"All my friends are wasted.
And I hate this club. Man, I drink too much.Another Friday night I've wasted. My eyes are black and red.I'm crawling back to your bed."We sang along to the band and dance along with the beat. Everyone in the crowd seemed to be enjoying the moment. Nag-uunahan sa pag indayog ang aming mga balakang at halos mapunit na ang aming lalamunan dahil sa pasigaw na pagsabay sa kanta.
Nandito kami ulit ngayon sa Bistro. As usual, ipinaalam ako ni Vettinah kay mama, at sinabing may kailangan kaming tapusin na requirements. I don't want to lie but, I have no choice. Kung hindi kami magpapalusot, maliwanag pa sa sinag ng araw na hindi ako papayagan.
We decided na bumalik na sa table namin. I removed my denim jacket before sitting on the couch. My friends did the same.
"Grabe, ang wild nila!" I exclaimed amusingly. Ganito pala ang pakiramdam ng may nightlife, masaya at masarap sa pakiramdam.
"True yan, tapos ang dami pang pogi!"
"Pokpok ka talaga,beh!" Pagbibintang ni Cassandra, kay Vettinah. We all laughed before drinking the last shot.
"Marupok lang ako pero hindi ako pokpok," she replied with a wink.
"Oy, order na ulit kayo," pag-uutos ni Cassandra matapos tunggain ang natitirang patak sa bote ng Black Label. Sa aming apat, siya lang ang hindi naka-mini attire.
"Mag-ambagan muna tayo mga tanga," Vettinah said. "Ang lalakas niyong uminom, kuripot naman kayo sa ambagan."
"Wow ha!" sumbat naman ni Ernisha. "Nagsalita naman yung lakas mag-aya sa inuman, pero weak naman."
"Atleast hindi katulad ni Tatiana," pagtuturo naman nito sa akin. "Excited mag-plano pero di naman pumunta."
"Boom, tokisss!"
"Tangina niyo, ako na. Libre ko na," I said before putting my money on the table. Tumawa ang mga ito at nag- apiran dahil nakalibre nanaman sila. Mukhang nabudol-budol nanaman ako nang mga 'to.
"Black Label ba," Cassandra asked. Tumayo ito at inalis din ang kanyang denim jacket. "O cocktail nalang tayo?"
"Cuervo nalang," Vettinah suggested.
"Gago ka," pagmumura naman ni Cassandra. "Ang yabang mo gago, porket di ka nalalasing."
"Sige, try natin 'yon," pagpayag ni Ernisha, bago umalis.
My phone keeps on vibrating so I looked at it, and saw my mother, calling. "Tumatawag si mama, cr lang ako," pagpapaalam ko sakanila. Mabilis ang mga hakbang na ginawa ko ngunit masyadong crowded kaya nahirapan akong makalagpas sa dance floor. I can't answer the call here, baka mabuking ako.
I decided to message her instead of answering the call. Sinabi kong hindi ko agad napansin ang tawag niya, dahil abala kami sa pagtipa nang research paper.
"I'm sorry," I apologized when I suddenly bumped into someone.
He chuckled. "Nakatadhana ba na lagi tayong magtagpo unexpectedly?"
"Nagkataon lang siguro."
"Lagi ako dito sa bistro, pero parang ngayon lang kita napansin." He's obviously hitting on me.
I bit my lower lip. Lagot ako kay Cassandra, baka isipin niyang inaagawan ko siya. But, by the way madami naman siyang reserba.
"Pangalawang beses ko pa lang."
"So you're not alone?"
"I'm with my friends," I said bago ituro ang table namin na medyo natatapalan ng mga naghaharutan sa dance floor.
"Friends and boyfriend?" He asked. Kunwari pa siya, halata namang gusto niya lang malaman kung may boyfriend ako o wala.
"I don't have one," sagot ko at tinitigan ito. He has tan skin, that suits his rock hard ripped body. He had that messy hair, deep expressive eyes that will make you not to look away from him, his thin reddish lips, that pointy nose, and strong jaw, that every girl couldn't resist.
"Oh," sabi niya na tila hindi naniniwala sa akin. "I thought you're with him. Nakita ko kasi siya kanina, sa labas ng Bistro."
"Who's him?"
"Your possessive boyfriend," he answered. "Na muntik akong sapakin."
"I already told you, he's not my boyfriend."
His lips slowly formed an amused smile. "Gusto mo ulit mag-perform?" He asked, smiling. I like his aura, he's always smiling. Magaan sa pakiramdam, at parang komportable ako.
"Dipende," I answered.
"Regular kami dito sa bistro, sabihan mo 'ko kapag gusto mo ulit."
"Pag-iisipan ko pa."
He chuckled sexily. "Hindi na dapat pinag-iisipan 'yon," tumigil ito saglit upang batiin ang ilang kakilala niya. He's too friendly and approachable. "Grab mo na agad, masarap mag lustay ng pera kapag galing sayo at pinaghirapan mo."
Mabilis kaming nagkasundo. He's easy to get along with. Given that we almost have the same interest and mindset.
"Tara doon," aya nito sa akin at tinuro ang table nila. "I'll introduce you to my friends."
"Are you sure?" I asked.
"Why wouldn't I?" Tanong naman nito pabalik sa akin. I gave him a nod and he chuckled sexily. He guided the way papunta sa place nila.
"Ay awit, may babae na agad."
"Naol malandi."
"Naka-bingwit nanaman, hanep."
"Basta vocalist matulis!"
His friends are obviously teasing him when they saw us together walking towards them. He just laughed at them. Judging by the way they talk, mukhang solid din kasama ang mga ito.
"Tatiana, meet my friends, Romuel, Eco, Jam, Joshua,Yorme and Kero," pagpapakilala niya at saka isa-isang itunuro ang mga ito at ibinigay ang pangalan.
They welcomed me immediately. We sat on the couch, and they started talking about different staff. They were nice, never kong na-feel na hindi ako belong. They didn't let me out of the conversation.
He invited me to dance, at agad kong tinanggap 'yon.
I was busy dancing and swaying my hips when he suddenly holds my waist. Lumapit ito sa akin at bumulong, "Kung nakakalusaw lang ang tingin, kanina ka pa lusaw." He chuckled a bit and continued what he was saying, "At kung nakakatamay lang ang tingin, kanina pa ako pinaglalamayan."
Naguguluhan man ay sinundan ko na lamang ang sinusulyapan ng kanyang mapupungay na mata.
My jaw literally dropped when I saw Leo at the stool bar, looking darkly at us while its jaw is already clenched.
"Don't mind him," I said trying to ignore his presence. Gusto kong kumbinsihin ang sarili ko na hindi ako apektado at wala akong pakealam. But, I can't! Hindi ko alam kung bakit naasiwa ako kapag nakatingin siya."Are you tired?" Alvin, asked. Marahil ay nahalata nito ang biglaang pagkawala nang aking gana. Naging marahan ang pagkilos ng aking balakang at tila hindi ko na nasasabayan ang beat ng musika.Umiling ako at binigyan ito ng tipid na ngiti. But it seems like he doesn't believe it. "Are you bothered by his presence?" He suddenly asked.I faked my laugh, trying to hide my nervousness. "Of course not," I lied."Hindi mo ba talaga siya boyfriend?""Hindi nga," I answered. "Pauli
"Get a room, guys!"Nandidiri at mapaglarong sigaw ni Vettinah, nang maabutan kami sa ganoong posisyon. Dahil sa gulat, ay parehas at kusa kaming napalayo sa isa't isa.That was too close!"Maharot kang pokpok ka!""Tangina mo, sabi mo sa CR ka lang e."Pagbibintang nang aking mga magagaling na kaibigan. I manage to compose myself and gave them my sweetest smile."That's not what you think," I said trying to convince them that what they saw was nothing."Palusot amp," tila hindi naniniwalang sabi ni Cassandra. "May mata kami, hoy!"
My fingers made their way to the end of my ponytail. I automatically smiled, as I saw myself in the mirror.Inuutusan ako ni mama, na mag-grocery. Tinatamad ako, pero wala akong choice. Kailangan ko munang maging sipsip for a while para payagan ako ulit gumala sa susunod."Tatiana!" Rinig kong sigaw ni mama habang ako ay naglalakad pababa sa hagdan. "Sa grocery store lang ang punta mo, wag ka nang magpaganda.""Ma, maganda na ako kahit hindi ako magpaganda."Binigay nito sa akin ang listahan ng mga kailangan kong bilhin. "Mag-ingat ka," paalala pa nito sa akin bago ako umalis."Opo, Ma. Mag- iingat ako kahit hindi ako iniingatan."
I got a full night's sleep, and yet I still feel tired. Can't believe it's already Monday, the suicidal day for STEM Students like me.Sino ba naman ang hindi mamamatay, kung 8 hours straight ang math niyo. Four hours for Basic Calculus and another four hours for Statistics and Probability, paniguradong magugulat ka nalang sa mga numero na makikita mo.I opened my journal, trying to read and understand it. But sadly, kahit ilang beses kong basahin at subukang intindihan, ay tila ayaw makisama ng utak ko.Wala kaming quiz or what, pero minsan ay baliko ang utak ni Engineer Olvido. Bigla nalang may graded recitation or first ten.Madalas naman kapag nakalimutan nito, ay biglang pinapaalala ng mga bida-bida sa klase. Jollibee amp.
"Chill, Jeysi. I'm on my way."I immediately ended the call and didn't even bother to wait for his response. Kanina pa siya nagagalit at tumatawag. I was drunk and wasted last night; which was the reason why I forgot about our sudden appointment for today.Palipat-lipat ang tingin ko sa kalsada at sa aking relo. Ilang minuto na lamang ang natitira ay magsisimula na ang meeting. Masyado pang mabagal ang usad ng sasakyan dahil sa traffic.I opened my small pouch and took some of my cosmetics. I grabbed the opportunity to apply some of it to fix myself. I need to look glamorous and presentable in front of our clients.After a few minutes, ay umusad na ang trapiko. Nakalampas na ako sa Balintawak, kaya naman naging magaan na ang daloy ng
'May we invite everyone to please pause for a while, and observe silence as we pray the Angelus.'"Finally," I said as I let out a sigh of relief, glancing up at Engineer Olvido, our instructor in Basic Calculus.Mabilis akong tumayo at ganoon din ang ginawa nang mga kaklase ko. I felt relieved that the sudden test was canceled. Well, thanks to the prayer leader for that very good timing.'Let us pause for a while and pray with me the Angelus. Please all stand...'Malalapad ang ngiti nang ilan sa aking mga kaklase dahil katulad ko ay maaaring gutom na rin sila, at wala nang lakas pa para sumabak o makipagbakbakan pa sa mga numero.Numbers are like boys, they'r
"MM, push ka. Tank, huwag mong iniiwan 'yong MM natin.""Pharsa, bot bilis!""Gather, nasa Lord sila. Tara din doon, p're. Sama-sama lang tayo.""Retreat, 'yong base natin mga ulol!""Defend lang kaya pa 'to.""DEFEAT."Ibinagsak nila ang kanilang mga cellphone at pinanood ko kung paano magsumbatan ang mga kaklase ko. They were playing Mobile Legends; at mukhang sunod-sunod ang talo nila. Nagsisisihan sila at nagtuturuan kung bakit natalo. Napailing na lamang ako dahil sa ingay na naidudulot nila."Liz, patikim ako!"Agaw-atensyon
"Tatiana, nagreview ka?" Vettinah asked as I entered the classroom."Sakto lang," I replied. Hindi ako masyadong nakapag-review dahil tinamad ako, kaya nag-sound trip lang ako at nakatulog din kalaunan.Ibinaba ko ang mga gamit ko, inilabas ang journal, at tsaka umupo. I tried my best to focus and to review my notes."Ayan tayo sa mga ganiyang sagutan e. Sakto lang daw, pero mamaya siya nanaman 'yung highest."Napa-angat ang tingin namin kay Ernisha, na kararating lang din. Hindi niya suot ang kanyang salamin, dahil ayaw 'to ng boyfriend niya. Sa totoo lang, ayaw namin sa kasintahan niya dahil pilit niyang binabago ang kaibigan namin. Maling mali 'yon, dahil kung talagang mahal mo ang isang tao dapat tanggap mo siya mula ulo hanggang
I got a full night's sleep, and yet I still feel tired. Can't believe it's already Monday, the suicidal day for STEM Students like me.Sino ba naman ang hindi mamamatay, kung 8 hours straight ang math niyo. Four hours for Basic Calculus and another four hours for Statistics and Probability, paniguradong magugulat ka nalang sa mga numero na makikita mo.I opened my journal, trying to read and understand it. But sadly, kahit ilang beses kong basahin at subukang intindihan, ay tila ayaw makisama ng utak ko.Wala kaming quiz or what, pero minsan ay baliko ang utak ni Engineer Olvido. Bigla nalang may graded recitation or first ten.Madalas naman kapag nakalimutan nito, ay biglang pinapaalala ng mga bida-bida sa klase. Jollibee amp.
My fingers made their way to the end of my ponytail. I automatically smiled, as I saw myself in the mirror.Inuutusan ako ni mama, na mag-grocery. Tinatamad ako, pero wala akong choice. Kailangan ko munang maging sipsip for a while para payagan ako ulit gumala sa susunod."Tatiana!" Rinig kong sigaw ni mama habang ako ay naglalakad pababa sa hagdan. "Sa grocery store lang ang punta mo, wag ka nang magpaganda.""Ma, maganda na ako kahit hindi ako magpaganda."Binigay nito sa akin ang listahan ng mga kailangan kong bilhin. "Mag-ingat ka," paalala pa nito sa akin bago ako umalis."Opo, Ma. Mag- iingat ako kahit hindi ako iniingatan."
"Get a room, guys!"Nandidiri at mapaglarong sigaw ni Vettinah, nang maabutan kami sa ganoong posisyon. Dahil sa gulat, ay parehas at kusa kaming napalayo sa isa't isa.That was too close!"Maharot kang pokpok ka!""Tangina mo, sabi mo sa CR ka lang e."Pagbibintang nang aking mga magagaling na kaibigan. I manage to compose myself and gave them my sweetest smile."That's not what you think," I said trying to convince them that what they saw was nothing."Palusot amp," tila hindi naniniwalang sabi ni Cassandra. "May mata kami, hoy!"
"Don't mind him," I said trying to ignore his presence. Gusto kong kumbinsihin ang sarili ko na hindi ako apektado at wala akong pakealam. But, I can't! Hindi ko alam kung bakit naasiwa ako kapag nakatingin siya."Are you tired?" Alvin, asked. Marahil ay nahalata nito ang biglaang pagkawala nang aking gana. Naging marahan ang pagkilos ng aking balakang at tila hindi ko na nasasabayan ang beat ng musika.Umiling ako at binigyan ito ng tipid na ngiti. But it seems like he doesn't believe it. "Are you bothered by his presence?" He suddenly asked.I faked my laugh, trying to hide my nervousness. "Of course not," I lied."Hindi mo ba talaga siya boyfriend?""Hindi nga," I answered. "Pauli
"All my friends are wasted.And I hate this club. Man, I drink too much.Another Friday night I've wasted. My eyes are black and red.I'm crawling back to your bed."We sang along to the band and dance along with the beat. Everyone in the crowd seemed to be enjoying the moment. Nag-uunahan sa pag indayog ang aming mga balakang at halos mapunit na ang aming lalamunan dahil sa pasigaw na pagsabay sa kanta.Nandito kami ulit ngayon sa Bistro. As usual, ipinaalam ako ni Vettinah kay mama, at sinabing may kailangan kaming tapusin na requirements. I don't want to lie but, I have no choice. Kung hindi kami magpapalusot, maliwanag pa sa sinag ng araw na hindi ako papayagan.We decided na bumalik na sa table namin. I removed my denim jacket bef
"Nothing happened, okay? Kumain lang talaga kami. That's it," I explained.Pilit nilang inuusisa kung ano ang nangyari kahapon. They were concluding that something happened between me, and Leo. They were accusing me, itinatago ko lang daw ito at ayaw sabihin sakanila."Feeling ko talaga, crush ka niya," Cassandra concluded."Nope. Were just, friends?"To be honest, natatakot ako every time na may bagong tao na papasok sa buhay ko. I have trust issues and sometimes iba ang mindset ko like maybe it is better to be alone because you are more assured that no one would hurt you. But sometimes, I also like the feeling na alam mong may taong interesado makinig sayo, sa mga rants mo at mga kalokohan.
"Where do you want to eat?" I asked.Nandito kami sa mall near our Campus. Open gate kami during lunchtime, but we were only given 30 minutes to take our lunch. Buti na lang at hindi regular class ngayon, kaya maaga kaming pinalabas."Kahit saan," tipid nitong sagot. May mga iilan na napapalingon sa amin dahil sa kasama kong bakulaw.I rolled my eyes. "Greenwich, Plaza Mocha, Gilligans, Wingstreat, Wendys, Mang Inasal?" I enumerated, "C'mon, choose.""Ikaw bahala, ikaw manlilibre e.""Ikaw bahala, ako kawawa."He just chuckled. Nagiging center of attention na kami, may mga iilang napapatingin sa direksyon namin. Nandito kami sa gitn
I was already late. Well, I still had a few more minutes before the Meeting de Avance starts. Pero kahit na, nakakahiya pa lalo na at isa ako sa mga candidates.I picked up my pace and almost bumped into someone. Ito yung moment na lagi kong nababasa sa mga novels at napapanood sa mga movies. 'Yong you bump into a cute dude and then boom! May potential boyfriend ka na."Tatiana?"My eyes widened as I saw his familiar face."Oh, bistro boy. The vocalist," gulat at may pagka-mangha kong sabi.He smirked. "Glad you remembered me," he said playfully between his smirks. "Sorry! Nag-away ba kayo nung boyfriend mo?""Uh, no!" Agad kong tan
"What are you doing?"Inis kong inalis ang pagkakapulupot ng kamay niya sa aking bewang, at tinitigan siya ng masama. He's being possessive and I don't like it."Protecting you.""Protecting me. Wow!" I almost rolled my eyes out of irritation. "Nakikipag kaibigan lang 'yong tao!""He's obviously hitting on you.""So what if he is? Ano naman sayo ngayon?"Ang ibang varsity ay napapatingin na sa amin, dahil medyo tumataas na ang boses naming dalawa. Natahimik siya at halatang nagulat sa biglaang pagtaas ng aking boses."Nag-uusap lang naman kami a," I explained and tried to lower dow