It was not until a couple of months later when anxiety hits me.
"Hey, I'm just on my way to meet you."Kyle called saying that he was on his way back from the appointment with the psychiatrist. I still couldn't believe that we were having the best time since we started our relationship.We have met Andrew's parents, I was getting comfortable with my job, Andrew and Kyle were busy with their studies. Everything can't be more perfect as I was embracing my sexuality and getting comfortable with their companion.Andrew and I were happy that Kyle hasn't craved anyone else and he has been the perfect boyfriend to both of us."Kyle, yeah we should meet up back at the apartment, I have called Andrew and he's on his way there right now.""Baby, what's the matter? you've been weird for the past couple of days, is everything okay at work?""Yeah, work is great, let me just meet both of you at the apartment?"Obviously,Three years later"You are not wearing that, I can't even see if you're wearing underwear or not," Andrew muttered and pouted adorably seeing my tight just over the knee-length dress that I was wearing. "Oh come on, babe, she's freaking gorgeous in it and we're already late. You're giving the speech, we can't be late..." Kyle started babbling while taking off his choice of tie and wearing him a new one. "There, you're going to be the best-looking valedictorian ever.""Kyle, they won't see the tie while I'm giving the speech.""But, there's an after-party," he pulled the man of the hour down for a deep sexy kiss making me laugh at them. Honestly, I did not expect our relationship will stay solid three years later, not after our very rocky start. That day was graduation day for Andrew and Kyle, it was a special day for them, but more to Andrew as he was honored to give the valedictorian speech. But Andrew wasn't the on
Mini-meIt was two years into our engagement when I heard the big news."I'm not sure it's the right time.""Peyton, it is. Look, I know this was not what we planned. But this is life, and remember what Andrew told you when we had the pregnancy scare?""That was different. I hadn't taken the test, now I have and it's positive! I can't get him sidetracked, he's been so busy with his study. Oh my god, Kyle, I've been such a bad fiance, he's not ready for this..." Peyton was freaking out, I have never seen her in such a panic state, not even when we had the pregnancy scare back when we were still living in my apartment and Kyle's. I was listening in on their conversation, they must've thought that I was still at the gym where I usually go after my busy campus schedule. But that day, I thought I'd surprise Peyton with her favorite dessert since she looked a bit moody for the past couple of days. But I wasn't expecting to
Four years ago"Oh, come on... I can do this. Just let me try it.""How old are you?""Nineteen,""And this is your dream, to become a stripper?""Look, I need the money...""Well, we don't have an opening at the moment. Why don't you come back here next week?""But I need the money now,""Well, you can get a job couple of blocks down bagging groceries, you're too young for this stuff anyway kid. Try next week, we might have an opening behind the bar." I feel defeated, I have try to get a job at a local bakery, diner, garage, even as a janitor, but no respectable establishment would even consider hiring a runaway. And apparently not even a strip club.It was noon, I was hungry. That morning, I got into a fight at the local shelter where a cute girl robbed my stuff and take my money. Her boyfriend was furious that I was pointing fingers at her and I got kicked in the gut and threaten that he wo
That night was easily the best night of my life, Elroy and I made love and I was back at Jacqueline's just after eight the next day.It was a fine Sunday morning, I was smiling like a maniac and Jacqueline was looking very pleased with me. "So, last night went great I assumed?""Oh...Jacqueline, my life is now complete." She giggled and told me to go and make her breakfast, I kissed her cheek and did just that. "When are you meeting him again? what is he doing here?"Jacqueline sat on the kitchen island while she waits for my breakfast. She has been my best friend for the last couple of months, I have told her about the reason why I ran away and that I left my boyfriend in my hometown.I can tell that she was worried about me, but she was being a lovely friend by not probing me with the wrong questions. "Yep, today for lunch, he said he will go back home tomorrow...so," I shrugged and she hugged me instantly
Present dateI finally did it, I followed Jacqueline's and finally become a sugar baby. I've done my photoshoot, signed the paperwork, and deal with their legal department.Kamaria has agreed to transfer my advance of twenty-five grand for Mrs. Diaz assisted living situation. "Benji, are you sure about this? I can always give you the money, you know you're my best friend and I'd do anything for you, right?" "I'm sure and I can't take your money, not if can earn it myself. I have no idea what would happen to me if they didn't employ me and give me a place to stay. I owe them, I owe Mrs. Diaz."When Mr. Diaz passed away two months ago from a tragic bystander incident, her health situation decreases fast. Mrs. Diaz had a stroke and has been staying alone, struggling with her condition and her sadness. I've been helping her with their store but she barely managed to pay for my salary and two other store employees. "Oh, B
The next day I woke up alone in the bed, I was a bit sore so I decided to take a quick shower before I go back. But didn't expect him to still be in the suite watching the news while the butler was serving breakfast in the dining area. "Benjamin, come, have breakfast with me." "Yes, sir.""Please, call me Baxter." He dismissed the man after he finish placing the breadbasket on the table. "Baxter."I smiled and sit beside him while he kept on watching the news and eating his french toast glazed with honey."Tell me, Benjamin, what are your plans for today?""I was planning on visiting Mrs. Diaz, then check out her store.""You mentioned that you are doing this to help a friend?""Mrs. Diaz, yes, she's been more than a friend to me." He urges me to talk more about myself while he continues to drink his coffee and I start eating my toast. Breakfast was done an hour later, h
It has been two days after Baxter and Mykola, and I was having my lazy day where my schedule was free. But instead of enjoying my free time, I was visiting Mrs. Diaz at the assisted living center.She was not getting any better, one of the nurses at the retirement home said that she's one of those people who hung up on their spouses. Her willingness to survive died the moment Mrs. Diaz lost her husband. Two hours later I was on my way back home hoping to rest for the day when Kamaria called and told me that I have been requested. "What do you mean by requested?"I was pulling over by the side of the road, the information was flowing and I was having difficulties in concentrating while driving at the same time. "Well, sometimes our clients like to use our services for their business transactions, to smoothens the deal. The pay is good, but you have to fly to London. Mr. Newman is requesting your service, he will not be joining you. He t
The bodyguard was in my room when I came back the next morning. How did he get in? "Hey, you okay?" For a fraction of a second, I could see the worry in his eyes, but his face become unreadable moments later. "Yeah, why? is there anything that I should know?"He looked at me, scanning me from head to toe. "Aside from looking like you just got back from a fuck fest, I think you're fine. Sorry to barge in, I was keeping my word with Kamaria." "Oh, right. Thank you, but I'm fine. The gift was delivered perfectly when he kicked me out to catch his next flight out of London."His calculating look was visible for a second before the mask was back on. Damn, he's good. "Yeah, Kamaria is putting us on the same flight. We will leave the hotel in three hours..."I was on the verge of breaking down, I didn't know when my feelings start to surface but I was busying myself trying to pack my
Two Years Later"I think I've changed my mind about him. He's not that bad. Tara loves him, he's actually good with her better than that gold-digging bitch, Phoebe. And I've never seen our son so happy..."I couldn't believe what I'm hearing when I unintentionally passed through the family lounge when I was about to inform Jasper's mom that lunch is served. Jasper, Tara, and I were at his mom's for our weekly Sunday brunch at his family home. It was the only time we spend time at his mom nowadays, though she would go to our house and play with Tara or pick her up from preschool then spend the whole afternoon with her.Last year I had finally adopted her, we have been a real family with her legally as my daughter and she calls me daddy Ben. I have been involved in her preschool activities, and be the perfect house husband for Jasper during the day and his collared lover at night. We have progressed to handcuffs, ankle restraints, and blindfolds. Sex had nev
Jasper's POVLast night I admit that I had planned everything for Benji, down to the black leather collar. I need to take his mind from the event, and by putting him on my collar he knows that he'd be the only one on my mind that night. Obviously, it worked, and I was half-hard for my husband as I introduced him to my associates. It went bad the moment Phoebe joined us at our table with Dexter. Though I know Dexter won't cause any more trouble since I sit him down and explained his future in the firm should he keeps on harassing my Ben. The man tried to deny it, but he eventually relent. Phoebe on the other hand blabbered about how she wanted to get close to Tara, but she will be my problem for another day. I know she'll back away once I offer her more alimony. Anything for my Ben.Now, it's the morning after and it's time for me to lay it all for him. I need to let him know that he'll always be on my mind."I know I've been b
Another office party, I definitely didn't want to go but I am his now and I can't hideout forever. This would be the third office gathering that I rejected after months of being married to Jasper. At some stage, I need to face his colleagues and let them know he has a husband now. Yup, not awkward at all.Married life. Adjustments. Sacrifices.The mantra slowly lose its effect on me as I popped another pill looking at my reflection in the mirror. I look good, Jasper had sent me to his tailor to get a tux fitted for me. Not that I don't have enough of them from my whoring days, but this was a very fine tuxedo and I do look extra good in it. And I felt even better when I saw Jasper looking at me with a gleam in his eyes. "You look like the perfect trophy husband." He was to my front, put his hand on my hip and his other hand to my neck, keeping me still as he lay a sweet kiss on my lips. I leaned in closer as his hand move from my waist to my back, holding
There was something about his mom, the way she looked at me and how sometimes she treated me nicely while some other times she would just blatantly ignore me.We have been staying at his parents' for two weeks, two whole goddamn weeks...I was trying to be patient, trying to understand that Jasper needed this, that he needed time with his mom. I tried to get away from the house whenever I can, but I could not leave Tara for long. I love her as she was my own and whenever Allie would text me and told me that she was asking for me I'd hurriedly come to his parents'. Jasper and I were doing great, well, he as far as he knows we were great, splendid, I was loving married life. I've been talking about my situation with my psychiatrist, she did advise me to talk it out with Jasper tell him that I'm not comfortable with his mom. But instead of doing that, I started popping my perception pills. His mom had told me to call her mom while we were having family dinne
Jasper's POVThe moment we got back to the city, life catches us effortlessly, and Ben seems to be enjoying the married life. He was great with Tara, we woke up naked every day and have lazy sex in the morning before we took a shower, slipped on our wedding rings, and get dressed for the day. "Daddy Ben, I want daddy Ben!" Tara crossed her arms to her chest, her sweet cheeky pout promised us a morning of tantrums if she didn't get her way, and this morning it looks like she wanted Ben to feed her veggies. She didn't normally hate veggies, but she despises broccoli one day telling us that she didn't like eating little trees. "Hey, you know you're a big girl now right?" she nodded excitedly when Ben lower himself down by her baby chair to get to her height. Her birthday is in two months, she's turning two and Ben had been remanding her that fact every time her tantrum was about to erupt. Then her pout was magically gone and Ben sits next to her while Allie
Jasper booked us a wedding by the beach, it was beautiful. The sea breeze was perfect, we were wearing matching casual khaki suits, Tara wears her white flowy dress that matches the color of our shirts, she was holding a small bouquet wrapped in beige color arrangements. Jasper's little nugget walked down the aisle holding my hand, looking giddy as we approach Jasper who was waiting for us at the end of the aisle.The seats were empty aside from Allie who was busy taking our pictures, and she laughed when Tara waves her hand frantically at her sister. The kid couldn't contain her excitement when she finally ran to her daddy and he lifts and twirl her, making her let out a loud giggle. I was filled with butterflies the second I was to his side. We both smile at the minister, he smiled and put our hands together since obviously I was too nervous to realize the situation and Jasper was too distracted by Tara and then couldn't stop looking at me which then only making
I still couldn't believe that I'm going to get hitched, I should be happy. Right? Then how come I feel like something big was going to happen? It was not until two days later that he's finally done shuffling his schedule with his PA. We were finally eloping, flight was scheduled, vacation villa had been reserved, clothes had been packed. Tara was excited and Allie was smiling so bright since it was going to be her first trip on a plane. But there was one last hurdle, he was going to tell his mom. "Look, this is just to let her know I'm not asking her permission. My mom is going to know that we'll be gone for two weeks, she will be asking for Tara." I was not convinced, I hated that his family has a strong pull on him. Maybe because mine is conveniently absent from me, sure it's because I ran away from home after dad beat me up when he caught me in bed with my first boyfriend and my mom just watches in horror as I was forced to kneel and she lets dad bea
Jasper POV "Ben, this is..." I backed away from his kiss, trying to get his attention, wanting him to talk about what had happened earlier."You're beautiful as fuck, but I love you more than that. I love your lovely soul, and it hurts to realize that you're trying to deflect our issue with sex." My hands rubbed his waists gently, telling him in silence that I'm there for him."But I don't want to talk about it," he was upset, immediately got up from my lap, and went to reach the liquor cabinet. I know that he was taking his antidepressant, and combining the drug with more alcohol after an evening of champagne was worrying me. "Ben, look at me," I grabbed him and he lets me pull him away from the liquor cabinet."I want to dance." He said out of the blue, taking my hand, leading me straight to our bedroom. I know I wouldn't get through to him and talking was a definite fail. So I went with him and waited until he connects his phone to t
I woke up bright and early the next day only to find that Jasper had moved to the bed. He was still wearing his work clothes, without the suit jacket and tie. His shoes and socks were scattered on the floor. My first thought was to wake him up but he was out like a rock, snoring softly and spreading himself across the bed. Reluctantly, the thoughts came flooding back to my mind, and knowing that Tara might be looking for her dad I decided to get up and get ready for the day.Getting dressed and going to the kitchen was done easily, then seeing Tara's hand grasping in the air calling out for my attention made me chuckle and picked her up from her baby chair. "Ben! Breakfast!" her sweet little voice warms my insides, the little toddler wanted me to feed her. Her new sitter greeted me, Allie gave me some space after giving me Tara's porridge bowl and move to prepare breakfast for Jasper and me. "Allie, just for Jasper, I'll have a cup of coffee." She nodded