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The Final Betrayal
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2021-08-25 19:20:57…Tyler POV…
I would hope that Jenna and my life has gone back to normal again. But with this fake smile on my lips, I have not yet been able to let go of the fact that if the babies in her belly are mine. I have not been able to build up that courage that I need to ask her; I keep on stuttering like a fool, then I end up leaving it.
So today, we are going to the Doctor, and he's going to put that ungodly probe against her body and twirl it around to show us what is going to probably be the size of a tiny little person depending on how far along pregnant she really is. Now, this is terrifying the shit out of me because I know the further along she is, the more possible it is not my child, but in fact, it is Luke's.
Now I still have not raised this concern with her even though she can see in my eyes that I am fearing the worst she knows that I want to ask it, but she knows that I will not ask it for she is scared to confirm it to me, she is scared th
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