Chapter Eleven
Archer
“Yes.” The word leaves my mouth before I have a chance to think about it. Quinn doesn’t say anything, doesn’t react. Her lashes come together in a blink, and she looks at me, almost as if she’s waiting for me to tell her I’m joking.
Then she smiles.
It’s the most beautiful thing in the world. And right now, with her hands on my chest and my arms locked around her waist, I want to kiss her hard and tell her I’d take her on a thousand dates and it wouldn’t be enough.
The moment is over as fast as it started, and I’m sure she’s thinking the same thing I am. She lives in Chicago. I live in Indy. We’re not worlds away, but a four-hour drive makes starting a relationship hard.
I don’t know the next time I’ll be able to get away from work long enough to come see her. It could be weeks before I’m able to drive back up north and take her on a second date.
My heart starts to ache, even though everything I want is right in front of me for the taking. Quinn slides her hands down my torso and around my back. She rests her head on my chest and admires the skyline above us.
This is exactly what I’ve wanted, what I’ve wished for. And now that I had a taste, now that I know how fucking good it feels to finally let my feelings surface, it’s going to hurt. I need to disengage.
“It’s getting late.”
“Yeah,” Quinn agrees, pulling away. Instantly, I miss her touch and the warmth of her skin. “We should head back. If you want to crash on the couch, you can. Do you have to be back at the convention thingy tomorrow?”
“There are a few more panels to sit in on, but I don’t have to be there until nine. It’s the last day and they’ll be done around two.”
“That was a short convention.”
“It started earlier in the week, but I couldn’t get off work.”
She clasps her hands on her elbows, holding her arms in tightly against her body to stay warm. Not pulling her close goes against every fiber of my being, like I’m wired to do everything and anything to make her comfortable.
“Do you like being a surgeon?”
“I do. I better, right? I’ve put enough into it.”
“Yeah. You’d have wasted a lot of time if not.”
We go a few paces without talking, and I hate how much the dynamic changed between us. It’s because of me, and Quinn has to fucking know it. A gust of wind blows in off the lakefront. It’s cold, chilling me and I’m in long sleeves and pants.
I can’t help it. My arm wraps around Quinn and the moment we connect, I relax.
“Do you want my shirt?”
“Then you’ll be half-naked.”
“I have an undershirt,” I remind her. “I should have worn the suit jacket just so I could give it to you.”
She tries not to smile. “That would have been very gentlemanly. Though you’d think I’d learn to dress for the weather. I have lived here for quite some time. When the wind blows over the lake, it’s always cold.”
Not wanting to make her walk in the cold, I hail a cab. There’s not much traffic this time of night, and we get back to the loft quickly.
“You really can stay,” she says again, taking off her shoes. I don’t move out of the entryway. I shouldn’t stay though I want to. “Or you can call an Uber to take you back to your hotel.”
I pull my phone from my pocket and see that it’s dead. Quinn says she has an extra charger and that I shouldn’t leave until my phone has some battery life in case I need to make an emergency call. She reminds me of her mother there, and it’s more endearing than I thought it’d be. She goes into her room to get the charger. I step out of my shoes and sit in the living room, looking around at the decor. The stark modernity of the space isn’t something I’d guess Quinn would have gone for, but the view is amazing and she’s close to her office. She’s done a good job making this large, white space look homey and feel cozy.
Everything is so Quinn, tasteful yet a little quirky.
“Here ya go.” She comes back into the living room, holding a phone cord, and crouches down next to the couch to plug it into the wall. Then she takes my phone from me and hooks it up.
She takes a step back and crosses her arms over her body again. I hate that she feels like she has to physically guard herself from me. Hurting her is the last thing I want to do, which is exactly why we need to stop this before it starts. “I’m going to get some water. Do you want some?”
“Yeah, thanks.”
I watch her go into the kitchen, cats following her in hopes of more food. Her dress hugs her curves in all the right places. It’s loose around her legs, hiding her tight ass until she moves and the outline can be seen through the thin fabric. The neckline of her dress goes to a deep-V, tight against her tits.
She moves her hair over her shoulder and picks up the cats’ water bowl, rinsing it out and filling it up before she grabs two water bottles from the fridge and comes back to the couch. Taking a long drink, she recaps her water and sits back with a sigh.
I thought she was a little drunk before. Nothing like pulling a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde to make a girl sober up.
My phone buzzes back to life, beeping from a missed text. I glance over, curious to see who it’s from but not really interested in opening it. Then I see it’s from my mom. There’s only one reason she’d text me this late. I put the water bottle on the coffee table and turn away from Quinn to unlock my phone.
My heart speeds up and I try to prepare myself for the worst. I always do. Because someday, the worst will happen.
Mom: Bobby passed out. We just got to the hospital. I tried calling you, but it went straight to voicemail. I hate leaving you messages like this, but I wanted to tell you in case…you know. I’ll update you when I can.
The next text was sent sometime later.
Mom: It’s his kidneys again, and they’re putting him on some new medication. We’ll be home in the morning. Don’t worry about calling tonight. We’re all exhausted and I know how hard you’ve been working. We’re proud of you, Archie. Love you.
“Archer?” Quinn’s voice is as soft as her touch. Her hand lands on my arm. “Is everything okay?”
I read the text again. One of these times, medical intervention isn’t going to be enough. One of these times, my brother is going to take it so far there’s no coming back. Years of drug use have already taken their toll on his body, and he’s only a year and a half older than me.
“Is everything okay?” she asks again.
I put my phone down, shifting my gaze from the bright screen to Quinn’s beautiful face.
“It will be.”
She pushes her hair back and nods. “Are you tired?” she asks carefully, and I read between the lines. She’s wondering if I’m going to stay or go, though I can’t tell what she’s hoping for.
“Not really.”
“Oh, uh, okay.”
Silence falls between us, and over the noise of the city below, I can hear my own heart pounding away in my chest. Quinn tucks her legs up under herself and leans forward to pet Neville, who jumped up next to me, purring. Quinn’s dress gaps and her tits almost spill out. The will of the gods couldn’t keep me from stealing a glance. The faint outline of her nipple is visible through the thin material of a light purple bra. There’s no padding. No pushup. I want to bury my face between her breasts and kiss my way down to her sweet cunt.
My cock jumps as an intense wave of desire crashes over me. I don’t know how much longer I can resist her. It was one thing when I wasn’t sure if she wanted me too, but after tonight I know she does.
I want her so fucking bad. But I shouldn’t.
“Well, I had a nice time,” Quinn starts, not looking away from the cat. “Even if you didn’t, I did. So, uh, thanks for taking me out on our non-date.”
“What makes you think I didn’t have a nice time too?”
She brings her arms back in and shrugs, shyly flicking her gaze to mine. “I don’t know.”
“I did, Quinn. I had a nice time, too.”
She brings her head up, this time staring at me dubiously. “You seemed to like it until the end. Again. And I just—” She cuts off, letting out an exasperated sigh. “You know what, it’s fine. Never mind. It’s like you’re playing a game whenever we’re together, giving me just enough of yourself to make me want more. You open up only to shut me out, and even if I had all the cheat codes to force a win, this isn’t a game I want to play.” She closes her eyes, jaw tense, and stands. “I’ll call you an Uber. It’s late and I’m sure you’re tired.”
“Quinn, don’t.”
“Why? One minute I think you like me and the next you can’t get away from me fast enough. I can’t figure you out, Archer, and it’s making me feel really fucking stupid.”
I get to my feet and grab her wrist, gently pulling her hand toward me. I take her phone and toss it on the couch.
And then I kiss her.
Chapter TwelveQuinnMy heart pounds with indignation as anger surges through me. I don’t know who I’m more mad at: myself or Archer. Though right now, with his lips pressed to mine, it’s hard to be anything other than stunned.He moves in, hands landing on my waist. Pushing his tongue into my mouth, he brings me in tight against him. My breasts crush against his chest and heat floods my veins.I’m not stunned anymore.And I’m not pissed.Archer’s lips are soft and full. His kisses are hard and desperate. Together, it’s a recipe for disaster. My resolve is crumbling. I should stop him now before there’s nothing left.But I don’t want to stop him, not when it feels so good.“Quinn,” he pants, pressing his forehead against mine. I bring my arms up around his neck and shuffle closer, parting my legs and pushing my hips into his. Archer has never held me like this before. We’ve never been so close. And he’s certainly never kissed me. Being in his arms is the most familiar new feeling in t
Chapter ThirteenArcherI pull Quinn closer, pressing my lips against the side of her neck. I’m half asleep and fighting it. As much as I need sleep, I want to soak up every minute of this as I can. Who knows what the morning will bring. Or even the moment we get out of bed.I kissed Quinn.Felt Quinn.Touched every inch of her. Fucked her. Finally. After years of wanting and waiting for the time to come, it did. I think back to Sam and what he said about idealizing sleeping with Quinn. How there’s no way the real thing could be as good as what I’ve imagined in my mind.He had a good point. Often, when you want something so bad and it’s so out of reach, you romanticize it, make it seem better than it ever can be. I thought that was the case with Quinn.But it couldn’t be further from the truth.There’s no fucking her out of my system. There’s no spending one night with her and being able to move on with my life. In fact, it’s only making me want her more, because everything was better
Chapter FourteenQuinnI’ve shaved every piece of unwanted hair off my body. I’ve plucked and tweezed, applied makeup only to take it off and do it again, and re-curled my hair three times.But I’m not trying to look good for Archer Jones.He saw me in my natural element yesterday at work wearing office attire and my hair in a ponytail. And then he saw me in all sorts of ways last night, and it’s not like I woke up looking like an Instagram model or something.I take my sunglasses off my head, and my hair gets stuck. Yanking it free, I put them on and pay my fare as I get out of the cab. It’s nice out today, a little breezier than yesterday, but the air is humid and the wind is welcome.Archer texted me not long ago and said the convention was over, but the medical director from a big hospital invited him out for a drink at the hotel bar. He didn’t think it would take long and was too good of an opportunity to pass up. I encouraged him to go, because that hospital happens to be in Chi
Chapter FifteenQuinnTwo weeks later…I stretch my arms out in front of me, slowly rolling my wrist. It’s aching today, and I forgot my wrist brace at home. I remembered my posture brace, at least, and stand for the first time in hours to get it from my bag.My office is warm today from having multiple computers running and my door closed. I found a snag in the software design and have been pulling my hair out all day trying to fix it. I think I’m the only one left in the office. Opening my office door, I twist my hair into a bun and use a pen to secure it on the top of my head. Grabbing the posture brace, I unbutton my blouse and take it off, tossing it in my oversized purse. I’m wearing a sheer white cami underneath, so it’s not like I’m just sitting in here in just a bra. I slip the brace on and sit back at my computer, feeling a bit better to have my shoulders held back into place.As soon as I sit down, the nausea I’ve felt all day hits me hard. I get up to get some water, and a
Chapter SixteenArcher“Do you boys want a second helping?”“Yes, please,” I tell Mrs. Dawson, even though I’m already full from the first plate of chicken potpie I had. But it’s homemade and delicious.“Your interview was pushed to tomorrow?” she asks as she puts another helping on my plate and moves on to give Dean another scoop.“Yeah. The chief surgeon wanted to talk to me as well but couldn’t. There was a nasty car accident and he’s been in surgery all day.”Mrs. Dawson grimaces. “I don’t know how you do it. I’m so thankful you can, of course. We need more good doctors like you in this county.” She gives me a warm smile. “You’re staying here tonight, don’t even try to tell me otherwise.” Mrs. Dawson smiles. “I love to have both my boys back! It’ll be just like college. Except you’re both much more mature,” she adds with a wink. “What about dessert?”“Kara was right,” Dean says and puts a hand on his stomach. “You are trying to fatten me up.”“Oh hush.” Mrs. Dawson opens the fridg
Chapter SeventeenQuinnMy stomach gurgles and my throat feels thick. A telltale sign I’m going to throw up. I pride myself on saying I have an iron stomach and often bring up how I survived the Dawson Family Picnic disaster, over seven years ago, with just a twist of nausea when everyone else was riddled with food poisoning.But right now, there’s no stopping what’s coming up.And also right now, Archer’s hand lands on my cheek, gently cupping my face and turning my chin up to his. He leans in and I know he’s going to kiss me. I want nothing more than to kiss him back, but I can’t.Not right now.I push his hand away and turn, barely making it to the sink before I throw up.“Fuck, Quinn,” Archer says and moves in, grabbing my hair and holding it back. My stomach heaves again, and I shudder. Throwing up is awful. Just fucking awful.I turn on the faucet and rinse my mouth, washing away any vomit that might be on my face. Archer’s hand lands on my back, gently rubbing it, and he’s stil
Chapter EighteenArcherI blink rapidly, eyes needing to readjust to the bright sunlight around us. Everything faded for a moment there.“And Archer. I didn’t know you were in town.” Logan’s eyes go from Quinn to me a few times before he pulls Quinn in for a hug. “I’m guessing this is why Mom’s having us all come over for dinner tonight.”“Yeah. We’re out running errands for her,” she says, shuffling back. Sweat breaks out along my back, both from the heat of the day and almost getting caught. My judgment goes out the window when it comes to Quinn, and she got me going from zero to sixty in three seconds flat.“What’d you buy?” Quinn asks, shifting nervously. She’s worried her brother saw us too.“That thriller that’s being made into a movie. I refuse to see the movie until I’ve read the book.”Out of all her brothers, Quinn and Logan are the most alike. He’s the second youngest, even though Owen is a mere handful of seconds older, and I’ve heard them joke about that bonding them.“Th
Chapter NineteenQuinnArcher’s face falls when he looks at his phone. Then his eyes narrow ever so slightly with fear.“Sorry,” he says, and stands. “It’s my mother. I have to take this.”“Go ahead, honey,” Mom says, not catching the worry in Archer’s face like I do. My anger goes out the window, and I’m concerned for him now. He mentioned having a sick family member. What if they couldn’t fight their illness anymore?I set my fork down, reaching for my water, and peer into the kitchen, trying to get a read on Archer’s face. His back is to me, but his hand lands on his neck. Shit. Something is wrong.“Quinn?” Dad says in a tone that lets me know it wasn’t the first time he said my name. “Earth to Quinn.”“Yeah, sorry. What?”Everyone laughs. “I asked you how’s work going on the Batmobile.” He winks and Wes stifles a laugh.“Dad,” I scold. “I told you I can’t talk about it in front of others.”Mom shakes her head, and I look past her into the kitchen again. Archer is off the phone now
Chapter Twenty-EightQuinn“Can you tell?” I smooth my shirt over my stomach and turn to the side.“No.” Marissa shakes her head. “I know you and you’ve always been a skinny bitch, so I guess I’m able to pick up on that slight bump you claim is the baby, but to anyone else, you look like you ate a big meal.”“It’s weird,” I say, wrinkling my nose, and grab my shoes. I take off my heels and put on my running shoes, not caring how silly it looks with my dress pants and blouse. It’s Friday, and we’re leaving work for the week. “I’m almost looking forward to showing.”“Just don’t turn into Bethany.”I widen my eyes and shake my head, showing my horror. “If I do, slap me.” Bethany works with us and had her first baby last year. She made sure everyone knew everything about the pregnancy and complained nonstop about her symptoms. Though I can emphasize now, and after throwing up three times yesterday, I broke down and took an anti-nausea pill this morning.I still feel sick, but I haven’t pu
Chapter Twenty-SevenArcher“All things considered, that went as well as I thought it would.” I put my arm around Quinn and push off the ground, sending the glider back. It’s getting late, and everyone but Weston and Jackson have left already. Wes is working the night shift tonight, so Jackson is staying here with Quinn’s parents.Quinn rests her head on my shoulder and closes her eyes. She looks exhausted. Physically, I know she will be for the rest of the first trimester at least. Emotionally, she’s spent.And I still think she’s one of the fucking strongest people I know.“Yeah. Only my dad and Dean want to take you out back and cut off your testicles. But don’t worry, I won’t let that happen. I happen to like them. Well, more so what they’re attached to.”I laugh and press my lips against the top of Quinn’s head. “Thanks for looking out for my balls.” The sound of katydids and crickets echo through the yard, reverberating off the tall corn that surrounds us. The sounds of a countr
Chapter Twenty-SixQuinnThe air leaves my lungs, and if it weren’t for Archer’s arm around me, I might have fallen over. Mom’s eyebrows pinch together, and she tips her head looking at the images.“Where did you get—” Mom tips her head, eyeing the photos. The blood drains from my face, and I can’t open my mouth to form the words to warn Archer.“This has your name on it, Quinn,” she says quietly. And then it hits her. Her mouth opens, and she lets out a gasp. The ultrasound pictures fall to the table, and Dad picks them up.It doesn’t take him long to come to the same conclusion. He stands up so fast his chair scoots out from behind him and falls over.“You knocked up my daughter?”A hush falls over the room, and I swear even the dogs stopped sniffing around the table to look.“Quinn,” Mom starts, still looking confused. She picks up the chair and reaches up for Dad’s wrist, pulling him back down. “What…when…are you sure?”“Wait a minute,” Owen says, reaching across the table for the
Chapter Twenty-FiveQuinnI need a drink. A big one. With lots and lots of alcohol. I close my eyes in a long blink, praying I misheard Kara.“That’s less than a year away!” Mom exclaims. “Do you think you can get everything ready in time?”March isn’t that far away, she’s right. And there is a lot to do before then, and I’m not thinking about the wedding.“I think we can swing it,” Kara says. “I’ll have to get right to work, I know, and my mom’s already on it.” She looks back at Dean, smiling. “We don’t want anything fancy, anyway.”I bring my hand to my head, subconsciously rubbing the space between my jaw and my ear. It’s been hurting off and on since last weekend, and I knew I should have listened to Archer about a sinus infection lingering for longer than normal now that I’m pregnant.“Are you okay, hun?” Mom asks, and I flick my eyes up to her.“Oh, yeah. I think I have an ear infection, that’s all,” I blurt. I should have made something up, but I’ve never been a good liar and n
Chapter Twenty-FourArcherPanting, I roll to the side, flopping down onto the mattress. My heart is still racing, and sweat covers my brow. Quinn is breathing just as hard, and her bare breasts rise and fall as she gulps in air.I didn’t think it was possible to have better sex that we did the first time, but I feel confident to say we just topped it. Reaching for the water bottle on the nightstand, I take a drink and grab the sheet, pulling it up over us. We’re both hot and sweaty now, but with the ceiling fan going on high, we’ll cool off fast and I don’t want Quinn to get a chill. She’s still fighting a cold and has to be worn out after the marathon sex we just had.I know I am.“That was more than thirty minutes,” she says once she catches her breath and moves onto her side. I wrap her in my arms.“I’m not sorry about that.”“You’ve set a high standard for yourself,” she says with a coy smile.“I always aim to please, babe.”Quinn laughs and runs her fingers through my hair. “You
Chapter Twenty-ThreeQuinnI wake up in Archer’s arms, and for the first time since I found out I’m pregnant, everything feels like it’s going to be okay. He made me dinner last night, and went out and got me more Sour Patch Kids before we went to sleep.I carefully roll over, moving closer to him. It feels so good to have him next to me. Physically, his presence is comforting on its own. But having him here for everything else is almost enough to do me in.We jumped into a relationship and need to take things slow. He said he likes me but held off moving forward out of respect to Dean, but things are bigger than their friendship now. We have less than a week before we drop the bomb on my family, and I’m fairly sure all four of my brothers are going to have a few choice words for Archer.Early morning sun filters through the large windows. I forgot to close the blinds last night, and the light is shining right in on Archer. I reach over and take my phone from the nightstand. My blinds
Chapter Twenty-TwoArcherI missed a call from Quinn today, and I noticed it right before I went into surgery. I’ve never had a hard time clearing my head before, but today, as I wash my hands and have my surgical scrubs put on, it’s all I can think about. She hasn’t called me—ever. What if something is wrong? She didn’t leave a message, and she didn’t text either.I’m sure everything is fine with her and the baby. It has to be. As awful as I feel to admit it, there’s a small part of me that’s glad Quinn is pregnant. The timing couldn’t be worse. Dean is going to hate us both. He’ll forgive Quinn eventually, but the light he holds her in will forever be dimmed.But now that she’s pregnant, we’re talking, and we have a chance. And if anyone was to be the mother of my child, no one is better than Quinn.Sam puts the patient under and we get started. As soon as I make the first cut, I’m back in the game, and the surgical team and I make small talk as we go about treating the patient.An
Chapter Twenty-OneQuinnThe door shuts behind me and I turn around, prepared to tell Archer this is silly. But the second I see the look in his eyes, all the air is sucked out of my lungs.“Quinn,” he pants, voice heavy with desire. A shiver runs down my spine and his hands land on either side of my waist. “Are you sure you want this?”Parting my lips, I hook my arms around his neck. “Yes,” I breathe, telling the honest truth. I do want Archer, and I’m not just talking about sex.I want him to be with me during this pregnancy.I want him there when I give birth.I want him to raise this child with me.I want us. Together.He wastes no time in kissing me, and I slide my hands down his chest, going right to his belt. His hands go around my back and unhooks my bra.And then the door opens.“Motherfucker,” I blurt as Archer and I untangle. The dogs run in ahead of my parents, with Rufus at the rear, limping.“You should really consider going in and having a specialist look at it,” Archer
Chapter TwentyArcherThe bathroom door closes, and I’m still standing there, looking at the white paint until my vision goes blurry. After I reassured her everything will be okay, she smiled and said she was going to take a shower. But I can’t move. Hell, I can hardly breathe.Quinn is pregnant with my baby.I’m trying to let it sink in, but my defenses are up and I can’t think past the fact she’s been feeling sick and it’s partly my fault. Or all my fault? I know it took both of us to create the baby, and it’s not like Quinn wasn’t willing. But…fuck. How could I let this happen?I’m a doctor. I know how the body works. And yet I had sex three times with Quinn within twenty-four hours and only used a condom once. Though it’s not like I brought any with me Friday night. I didn’t expect to hook up with anyone, and when it finally happened with Quinn, I wasn’t thinking straight.Rufus tips his head, listening to Mr. And Mrs. Dawson move around the kitchen. Knowing it’s time for breakfas