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Feelings - Part II
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2024-10-29 19:42:56He retreats with a surprised look, as he swipes his thumb over his lips. I smile internally watching him bleed. It satisfies me. "Don't try to shut me up by kissing me, if you think I will fall for these antics trust me you are wrong. I am not like other females, I will not bow to you." I shout.
The silence slowly kills my anger and gives birth to sadness that creeps up stabbing my heart, the sadness I was trying to ignore.
"You could have stayed, enjoyed our moment we shared. Wait.. was it even a moment for you? Did... did you even feel anything? Do you ever feel anything when you are with me?" I shut my eyes tightly preparing for his knives that he would strike through my heart.
"I told her to leave," Deimos says calmly releasing me of his tight hold. I look up at his eyes widenin
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