50.5HUGO: How's Ben today? I'm sorry I couldn't come around, had some things to do. Don't worry I'm still in New York."Probably related to Audrey." I muttered to myself.MIRANDA: Ben's fine. Don't worry, Landon hired some people to guard us and some nurses as well.HUGO: Hired? People? Why? What for? Why did he do that?MIRANDA: Just like you, he wants Ben’s safety too. He's my lover and he feels obligated over Ben and I. He's making sure of our safety. I think there's nothing wrong with it. You don’t mind him being a father to Ben, right?HUGO: Yeah I don’t. That's actually great. I am sorry I did something today without asking about your opinion.My brows creasing as I typed the words: What do you mean?HUGO: Are you watching TV right now?MIRANDA: No. I'm in Ben's room.HUGO: Do me a favor, put your TV on and turn to channel 4. It's about to start in a few minutes.I stand from the bed and carefully walk my way to the living room. I sit down on the couch and turned on the televis
51M I R A N D A"Now let's talk about your wedding with Audrey.”The sentence makes me feel like my underwear is twisted.My eyes glued on Hugo who is looking as if it is a question that he does not want to answer but he is ready. I can tell from his eyes that he has an answer. Hugo smiles subtly as he continues rubbing his fingers against the knuckles of his other hand. Nervous, indeed, like Ben.The interviewer continues, “How are things going? People are saying it's canceled because of this Benedict Rose issue that's been going out for quite sometime now."Hugo slightly smiles, "Well, I haven't talked to her about it these days because I wanted to focus on my son for now. She went back to England to rest and take her time. The wedding plans are still going of course, I just think I need to focus on Ben these days first since he needs it the most."She nods. "Hugo, people have been sending us tweets on Twitter and they're all asking me to ask you if ever you fell in love with Miran
51.5I smiled."Such a very brave and bold choice of words Hugo. I admire you for doing this for Miranda and Ben. All you want is that people to chill and back off your case and all of this." She tells me.He nods and answers firmly, "Yes. As much as possible, yes. Miranda and Ben needs some privacy. They need their privacy back. They're just ordinary people who got involve in this crazy world because of me. And now I know she's happy with Landon.”A smile creeps on my face.“I think all of us needs some privacy." Hugo adds."We know how much you want to keep your privacy back and we understand how badly you want it for Ben and Miranda. Moreover now that you've left the limelight years ago but people are still lingering to you.” She says."Thank you." He answers."Any message for Audrey? I bet she's watching us right now."Hugo stares at the interviewer intently. "I'll be coming home soon. We have a lot of things to talk about as well so I need to get back to England anytime from toda
52M I R A N D AI feel Hugo's hands holding on my curves.“What are you doing?” I quickly asked, feeling a little tensed.“Let me just hold you.” He answers.“Hugo.. we should not be doing this.” I reminded him.I push his hands away even though I admit that I like it.He sighs heavily and I don’t know what his intentions are but I am nervous.I should not be tempted by this, by him and by his touches. “I’m not doing anything...” He says in a whispering voice as he place his hands over me my hips again.He's giving me massive, and I mean massive heat with just one touch and to think his hands aren't even moving yet but my heart feels like jumping out from my chest."W-what do you really want?" I croaked."Because I wanna see you.” He says close to my ear. “I wanna talk to you about something."“This is not the best way to… talk, Hugo.” I answer him.He slowly spins me around so that I can face him. My head moves up to Hugo and he's really pretty damn tall."About?" I ask him."Us."
52.5"No, I'm not shutting up. You tell yourself you love Landon because that's what your mind is telling you. But what does your heart say? You force yourself that you love him, that he means everything to you but why do I feel like you're still into me when we're together? Your heart is beating fast when you're with me and I feel it. Don't you lie. Why do you get nervous when I'm around?"I push him away from me because I feel like what he's telling me is true, "Back off. You don't know what you're saying.""I clearly know what I am trying to tell you. You can fool your mind but you can't lie to what your heart says.""Stop it.""You tell yourself that you love Landon but honestly you still want me." He says."That's not true!""You lie too much." He spits.Hugo suddenly cup both of my cheeks and pulled my face closer to him. His lips landed on mine and he begins to kiss me, slowly. My eyes bolted from my sockets when I felt his soft lips on me but I wasn't kissing him back.He's th
53M I R A N D A"Hey."Landon pops out of the bedroom again while he walks closer to the bed with his boxers on. "Good morning." He kisses my cheek sweetly and smiles at me.I glance at myself, on top of a bed with nothing on but Landon's bed sheet. It is now the following morning after Landon and I made love and every time I stare into his eyes, there’s this guilt that I have been after Hugo. I have never felt more disgusted of myself and I have never felt this angry at myself for even falling to Hugo’s temptation."You're quiet." Landon makes my thoughts vanished..I sigh heavily as I think about that sinful thing I did with Hugo three weeks ago and it has never left my head no matter how hard I try. I have been feeling totally guilty about it for the entire days and there is this constant heavy feeling inside my head and my chest that I cannot seem to get rid of that easily. I can't stop thinking about what I did behind Landon's back knowing how wonderful he has always treated me.
53.5I gape in surprise as I hear him finally speaking. My tears are now falling over my cheeks because I know that I was not just hearing things. I am not just dreaming that I was hearing Ben's voice. Ben finally talked. He finally talked after almost two weeks of being silent. The therapy is helping Ben. My tears fall down my cheeks again, it's flooding my cheeks and I'm just too happy to hear him calling me mommy again."You... You just talked Ben." I cup his cheeks and he tries to smile."S-Surprise.” He says happily.“Oh Ben.” I sob as I cup his face.“I'm... I’m not.... Mad... At you." He tries to talk and even though he was having a hard time, I am still proud of him.I smile at what I just heard from Ben's mouth. I kiss his forehead and held my arms around my son. I couldn’t be more proud of him. I am too proud. He just talked. He just told me he's not mad.Ben is recovering.Ben is really recovering.Little by little he's already recovering and I can see that he's really tryi
54M I R A N D A"I don't care if you don't love me anymore." He adds.My back is still facing him but both of us stopped right on top of the staircase. He is still behind me and I actually don’t want to see his face because I don’t want to give in to what he's saying because I have already given in to him before. I'm still having a hard time processing what he just said to me because now isn't the perfect time to tell me about this.Now isn't the perfect time for this.Why does he always say things so unexpectedly?Why does he always do things that always tempts me?It's so annoying because I'm not prepared all the time and it is so unfair how he can do this to me without even thinking about the fact that he is taken and about to get married."I don't care at all." He continues.I sigh heavily.I spin around and stare at Hugo."Stop this Hugo." I tell him.He stares at me."Please." I beg him as I keep my thoughts together. "Don't mess up with what I have with Landon. What we did beh