SEKANI: At the back of my head, there was only one thing on repeat. That I had to run away from this man. That he wasn't at all good for me. That he was bad for me and I hated that I kept suppressing those thoughts that nothing else mattered. I remembered my first kiss. Sean was my first kiss. I could barely get a kiss from anyone in high school and each time I heard Sekani talk about the magical kiss she'd shared with her boyfriend in high school, I was curious to know how it felt. Although Luca had offered to give me that experience, I had turned him down. Hell, he was my best friend. Why would he want to ruin what we had for a mere kiss? So I started out with my first kissing experience. I started with the nerds who found me interesting enough to talk to but neither of them seemed to get the hint or were too nervous to kiss Sekani Salvador. Then I tried finding that kiss amongst the nonexistent students but they seemed to hate my braces. So I gave up. I didn't worry ab
SEKANI: I slept off after giving myself a much-needed orgasm. I did everything possible to make sure I didn't think of what transpired between me and Sean. It was only going to prove what Luca had said was right and I felt genuinely ashamed of myself for even allowing things to go that way. I slept off minutes later, waking up to the shrill ring of my alarm during the early hours of the morning. Turning over, with eyes still closed, I grabbed my phone and swiped my screen before letting it drop to the bed. Another ten minutes wasn't going to hurt or get me fired. So I enjoyed the few minutes I had left, getting every sleep I could at least catch before it rang once again. Letting out a groan and almost bursting into tears, I snatched my phone and opened my eyes, sitting up in the process. "Why do I have to go to work today?" I groaned, falling back into the bed and spreading my legs out like a little child relaxing on a Saturday morning. Wait... Today
SEKANI: "Ma'am, your right foot." I placed my right foot into the hands of the woman seated before me. She placed it on a plush footpad and began to apply a white coat of gel polish on my feet. I stared down at my nails, sighing and almost kissing her but I held back from doing that with everyone constantly staring at the CEO of Ultra Media. It was why I hated being here. The eyes. But with a nail tech this good, I could ignore a few hours of just letting them stare. Once I was done, I paid her, making sure I tipped her handsomely for a job well done. She waved me goodbye, along with the other women who were pretending not to have been staring at me. I also waved at them before walking out of the shop and making my way to the hairstylist. She didn't take much time, as my hair was still very well down. All she did was add a few highlights before I made my way out of the salon to my last stop which was the boutique. Two hours and several dresses later, I arri
SEAN: Mya, after about an hour, could take a few laps with my supervision and just half a lap unsupervised. A few times, I'd caught her before she dropped to the bottom, bringing her back up as we both shared deep laughter. "I can do it, Daddy!" Mya slipped out of my hold and I relaxed, watching as she struggled to finish to the end. I floated right behind her and pulled her out of the water before sitting her on the concrete slab. "How are you both enjoying your swimming lessons?" Sekani asked, stepping out through the french doors with s towel hanging around her shoulders. She was fully dressed so I guessed she had brought the towels for either me or Mya. "Having fun, mum!" Mya called from where she stood. "I can now swim on my own, yayy!" "Oh, that's nice," Sekani replied, briefly glancing at me with an unreadable expression before she took a seat on the lounge. She was wearing a sundress that barely reached her knees. That way, I could peek at her flawless skin
SEKANI: I woke up in a cold room and a blanket over my body. It was the comfiest I'd felt since I slept in this room. The room was dark, with light pouring out of the bathroom door that had been left slightly ajar. I could tell there was no one in the room because I didn't hear sounds of movements or the sorts. Sighing, I threw back my head and yawned the loudest before throwing back the covers and climbing out of the bed before I stepped into the bathroom to wash my face. From how damp the glass walls of the bathroom felt, I could tell that Sean had been in there moments ago. Pressing into the liquid face wash dispenser, I bent low and slathered it over my face before washing it off, drying it up with a towel, and leaving the bathroom. I slipped out of my old clothes and put on a clean pair of shorts and a tank top. I wasn't in the mood to wear anything restrictive. Just as I stepped into the hallway, the smell of something meaty cooking wafted into my nose. I
SEKANI: Leaving the kitchen was a relief for me. I could still feel the tenseness in my bones as I set the cup on the table beside Mya who had now taken out her color book and was doing all the painting. I poured her half a cup of drink and handed it over to her, smiling when she leaned over to kiss me on the cheek. Then I sat back, handing suitable colors to her as I watched her paint. It was really a beautiful sight and I couldn't even hold back my smile as she continued to colour. And by the time we were almost done, Sean popped his head out to announce that he was done cooking, causing Mya to leave whatever she was doing and zip towards the kitchen. Sean hung around and I knew he did because I could feel his gaze on me as I faced the book before me and pretended not to see him. "Are you going to join us or do you want to keep avoiding me because of what happened back in the kitchen?" "I don't really care about that," I laughed, feigning interest in Mya's colo
SEKANI: "I am going to tempt you so bad you find yourself crawling to me. You'll find yourself begging me to touch you. You'll find yourself sexually depraved. But until then, I guess you should start preparing to resist me." I shook those thoughts from my head. This was like the hundredth time I was thinking of it and I didn't know exactly how that made me feel. Or did I? No, I didn't. It wasn't desire or yearning I felt towards him. It was a surprise. Genuine surprised at what he had said. And no, I didn't stare at him for most of last night while he slept peacefully. I didn't find myself needing to crawl into his arms, knowing fully well he was going to sleepily pull me in. I also didn't find myself taking in his muscular build, tracing my eyes down his muscles and the crevices of his perfectly sculpted body. Instead, what I did was play candy crush to distract myself and in less than five minutes, I had fallen asleep but not after I had spent over an hour wat
SEKANI: Sean was done in less than fifteen minutes. I was surprised at the speed he used in getting dressed. Well, all he wore was a pair of tracksuits with something similar on top. "You didn't tell me you're their new coach," I mentioned to him the moment we slipped into the car. All geared up like this would have mothers mistaking you for their coach. "But I am not," He shrugged and laughed. "Today's a Saturday and our daughter has a match. I only dressed this way in the spirit of today's match. I'm sure other fathers would dress this way too." "Oh, they won't," I laughed. "And they're never at the girls' football matches." Sean frowned. "Are you serious?" I nodded. "Yes. They don't think their daughters are worth watching. So it's always the mothers attending. The fathers only ever attend when it's their sons playing." "Totally sexist and patriarchal but let's not say anything about it." He shrugged and shook his head, shutting the door before he revve
SEAN: I paced from one side of my office to the other, impatiently waiting for a response from the delivery guy I had specially paid to send the package to Sekani. An hour had passed and I was yet to hear from him. At the sound of a knock on the door, I hurried towards it, disappointed to see Jake standing in front of me when I opened the door. "Why do you look at me like I am the last person you want to see today?" "Because you are," I flopped into one of the seats. "What are you doing here?" "I've not seen my best friend in a week. His calls haven't been picked and then I am told that he's here today so I head over to his office to see him, only to be told that I am the last person who wants to see," He clutched his heart in pain. "That hurts really bad, I have to tell you." "How are you doing?" "Good," He took a seat beside me. "With you not around, things have quite been okay, I guess. Everyone respects me when you're not around." "You're being dramatic as
SEKANI: The next morning, I woke up in a daze. I was in torment and that torment was the memories from last night. How did it happen? What had driven me to his study, one I had never stepped foot into since I could last remember? Sean was snoring softly beside me and I wore just panties and nothing on top. I tried not to move for the sake of not waking him up and having to spend the next few moments awkwardly. How could I get his fucking arm off me? It was almost the crack of dawn and the skies were starting to turn into a lighter shade of Ultramarine. Birds were starting to sing and music played softly in the background from Sean's phone. Yes, while we were having several rounds of sex and waking at intervals to his hard crotch between my buttocks, he had stopped to play music to spice up the moment. And it had done the work. After he did that, it was all me instigating it all, ignoring the warnings my brain sent to me. At that moment, nothing made sense. Only having Sean th
SEAN:Mya was fast asleep on the couch when I got to the living room. I picked her up and took her back to her room, placing her on the bed and tucking her in before kissing her forehead goodnight. I stood there at the head of her bed for a while, watching her sleep peacefully. Mya was the reason any of this made sense because I knew I'd have taken my L and found my way. I couldn't deal with the guilt and all of these anymore but how could I just leave when I had a daughter who loved me so much? Knowing that sleep was going to be hard for me to find, I made my way to my study and decided to complete a few tasks. Thankfully, by the time I was going to be done, maybe Sekani would be fast asleep. I didn't want to get into a conversation with her and even if it was going to take just one night of not speaking to each other again, I could survive it. I was ten minutes into finishing up a few documents when I heard the sound of the door clicking open. I looked up to see Sekan
SEAN: Spending the whole day with Mya had been nice, but worrying over Sekani and her whereabouts didn't allow me enjoy it to the fullest. I tried to be the most playful around Mya but I could tell she didn't believe I was. She constantly asks if I was sad until I forced myself to be overly happy. Things you did for the women you loved. I was going to do anything to make Sure Mya was happy. I kept checking Sekani's twitter page to see if she was going to make any post. I was already used to anticipating her posts as I had spent the last five days stalking her page and following whatever was going on in her life. And now that she was out, I found myself doing the same thing. It wasn't until eight o'clock she called me, sounding a little bit drunk. Her words slurred and I got more worried. She was probably calling me because she got lost. I was sure Sekani would never call me now matter what the hell was happening and now that she did, I was kind of happy that she actual
SEKANI: I dressed casually today. It was Sunday and also a beautiful day. And thankfully, I had started my morning on a good note. There was something about going to that cliff that made me realize life could be beautiful and enjoyed. Something about it that reminded me we only lived once. So I decided within myself to spend my weekends doing nothing but having the time of my life. But now, how could I have the time of my life with Sean in it? How could I enjoy it with the reminder that someone who had wronged me in the past was also enjoying it with me? It felt like I was going round and round in circles because hell, I shared Sean to suffer and somehow, I hadn't even achieved a thing that made me proud of the fact that I actually did. Nothing I had planned seemed to work. It was either irrelevant or just something I didn't do. And as I drove out of the gates of the house, I made a mental note to harden my heart. I made a mental note not to look at Mya and decided agains
SEKANI: Sean was quick to catch and stabilize me and when I tried pulling away, he held me from moving and shut the door behind me. Even in the dimly lit room, I could see how his eyes dropped intensely onto mine. I could see how they swirled with so much intensity. "Sekani," He muttered under his breath. "Can we talk now?" "There are several places to talk and you choose this place?" I asked, raising my brows in askance. "Why choose here of all places?" "Let's not act like we don't know you've been avoiding me since my return. This was the only place I could get you," He pulled away from me and folded one arm over the other before turning towards the door. "I haven't been avoiding you," I replied. "I have only been on my own. Doing my own things like I usually do. We have never done anything together and you could have simply told me you wanted to speak to me." He scoffed and raked his fingers through his hair. "Really? When have you ever given me the c
SEAN: "My name is Mya Salvador," Mya spoke slowly and politely. I'd never seen such an active child mellow to my mother and this was the first since she greatly disliked kids. I could tell my grandmother was already in love with her. From the way she smiled and spoke, they both enjoyed a wonderful conversation. So I decided to leave the kitchen in search of Sekani. I made my way over to the living room but it was void of her presence. Whistling, I made my way to the room in a way to alert her that I was coming to see her. But then, I got to her room and didn't see her there. Frowning, I stopped by the door and stared into the room, void of her presence. None of her clothes hung around. No sign of her at all. I walked into the room and took a seat on the side of her bed. I ran my hands on the sheets, imagining she was there and I was caressing her body. I slept beside her last night and yet, she felt so far. So distant. I couldn't reach out to her as I was very scared of b
SEKANI: By the time I arrived home, it was almost dusk and I could already tell that Sean was in the kitchen making dinner once again. Mya was also in the kitchen and as I walked into the house, I heard her chirpy voice in the kitchen, asking Sean all sorts of annoying questions he kept answering her. It was finally nice to have him back. Now, Mya could disturb someone else that wasn't me. Without going into the kitchen as I was avoiding Sean at all costs, I made my way into the room, took off my clothes, and decided that the food I had shared with the girls was enough. And tomorrow was Sunday so there was really nothing to do. I checked the time to see it was a few minutes after seven o'clock. Watching movies on Netflix wasn't a bad idea so I did just that, opening up my laptop and logging in before spending over thirty minutes looking for a suitable movie to watch. Well, I found one. It was a historical romance movie set in France and it was something I could
SEKANI: After what happened last night with me losing my guard, I promised myself not to let it happen again. For a man who had disappeared all of a sudden a week ago, I shouldn't have even let him touch my skin. It was a mistake and I wasn't going to let it repeat itself. After breakfast, I went back to the room we shared, got cleaned up, and slipped into a sundress. I had a day out with Yuri, Amelia, and Toni. It had been months since we last hung out and now that our schedules finally aligned with no one sick or tired, as snatched up the opportunity and decided to hang out. We were going to be having a picnic at the beach and Toni had taken that upon herself, asking me to come along with bottles of wine. I took my toke today, applying skincare and light makeup before putting on my jewelry and snatching my handbag from the shelves in the walk-in closet built into Sean's room. When I got to the living room, Mya was seated on the beanbag with Sean on the floor besid