Chapter 1

Ashley didn't know what she will feel now that the man she loves is in front of her and he is with someone else. She could hardly move from where she was standing as if his entire being was numbed by what she had witnessed.

She thought that their relationship was almost perfect, they had been together for several years and she didn't think that the man she loved could do this to her. He has given everything but it seems that it is still not enough and he managed to find someone else.

"A-ashley babe." Kevyn stammered nervously, he was about to approach her but she shook her head and backed away.

"I can't believe it, I can't believe you will c-cheated on me." she almost whispered.

The woman who was with him quickly got dressed and ran out of her condo, even if I wanted to spank her and slap her, I couldn't because of the numbness of the whole system, I don't know what could be the reaction now I feel so hurt and drain.

"B-babe let me explain please." he's begging to make me laugh, if he thinks she can take me there, he's wrong.

"What else do you have to explain Kevyn? I already daw it  with my own two eyes, so what else are you going to say? That you're just playing? That you're just talking? That's stupidity!" I said emphatically.

"Please babe let's fix this."

I shook my head. "What's broken can't be fixed again asshole! I trusted you enough but you choose to betray me! Do you think I'll let myself be fooled by someone like you? I will never let that happen! " I shouted at him.

"In the few years we've been together, I've given everything to you, full of trust and love because I thought you were different, which you really are! But it's just that! It's not yet. I was blinded by my love for you, I sent to the sweet words, but all that is pure nonsense." I added.

"Ash, that's not true! I love you! I love you so much."

"Shut up! If you love me, you can't do this to me, you won't hurt me, you won't cheat on me! Where is the love you are talking about? It's in your masculinity that you only know how to enjoy it? Fuck you!"

He tried to come closer to me but I just pushed him away. "Don't come near me! Don't touch me! I hate you! I thought you're the one for me, you're the one to be with me for the rest of my life, but it seems I was wrong because I was the only one who thought about that. Pity me . I'm so stupid to think that way. I wonder when you've been cheating on me with how many other women you've been with and sleeping with behind my back. Hmmm. Maybe it won't count anymore, right? After a few years of being in a relationship maybe I don't even know you completely yet. I choose you even though at first my friends didn't like you for me but I still fought for you, I wish I would have listened to them so I wouldn't be hurt now. I chose you more than those whom I have known for a long time and have no other desire but my happiness. Maybe now you are happy because you crushed me but sorry to say this I will never get tha satisfaction you needed. Will make sure you regret fooling me Kevyn. I will get even! It's more painful than what you did to me." Emphasized and full of seriousness, I said and turned my back on him.

He grabbed my hand to stop me but I slapped him hard. "I told you not to touch me because you are disgusting but your face is too thick to do it anyway. If you think I will cry in front of you then you are wrong. I will never waste my tears to someone who is not worth it! That slap is nothing less than the pain you caused me!" I promised and left forever.

When I got out of the building where his condo was, I immediately went straight to my car and poured out the pain I was feeling there. To be honest, I wanted to cry in front of him, but I won't allow you to look like a pity in his eyes. I want to ask him why he cheated on me, but I thought that no matter how long you've been with the person you love, if he cheats, he'll do it no matter what. Cheating is a choice!

I spent almost an hour there before I decided to go home. Knowing that after this day I need to train myself to be alone because I have no one else to lean on because the one who chose to love was just cheated on me.

We have so many plans in life, we have a dreams but all that will remain just a memory. As others have said, it's not because you dreamed together and you can make it come true together. There are so many things that I realize today, maybe I just focused my attention on one person so I forgot to think about the people around me. There are more important things that need more attention.

All these years I depended on Kevyn, I hoped too much that he wouldn't do to me the things that happen to others. Sometimes I feel sorry for people who have been cheated even if I didn't know how painful it is, but now that I am in a situation similar to what they went through, I can say that it is very painful. It's like the pain is slowly killing me, it's like I'm losing my mind.

When I got home, I almost didn't feel like it, my thoughts were floating so much that I almost don't know how I got home properly and got to my room. I just sat on my bed. I feel so numb.

I feel like I'm running out of what I feel like if I scream because I'm hurt but I can't. I want to ask myself what I'm lacking, why I wasn't good enough when I did everything. If he doesn't love me nor want me anymore I wish he would have just told me, maybe I will accept that instead of him making me because it hurts more than if he was honest with me.

I held my breath several times because of thinking, my head hurts because I can't even give an answer to the questions that are forming in my mind. I want to rest because I feel so tired, I don't know how I will face the future without the person I was with.