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2024-10-29 19:42:56~Ren~
One thirty-five in the morning, I stared at the dark ceiling of my room. There was no light apart from the sliver of moonlight passing through the open balcony. The ocean breeze was warm, humid, even at this time of the night or morning, rather.
Yesterday’s events played like a ruined CD of a 90s film in my mind. It comes back to the euphoria of feelings I felt with his touch.
Devin.
I must be really wrong in the head.
What happened to those promises I made while carrying Griffin in my womb? The promise to not allow me to be weak again.
Life is mean, and I’m scared that I might be six feet under him before I realize my mistake once again.
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