Gabriel picked me up from Janice’s house, his truck was full of the groceries I couldn’t get from our vendors. He came out to greet Janice and I as we said our goodbyes.
"I'm going to miss you so much this week!" I whined as I hugged Janice.
"I'll miss you too!"
I grabbed my suitcase full of fresh laundered clothes and handed it to Gabriel. He grabbed the bag in one hand and extended his other hand out to help me get in the truck. I ignored his hand and did the best I could to get in the truck gracefully.
"Did you have a good weekend?" he asked, buckling his seatbelt in and I was startled at his attempt to make small talk, he was more of a “Still waters run deep” kind of guy.
"It was okay, I just rested and got a few new books and DVDs," I confessed. That was the extent of the conversation as he shifted and turned on the radio.
Matteo was waiting for us in the kitchen with a tall blond guy when we arrived. My eyes widened at the gorgeous man leaning against the kitchen counter. His arms were muscular, and he bore the tell tale burn marks of a beginner cook.
"Ah, here they are," Matteo called, "This is Mr. Mason, the big boss, and this is Harper, your boss" he finished with a wide grin.
The blond extended his hand to Gabriel but made no attempt to greet me. Gabriel’s frown deepened and he looked from me to the new guy.
"My name is Oliver, but everyone just calls me Oli" he greeted with a charming smile. "I have some excellent ideas for meals this week, I was wondering when I could put in an order for the things that I need for the week?" Gabriel looked down at me and raised an eyebrow.
"Oh, uhm, Oli," I began, "the menu for the week is already set and we have all the groceries here, I pointed to the bags Gabriel and I were carrying. "But if all goes well this week, you can help me work on next week's menu."
"Well that's okay, where can I find the menu of the week, I’d like to get started" he said enthusiastically without sparring me a glance.
"We will start tomorrow, you can meet me here at 4:30 and I will walk you through what we do"
"Matteo, can you show him to the men’s lodging?" Gabriel said in a low voice. His dark gaze never left Oli’s. If our new guest was uncomfortable he made no outward sign of it. Matteo gave us a nod and led Oli out of the kitchen.
"4:30, be here" I called after him. Gabriel started unpacking the groceries and putting them away which not only confused me, but made me feel uncomfortable. I shifted aimlessly in the kitchen as I watched him. Probably sensing my tension, he turned to look at me and gave me an interrogating look before I snapped out of it and put the dry goods away.
"If you have any trouble with him, you let me know. I’ll drop your bag in your room. Goodnight Harper" Gabriel said before he left the kitchen all business and absolutely no fun. I organized the fridge the way I liked it so that everything would be handy in the morning and made my way to my room to unpack.
It was 5:30 before Oli showed up the next morning. Luckily I was fairly efficient on my own and most of the work was done.
"Can you get the milk and cream to the coffee station?" I asked Oli over my shoulder as the first of the men arrived for breakfast. I could have sworn he rolled his eyes at me but did as I asked. "You can start chopping the onions and cleaning the broccoli for lunch, and once the men are done we can have breakfast"
"Uh-huh" he said.
"Morning bestie" Matteo called as he entered the dining hall. I swatted a dish towel at him with a smile. He grabbed his plate and sat down with his coworkers. I showed Oli the menu for the week as we ate, he shared some of his ideas and I agreed to give him the reins the following Thursday if he was able to prove to me he deserved it.
"But if you don’t show up when I tell you to and you continue being disrespectful towards me, forget it." I said sternly. He lowered his head and nodded. I didn’t enjoy discipline and I never really had to do it before but I felt really belittled by his actions. Someone cleared their throat in the kitchen and I looked up to see Gabriel beckoning me to him with a nod of the head.
"I got a call from your doctor. You have a biopsy and ultrasound Thursday at 3 p.m."
"Crap! It's really not a good time" I said looking back at Oli.
"I can see if Janice can come in for the day," he suggested.
"Thanks, I’ll see if I can borrow someone's truck"
"I'll bring you" he frowned, looking at me as if I had lost my mind.
"I don't want to impose" I started
"It's fine," he said before filling his coffee mug and leaving the kitchen.
Oli turned out to be excellent with the chopping knife but lacked the experience of a seasoned cook when it came to eyeballing ingredients. That was completely normal, but he tried to freestyle recipes and they rarely turned out well. He burnt the rice for lunch because he hadn"t measured the water to rice ratio, his cakes were dry and crumbly from adding too much flour and he overcooked the stir fries.
Janice showed up just after breakfast on Thursday and I filled her in on Oli’s progress. She let out an exasperated sigh, grabbing a tea towel to help me dry the dishes.
"You know I hate teaching right?"
"Hey! You taught me!”
“Yes, but you are a natural honey” she said in an attempt to mollify me.
“It’s just for two meals, I'm really sorry"
"It's fine, now go, you’ll be late"
I took a quick shower and changed into some jeans and a t-shirt and walked over to Gabriel’s cabin. I knocked on the door and a gruff voice called for me to come in.
"I'm ready when you are," I said cheerfully. He was reading something on the computer and paid no attention to me, just nodded to say he had heard me. He was wearing a button down blue shirt, with jeans, his black hair was wet and in its usual state of disarray. I was surprised to see that he had shaved as he usually only did that on the weekends. I looked around his cabin and noticed it was in better condition than last time. His bed was made, there was no clothing on the ground and a delicious smell emanated from the bathroom, a mixture of manliness and spices. My face turned red at the thought of him having just come out of the shower and I stepped outside to sit on the front steps of his cabin.
He came out about 10 minutes later and offered me his hand again to get in the truck which I accepted. His hand was rough and hard from manual labor, his finger ran over the callus under my right index making me shiver.
As soon as we were in range for the cellphone towers I began researching what I should be expecting for the biopsy. It sounded as though it would be fairly painless but I couldn’t help feeling nervous about the procedure.
I arrived at the hospital half an hour before my appointment.
"Harper" Gabriel called out as I jumped out of the truck, I turned to him expectantly. He handed me a small white card, "Call me or text me when you’re done I’ll come get you" he said.
“Thanks, Mr. Mason” I said with a sincere smile while taking his card. He nodded and drove off as soon as I entered the hospital. I looked around to get my bearing, I had never been to this hospital, or any hospital for that matter.
"Do you have an appointment, Miss?" an elderly gentleman in a teal blazer asked. "Hi, yes I do," I smiled. He led me to a number reel and handed me a piece of paper with a number. "You can sit here dear, and when they call your number you can go see the receptionist. Have your cards ready and have a nice day" he said walking towards another helpless soul. A chime indicated the number change on the screen and I made my way to the chair across from the receptionist. "Health card?" she asked and began typing furiously. "You haven't been to this hospital before?" I shook my head. "Okay, you'll have to fill out this form so we can open a chart for you here. When you are done you can come right back here and I will register you okay?" She handed me a clipboard with a pen attached to it and I fil
Maria showed up on Sunday night, she was a sweet girl around my age who was eager to do every single thing I asked. She was very helpful but still lacked confidence in her skills. She always asked a million questions to make sure she was on the right track or doing things exactly the way I liked them. "You have to make some decisions by yourself" I told her on Thursday after she asked me to try the salads she had put together to tell her what was missing. She looked hurt at my comment and I felt awful. But I knew she had to grow a spine and make decisions on her own if she was going to make it in the real world. "Listen, Maria, I’m not trying to be mean, but next week you are going to be the one bossing me around. I want you to be making decisions. I will be here to support you, but you need to assert yourself." She nodded at me, her big brown eyes full of tears.
I woke up late the next morning when my phone was ringing loudly. "Hello?" I answered groggily. "Harper, can you be ready to go in 30 minutes, I have an emergency to attend to at the camp" Gabriel said quickly. "Uh huh, 30 minutes" I replied. "You'll be ready?" "Yup" I said, closing my eyes. 10 more minutes I thought to myself as I fell asleep. I was rudely awoken by a loud urgent banging at the door. "HARPER!" Gabriel yelled from the other side. I frantically looked for my phone and saw that I had 8 missed calls in the last 15 minutes. Shit! Luckily all of my things were contained already, I just had to grab a pair of jeans and a sh
We spent Friday night eating McDonalds and watching Die Hard. I had fallen asleep before the movie was over and was barely aware that Gabriel covered me with a blanket before going into his bedroom.I was awoken by the smell of coffee and breakfast wraps on Saturday morning. Gabriel and I ate in silence next to each other at the island counter. My fingers were itching to grab my phone and scroll through facebook to break the awkwardness of being with Gabriel."I have a huge favour to ask," Gabriel said, finally breaking the silence."What's that?" I asked, relieved to be speaking."Do you think you can make lasagna for supper?" he asked, a tinge of pink forming over his face working hard not to smile. He looked like a little boy asking for m
When I had left for New Brunswick in the spring I had to let my apartment go. I hadn’t planned on coming back so soon, but I didn’t want to be held back by an empty apartment if something came up. I had graduated from the local community college in my town and worked at a few restaurants before getting a bit of a break with Gabriel’s company. The job was hard to fill as it was in an isolated area with little to no means of external communication. It was certainly not a family friendly kind of job either, I had just been gone for a better part of the year with only weekends off. Regardless, I had no one tying me down, and I found it liberating to be so far away from the outside world. I had made some real good friends there during the season and I was seriously planning on returning. I dreamt of Gabriel for the first month I had returned home, looking back at him with rose coloured glasses and replaying our weekend together had given me a different perspec
I spotted Gabriel before he saw me, he was pacing around the arrival gate deep in conversation on his phone, his frown ever so present on his face. My heart fluttered when he looked up towards me and a large grin formed on his face. He promptly hung up and gathered me in his arms in a warm welcoming hug. I was shocked by his reception based on the conversations we had in the last few months.“You look great Harper,” he said, checking me out while holding at arms length.“Thanks, you don’t look too shabby yourself” I replied. He had shaved his dark curls in favor of a buzzcut, and he sported a short beard . I had never seen him with facial hair longer than a day or two’s worth, but it looked good on him. It even made him look a little younger than 37. He placed an arm around my shoulder and carried the small suitcase with all of my measly belongings to his truck. We drove to his house with the AC on full
*Rather explicit content ahead*We spent another quiet ride together, but despite the tension in the cab I was excited to get to the camp. I smiled fondly at my old cabin and the dining hall as we approached them. I wasted no time jumping out of the truck and grabbing the groceries from the back. I brought everything inside and put away the items the way I liked them before heading to my cabin. I half expected to see my kitchen helper but my cabin was empty. The room I had been using the previous season was already occupied, so I shifted all my things to the other, smaller bedroom. Despite being a creature of habit, I wasn’t overly upset about the switch of rooms.There was a knock at the door and I turned to see Gabriel standing on the other side of the screen door.“Come in” I said, beckoning him with a finger. He looked around the cabin silently for a moment. “Are you ok?” I asked.
“HARPER!” I was jolted awake by the loud booming voice. Gabriel was still in my bed and I rushed to grab my clothes on the ground to dress. “Harper!” the voice came again. This time I recognised it as Matteo’s. Gabriel must have recognised it too as he groaned and pulled the covers over his head. “Be right there Matty” I called out pulling my hair back into a ponytail and trying to look decent. I heard the screen door open and my friend stepped in as I pulled the door to my room shut. “Baby Girl!” He called out with a joyful smile on his face. He pulled me into an embrace and I returned the warm affection “I missed you so much Harper!” he announced, “You look good, home was good for you!” “O
Lane and her boyfriend Alexy, along with Matteo and his wife, were joining us on our vacation, having rented the cottages next to ours for the week. Lane, who was 33 weeks pregnant and glowing, had been visiting us at least every 2 months for the first three years after Emily was born until she met one of Gabriel’s employees one summer and fell madly in love with him. Since my mom had also met someone back home and was living with him, Lane felt less guilt about moving out to New Brunswick. Her and her boyfriend were living in a beautiful home only 10 minutes drive away from Gabriel and I.Matteo’s kids were all grown now and rarely followed their parents around anymore. He and his wife were enjoying their first solo vacation in years, but had decided to spend it with our family. Being godparents to Felix, they tried to be as present in our lives as they could.
“I. don’t. Want. to. Go!” Emily shouted, clearly exhausted by our little family vacation. We had pulled up to the Champlain Mall in Dieppe to pick up a few things I had forgotten at home before we made it to the cottage we had rented by the ocean another 45 minutes away.“I can stay with her while you get what you need, baby,” Gabriel offered, the most patient out of the two of us. With a lump in my throat and trying to keep the tears at bay I nodded. “You can leave Felix in the truck too if you want” he offered looking over to our 4 year old with a grin. Felix looked so much like Hendrix it was freaky and the two, despite the age difference, were thick as thieves.“Do you want to stay with daddy or come with mommy, Fee?” I asked.“Daddy!” he exclaimed.“Okay I will be back as soon as possible” I said, unbuckling my seat belt. Ga
I watched the people milling about from the dining room window, there were 30 or so people waiting in the backyard while rock music played on. I couldn’t see Gabriel from where I was standing but I could just imagine what he looked like in an outfit similar to Hendrix’s. I could hardly contain my excitement at seeing him.I admired Lane’s beautiful set up and hoped it wasn’t going to rain, as the skies were grey with clouds. Lane had strategically hung white sheer linen in some of the trees and placed lanterns as decorations. There were rows of white chairs occupied by the guests and white flower petals down the would-be aisle. I spotted a makeshift bar with huge ‘Beer and Whiskey’ signs hanging above it and laughed. Of course Gabriel would make sure the guests were well ‘watered’. The backyard had a very magical feeling about it. 
With everyone’s help and support the first week of Emily’s life went on without a hitch. I went on a few emotional roller coasters and woke up soaked in sweat a few times at night. But in all I couldn’t ask for a better baby. Emily was easily content, sleeping most of the day and only waking for feeds and diaper changes.My mom took on the role of grandmother very well, she rocked, washed, and cooed at Emily every chance she had. Janice cooked up a storm for everyone staying with us and froze several meals for when we were on our own again. Lane and I spent most of Emily’s feeding time in my bed going over wedding details and ideas.“I trust you, Lane” I told her for the millionth time, “do whatever you want!” Lane took a deep exasperated breath and let it out slowly, gently stroking Emily’s head. 
At 40 weeks, I was exhausted, cranky and swollen all over. I went out for walks with Axel and Gabriel every morning while Lane had been sending Janice new recipes to induce labor for the last two weeks and each day, Janice brought me some new miraculous concoction guaranteed to work. At night Gabriel gave me mind shattering orgasms to stimulate contractions, and I felt bad that his fiancé was now the size of a beached whale. Not that he would say such things, but I was disheartened by the way I looked and felt. I knew it was temporary but I was getting anxious to meet my baby. Sam, Janice’s boyfriend, was helping with some projects around the house and cottage to keep Gabriel occupied while the four of us waited impatiently for the stork to drop by.Finally one night as we lay in bed after an ordinary day, I felt a distinct popping in my lower belly before a rush of liquid squirted out of me. As fast as I could, I rolled out of bed and waddled
“Gabe I know you’re going to hate this idea, but I booked myself in for a maternity photoshoot and I would love for you to be there” I said, bracing myself for the inevitable rejection.“Sure,” he said, not taking his eyes off his laptop screen.“Were you listening?”“Yes, you have a maternity photoshoot and you want me to be there”“In the photos though”“Yes, that’s fine” he said as he placed his laptop on the coffee table and grabbed my foot to massage it.“You're sure?” I asked, stifling a groan of pleasure as he massaged my calf.“Yes Harper, I will be there in the photos with you and your belly. It’s fine” he said with finality.“Oh, well thank you”“When is it?”&
By December Gabriel and I had fully returned to our old routine. Though the pain of losing a baby never quite goes away, it becomes a little more bearable as the days go on.Sally had asked me to return to the diner for the winter, but I got an even more enticing job as an instructor at the community college. I would deliver a certain amount of theory content during the fall and winter semesters and in the summer I would take on the students at Gabriel’s work sites in order to give them hands-on practice. After a long and thorough conversation with Gabriel I sadly declined Sally’s offer and took on the college job. I loved having a 9-4 job that allowed me to be at home in the evening. Gabriel had secured a few building jobs around town and was also home every night. He frequently assured me he didn’t find life with me dull and always looked forward to coming home and seeing me each night.Our new house was everything I co
*Warning, this chapter deals with traumatic subject matter that could upset some readers*We had made it to the last couple of weeks of the summer with very little excitement at the camp. Everything seemed to be running smoothly and Gabriel proudly announced this was his most successful season so far. The house had sold and we had slowly started to move into our new house, though we spent most of our time at the cottage to enjoy the lake on our days off.“Why are you making a bagel?” Gabriel asked one morning as he filled his plate with bacon and eggs.“To eat…” I said with a frown.“You don’t eat bagels” he said looking at me curiously, “Is this a pregnancy thing?”“No, I don’t, and no it’s not”“Who are you specially making bagels for?” he asked, annoyed.&ld
I had my follow up ultrasound and blood work done during March and awaited the results impatiently. I knew Gabriel was just as anxious about it as I was but he was better able to mask his anxiety as he kept busy with work.Luckily, the ground began thawing and construction on our new house began. This gave me a brief moment of respite as I focused on the blueprints, choosing paint and flooring. It was an exciting process to watch, one day there was a huge hole in the ground, then there was a foundation and soon walls were being put up.Matteo had come down to help Gabriel get ready for the season. He was staying in Chrissy’s old room while he was with us and went home on the weekend to see his family. Gabriel and Matteo were away most of the day and I took those opportunities to pack up the house and deal with the realtors. Since our new house wasn’t going to be ready until the fall Gabriel had rented a storage unit as I had su