is that true?" Dad confront me in strict voice giving me a suspicious stare.I studied his face and he really aged a lot. The wrinkles on his face is enoughed for me to conclude that he is really getting older. The sign of aging is so visible on his face yet it can't conceal his strict looking face.He's still the father that I used to adore. But then, I don't know if I still adore him after what he did to me."Svanna, are you really going to continue this stubbornness? Don't you know what Santorini could give to our family? Zeneca will be prosperous once you become his wife" he said in frustration when I didn't open my mouth to answer him.I shook my head feeling the disappointment towards my father. Am I really nothing to him?"Your sister Aliah. If you just know how she beg to me, for her to marry Vicenzo, because she knows what kind of honor she could give to this family if she was just you" he fru
"What if I am force to trust him?" I whisper when the car stop in front of the coffee shop."Then you must find a way to protect yourself Young Lady, because everyone are watching you now" he utter making me fall into silent.I heard him unfasten his seatbelt but I remain not moving. I just realize that, if things get out of control I'll end up trusting Vicenzo neither I like it or not because that's the least thing I could do for myself. That's the only way for me to protect myself.We are not in control of everything. And no matter how I tried to resist the fate that they wanted me to have, if that was really meant to be, then I'll end up losing because that was bound to happen."I wanted to understand the reason behind the action. I wanted to validate Dad's reason because he is my father. As much as possible I wanted to seek an answer even if it was just a lie, for me to believe him" I mumble under my breath " If they were struggling because I keep on
Svanna Rose Zeneca-SantoriniWhen Vicenzo said that 'this is now over' he was wrong. That is just the end of our first journey together and the beginning of another battle that we must conquer together. During that last fight with Flacara Mafia, everything changes. Gordon died... Mom killed him intentionally. I couldn't accept it. But I need to be strong because he told me that he wanted to see me rising from the spotlight.I thought being the prima ballerina is the peak of my dreams. But then I realize that I just wanted to have Vicenzo stay with me the rest of our life. I don't need to be the prima ballerina of Zeneca Ballet or to be the white swan of Swan Lake play. Because I am already the prima ballerina to my own story and I just have to recognize that the main character doesn't just always play at the center. She could be a black swan like me.And this is my last dance, my last dance as the black swan. Because
When you thought everything is okay, reality will suddenly slapped you real hard- that no matter how good everything was, bad things is still right behind the corner waiting for the right time to strike again and mess your life again.It's always like that. You're a happy and then you're sad later. If you're sad now, you're happy later. It is a continuous cycle, a very redundant scenario. It was like a story that has a same plot but with different lines. It so fuck up!Before I end up in this kind of mess, in this kind of danger- everything is just good compare now. I have a peaceful and quite life away from trouble. I know it's boring because I spent all my life in dancing isolating myself from the people around me.I don't have a good relationship to my father, we don't usually talk, we don't even eat a meal together. I am not that welcome to the eyes of Mommy Adie even to Aliah, my haft sister. I was the black swan of the Zeneca family. I exist but only as th
"Where did you go?"I lift my head and I saw Vicenzo looking at me seriously. His rugged face is screaming with annoyance. He doesn't look pleased and I know the reason why.But instead of being scared with his unwelcoming greeting, I walk fast towards him and hug him tightly. I felt him stilled and his body went rigid with our sudden contact. But later after I felt his arm wrap around my waist and possessively pulled me even more to him.He's sitting on the single couch while I'm sitting on the top of his lap facing him with my legs wide open. Our position is quite awkward but I don't really care, I feel bad because of what happen."Tell me what happen?" He whisper while caressing my back.I sniff and buried my face on his neck "I miss Mom..." I whisper.He sigh "That's why you sneak out?" He utter in a controlled tone of voice.I pulled away and face him. His brows furrowed when he saw the dry tears in my face but later on his face
"No..." I shake my head and close my eyes "No...this is not true. I am just hallucinating. This is not true" I mumble to myself and pulled my hair.There's no way my Mom is alive after all these years. I always visit her grave, I always visit her whenever I miss her. Whenever I felt like everything seems against me. Whenever I felt alone..."You are not hallucinating Chèrie," Gianni said behind me "Tita Vanda is alive. She's alive Svanna Rose. The reason why Tito Roman doesn't want you to visit her grave is because she was never been buried-""No!" I scream, shaking my head "Mom is dead! She's not my Mom!" I exclaimed crying while looking at the woman in front of me who look exactly like me."Tito Romano never visit her grave, it's because he know that Tita Vanda never die in the first place-""Stop it Gianni!" I cut him off, breathing heavily while my eyes is clouded with tears.I shook my head and step back. My heart is beating fast
Let's meet...I close my eyes and took a deep breath. Wearing a black longsleeve top and black gap fit leggings I sneak out to the backyard of the mansion. It took me almost ten minutes before I successfully climb the tall wall that surrounded the mansion. I actually make sure that Vicenzo men is done checking the area before I sneak out.I honestly don't know why do I need to sneak out. But then my instinct is telling me that Vicenzo will not let me if I ask him to meet Gianni knowing that Calcifer and Greco has a suspicion to my cousin.I'm stubborn, I know that. But I really need to do this. I don't understand what does he mean by his message. Mom is alive? And he doesn't want Vicenzo to be my husband? That's absurd! That's crazy.I sigh and fix my black cap before I run away, making sure that nobody notice my disappearance. I immediately call a cab and give the address to the driver who keep on glancing at me because of my weirdness. Oh yeah,
I am crying non-stop, I don't know what to do. Dra. Mhalia is trying to reach me out and talk to me but I couldn't open my mouth to speak back. The image of Piato being shot in his shot as he slowly fell on the floor keep on rolling back inside my head. It keep on replaying like a broken movie tape. It won't stop bugging me. I am guilty, scared, and anxious."Mrs. Santorini..." Dra. Mhalia whisper, wanting to get my attention.With weary eyes, I turn my gaze at her. She's sitting on the chair beside my bed wearing the same white lab gown. I sniff when she smile at me, as if she's telling me that everything is alright without uttering a word."W-Where's Vicenzo?" I stuttered.I'm the first one who break the sound of my soft cries. I brush off those dry tears in my face. Worries is very visible in my eyes and I couldn't hide it. How will I do that if I am eating my guilt. I am asking them what happen to Piato but none of them gave me an assuring answer. The
"I don't understand him..." I whisper when I get back inside the car.I felt Piato look at me through the rearview mirror but I just remain my gaze out of the window staring at Gianni who's still standing in front of my mother's tombstone facing us.I suddenly recall what Calcifer told me. He said Gianni didn't attend the last board meeting after his business trip in Russia. I don't exactly know what kind of business he went there, but Cal said that there is something odd with my cousin and he will figure it out and inform me.I took a deep breath and my phone suddenly rang. Without a second thought, I pull it out from my clutch bag. Vicenzo's name flashes on the screen so I immediately press the answer button, afraid that I might worry him."Where are you?" He asks in a low controlled tone of voice without greeting me.I bit my lower lip and hesitantly look at Piato who also looks nervous because of the sudden call."I'm on my way home now"
After spending a week on our honeymoon, everything turns back to normal. Daddy Victor and some of Vicenzo's cousins return to Italy. While Vicenzo on the other hand is now busy managing his company. He has loads of paper works to do, and I heard Greco is already complaining about those business proposals that have not been reviewed yet.But despite his busy schedule, he always makes time for me. He wakes up early than usual to prepare our breakfast- yes! He's like a house husband, he's the one who makes our breakfast. He even memorizes my diet plan. For the past few days, I really feel how Vicenzo exerts too much effort to become the husband that he promised to me.He's very patient with my schedule, Calcifer always makes fun of him calling him 'Mr. understanding husband' because of his sudden changes. Although he came home late, he was still able to wake up early the next day. He's not that grumpy as before, he is always gentle and calm now. But one thing that will ne
I softly moan when I felt the sunbeam kissed my face. I turn around facing my back to the window hiding my face on the pillow I'm hugging. I am still sleepy, and my body still can feel what happen last night.I felt my face flushed although I'm haft asleep. Remembering the intimate night with my husband makes me blush. It seems like my face heated on its own so I cover my face even more.But then I felt a strong arm rested on my waist and then the bed move. The smell of bath soap invades my nostrils when I felt something soft touch the side of my forehead. My nose should be irritated with the sudden scent but then, it smells so nice being whiffed by a scent of cool mint. My soreness seems like disappear, everything feels so good and warm now, when the arm pulled me, caging me into a tight embrace."Wake up now, sleepyhead" I heard Vicenzo whisper in my left ear using his hoarse voice.I moan softly again with that simple sweet gesture from him. He always