The way that Kyle left was so abrupt, I still couldn't wrap my head around it. And when morning comes it still feels strange knowing that he actually left us.
It has been three days and we haven't been receiving any news from him. We called, texted, and we even searched his things."Do you think he's serious?""Honestly, I don't know, Andrew. Should I even be here? I hated him for doing this."We barely sleep, we cuddled and said nothing. Each busy with our thoughts."I don't think you should go, but I don't want to be selfish and tell you that I need you."She stepped closer and hugged me. I wrapped my arms around her and sighed."How's your interview? are you taking the job?""I don't know, should I?""Peyton, I know you haven't sold your apartment and you're keeping it for this kind of reason exactly.""I hate that you turn out to be this nice, I have one foot out the door and you'r"Wade, why is the black SUV still parked there. Don't tell me you owe people money again?" "Just go back to your life, Kyle. I can manage, you're the smart one. You're living your life with your boyfriend, and when are you going to tell me that you're gay?"It has been almost a week since I got back to our family home. Wade, my younger brother has been struggling with his job keeping up with my dad's old garage as a mechanic. And combined with his gambling habit, it's a recipe for a disaster. "Why don't you sell the shop, rent out the house and move away from here. You can always go back to school?" "I wish I have the brain, but I'm more of a muscle guy..." Wade and I would get along when we don't have money issues between us. "We're brothers how much different do you think we are? you should shave your beard and cover your tats and enroll back to school.""When are you going to introduce me to your boyfriend? or ar
"You should at least text, did you know I stayed up all night waiting for your call?"He was really upset when I saw him touching his beard repeatedly and pacing back and forth. "Uh...sorry?" I didn't know what his problem was but I had never seen him this upset before."Hey, is everything okay? who's the woman from last night?""I'm working some stuff out, and she's part of it. But now is not the best time for you to go back here actually. I'm...in a bit of a tight spot."He took bottled water from the fridge and drink half of it as if he was really parched. "What do you mean?" "The woman from last night...she's with the good guys, this should blow off in a couple of weeks. But if you're staying here I need to know where your whereabouts. You can't just go missing on me."I rest my back to the kitchen counter and look at him intensely. "Okay, now you're scaring me. Are you okay? do you ne
It was almost ten in the evening when I received a call from Chris telling me that he's en route to our meet-up point. The PI wouldn't tell me what's going on but I know something bad was happening.The tension had me pick up a pack of cigarettes, I lit one and took a long dragged, the familiar feel eases me a bit. Minutes later I was still resting my back to the side of my car smoking while waiting for my guy. "...He's hospitalized, someone beat him up badly. I managed to pull his hospital records, it'll cost you, but he's guarded by cops. According to my source, they're pissed with Kyle's brother for talking to the cops."Chris showed me pictures of Kyle's, X-rays, and the complete hospital charts that I can't even understand."Mexican cartel." He added when I took another drag of my cigarette. "I should get him back,""It's best for him.""We should leave tonight." He nodded and didn't ask further when I g
It was day five and Kyle looked bored already. Although he had started his online classes, he didn't leave his apartment aside to visit mine. Wade called him last night and check up on him. His bruises still looked painful, but he's healing nicely."Andrew, you can leave me. Go to campus, I'll be just fine." He can walk better and was moving around the apartment, training himself to get better sooner. Although Peyton kept on telling him to rest, I could see that he's been yearning to go out. But with his bruised face and eye, he knows he'd attract attention. "Tomorrow okay? Peyton is at work today and she'll kill me if she knows I leave you alone for hours. That woman can be such a momma bear, I don't want to anger her." Kyle would still be hurting when he laughed, I would refrain from making jokes, but sometimes I forgot and he would groan when his face hurts."You're killing me here, dude.""I'm sorry bab
I thought having sex with Andrew would make the feelings go away, instead, it was making me feel so much worse.Fucking another guy and betraying them were not my greatest moments. I don't get why I was so easily swooned by the idea of taking my path, but at that moment I was feeling like shit. "I need to tell you about what happened." I rest my back to the headboard."You're making me worry, but okay," The last couple of days I've been trying to man up and tell him about Ryan. The going back and forth and hearing him making love with Peyton when they think I was sleeping was slowly building my anxiety. Wade had told me to go see someone, but I told him that I don't believe in telling strangers about my fucked up life. Though deep down I know he's right."I had sex with someone." "Is this why you want me to be with you? are you trying to shake the guilt?" he gets out of bed and started getting dressed.Andre
I was feeling better a week later, my bruises were almost gone. I was getting back to school again and Andrew had scheduled my appointments with a psychiatrist. He was adamant that he paid for my therapy and I was letting him have his way. The guilt was still there and lately, I have been saying yes to both of them almost on everything. But that day I was nervous when Andrew said that his parents were in town and told me that he wants to them to meet us.I talked to Peyton about it earlier over the phone and she said not to worry, she has been very chill about everything since she was owning me with her strap-on and liking the control she has over me."Andrew, are you sure about this?" I brought up the issue again once he entered the apartment, I was cooking dinner for my lovers and Andrew just walked in, looking hot with his slightly damp hair and smelling fresh from his after gym shower."Babe, my parents are cool, you have
The next morning I was enjoying my weekend, relaxing and cuddling to Kyle's side. Andrew was already gone to have breakfast with his parents, they're going back home in the afternoon. "So, about last night,""What about it?" he gives me a cup of coffee then drinks his and rest back on the headboard. "Are you okay? I saw you with Andrew's mom, you looked a bit...""I'm fine, baby. I have issues and I'm handling it,"Kyle was once again out of my reach, I've been trying to get close to him and lately, it has been a success and failure at the same time."I'm sorry, I just thought,"I kept on thinking, maybe I was coming on too strong at him, but Andrew assured me over and over again that it was all in my head that Kyle loves me as much as he did towards Andrew.The only way I can get through to Kyle was sexually, and I was at a stage where I needed him to want me as someone that he can talk to. And with Andrew go
It was not until a couple of months later when anxiety hits me."Hey, I'm just on my way to meet you." Kyle called saying that he was on his way back from the appointment with the psychiatrist. I still couldn't believe that we were having the best time since we started our relationship. We have met Andrew's parents, I was getting comfortable with my job, Andrew and Kyle were busy with their studies. Everything can't be more perfect as I was embracing my sexuality and getting comfortable with their companion.Andrew and I were happy that Kyle hasn't craved anyone else and he has been the perfect boyfriend to both of us. "Kyle, yeah we should meet up back at the apartment, I have called Andrew and he's on his way there right now.""Baby, what's the matter? you've been weird for the past couple of days, is everything okay at work?""Yeah, work is great, let me just meet both of you at the apartment?"Obviously,