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BENEDICT

I sit on my favorite chair at home, the spot close to my infinity pool, after leaving Sebastian's party while I look far ahead in the view. After that incident inside the elevator and confessing to Thea, my mind was blank and at the same time I was tired even if I didn't do anything but I was damn tired. I was tired of everything that happened tonight. My heart felt heavy too.

Why?

Because I'm jealous of Sebastian.

Yes.

He's the potential boyfriend in every woman's dream because he is boyfriend material. As for me, I'm the potential fuck buddy or one night stand and women doesn't want a man like that.

Fuck.

He's a strong believer in love, growing old together with the one he loves and starting a family of his own. He's Romeo. He's a bad boy but he loves love. But I'm not Romeo. I don't like sugarcoating things. I don't romanticize. I don't give flowers, chocolates, teddy bear and other shit to impress women. I impress women through sex and that's it. That's the huge differ
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