SIMULA

My heart raced with excitement as I prepared a cake for my long-time boyfriend, Ethan, in celebration of our 5-year anniversary. Hindi ko mapigilang hindi mapangiti lalo nang mabasa ko ang long sweet message galing sa kan'ya. The anticipation grew as I imagined the look of surprise and delight on his face when I presented him with the cake that I personally baked.

"Wow naman. Grabeng ngiti naman 'yan at abot tainga?" tukso ni Manang Dolores.

Nilagay ko na sa box ang katatapos ko lang i-decorate na cake at pinatongan ko pa 'yon ng pulang ribbon. Nilingon ko si Manang.

"Fifth anniversary po kasi namin ni Ethan, Manang at balak ko po sanang surpresahin," nakangiti ko pa ring tugon.

"Sus, napka swerte n'yo talaga sa isa't-isa!"

I chuckled. "Si Mommy at Daddy po?" I asked.

"Hindi ba tumawag? Ang sabi nila ay sa makalawa pa sila makakauwi dahil may pupuntahan daw silang business partner sa Baguio..."

Tumango ako at nilagay na sa ref ang box ng cake. My parents are both into business. Only child lang din ako at hindi na ako magtataka kung bakit nag-iisang anak lang ako. Siguro wala na silang oras para gumawa pa ng anak lalo na at parehas silang mga busy at halos wala nang panahon para makapag alam mo na.

Minsan din, parang nakakalimutan nilang may anak pa sila. At kung hindi pa nila ako makikitang naglalakad sa harapan nila o hind kinakausap sila ng harap-harapan, they wouldn't know that I am existing.

It was already 7 PM, and I was so eager to surprise Ethan at his condo. I held the cake carefully on my lap as I drive softly and occasionally trying to call him, but he didn't answering his phone.

"Siguro nagprepara iyon para sa amin," hagikhik ko.

Dumaan muna ako sa isang maliit na convenient store para bumili ng wine in case na wala na namang stock ang lalaking 'yon. Nang palabas na ako sa sasakyan ay may namataan akong mag jowa na naka upo sa may bench. Napa iwas ako ng tingin when they kissed passionately.

I am virgin. Kahit ilang taon na kami ni Ethan, hindi ko magawang ibigay ang sarili dahil gusto ko kasal muna bago iyong gaoong bagay. Ganoon naman talaga, hindi ba? Luckily, he never forced me to do sex with him and he respects my decision.

As I arrived in front of Ethan's condo, hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla akong kinakabahan. Tumikhim ako para pakalmahin ang sarili. Humigpit din ang pagkaka hawak ko sa supot at ribbon sa cake. I took a deep breath again trying to calm myself as approached the front door. Nagulat ako nang mapagtanto kong bukas pala ito.

"Hindi naman ugali ni Ethan ang hindi magsara ng pinto..." bulong ko.

Entering cautiously, the dimly lit interior gave me an eerie feeling. Nilapag ko sa center table ang mga dala at luminga-linga sa paligid. His entire condo is a black and white theme that designed personally by me. As I took a step forward I accidentally stepped on something. Kunot noo kong tiningnan kung ano 'yon sabay dampot. My nerves intensified and tears welled up in my eyes in instant. Fuck! Heel ito ng babae, ah?!

I couldn't ignore the sinking feeling in my gut. Parang...parang may mali. With trembling hands I made my way upstairs as my heart was pounding louder with each of my step.

Natutop ko ang bibig nang may narinig akong mga haling-haling sa loob ng kuwarto ni Ethan. My tears pours mercilessly as my chest was like being punched and tabbed many times.

"F-Fuck, Ethan...Ah!"

"Y-Yeah...Ah! I'm gonna cum!"

A-Ang mga boses na 'yon, it can't be them, r-right?

My worst fears were confirmed. Tears streamed down my face as I stood frozen in the doorway as my world slowly shattered in an instant. Ang dalawang mahal at pinagkakatiwalaan ko. The excitement and joy I had felt just moments ago were replaced with heartache and devastation. I couldn't comprehend how the person I trusted the most could betray me in such a way.

Kahit nanginginig ay lakas loob kong itinulak ang pintuan. There, in front of me, I saw Ethan and my best friend fucking each other.

"Mga putangina kayo!" histerya kong sigaw.

"Camelia!" takot na takot na sambit ni Ethan sa pangalan ko.

They immediately wrapped their selves in a blanket as they look horrified because of my sudden presence. Wow, sila pa itong ganyan ang reaction? Fuck you all!

"Hayop ka! Hayop!" sugod ko kay Rachel sabay hila sa buhok niya. She screamed and fell from the bed naked. Inawat kami ni Ethan and I pushed him as well. Hindi ko alam bakit na kaya ko siyang itulak gayong mas ang laki siyang tao. Naka sout na rin ito ng boxers.

As if I didn't saw already his small dick!

"C-Camelia, tama na!" hawak ulit sa akin ni Ethan.

"Huwag mo akong hawakan, tarantado kang hayop ka!" I shouted with the top of my lungs.

"Tangina n'yo! Putangina ninyong dalawa!"

"H-How could you do this to me, E-Ethan? H-How could you?" nanginginig kong sinabi habang walang tigil sa pagbuhos ang mga luha ko. Nang akmang lalapit na naman siya sa akin ay kaagad akong umatras sabay iling.

"Napaka hayop ninyong dalawa! Ikaw, Rachel akala ko ba kaibigan kitang hayop ka?!" baling ko sa nakayukong potanginang kaibigan. My God, sorry for the words.

"C-Camelia, please makinig ka sa akin---"

"Para ano? Manipulahin ako? Hindi pa ba sapat itong kahayopan ninyo para hiwalayan kita!?" galit kong sigaw sa kanya.

"Y-You can't just break up with me! Alam mo 'yan!" his voice become desperate and threatening.

I laughed sarcastically. Oo, nga pala. He's one the CEO of the biggest company of the Philippines at halos siya ang nagdadala sa kompanya namin. Alam kong dahil sa kanyang marangyang buhay kung bakit ganoon nalang ang kagustohan ng mga magulang kong pakasalan siya, and gladly hindi iyon mangyayari.

"Are you threatening me? Ang kapal naman ng mukha mo?! We are done! Both of you can continue now!"

Akmang tatalikyran ko na sila nang magsalita na naman si Ethan.

"Magsisisi ka sa desisyon mong hiniwalayan ako."

Agresibo ko namang pinalis ang luha ko sabay harap sa kanya. Seeing him ached my heart. We've been through a lot and nandoon siya palagi sa tabi ko. From my small achievements to big, it always matter to him. And I realized na para sa kanya, parang hindi sapat ang pagmamahalan lang at walang pagsisiping. At na realized kong, hindi nga siya para sa akin dahil hindi siya makapaghintay kung kailan ako magiging handa. Hindi ganoon ang pag-ibig.

"Ako? Magsisisi?" I laughed like a total psycho. "Ethan, after seeing your dick that aren't that big, I don't think I have a reason to regret."

Umigting ang panga niya sa sinabi ko at akmang lalapitan ako but I slammed the door and locked it. Tangina n'yo!