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Witnessing it shook the entire living organ in my body.

Since then, my tears never stopped from falling over my cheeks and my heart felt as if it was ripped out of my chest. This was a different kind of pain because it hurts really bad. My heart feels like it stopped from beating and my entire body was shaking.

My entirety felt numb cold as soon as I saw my son's lifeless body lying down on the street being crowded by the people who surrounded him, and I couldn't do anything about it but to cry and hold him. I couldn't do anything to save him. I could not do anything else but cry hysterically against Landon’s chest as he holds me.

I could still hear the wail of the ambulance along the street. I could still feel my chest hurting and burning with anger and pain and so much hatred that I was blaming myself for what happened to my son. I could still feel my limbs being numb. I could still see how Ben looked when he was lying down on my arms on that street with so much blo