~Ren~
Waking up to another continuous buzzing of my phone was not fun at all. Slightly, I was regretting launching ‘vulnerable’.
Sighing, I smiled at the feel of small hands touching my face. They were soft, like fluffy cotton candies, and they smell like one too.
“Mama…” an angelic voice whispered to my ears, prying my eyes open with the small soft fingers. “Mama... up! Up!”
“Griff-griff,” stretching my arms to wrap around the small ball of energy at five in the morning, I pulled my son for a hug.
The small man groaned. He didn’t like to be called a baby anymore. “Griffin.” he gruffly murmured, trying to sound mad.
~Ren~I was fuming, I’m a bomb waiting to explode. It was given that I’ll see that man soon enough, but not this early. He caught me off guard and our little interaction in the cafeteria went viral in just a few hours.This can’t be happening. I even had Dad’s tech guys deleting every video, but too many copies were made online already.Before I went home to the mansion in Malibu, I went to a gym to cool down.Letting my frustration out before I go home.Griffin can’t see me like this. He didn’t deserve to see my broken side. Being the smart kid that he is, he can sense when I’m tired or when I’m thinking about unhappy thoughts.&ldq
~Ren~What the hell are we doing here? Suddenly, I was connecting the dots. His threat, this trip to Athens, the hotel, that dreadful dinner.Gripping Natalie’s forearm, I pulled her away from the entire crew and ambushed interviewed her. “The sponsor, it’s Devin, isn’t it?”Natalie rolled her eyes, “yeah…” She grimaced, “did you lose part of that meeting in that head of yours? Everything was well laid out on you Ren and you agreed to everything!” The annoyance she feels was as clear as the day and it was directed towards me.I should be the one mad at her, not the other way around. But then again, I was there in that meeting, which technically made this all my fault.
~Devin~My feet were glued, not taking my eye off from watching Ren’s retreating figure disappear through the long stretch of white sand beach.Her words didn’t affect me - a little maybe - what pains me was the emotions clouding her jade green eyes. It was dark and deep, like a haunting fear that never allows its prey to take a wink of sleep. The kind of pain that only a person who’s been to hell and back will be able to tame, to hold and contain in the cell of her heart.My love.I can feel her pain radiating through her whole being. I wanted to take it away. Allow me to take it back.I followed her footsteps, not caring if she’d hate me more by my actions. It’s not as if she doesn’t hate
~Ren~I never knew a week away from my son would turn me into an emotional mess. This boy holds my heart in his hands. From those five days that we’re apart, his curly dark hair seemed to grow almost an inch longer. Or is it just me? He might have grown taller too.I’ve been ogling Griffin for about thirty minutes now, threading my fingers through his hair while he was still sleeping peacefully. It’s five in the morning on a Saturday and my mind was already wide awake with thoughts of the man who looks just like my son.What has gotten into me? Why did I agree to be civil and friends with him?Devin showed me the soft side of him again, the one I fell in love with.That rooftop garden he had in his hotel mad
~Ren~“Let go,” I argued, trying my hardest to pull my hand away from his hold.“Why are you being stubborn?” he asked inquisitively, as if he didn’t know why.“Friends don’t hold hands like this,” my voice was low yet the defiance is clear. The pilot hearing us was the least of my concerns. Devin has to stop doing these kinds of things.Devin stared at me with a flicker of pain, hurt. “I know. We’re not friends from now on.”Ugh! He’s impossible to deal with. I huffed and stared at the miniature world from up here.Sensing my defeat, Devin drew soothing circles on my knuckles. I don’t have to look at hi
~Ren~Dumbfounded, utterly astonished, that’s how I’m feeling at the moment. It’s not that he’s wrong, he’s totally right, yet I don’t want to show him any fucking clue.Am I that easy to read?He looks done perusing my thoughts, Devin broke the eerie silence hovering over us. “I know you…” he slurred. “Too well, agápi mou… coz I love you so much even if you push me away… you’re still the one my heart is longing for… you must love me still…” he shook his head. “You do, you have to…”The pinging of the oven hauled his blabbering about nonsense. He stood up and took out the food while I breathed out.De
~Ren~One thirty-five in the morning, I stared at the dark ceiling of my room. There was no light apart from the sliver of moonlight passing through the open balcony. The ocean breeze was warm, humid, even at this time of the night or morning, rather.Yesterday’s events played like a ruined CD of a 90s film in my mind. It comes back to the euphoria of feelings I felt with his touch.Devin.I must be really wrong in the head.What happened to those promises I made while carrying Griffin in my womb? The promise to not allow me to be weak again.Life is mean, and I’m scared that I might be six feet under him before I realize my mistake once again.
~Devin~I couldn’t sleep. All I can think about was kissing her again, feeling her feverish skin against mine. The way she arched her back when I sucked on her nipples. The moans that escaped her full lips with each touch I made with her.Fuck.Being celibate for three years must’ve done its bidding on my mind. My hand is not enough to get me done.I crave her scent, her touch, her lips.She started everything on the island, yet she acted like my touch burned her.Why can’t she just give me a chance?She asked for space; I didn’t argue with her because I didn’t know if I could control myself around her. Re
~Ren~ The colorful sparkling decoration of the Christmas tree we put up earlier is dancing in my husband's and son’s eyes. Devin lifted Griffin by his waist, our son held the star in his hands as he reached up and put it on the top of the Christmas tree. “Now, Mama,” Griffin said, giving me a convincing nod. I was holding the plug of the Christmas tree, connecting it with the outlet, the lights came to life and the star above the six-foot tree twinkled with different luminous colors. Griffin giggled as Devin peppered him with kisses on his cheeks. “Can I?” our son asked for the twentieth time today. He’s very excited to open the present Devin has for him. It’s not that we don’t celebrate Christmas before, but this is Griffin’s first Christmas with his father. “Can’t wait after midnight, buddy?” Devin ruffled Griffin’s hair, setting him down on his feet. Griffin pouted, looking a little thoughtful before he answered. “I can, Pap
I’m so sorry about the delay in my update. Please enjoy this additional chapter.~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~Devin~ “Are you happy?” Ren mumbled after I made her twirl on our first dance as husband and wife. “Of course,” I grabbed her waist and pulled her back in my arms as we continued to sway on the tune of Shane Filan’s Beautiful In White. “Why wouldn’t I be happy. You’re wearing mom’s ring and my name is now yours.” She giggled, leaning her face on my chest as she wrapped her arms tightly around my waist. “I love you.” “You’re mine completely, you don’t have a choice but to love me,” I teased her and she squeezed me with her light force. “Cara is here.” I looked at my visionless artist friend who was dancing with Klaus. “Yes,” Ren looked over Klaus and Cara. “I met her the day before we left Manhattan. Did you know I got jealous of her?” Cara is a fifteen-year-old girl who lives next door to my place. We became friends when I helped
Hey Babes, I’m so sorry about the glitch. Before reading this one, please check the previous chapter. Thank you so much for staying with me.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Devin~I watched Ren and Griffin walk on the shore, barefoot, hand in hand as I grilled the fish I caught earlier. They were picking up shellfish in front of our beach house in Barbados, the sound of their laughter was mingling with the waves crashing on the shore.Ren waved at me while Griffin held a starfish in his hand and showed it to his Mama.We came here yesterday and Ren hasn't greeted me happy birthday yet.I’ve never celebrated my birthday, I had no reason to. Mom and Eve were the only people who greeted me on my birthday until I was recognized by the public as one of the youngest business tycoons in the world. People started sending me gifts, greetings, wishes, but none really mattered to me since they didn't know the real me. I thanked them, but the love I was longi
~Devin~Ren’s recovery is faster than what I expected, she’s going back to her usual routine around the house within just three days. Even with the bandage still around her shoulder, she helps Mrs. Kelvin in the kitchen in the morning and prepares food for Griffin and me.Who was I to object when the girl I love prepares food for me and our son? Although I am worried about her condition, I can see that the spark in her eyes is back. Those glints that were missing when she first opened her eyes in the ambulance. It scared the shit out of me, seeing how pale she was, slowly losing life. It’s a nightmare, a horror I wouldn’t dare challenge to come to us again.“Papa,” Griffin was rubbing his eyes, standing beside me while I was watching Ren silently from the entrance frame of the kitchen. My son opened his arms so wide, a gesture he does when he wants me to carry him.He’s a big boy now, not a baby anymore, but I&rsq
~Ren~Am I dead? I guess not. My body hurts like a bitch everywhere. Even my pinky is aching. They say that death is peaceful, like an endless emptiness. I’m sure that this isn’t it.The ambulance and police sirens are so loud, people chattering around me. My eyelids were heavy, as if they were glued together and won’t let go of the other. Stupid eyelids.“Ren… please…” I heard his voice. Why is Devin sad? Is he crying? “Ren, hang on.”Something must’ve slammed shut, a door perhaps and I felt warm hands enclosed mine. I knew it was Devin, his scent lingers in the air overpowering the foul smell of blood. Trying to squeeze his hand back, I groaned when I f
~Devin~Watching Ren Sleep in my arms peacefully is my favorite time of the day, except for those ‘practice’ things we do of course, and spending time with Griffin.I’d never get tired of admiring her beautiful features, her long brown wavy hair draped over the sheets of our bed and my arms. Tucking away some mischievous locks that surround her face, I trailed my fingers along her cheeks to her jaws and brushed my thumb over her pinkish full lips. These lips that I can’t get enough of.“I love you,” I fondled my lips over
~Ren~“Mama,” Griffin climbs on my lap as Natalie and I listen to a few singers who are aspiring to make a break in the music industry.My son requested for me to write his name with his father’s surname and he’s been pretty busy shading the paper with incoherent patterns while I work.He’s excited about it, ecstatic even. He jumped high and low when we told him about the news, both he and his father were fairly excited to see the papers even if Griffin couldn’t understand them yet.
~Ren~My heart aches for Devin. Hearing him say that he isn’t worthy of becoming a father is making my heart clench.I can’t help but blame myself for adding fuel to the doubt he was feeling right now. As I watched him sleep peacefully, I reached for his hair and twirled a few locks in my fingers. His hair is longer. It gives him more of that bad boy vibe and I like it so much. He really is the older version of Griffin. Their full lips, their blue hues and long thick lashes, even their nose were very similar. I bet my son would be such a charmer when he grows up like his father.
~Ren~“Why?” was my stupid response. This is not what I was expecting to hear from Devin.I’m happy, don’t get me wrong, ecstatic even, but I think he’s making irrational decisions. Lightning-fast decisions that could either make us or break us.“I love you,” he held my face in his big warm hands, electric shocks flowing through my whole body. “And I want to be with you for as long as I live, Ren.” His eyes looking straight into my green ones.