🎶 cause everybody has a dark side and I'm across, never meant to be the bad guy but now I'm lost 🎶
ZARALARSSON- DARK SIDEAfter having my bath, I put on a plain white shirt with shorts and laid on my bed. Just staring at my ceiling.
Too good at goodbyes by sam Smith blaring through my headset and I laughed at the sudden coincidence of my playlist and my life.
This song is a technical motivation to block out so many toxic people in my life right now.
like Vicky..
Vicky was my friend at my early days in school but she walked out of my life last year when Hunter had asked her to be his girlfriend.
Yeah, she left me.
I really don't blame her though. Who would choose a bullied little sixteen year old over a hot rich jock that looked undeniably hot and sexy.
no one would.
not even my parents
That made me wonder sometimes, if Megan had met Hunter would she still be a friend to me?
I doubt so.
The next song to play from my headset was dark side by Zara Larsson. I really loved that song plus the fact that you could interprete it in a million ways possible depending on how you feel.
After a few minutes of tossing and stirring on the bed reality hit me that I haven't had a good meal since breakfast.
I turned to check the time and it was just five. Clearly giving me four more hours till my next medication.
I got up from the bed exchanging my headset for earphones, and changing from shorts to sweatpants.
It took a while but later on, I scrambled downstairs with my hoodie over my head again.
I approached the main door but I was stopped when my dad spoke.
"Iris, your mom told me something" his tone sounded like he's aiming for a conversation.
How amusing.
"oh, and what could that be?" i responded sarcastically without turning back to face him
"turn around and let me see you"
Really?? At this point in life all he could do was give me a command??.
"yeah, I could do that or I could just walk out this door and pretend we didn't have this conversation"
"please turn around" he pleaded but desperation suits no one dad.
"yeah the latter seems a lot more fun to me"
And with that I walked out the door.
fuck he cares!!
he can go to hell with his pocket of change.
I marched out angrily and felt another set of tears about to spilled but I ain't having it.
The sky seems oddly dark today. Okay the sun was setting and all, but it looked kinda rainy. And it seemed chilly.
Good thing I wore my hood.
like I could ever leave my room without it.
I walked for a while still listening to some songs on my playlist before arriving at Tucker's.
Tucker's was the burger shop I worked in on fridays only so I could have a little money at hand without asking my parents.
Believe me, I felt like their cash was blood money. Well actually it is.
With my blood.
I saw Tucker the owner of this mignifiqûe at a corner of the restaurant by the vending machine, looking like he was holding a staring contest with it.
This man never seizes to amuse me, I mean just looking at him could send you reeling in laughter.
I pushed my arms into the pocket of the hoodie and walked up to him.
"Good evening Tucker" I said while skipping to his side.
" Girl, you sound cheerful. Gotten laid yet?" he responded with his western accent tearing his gaze away from the vending machine to me.
My eyes just widened in shock. I wanted to reply but my words weren't coherent. so I shook my head in reply instead.
"And here I was thinking about matching my stripped trousers with a green shirt and purple suspenders to make a grand entrance into the wedding to shout I have an objection pastor, this young lady is my wife"
" Oh no, you aren't wearing that to my wedding" I teased and we both burst out laughing, but I winced a little because of the pain in my ribs.
"you okay kid?" he asked narrowing his eyes at me as we made our way back to the counter.
"yeah yeah am fine" I brushed off the topic. I don't even wanna think about it.
"oh yeah, explain the bandage" he said that's when I realized I still had the bandage on.
shit I can't lie now
or can I?
" I was running in the hallways and hit my head so hard I had a concussion" I said casually and even added a shrug.
Damn I'm a liar.
"oh and the hallway was on fire" he questioned again. What was with everyone and questioning me today?
"err.. no?"
"Good, then explain the burn on your neck also"
how the hell had he seen that.
"An accident" I replied looking down. I couldn't lie to him in the face.
At least not when I'm almost caught.
He just sighed, leaned on the counter and said lowly to me "you know you can talk to me right?, you can tell me anything."
I nodded at his statement but it's not like I'm gonna be doing that anytime soon.
Yeah I knew I could talk to him, but i didn't just want to add you to my list of people who'll abandon me to suffer just to be on the safe side.
"Good, so what can I get ya?" he stood straight and put on his smile that had disappeared during our little chitchat.
"A burger and banana milkshake will do please" I answered gleefully like a five year old.
"she's aiming for a belly just like mine" Tucker laughed while patting his protruding belly.
"I'm aiming for bigger" I winked at him and we both laughed once again with a little less enthusiasm on my side.
"oh my, seven hundred bottles of Tequila would do the trick in two days"
"Jesus!!!, a big belly not a big hole in the liver!!" I shouted at him in absolute shock.
Is he trying to kill me?
" Order coming right up" he said in between laughing and going to the backroom.
I looked round the place and nothing had changed, nothing usually changes though.
The order took a while so I began humming Beethoven's für d'elise to myself to while away my time.
A few minutes later, he came back with my food.
"thank you" I said putting a little cash on the table.
"keep the change" he whispered and winked at me
With a bright smile, I collected my order.
"thanks a lot, I owe you one" i whispered then took my money back and waved him a goodbye before walking out of the restaurant.
The weather had chilled an awful lot so I hugged my body for warmth and started walking to the park.
But then a voice from behind stopped me dead in my tracks.
"someone skipped school today"
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🎶I've found no cure for the loneliness, I've found no cure for the sickness.Nothing here feels like home, Crowded streets but I'm all alone🎶HOME- X AMBASSADORS, MACHINE GUN KELLY & BEBE REXHA. " Iris? honey you awake?" Clement's mom, Mrs Phoebe calls out as she opens my bedroom door by a squeak for fear of waking me if I wasn't already up. But I have been up for the past two hours. The discomfort is killing me."yeah I am, good morning Mrs Phoebe" came my airy response as I tried to get up from my lying position.keyword Tried.She made three quick strides into the room and used two hands to drag my heavy butt off the bed.
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🎶 so I peel my skin, and I count my sins, and I close my eyes, and I take it in.I'm bleeding out, I bleed out for you 🎶BLEEDING OUT- IMAGINE DRAGONS. Another morning and I'm still finding it difficult to get out of bed. This nausea and fever is really getting to me. Tossing and turning on the bed, trying to find a comfortable side but all efforts proved futile. To my luck, school was cancelled today.why you ask? It's been two months since the school's football team had left and they returned last week Friday with second place. Our position was due to Cole's injury in the semi finals, but the school was proud of them none the less. And to prove t
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