Chapter 6

My wedding was a blast!

Everyone is so happy as if we are a normal couple who fell in love with each other and end in marriage.

Though I can't stop thinking about Jana. Even if they all thought that I don’t care about other people’s feelings, it’s the opposite.

I rejected most of my guy friends who confess to me not because I don’t care about their feelings for me but because I don’t want to lead them on knowing my destiny. It will hurt them more.

That is why I chose to be misunderstood as someone who has a heart that is hard as stone.

That is why now, I am bothered by the look on Jana’s face. I may not be able to experience romantic love but I earn lots of love from my friends and ex-friends.

"Penny for your thought my wife?" Malambing na tanong ng aking asawa.

Aking asawa. Until now I can't believe that I am Mrs. Ottave now.

"Jana." Tangi kong sinagot.

Napabuntong hininga ito. "Hon please, stop thinking about her, okay?"

I bit my lower lip. "How can you do that?"

Kumunot ang noo niya. "What do you mean?"

"Ang umarte na parang ayos lang ang lahat. Na normal lahat ang nangyayari. Na parang walang Jana na nasasaktan."

He faced me. "Look Mara, we both knew that this is our destiny. We have more than a decade to prepare ourselves for this. It's not that I don't care about Jana. Of course, I do. Jana is one of the best things that happened to me."

Hindi ko alam pero bigla akong may naramdamang kirot sa aking kaliwang dibdib.

One of the best things that happened in his life. What about me then?

"Hon please let's move on and be happy with our new life now hmm?" Malambing nitong sabi.

I just look at him. I can't read nor understand him. Why is he so cool about it?  If he loves Jana, why did he not even try to fight for their love? And why is he acting like a loving husband who is very in love with his wife?

"Come here hon."

He pulled me and hug me tight.

"Don't overthink, okay?" Pag aalo nito.

Para pa rin akong tuod na walang reaksyon habang yakap yakap niya.

He faced me. "And we should enjoy our honeymoon now hon." Then he winked.

Namula ako sabay tingin sa suite namin. It looks very romantic but because of Jana and Maru, I wasn't able to appreciate the view.

The room is full of red rose petals. A king size bed that has a towel that forms heart-dove. The light made the room more romantic.

Maru pulled my hand and brought me to the glass window. I was taken aback when I felt him on my back, hugging me. I can feel his breath from my neck.

"It feels nice." He spoke.

I look at him. He looks happy.

Is he?

Then he gave a quick kiss on my lips.

"I told you hon to stop overthinking. You are spoiling our honeymoon."

I let a heavy sighed. "Sorry."

"Apology accepted. So now Mrs. Ottave may I have this dance?" Anyaya nito.

Kumunot ang noo ko. "Nasaan ang music?"

He chuckled and showed me his iPod and put one earpiece on my ear and the other one on his and start to dance.

(Music)

If there were no words

No way to speak

I would still hear you

If there were no tears

No way to feel inside

I'd still feel for you

I just close my eyes and rested on his chest.

(Music)

And even if the sun refused to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart

Until the end of time

You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

I felt his lips kissing my head.

"Please stop overthinking and be happy with me." He muttered.

(Music)

All of my life

I have been waiting for

All you give to me

You've opened my eyes

And shown me how to love unselfishly

"I am true to my vow to you." He said while looking at me.

(Music)

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before

But in my dreams I couldn't love you more

I will give you my heart

Until the end of time

You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

"Me too." I answered him.

(Music)

And even if the sun refused to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart

Until the end of time

'Cause all I need is you, my Valentine

You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

"That's great Mrs. Ottave."

Then everything became slow motion. I can barely hear the music. I felt his lips with mine. Kissing me with passion and gentleness. And I find myself responding to him.

He gently removes our ear piece without breaking our kiss.

Slowly we went to our bed, still kissing me. And then I felt his hand on my back.

And I knew that tonight I will be giving myself to my husband.

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It felt so good feeling his warmth.

I found myself smiling while looking at my husband's face.

My husband.

I suddenly felt myself blush to remember what happened last night.

I still can't believe that I already gave myself to him.

"Morning wife." I open my eyes when I hear him speaks. His eyes are still close though.

Bigla niya akong hinatak at niyakap. "Ahhh Maru!"

"I prefer your moaned last night wife."

Lalo akong namula sa narinig ko. Hindi ko na napigilan na hampasin siya.

"Can you stop?!" Naiinis at nahihiya kong sabi.

He chuckled. "How are you feeling hon? Feeling sore?"

Hindi ko na yata mabilang kung ilang beses ako namula sa kahihiyan dahil sa lalaking katabi ko.

He is right though, I'm still sore down there.  But I knew that this feeling is normal for a first timer.

Napabalik ako sa realidad ng maramdaman ko ang mumunting halik galing kay Maru. Then he kisses my neck to my jaw to my lips.

I tried to break the kiss. "Maru hindi ka ba napapagod?"

He kisses me again. "No wife. I just woke up, that's why I have full of energy for you again."

"Maru!" But he won't budge.

"I can't get enough of you wife." Malambing na sabi nito.

"But I'm hungry." Palusot ko.

Tumaas ang kaliwang kilay niya "Really?"

Tango lang ang sagot ko rito.

"Okay hon. I will let you win this time because I know you’re still sore but next time no more excuses, okay?" He said the he gave me a quick kiss.

Napangiti naman ako at tumango.

I never expected this kind of marriage. I wonder if all arrange marriage is like this. Are my parents also like this when they got married?