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Chapter: 34.

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Steven went back to reading, the words blurry but he tired. Whatever was going on, would be explained by this note.

So he read.

Hey baby!

I know what you’re thinking right now, don't worry too much I'll tell you everything. God, I'll miss you so much! I'm so sorry for what happened. Raya had you shot and you were going to die from excessive bleeding in your chest.

I couldn't let that happen, baby, so I-I. God, this is so difficult to write. Steven, I shot myself so you could have a change of heart.

That's right baby, I gave you my heart. See! You're not totally alone. You've got me, forever. Living inside of you. That's where I belong. That's home.

That's where I am meant to be.

I'm sorry if you don't understand any of this, but in time you'll do. Go on living for me baby.

Please!

I need you to stay alive, for me.

For us.

You're my world, Steven. The sex, love and all that we shared would always be a memory I'd die for over and over and over again.

And I m
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Mamake Sham
nooo...........how I wished Steven would love and somehow find happiness..I was even doing match making with the doc............
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Pino
I really enjoyed this book couldn’t stop reading it’s a very sad ending but loved it
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Lawanna Bails
this was a great book, really enjoyed it
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