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My Mate - Part I
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Change. Can people change in a small period of time? Can they suddenly turn from ice cold to a soothing warm? To slowly begin to grow your hope like a plant, nurturing and protecting it with care. That's what Deimos seems to be doing to me these days. Like something made him see or change his mind. His eyes follow me everywhere, hands keep reaching for a feel of my skin and nose sniffing for a whiff of my scent. He seems... feels different.
Though being an Alpha needs him to be present always in everyday affairs he does his best to at least see me once a day. How can someone go from not wanting to be in my sight for a minute to always searching for me? To always aching to be by my side?
However, I haven't been able to see him these days as he seems to be busy preparing for the shindig. I didn't understand the meaning behind it until I
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He retreats with a surprised look, as he swipes his thumb over his lips. I smile internally watching him bleed. It satisfies me. "Don't try to shut me up by kissing me, if you think I will fall for these antics trust me you are wrong. I am not like other females, I will not bow to you." I shout. The silence slowly kills my anger and gives birth to sadness that creeps up stabbing my heart, the sadness I was trying to ignore. "You could have stayed, enjoyed our moment we shared. Wait.. was it even a moment for you? Did... did you even feel anything? Do you ever feel anything when you are with me?" I shut my eyes tightly preparing for his knives that he would strike through my heart. "I told her to leave," Deimos says calmly releasing me of his tight hold. I look up at his eyes widenin
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"The problem you have on your hands is that you don't have enough place to keep the inventory that the pack possesses therefore you need to build another warehouse which is possible as we have plenty of free land. My wolves are really good at building, they would be pleased to aid you." I tell him the problem and the solution he was trying to figure out while the pack watches and listens quietly impressed. Putting my dish in the wash I quietly rush out to the warmth of my room preparing for the night. I wanted to finish the book I was reading as that's the only thing I seem to get excited about. Lying on my bed looking at the ceiling I twist and turn trying to get into a comfortable position flinching when the door to my room creaks open. Deimos enters with a pillow and blanket, walking to the couch in front of my bed getting ready to sleep. I am speechless as this has only ever happened in my dreams. I wish to pinch myself to get up from the dream but everything fee
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