Kabanata 27.1 - Wanna Change That?

I'm on my way to my sister's house, hindi ako pwedeng umuwi sa bahay ng ganitong oras. For God's sake, madaling araw na!

Mainit pa rin ang ulo ko dahil sa mga narinig ko kanina mula sa bibig nung babaeng 'yon. That girl who is obsessed with Isaiah. Maybe what she said was right, after all, she wouldn't be that obsessed if Isaiah did nothing to her. Those memorable nights she said, baka totoo ’yon. Baka ‘yon ang dahilan kung bakit baliw na baliw siya kay Isaiah!

You know what, I don't really care if they spent nights together. I'm not mad because of that. I am mad because Isaiah did not told me about it, wala siyang nabanggit na kahit isa. Kung hindi pa nambulabog si Tasha sa condo niya, hindi ko pa malalaman. Akala ko ba wala siyang ex? Lucky girl, my ass!

The moment I heard Tasha's revelation, I immediately walked out. Hindi ko na kakayaning makarinig pa ng kung ano sakaniya, isa-isa lang pwede? As I was saying, nagtungo agad ako sa unit niya para kuhain ang phone at susi ng sasakyan ko. He followed me, he tried to explain but his explanation fall on deaf ears. Gusto ko munang mag cool down, I don't want to burst out my anger, hindi maganda ang kalalabasan kapag ganoon.

Isaiah kept on calling me, alam kong nakasunod lang siya sa’kin nang magsimula akong mag drive. Pagkababa ko kanina sa lobby, nakita ko si Mateo na inaalalayan si Tasha. Maybe Isaiah asked him to took care of that girl, I don't care. He greeted me but I have no time to respond, I felt bad for him.

I called my sister, I already told her that I will be sleeping in her house. She's asking me why but I refuse to answer that part. I'm exhausted and that girl's words stucked in my head, it isn't helping!

Whatever that memorable night is, kahit pa nangyari na 'yon bago niya pa 'ko makilala, sana man lang sinabi niya 'di ba? I fucking told him everything! Even my insecurities, my flaws, my worsts! This is so unfair!

"Treia, what happened?" nag-aalalang tanong ni Ate nang makalabas ako ng sasakyan.

Pinarada ko yung sasakyan sa tapat ng bahay nila, inaabangan na 'ko ni Ate at Kuya Froi doon. Mukhang naabala ko pa ang pagtulog nila dahil halatang kakagising lang ng mga ito.

"I'm tired, Ate.. I'll talk to you when I wake up. And please.. if Isaiah came, huwag mong papapasukin,” bilin ko sakaniya bago pumasok sa loob.

Ate keeps on asking me, mabuti at naunahan ko si Isaiah dahil baka harangin ako no'n sa gate palang. Pumasok agad ako sa kwarto ko rito at ni-lock 'yon para hindi na 'ko maistorbo ni Ate. I took out my phone and search Tasha's social media accounts. Marami siyang followers, Mass Communication student, endorser din siya ng mga kilalang brands. I checked her feed, may isang highlight siya na 'Niko' ang title so I checked it out. Puro pictures nila ni Isaiah ang nandoon, halatang cropped photo, yung iba highschool pictures pa, yung iba naman stolen.

Sa feed niya, karamihan doon ay mga nasa beach at bar, party goer siya. She's sexy, bagay na bagay sakaniya ang pagmomodelo. Now, I'm insecure. Kayang kaya niyang agawin si Isaiah sa’kin, with that gorgeous face? No man can resist.

I heard a knock, it is my sister. I told her not to bother me, I'm fucking tired.

"Treia, Niko is here. Settle your fight first, hindi makakatulong sa relasyon niyo 'yang pag-iwas niyo sa isa't-isa,” she calmly said.

She's right, hindi maganda na ipagpabukas ang pag-aayos sa problema kung pwede naman itong ayusin ngayon. But I can't fucking talk right now, I might burst my anger to him. Ayokong makapagbitaw ng mga masasakit na salita sakaniya, I'm angry and when I'm angry, my words is like a poison. I don't want that to happen, I don't want to hurt him.

I didn't respond, narinig ko nalang ang mga yabag ni ate palayo. Nagtungo ako sa pinto para buksan ito at i-check kung wala na nga si Ate but to my surprise, I saw Isaiah standing in front of my room. I saw flames in his eyes but when it landed to me, all of it vanished. Napalitan ng pagiging maamo ang mukha nito. He walked towards me and opened the door widely para makapasok siya. Wala na 'kong nagawa kung hindi hayaan lang siya, after all, my sister is right. We should settle this fight right now, hindi ko yata kayang matulog ng ganito.

"You leave me.. without hearing my explanations,” aniya.

Matatalim na tingin ang iginawad niya sa’kin. Teka, galit ba siya? Hindi ba dapat ako ang magalit sakaniya kasi hindi niya sinabi yung mga bagay na 'yon? I would totally understand it if he just told me that, mas gugustihin kong sakaniya marinig kesa sa ibang tao.

I didn't respond, umupo ako sa dulo ng kama, siya naman ay nakatayo lang doon. I couldn't glance at him, may part sa akin na guilty dahil tama siya, I should've listen to his explanation first before concluding. Who knows, maybe that girl is bluffing. She wants me to be mad, she wants to tear our relationship apart para maagaw niya si Isaiah.

This is what I hate the most, I'm being impulsive.

"Is that true?" I asked him, referring to what Tasha said.

Tumingin ako sakaniya, napabuntong hininga naman siya para pakalmahin ang sarili. I can still see flames in his eyes, galit siya.

"Yes, but—" that's bullshit.

"That's all I wanna hear, you may leave now,” malamig na tugon ko.

Iniwas ko na ang tingin sakaniya at humiga na sa kama. Binalot ko ang sarili ko ng comforter, my tears aren't helping, nagkusa silang tumulo mula sa mga mata ko. I don't want him to see me crying.

I heard him uttered some curses at ilang sandali pa, naramdaman ko na siya sa harap ko, bahagyang lumuhod para mag lebel ang mukha namin. Ramdam ko 'yon kahit natatakluban ng comforter ang mukha ko. I heard him sighed in frustration.

"Come on, let me explain first." I can sense the frustration in his voice.

I can sense how hard it is for him to see me ignoring him. I can sense the anger, the frustration, the guilt and most specially, I can sense how scared he is. He is scared that I might leave him just because of that.

"I let her rest inside my condo once, it's just one night at sa guestroom siya natulog no'n. She's lying, nothing happened between us, and it's not just both of us, nandoon sila Mateo, they knew everything and I clearly told her I will never like her. Come on, baby, talk to me please.." he explained.

Unti-unti kong ibinaba ang comforter para makita ko siya. He looks worried when he saw my tears. Pinunasan ko agad 'yon, I felt relieved by his explanation but it still bothers me.

"Hindi mo talaga siya nagustuhan, ever? Even attraction? She's beautiful and sexy and—" he cut me off.

"I swear to God, you are the only woman that caught my attention. You are the most gorgeous person in my eyes.. Damn, Treia! If you still think I'm bluffing, let's get married right now!” he sincerely said.

He's breathing heavily at dahil magkaharap ang mukha namin, damang dama ko siya. Pinilit kong huwag ngumiti sa mga sinabi niya kaya ngumuso nalang ako.

"But why does she sounds like you two had sex!” I fired.

Mas lalo siyang naging frustrated sa sinabi ko. I just want to clarify things because hello? We are talking about him, my man!

"She's obviously bluffing, I am still a fucking virgin! If you're still not satisfied, why don't you see it for yourself!" galit na sambit nito.

I chuckled because of his reaction. He's cute when he is mad. Mas lalo naman siyang nainis nang marinig ang tawa ko, mas lalo tuloy akong natawa. Tumayo siya at lumipat sa kabilang side ng kama. It's funny how the tables easily turn. Kanina lang, ako ang galit sakaniya. Ngayon naman, siya ang galit sa’kin.

Umupo ako at humarap sakaniya, still wearing my amuse face.

"Are you still a virgin?" I asked just to mock at him, kasabay no'n ang malakas kong pagtawa.

I'm still a virgin and I know he is still a virgin too because he had no ex's or flings before but I just didn't expect him to say it out loud. I find it funny, though.

Sa kakatawa, hindi ko namalayan na gumapang na siya palapit sa’kin. Napatigil tuloy ako dahil sobrang lapit niya na sa’kin. Lumapit pa ito at kinulong ako gamit ang dalawang kamay niya, he placed both of his hand on my sides, wala akong nagawa kung hindi mapahiga ng tuluyan sa kama.

"Yeah, wanna change that?" seryosong sambit nito.

Napalunok nalang ako dahil sa sinabi niya. Now, it's his turn to flashed a devilish smile. He lean closer to me and gave me a soft but sensual kiss. Tila may kung anong nabuhay sa pagkatao ko dahil sa halik na yon. My mind isn't functioning well, my heart triples its beat and I'm breathing heavily.

I saw how his eyes reflected love. Ramdam ko ang paghinga niya at ang pagpipigil niya sa mga oras na ito. I want to stop but my body wants more than just a kiss. I wrapped my hands around his neck and rained kisses across his lips.

He doesn't respond to my kisses so I teased his lips apart that made him parted it a bit. I let my tongue savor every corner of his lips, he groaned the moment I bit his lower lip. It’s my turn to smirk, we both knew any minute from now that he will lost his precious control.