43.5"Hey hey.” He coos. “Don't think about things that are way overboard.” I try to wipe my tears off my cheeks as I stare at my picture with Ben and Landon over my dresser.“Hugo's not gonna take Ben away from you, he promised me that he won't and I won't let him.” Landon adds. “I know him and he's not gonna do that to you.”I exhale heavily as I wipe my tears from my cheeks and tried to smile as I watch Ben’s smile on the photo and Landon’s smile too. "I just want you here with me right now." I whimper softly."I'm so sorry for not being around with you.” He says sadly. “I should have been there. I am so sorry. Don’t worry, I'll book a flight to New York right now. I'm coming for you love." He tells me and having Landon is already reassuring.I slightly smile. “Okay. Thank you Landon.”"Have you tried talking to Ben about Hugo?" Landon asks.I shake my head as I answer, "Not yet. I can't seem to.... Find the right words on how to say it to a six year old." I laugh humorlessly as m
44H U G O “Why are you being so mad at me?!” Audrey raised her voice at me as we talk over the phone.It has been like this since then and I fucking hate how she is doing things on her without telling me. She does things as she please and this one has been off the charts.“Because you are doing things you want to do without even letting me know!”“Hugo, I don’t need to tell you everything I do!”“That’s our wedding Audrey. I have a part on who to invite or not. At least you could have told me that you were going to visit Miranda!”“Ahh!!” She exclaims louder. “There you go! You said it yourself! You were not mad at me because I invited them but you honestly are mad at me because I went there without telling you!”I groan inwardly as I clench my fist while I stare the view of London from my office. Audrey has been too over the edge lately and I don’t know why she is acting like this ever since she caught Miranda inside my hotel suite that one time.“Audrey, that was not the problem h
44.5I was the one who ripped her and took her innocence from her as selfish as it sounds but I was first. I was the first one who did those things to her. She has my son, my first born child, and this is totally different than Audrey's back in the day. I might have sort of stolen Audrey from him but this time is different.Rose was mine first and I don't know why I feel this way over her just because I did some things with her first. I feel like, I need to be owning her and not Landon.But, she's not mine.And never was.You are pathetic Hugo. Fucking pathetic.Just because Rose and I had sex even before she met Landon doesn't mean I can steal her from him too. I'm getting married and the people already knows I’m marrying Audrey in two weeks.God, two weeks.I should be happy right? I should be happy that I am marrying the woman I have always loved for so long. But, why is it that the thought of marrying him feels like a chain around my neck?I should not feel like this at all. I ha
45H U G O"Why do you feel like backing out from your wedding?”Mum’s question bothers me. “I thought you love Audrey?” She adds.“I do love her.” I admitted.She looks at me worriedly, “Then what seems to be the problem?”I've always loved Audrey and she's the only woman I wanna be with ever since I met her. She used to be so simple. She used to be so gorgeous and very down to earth. She used to be so friendly and smiling. That was the Audrey that I fell in love with.But now, she totally changed.Every single thing about her changed as soon as she got really famous. She changed the way she dresses. She changed the way she speaks. She changed the way she treats people. She changed the way she was supposed to be and it felt like I don’t know the real Audrey anymore. She changed when people were starting to notice her, when people were beginning to love her and when people were seeing her potential.She is not the same woman I fell in love with before.Then there’s Rose, who left me
45.5M I R A N D A"Hey."Landon suddenly wraps his arms around my waist as he stands next to me. He quickly kisses my neck and slowly spins me around to face him. I move my head to Landon and cupped his cheeks with both of my hands as we smile."You are one bothered and hot looking momma." He teases.I grin. "I'm not bothered, but I am hot looking.""Yes you are bothered and you're also hot looking momma." He kisses my forehead.I smile shyly."You wanna go out for a walk? Or a drive? A drive would be better." He winks at me.I nod. "I think I need to get out a little bit. I need some sunshine.""I am your ball of sunshine." He smiles.I giggle and kiss his jaw. "I love you my lover."He smiles at me so handsomely, "I'm beginning to love it every time you call me that." Landon holds me tighter and I do not want him to let me go."I know you love it." I say."Yes. How about we go out for a drive a little bit before we pick up Ben from school and then maybe grab some ice cream afterwar
46H U G ONervous.That was the only word I can think of and I just wish this night would turn out fine. I have been bothered the entire day thinking about it and I am trying to practice the words that I need to say to Ben.I am literally freaking out.Finally, I park my car on the parking space feeling a little bit more nervous now that I am here. I look back at Audrey and she looked calmer than me. I don’t know what is going on inside her brain right now but I swear to God I wish she would not flip out and throw her diva behavior tonight. I have begged her to let me do the talking and she reassured me about it.“Are you ready?” I ask her even if I know that I should be the one asking that to myself.She glances at me before looking back outside the window, “I should ask you that.” She answer sarcastically.“Please Audrey.”She looks back at me, “What?”“Please don’t ruin this night.”She laugh at me, “Funny how you tell me not to ruin the night when lately you are the one who is r
46.5M I R A N D ALandon's car slowly drives into the parking lot and the second the engine stopped, I know that this was it.I glare at Ben from the backseat and he sits there with a smile on his face as soon as he looks back at me. His smile completely calms me but at the same time frightens me too.This is it.This is really it, Miranda."Are we here already?" Ben asks.I nod, “Yes sweetheart. We are.”The three of us headed out of the car and walked together towards the restaurant like a perfect family. I am nervously walking towards the front door of this fancy restaurant, with my heels that's making me look even more awkward and I know Landon notices it. He knows I am trembling inside but he gives me a reassuring gentle grip on my hand and that’s all I could ask for from this night.He smiles at me before he leans closer to my ear, “I am here, okay?”I nod as I smile at him.As soon as the door opens, I begin to scan through the customers and quickly spotted Hugo on the farthes
47M I R A N D AWitnessing it shook the entire living organ in my body.Since then, my tears never stopped from falling over my cheeks and my heart felt as if it was ripped out of my chest. This was a different kind of pain because it hurts really bad. My heart feels like it stopped from beating and my entire body was shaking.My entirety felt numb cold as soon as I saw my son's lifeless body lying down on the street being crowded by the people who surrounded him, and I couldn't do anything about it but to cry and hold him. I couldn't do anything to save him. I could not do anything else but cry hysterically against Landon’s chest as he holds me.I could still hear the wail of the ambulance along the street. I could still feel my chest hurting and burning with anger and pain and so much hatred that I was blaming myself for what happened to my son. I could still feel my limbs being numb. I could still see how Ben looked when he was lying down on my arms on that street with so much blo