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I Am Guilty.
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May 16th 2018
I gulp, listening to Detective Evie while my gaze is fixed on Rachel, watching her as she fusses over me.
"You look like you've just seen a ghost, baby." As she wipes the hair away from my face, she says with tenderness and I instantly believe I am not worthy of such a woman as herself.
"Detective.." I croak out, clearing my throat.
I watch with dread as she and Chad turn to face me. Chad's tense body begins to relax as he smiles at me. "Glad you found your way back to us, blondie." He flicks me a playful wink and a faint smile graces my face.
"Thanks," I reply, "It's good to be back." I let my eyes wander around the room and the sudden urge to come clean about Jimmy consumes me and before I know what's happening, the next lot of words start flowing out of my mouth.
"I have something I need to tell you," I say as I take a deep breath.
"I'm all ears," Evie replies giving me h
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