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Getting Back To Our Roots
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2024-10-29 19:42:56...Tyler POV...
It is the day after the test, and things are very tense around the house. I think that they are going to remain so for the next ten days, and I can honestly say that I am not looking forward to the nightmare. So for the next ten days, I am going to do whatever I possibly can to make things easy for Jenna around the house.
Today I am going to surprise her with a picnic by the old tree. We need to get back to where we were, and this is the only way. Doing the things that we love the best.
So it is still early morning. She is still fast asleep as yesterday did drain her out a bit; that is why I am having the picnic so that she can just relax.
Now trying to get the combination right of what she likes eating these days is a bit of a challenge. She has stopped drinking her strawberry milk because it makes her sick. She does have a fondness for camomile tea all of a sudden which I think is great for it makes her relax. Then the oddest one that I
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