š¶ This could be the start
of something new, It feels so right To be here with you š¶ HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL- START OF SOMETHING NEW.The rain had stopped and now just a few drops grazed the floor at a time with a very damp wind.
We pulled up in front of a restaurant with an enormous parking lot a few minutes later.
After staying in the car for what felt like ages, I decided to speak up.
"what are we doing here? I thought you were gonna take me home?" I asked looking at the huge restaurant in front of the vehicle with a large signboard above it glowing in the night sky.
It read creĆØme.
š¶ I wanna hide the truth I wanna shelter you But with that beast inside There's no where we can hide š¶IMAGINE DRAGONS- DEMONS The dinner was mostly quiet, well more like Clement asking questions and me just blinking or nodding. Once I was done with my spaghetti, which seemed like a shock to me cause I never realized how hungry I was. Clement and I made our way back for the car and set out as it was already some minutes past nine. After a while of driving, I decided to speak. I turned to face him and opened my mouth" Thank you for the dinner, I'm sorry I couldn't pay for anything... I didn't have enough money on me since I'll need a little fare to get back home" ri
š¶ I've been looking for a savior I've been looking for a real one to hold on to, I've been looking for a savior š¶SAVIOR- IGGY AZALEA FT QUAVO After a few curves and turns we were approaching the restaurant. I sat up on my chair, getting ready to hop out. But he just passed by the building. "err-you've p-passed the place" I muttered to him."yeah, I know. I'm dropping you off at home" was his curt response and he continued driving without giving me a glance. Maybe I really offended someone who just bought me dinner." Do y-you need my ad-ddress?" God why am I such a whimp." Not necessarily. I know where I'm headed" his words came out through slightly gritte
š¶ stuck inside my head like a song you can't forget š¶EARTH TO MOVE- MAROON FIVE I walked up to my doorstep and rang the bell, after a few seconds of waiting, rattling keys was heard from the other side and the door was opened by the woman who gave birth to me. At that point Clement now started his engine and drove off while my mom stared at his moving vehicle." Where were you? and who was that?" she asked while standing with her hands on her hips and preventing me from going in." I don't know, plus it's cold outside and I'm freezing " I said and pushed passed her." Oh sorry about that" she said" No need" and I began heading to the kitchen to fetch a glass of water but heard footsteps walk in. After clearing her throat she spoke up "ehm..
š¶ I'm just avoiding you likebroken glass.There are no winners whenThe sky is cast. š¶BROKEN GLASS- SIAIt's the third day after my injury. The day I had to get rid of this bandage.I walked down the hallway to the nurse's office and knocked twice on the wooden door."come in" I heard the tiny voice of miss Joanne say, and I gripped the handle to let myself in.She was busy writing away records with her glasses hanging at the bridge of her nose. She sat at her tiny desk that was always cleared and neat except for the little stethoscope set that sat at the edge of the table that made contact with the wall."good morning miss Joanne" I greeted and she raised her head, before a lovely smile graced her lips.Why is she so happy to see me this morning? Ain't I like a burden or something
š¶ I don't understand why you're so cold to me with every breath you breathe š¶COLD - MAROON FIVE FT FUTURE Class went ahead as usual, people snickering and laughing at me when they deemed it time, others ogling and giggling at Hunter, the teacher giving us work to do then dozing off. The only thing odd about this class was Meredith tried making conversations with me, but I ended up responding with only nods or smiles that look like grimaces. It's really awkward to have someone try to talk to you, when all you've been used to is being insulted or hit. I know am putting her in a really tight position right now because the smile she had on her face is faltering and turning more into an annoyed expressio
š¶ I've found peace in your violence can show me there's no point in trying, I'm that one and I've been silent for so long š¶SILENCE- MARSHMELLO FT KHALID. It's Saturday, and its my shift at Tucker's. Six to Ten PM is just the best time at this place. Aside from the steady and slightly crowded nature of this building, every other thing seems cool. The first two hours of the shift I'm behind the counter, the last two am waiting tables. I was by the counter, making sums of our profit so far, when I heard a voice I was too familiar with."And she works, tell me one more reason why I can't like you again?" Clement spoke while taking a seat directly in front of me. I on the o
š¶ Yes I've been thinking Yes I'm pretending That i don't need your love š¶PRETENDING- A BOOGIE WITH A HOODIE FT JESSE REYES. I walked out of the restaurant faster than I ever have in my whole life and started marching east, to my way home. I heard the honk of a car but didn't bother turning back. I don't need interruptions right now. Still marching with my tear streaked face I didn't care to look back when the horn was blown again."What is it!?" I stopped moving, turned around and recognized the red Audi.My suspicions only became clearer when he jumped out of his car and ran towards me." Hey did you forget I said I'll pick you up? " he asked as he approached me but stopped once he saw my face "what the-
š¶ Am holding on,why is everything so heavyHolding on, there's so muchmore than I can carry š¶HEAVY- LINKIN PARK FT KIIARAClement left a few minutes ago, not before making sure I was okay. Right now I was tucked up in bed and gazing at my ceiling. Counting sheeps is meant to help me fall asleep but all I can see is the dainty sheeps dancing tango in my vision.i really really need this sleep, waking up before my alarm has not been helpful at all.I gave a loud long sigh and continued."one sheep, two sheeps, three shee-" I was removed from my numerics by my specific ringtone for a specific person.Unknowingly, a smile landed on my lips as I answered the phone call."Okay, so spill, how was your day?" and that was how she began the conversation.
š¶ can I just turn back the clock, Forgive my sins. I just wanna roll my sleeves up, And start again š¶START AGAIN- ONEREPUBLIC FT LOGICHUNTER'S P.O.Vāāāāāāāā" I still can't believe you left lovelyn with that Zoe girl " Dylan exclaimed as he made his way into the kitchen.I on the other hand was on the couch, watching this movie that he picked out saying it was fun. And I regret leaving him to make the choices." Well the girl has always been disturbing me for a favor she owes me and I seized the opportunity " I shrugged " Did you just call handing over your little sister to a complete stranger an opportunity?" He emerged from the kitchen with a new bowl of popcorn and a roo
š¶ tough times don't last But tough people do š¶I BELIEVE - DJ KHALED FT DEMI LOVATO.I was back at the reception area sitting quietly with hopes of waking up any moment from this nightmare.Mom helped me walk out of the room as the doctor began removing appliances and connections attached to Jan's body. And I was in no mood to argue. Dad was sitting by my side all this while as I held onto him for comfort. I had already asked him quite a number of times if I was dreaming but I received a negative reply. Then I changed my course.I asked if he was dreaming instead.Trying hard not to laugh, he also gratified me with a negative answer. So I accepted my fate and maintained silence. Except if this is Mom's dream though.
š¶ Mama you're okay now. You're safe now, okay. You're in a better place now. I'll see you another day now. š¶UOK- NASTY C Bonjour everyone!!Everyone, bonjour!! Why I'm so happy?, well today is the twelfth day into the month of September and guess what? It's also my birthday.Give me an A! Hahaha. So much for beginning to take responsibility. Did I make mention that today was also the day I was allowed to take my babies home.Yay us! They've finally completed nine whole months!They're so grown up.*Sniffles tears*" The earlier you
š¶ If there is one thing that I'll never learn is, If you play with fire You're bound to get burnt but, Bad Bitches don't cry š¶BAD BITCHES DON'T CRY- BEBE REXHA. " What color do you want? Purple or blue?" Mom asks holding the pedicure kit in her right hand as she takes position on the floor of my feet. After I came back home, I decided it was time to let them in, so I told them everything that had happened to me, even the reasons why I tried taking my own life. And they promised to stand by me and support me. They planned on confronting Mr Brooks about his son but I went against it. That would only cause more problems than it already had, but then again they
š¶I've found no cure for the loneliness, I've found no cure for the sickness.Nothing here feels like home, Crowded streets but I'm all aloneš¶HOME- X AMBASSADORS, MACHINE GUN KELLY & BEBE REXHA. " Iris? honey you awake?" Clement's mom, Mrs Phoebe calls out as she opens my bedroom door by a squeak for fear of waking me if I wasn't already up. But I have been up for the past two hours. The discomfort is killing me."yeah I am, good morning Mrs Phoebe" came my airy response as I tried to get up from my lying position.keyword Tried.She made three quick strides into the room and used two hands to drag my heavy butt off the bed.
š¶ who gon' pray for me take my pain for me sing a song for me š¶PRAY FOR ME- THE WEEKEND FT KENDRICK LAMAR A week later and I was discharged from the hospital with a long scar stitch on my left forearm and a complete first trimester. The bump of my belly becoming a little observable so I did as much to get involved in wearing oversized tops. Well, I still had to stay at home for another week cause Megan won't let me move an inch and my parents secretly pleaded with her to keep me there so they could have a chance to talk to me. And I laughed in the face of chances.hahahaha. But today has been two weeks since my discharge and I'm on a ride to school with Meredit
š¶ suicide if you ever try to let go I'm sad I know, yeah I'm sad I know,yeahš¶SAD - XXXTENTACION beep. beep. beep. Continuously repeating itself meanwhile my body felt stiff. I inhaled a really deep breath and caught a whiff of disinfectant mixed with bleach. something's not right. Opening my eyes by an inch, all I saw was white.could this be heaven? But pastor's always said in paradise all things are beautiful. So heaven should at least smell like a lovely fragrance? I opened my eyes wider and saw a loop of wires.definitely not heaven.So
š¶ so I peel my skin, and I count my sins, and I close my eyes, and I take it in.I'm bleeding out, I bleed out for you š¶BLEEDING OUT- IMAGINE DRAGONS. Another morning and I'm still finding it difficult to get out of bed. This nausea and fever is really getting to me. Tossing and turning on the bed, trying to find a comfortable side but all efforts proved futile. To my luck, school was cancelled today.why you ask? It's been two months since the school's football team had left and they returned last week Friday with second place. Our position was due to Cole's injury in the semi finals, but the school was proud of them none the less. And to prove t
š¶ The more I read it, yeah the more I take offense š¶EVERYBODY HATES ME - THE CHAINSMOKERS It's been a week. A week since I spoke to Meredith. A week since I heard from Clement. A week since my parents bothered me.So yeah, it's been a really long week. I was leaving my locker to attend my last class for the day, A shadow casts in my line of sight, but from the bangs and waves, no need to confirm the person."hey" Meredith's whisper came out a lot shallow than her personality could reach. I took that chance to look at her. After a week, Meredith looks dull. The light in her eyes faded, but still held an ounce of hope. Hope that my thoughts might have changed after a week.