Chapter Five
Logan
“Hey.” Danielle takes her purse off her shoulder as she walks through the back door of the bar. We’re getting ready to open, and she just got here for her shift. The heavy door closes with a whoosh behind her, sending her hair flying around her face. She reaches up to tame it, and the light yellow fabric of her sundress stretches up over her breasts. She’s not wearing a bra, and I can see the faint outline of her nipple through the fabric.
I swallow hard, talk down my dick, and look away.
“Hey,” I say back. “You look nice.”
“Thanks. I’d say the same to you, but I don’t want to lie.” She flashes a grin and walks past me and into the office to put her purse away. I readjust the heavy box of booze I’m carrying, trying—and failing—to keep my thoughts PG.
“You look nice?” Owen stands in the threshold of the kitchen, shaking his head. “At this point, I don’t think you even want out of the friendzone.”
Ignoring him, I breeze right past and set the box down on the counter next to the walk-in refrigerator.
“I’m genuinely concerned for you,” Owen goes on. “When was the last time you got any pussy?”
It was a while ago, and he damn well knows it. The blind hookups were fun in our early twenties, but now it’s lost its appeal. Even before I met Danielle, I started feeling the longing to settle down, to have something serious and think about starting a family. I always knew I’d get married and have kids, but it always seemed so far away and out of reach.
Maybe it just took the right girl to give me that final shove out of the bachelor lifestyle.
“You do still like pussy right?” Owen goes on. “Or have you forgotten what it feels like to fuck all together?”
I give him a glare.
“I’ll help you out tonight.” He leans against the wall, watching me open the box and start moving the beer into the fridge. “I’ll do the work, get you a chick who wants to hook up, and then we can pull the old twin-switch.”
“I’ll pass, thanks.”
“What? Afraid they’ll know it’s you the moment you fail to live up to the expectations I set?” He grins, proud of himself and thinking he’s actually being clever.
“I wonder how we’re related some days.”
Owen laughs. “Then why don’t you take Danielle home? Oh wait. You did. And you bored her to death, and she passed out on the couch.”
My jaw tenses when I think about that night. Of the way her soft and supple breasts felt pressed up against my chest. How her hair fell like a curtain over us both. Blood rushes to my cock, and I shift my weight, trying to derail my thoughts.
Because right now, they’re headed to a place of no return.
Just having her against me like that felt so fucking good. Kissing her would be even better. I blink and see her full lips in front of me as her tongue darts out and wets them both. I don’t think she was even aware of what she was doing as she leaned in closer and closer, as neither of us could resist the pull.
I clear my throat. “She’s said multiple times that she doesn’t want to date anyone until she gets her life together.”
Owen raises his eyebrows. “What does that even mean?”
My shoulders rise and fall in a shrug as I grab a few more beers to shelve. “Hell if I know. Maybe go back to grad school and get some fancy job?”
“Even I know that’s bullshit. She hated her life back in Greenwich. And you’re not just anyone. You happen to look just like me, and I’m one handsome fellow.”
I roll my eyes but end up laughing at Owen. “I can’t argue with that, even though we both know I’m the better-looking one. And I’m smarter.”
“Keep telling yourself that.” Owen claps me on the back and leaves the kitchen, probably going to the bar to pour himself a drink and not actually do any work. I keep restocking the shelves as the bar opens, and a few of our regulars come in the second that neon open sign is turned on.
Opening for lunch on the weekends is a new thing for us and was Danielle’s idea. When Owen and I bought the place, it was purely a bar. We added the kitchen and slowly expanded the menu over the years. Transitioning from Getaway, just a bar, to Getaway Bar and Grill was something we had in mind from day one, but put off executing it until Danielle laid everything out in a rather impressive presentation. We make a lot of money just from lunch and dinner orders alone, and the food here is pretty fucking good if I do say so myself.
“Got plans for the weekend?” I ask Danielle.
“Oh, of course. I’ve got my calendar completely booked,” she laughs. “Which really means I’ll probably end up watching N*****x while scooping up egg salad from a bowl with cheese Pringles. Which I totally didn’t do last night.”
“That’s an interesting combination.”
“It was surprisingly good. I mean, I assume it would be if it weren’t too disgusting for me to try.” She flashes a pretty smile, and I’m back to needing a cold shower.
“How’s the job search going?”
She’s about to answer when one of our regulars walks up to the bar. “Hey, George.” She reaches under the bar for a glass. “Don’t tell me. Let me try to read your mind.” She sets the glass on the counter and closes her eyes. “An Old Fashioned and a side order of cheese fries.”
George gasps, throwing out his hands in fake shock. He orders the same thing every time he comes in, which is nearly every day. He’s a bit of a local legend around here, but his tale of war hero turned drunk doesn’t have the happy ending we all hoped for. Still, he’s as respected as he can be, and is one of the more polite drunks we have sitting at the bar day in and day out.
“I don’t know how you do it!”
Danielle laughs and starts making his drink. “It’s a gift. You know I almost considered running away and joining the circus as a psychic as a kid.” She finishes his drink and brings it over. “How are the grandkids? Have you been going over to see them like we talked about?”
For someone who doesn’t plan to stay in Eastwood for long, she sure gets along well here. I step away, getting a beer for another regular, and then go to one of the tables to take a food order and bring it to the kitchen. We’re going on two months of opening early, and we’ve been consistently busy. If things keep going the way they are, we plan on hiring another waitress or two as well as more help in the kitchen. Never in a million years did I think we’d make this much more just by opening in the early afternoon.
And it’s all thanks to Danielle.
“Uh-oh.” George slurps his drink. “The Sheriff is here. You up to no good again?” he asks Danielle.
She gives him a wink. “Always.”
Knowing my brother always stops in on Fridays to take food home for lunch, I already put in his order. I go back into the kitchen and grab it.
“Thanks,” he says and looks around. “It’s crowded already.”
“Yeah.” My eyes go to Danielle, watching her smile as she talks to Tommy Oaken. He’s leaning over the bar, eyes flitting away from Danielle’s to stare at her tits. “It was a good idea to open for lunch. We might start opening early on weekdays too.”
She laughs, reaching out to touch his arm. Something tightens in my stomach. I clench my jaw and look away. I’m not jealous. There’s nothing to be jealous of, right?
Dammit.
I’ve never been a good liar.
“Logan?” Wes repeats in a tone that lets me know he’s said my name more than once.
“Yeah?” I turn my attention back to Wes, and a small smile plays on his lips as he follows my gaze. He’s not one to meddle and is my only sibling who hasn’t given me shit over my lack of relationship with Danielle. But that look in his eyes is almost as bad as Quinn and Scarlet forcing us under mistletoe three times last Christmas.
“Never mind.” He takes the bag of takeout and gets up to leave but turns back to face me. “You’re smart. Second smartest in the family after Quinn. So stop being stupid.”
Chapter SixDanielleI’m fairly sure the reason the universe never granted me magical powers is because it knew I’d use them in nefarious ways. Like that speeding ticket I got a few weeks ago? I’d make the cop think he was giving me a ticket when all he was handing me was a blank sheet of paper. The shoes I’ve been eyeing but can’t afford would ring up at half the price and no one would be none the wiser.And this guy sitting in front of me?This lying, cheating, slimy bastard?I’d turn him into a rat. No…that’s an insult to rodents everywhere. They’re kind of cute with their little whiskers and the way they hold things in their tiny hands when they eat.Maybe I’d turn him into a worm. Oh—no, I’ve got a better idea. A stink bug that just happens to be flying over the freeway when a semi-truck barrels down the road and smacks right into him, smearing him all over the—well, now I know why I don’t have cool powers.I turn away from the table, fake smile disappearing from my face the mome
Chapter SevenDanielleI stick my fork into the cake and rest my head against the kitchen cabinet. I trade the fork for a bottle of wine and take a big gulp. I need it to wash down the taste of carrot cake. Normally, I steer clear of this stuff, but it was the only cake Walmart had in their bakery at one AM.Feeling sick from all the cream cheese frosting, I close the cake box, wipe my eyes, and push myself up off the kitchen floor. I drop my fork in the sink, take the wine, and go out onto the back porch, wanting the quiet of the night to open up and swallow me whole.Sundance is looking out his Dutch door, head hanging low and his lips slack. He’s nearly asleep, but he perks up and nickers softly when he sees me. I chug another mouthful of wine, grab a pair of flip-flops, and walk through the damp grass to the corral. I spill a bit of the wine when I climb through the wooden fence, and Sundance tries to lick it off my arm when I get to his stall.“I’ve made a mess of things again,”
Chapter EightLoganI’ve never so much as seen a photo of Danielle’s sister, but I know that woman standing there has to be her. They look alike, with the exact same shade of blue-green eyes. Her sister’s are heavily lined in dark liner, topped with fake lashes so long it’s a wonder she can see anything in front of her.Danielle stammers but holds her ground.“Well, then show me your ring,” her sister spits in a tone that borders on mocking. She knows Danielle isn’t really engaged and made the whole thing up. I have no idea why she did, but I’m sure it was for a good reason. Her family is judgmental and cares about appearances.Maybe her parents were pressuring her to come back home so they could set her up with another rich asshole. The thought of Danielle going on a date with some trust fund jerk makes jealousy bubble in my stomach. I need to stop giving a fuck.Danielle only wants to be friends.“I, uh, I…”Diana snatches Danielle’s hand and lets out a snort of laughter. This is ex
Chapter NineLogan“So you’re telling me that I’m going to be down two bartenders?” Owen looks up from the plate of leftovers he brought home from Mom and Dad’s.I stare at him for a good few seconds. “That’s all you’re taking away from this?”He shrugs. “Yeah. Now I have to work.”“Wow. What a crazy concept to work when you’re at work.” I take a seat at the kitchen table and pull a roll off Owen’s plate. The fucker ate the rest while I was at work. “You did hear me, right?”“Of course I heard you.” Owen sits back, looking right at me. “You know I love you,” he starts. “And I know you’re in love with Danielle, even if you’re not willing to admit it to anyone.”“I’m not—”“Lie to yourself all you want.” Owen picks up his fork. “But it’s useless lying to me. I’m the better version of you, remember? I know everything.”I let out a slow breath and go to the fridge to get the second plate Mom sent over. Well, that’s if Owen didn’t eat it too. This is one of the rare occurrences where Owen
Chapter TenDanielle“I made that lasagna you like and put it in the freezer. And the award-winning pie is in the cake stand on the counter.” I go over to the fridge, making sure it’s well stocked before I leave for the airport.“Kiddo,” Grandpa says, limping a bit as he walks through the kitchen. “I know where the grocery store is. And even better, I know how to order a pizza.”“But they don’t deliver out here,” I counter.“I have the truck.”I put one hand on my hip. “I know. I just…I feel bad leaving.”Grandpa laughs. “I have enjoyed having you here. It’s nice having the company, and it was high time someone got out Grandma’s cookbook.” He eyes the pie on the counter.“Don’t eat it all in one day,” I say with a laugh.Grandpa gives me a wink. “I’ll try my best.”Black Cat jumps up on the counter and sniffs at the glass cake stand. Good thing I covered the pie. The porch creaks, and a second later, someone knocks on the door. My heart swells in my chest—just a tiny bit—knowing that
Chapter ElevenDanielleI carefully pull Logan’s earbuds out of his ears and take the iPad from his lap, shutting it off and putting it away in his carry-on bag. The pilot just came on and asked us all to turn off our electronic devices so we can start our descent. It’s been rather cold this whole flight, and Logan and I were sharing my blanket as we watched Infinity War together on the iPad. Logan fell asleep halfway through, and I’m feeling just as sleepy.After putting my own stuff away, I buckle my seat belt and look at Logan’s lap, biting my lip. I don’t know if his seatbelt is on, thanks to the blanket. I lift it up so I can check. His seat belt isn’t buckled, and I don’t want to wake him up. Unbuckling mine again, I lean over, trying to find both parts to his seatbelt so I can click it into place.I can’t reach it, so I drop to my knees and inch closer. And then the plane hits a bit of turbulence. I pitch forward, hitting my forehead on Logan’s knee.“Trying to cop a feel?” he
Chapter TwelveLoganI pull the curtains closed, blocking out the light, and get back into bed. Danielle is sound asleep, and waking up with her next to me brought up a feeling inside me that I can’t quite figure out.It feels right.But it’s wrong.We’re pretending.I want this to be real.And the more we fake it, the more we put on the masks of happy lovers, the more it feels like it’s not going to really happen. Doesn’t quite make sense, I know.Luckily, Danielle took a long shower last night and I fell asleep before she got into bed. If I’d still been awake, I don’t know if I would have been able to sleep knowing that next to me, only an arm’s length apart, was the woman I’ve been in love with since the moment I met her.It’s early in the morning, but the sun is already up and shining brightly down on the beach right outside our window. I actually have no idea what we’re supposed to do today, but I know at some point we’re having breakfast or brunch—or lunch at this point—with Dan
Chapter ThirteenDanielle“I’ll have a mimosa,” I tell the waiter. “But can I get vodka instead of champagne, and then hold the orange juice?”The waiter lowers his notepad and blinks. “You just want vodka?”“Yes.” I close my drink menu. “Make it a double, please.” “Interesting way to start the day but a good choice nonetheless,” he says with a chuckle. “And for you, sir?”“I’ll have the same but with the orange juice,” Logan orders even though he hates vodka. He’s a beer and whiskey drinker. Occasionally, he’ll take a shot or two of tequila. But vodka…nope. He said he drank too much during college and it ruined it for him.“You okay?” Logan asks when the waiter steps away. We’re sitting at the end of a large table, surrounded by my sister’s friends. Two have been her friend since high school, and she met the others during college.“Physically, I’m fine. I even agree with you that this dress looks good on me. But mentally.” I widen my eyes and make a face. “That’s a whole different s
EpilogueDanielleAbout a year later…“I finalized the menu for the bakery,” I tell Logan, watching him put another log on the fire. He comes back to the couch, picking up the papers from the coffee table, and sits next to me.“Are you warm enough?” he asks, reaching for another blanket.“I’m fine,” I tell him, though I know he’s going to keep pampering me like crazy. He’s been at it all week, and I don’t think he’s going to stop any time soon. “The temperature did plummet fast today.”“Yeah. But it’s supposed to warm back up soon.”“I’d like that.”“Gotta love the spring weather in the Midwest. It was hot two days ago and back down to freezing today.” Logan pulls my legs into his lap and starts rubbing my feet. I lean back, closing my eyes. “That feels good.”We got married in October, much to my own mother’s dismay. It wasn’t enough time to plan a big fancy wedding, but that’s not what we wanted anyway. Just a week or so after Logan proposed, we started looking around for places to
Chapter Thirty-OneDanielleLogan puts his lips to mine again, and I wrap my arms around his shoulders. I love this man so much. He is the best friend I could ask for, and the best relationships are built on a foundation of respect and friendship. We just fit together, and I know I’ll never find another person in the whole world who gets me better than Logan Dawson.Things feel the same between us, and yet everything has changed.“Do you need to go to the lawyer now?” he asks between kisses.“I should.”“Want me to come with you?”“You’ll be bored.” His lips go to my neck, and I start to melt against him. “Hell, I’ll be bored. But it would be nice to have you with me.”Logan pulls me into a tight embrace, and I rest my head against his chest and listen to his heart beating. My eyes fall shut, and for the first time since we left Hawaii, I don’t feel like I’m spiraling out of control.Things are still messy. Things are still going to hurt for a while. But that’s life, isn’t it? It’s no
Chapter ThirtyLoganI sit in the driveway, drumming my fingers on the steering wheel. I just left Danielle’s house and got home, but I haven’t gone inside yet. My mind is racing, and my heart is beating fast right along with it.I love her.I don’t want her to leave, even if it’s just for a few weeks. But I don’t want to be selfish, because she’s going through a hard time right now, and if getting away from Eastwood is what she needs, then she should go.But will she come back?She came here because her grandpa was here, and now that he’s gone…what’s going to keep her here?Me.Maybe. Maybe not.“Fuck,” I swear under my breath. For the last year I’ve wanted to tell her that I love her. We finally made love, and it was incredible. She’s incredible.We are incredible together.I close my eyes and lean my head back against the seat.And then Owen knocks on the window. “Dude, what the hell are you doing?” he asks, opening the passenger side door.“Trying to decide if I should tell Daniel
Chapter Twenty-NineDanielleI lean against the metal gate, watching the horses run around the pasture. The chickens are already fed, and the goats are grazing near the barn. It’s a little after eight in the morning, which is still early for me but not as early as Grandpa got up to feed the animals.I can handle eight AM. Well, when the weather is nice, that is. I’m already dreading having to trudge out here in the rain and snow.Logan was still asleep on the couch when I came out here, and I silently go back into the house, not wanting to wake him. He’s been my rock the last few days, and I really don’t think I could have gotten through this without him.I’m making breakfast when my phone rings, and I hurry to silence the call. It’s a local number, but since I don’t know who it is, I don’t answer. If it’s important, they’ll leave a message. And I really don’t feel like talking to anyone right now anyway.Looking around the kitchen, I feel an emptiness in my heart. I want it to go awa
Chapter Twenty-EightLogan“How’s Danielle doing?” Owen asks, moving an empty casserole dish from the counter to the sink. We’re at her house, and the service for her grandpa just ended. A few people are still at the house, sharing stories and memories. Her grandpa was respected by the town, and we are all feeling his loss. I think half the town turned up today, bringing flowers and food and giving their condolences. That’s the thing with small towns. When you know most everyone, you care for most everyone.“She’s trying to keep it together.” I open the fridge, trying to find a place to put the bowl of taco salad someone brought. It won’t fit, and I’m pretty sure the extra fridge in the basement is full already too.The last few days passed in a blur. Danielle cried, slept, and drank a lot, and then when the rest of her family came into town, the time was spent reflecting on her grandpa’s life and looking through scrapbooks. Now everything is over, and people are leaving.Stacking the
Chapter Twenty-SevenDanielleI open my eyes and roll over. I don’t know what time it is. Or what day it is. All I know is Logan is in bed next to me, and his slow and steady breathing is the only thing keeping me from falling apart. Everything happened so fast.We got to the hospital. Grandpa seemed like he was going to pull through. And then he was gone.I slowly get out of bed, needing to use the bathroom. Logan hasn’t even gone home yet since he got back to Eastwood. Everything was so perfect before, and I would give anything to go back to our last night in Hawaii.After using the bathroom, I go downstairs, following the sound of the TV. Mom is in the living room, drinking wine and watching a baking show. It’s almost four in the morning.“Mom?”“Oh, Danielle, honey. You’re up.”“So are you. Did you get any sleep?”“A bit here and there.”I cross my arms over my chest, chilled even though it’s warm in the house. Usually, we’d turn the air conditioning up before going to bed. I hate
Chapter Twenty-SixLoganDanielle is sitting in the waiting room. Her legs are curled up under her and her head is resting against the wall. She’s wearing black leggings and my sweatshirt, and my heart swells in my chest when I see her through the glass doors. I have to get buzzed into the ICU waiting area, and Danielle gets up as soon as she sees me.I take her in my arms, hugging her tight and holding her close.“How is he?”“Um,” she starts, letting out a shaky breath. “Stable for now. He was in really bad shape, and he’s so lucky the paramedics got him here in time.”“That sounds promising.”She nods. “I thought so too, but the doctor isn’t as optimistic.”“And how are you?”“I’m…shaken but okay. And I’m still just shocked to hear that he was so sick. I had no idea. I mean…I saw some changes but wrote it off as him aging. You slow down when you get old.”“He was acting just fine before we left.”“I know, and that’s what scares me.” Danielle rubs her forehead. “The doctor said he’s
Chapter Twenty-FiveDanielle“Mom.” I gently nudge her. “We’re landing.”She sits up, blinking rapidly, and looks around. Maybe she took more Xanax when I wasn’t looking, because she slept nearly that entire flight. I don’t know the last time I slept for a solid eight hours, and I know that’s entirely my fault. I stay up too late doing non-important things, like binging TV shows or finishing a book.My phone is in my hands, waiting to get the all clear to turn it off airplane mode. It’s early in the morning here in Chicago, and I’m terrified for the news I’ll get once I get service again. I pack up my bag and look out the window, feeling an odd sense of relief to see Lake Michigan and the flat, green Midwest land below us.Using my feet, I push the bag under the seat in front of me and grip the armrests. Landing always makes me a little nervous, and I don’t have Logan’s hand to hold this time.I turn my phone back on the second we’re on the ground and check for updates. A text comes t
Chapter Twenty-FourDanielleI look at myself in the mirror as I wash my hands, and for the first time in a long time, I don’t pick apart my appearance. Having my hair and makeup professionally done helps, but mostly…I look happy.Because I am.So incredibly fucking happy, and nothing can dampen my mood. Want and desire swell inside of me, and I’m going to go find Logan and take him up to our room. He said he was going to take his time with me, but I want to do the same to him.Tie him up. Tease him. Make him beg for more.I dry my hands, smooth out my dress, and go back to the reception hall. Logan is at the table, with his back to me. A smile pulls up my lips, and no matter how hard I try, I can’t stop smiling.Logan turns around, almost like he can sense me coming. He’s on the phone, and something isn’t right.“What’s wrong?” I ask, rushing over to him.“I’ll call you back,” Logan says to whoever he’s talking to.“Logan?” I’m getting a little freaked out. “What’s wrong?”“That was