35BENEDICTI sit on my favorite chair at home, the spot close to my infinity pool, after leaving Sebastian's party while I look far ahead in the view. After that incident inside the elevator and confessing to Thea, my mind was blank and at the same time I was tired even if I didn't do anything but I was damn tired. I was tired of everything that happened tonight. My heart felt heavy too.Why?Because I'm jealous of Sebastian.Yes.He's the potential boyfriend in every woman's dream because he is boyfriend material. As for me, I'm the potential fuck buddy or one night stand and women doesn't want a man like that.Fuck.He's a strong believer in love, growing old together with the one he loves and starting a family of his own. He's Romeo. He's a bad boy but he loves love. But I'm not Romeo. I don't like sugarcoating things. I don't romanticize. I don't give flowers, chocolates, teddy bear and other shit to impress women. I impress women through sex and that's it. That's the huge differ
36THEASebastian's car finally pulled over in front of my apartment but even if I was with him the entire time, I was still thinking about Benedict the entire time. Those words that he said to me before he left is still stuck inside my head."Because I think I'm already in love with you Thea Thibault."Please let that be just a joke."Thea?"I turned my attention to Sebastian who has been looking at me for a while now. I smiled at him but I wasn't really paying attention."I have been calling out to you but it seems like you're thinking about something else. Are you okay?" He asks curiously.I nod."Of course. Yes. I'm okay." I faked a smile.He smiles back calmly. "I thought something was wrong. So do you have any idea why Benedict left the party without telling me?"I gulped."Umm... No." I lied.I went quiet for a while. "I don't know. Sorry."He nods. "I have been trying to call him but he's not picking up."I think Benedict is mad at me. But I didn't do anything wrong. Did I? He
37THEAI froze when I was holding my fork when Benedict said those words unexpectedly.For a second, I dropped my jaws because I was immensely shocked, but quickly clipped it back together once I recovered. His eyes were looking at me intently, sorrily and sadly as if he had done somethint terribly wrong. That's when I knew he was serious with what he was telling me.He is willing to give way for Sebastian.I ran out of words with what he just said and all of a sudden I felt sad for no reason. I felt sad but I didn't know why. I felt sad even if I know I should not be. I know I should not feel sad because what he said just means he will not fight for me. It simply means that he will stop annoying me, he will stop asking me for more dates and he will stop persuading me to give him a response to what he feel. He will stop seeing me. He will stop coming over here. He will stop everything because he wants Sebastian to chase after me.Benedict will not fight for his love for me. The thoug
38BENEDICTI stepped inside the restaurant where Sebastian was supposed to meet me. There I spotted him, sitting alone on a chair in a table for two. I walked my way towards the table where he is and he smiled at me as soon as he saw me. He stands and gave me a brief hug before we sat down.Why am I nervous to face him?I smiled anyways and felt a little bit relaxed when he welcomed me with a brotherly hug."I am pissed at you for leaving my party without letting me know." He says right away.I smirk."I was suppose to give you a call before I was going to leave." I chuckle dryly. "But I was really preoccupied with my date." I lied.He smiles and shakes his head. "You're lucky you're my best friend. And you're lucky I loved your birthday gift.""You're welcome." That was all I answered him.The foods were then served after a minute or two and Sebastian already knows what foods to order for lunch. Even though Sebastian was talking to me about the party, about his guests and the presen
39THEAKYLIE: Monday monday monday!! So excited to see the article you wrote about Bene-dick. Lol! Congratulations in advance!!! So proud of you!!JOJO: Morning sunshine! I'm much more excited to read the article than you. Haha! Can't wait to buy the mag later It brings a smile on my face upon rereading the messages from my best friends while I was riding inside a taxi cab. I have been waiting for this for my entire life to see my name on a magazine where I wrote an entire centerfold. I felt very happy, excited and nervous of what the people will think about what I wrote because no one had ever interviewed Benedict. I'm most definitely sure that this month's edition of Lure's is going to be an ultimate hit since a lot of people are curious about England's darling.I sit here in the backseat of the cab thinking about so many things, from work, to the magazine, to Sebastian and one of the main thought is Benedict. I wonder if he will even love the article. I wonder if he will think th
40"I just cant believe Victoria would really do that to you!" Kylie screams at me over the phone."Exactly! I wanted to go to Lure, throw the magazine at her face and just curse at her all day when I read the written by part." Jonah commented as we did a three-way call.I throw myself in my sofa and started flipping through some channels of the tv."But the article was so beautiful Thea. I was fascinated by it." Kylie cooed."It was just marvelously written." Jonah adds.I smiled. "Thank you girls. But don't worry because I feel a lot better now." I answered them."Are you filing a case?" Jonah asked."Of course she should." Kylie answers right away.I nod. "I am. Yeah. And Benedict's filing too."There was silence for about five seconds."Benedict Saintclare?!" They asked in unison.I smirked. "Yeah. He is. That's what he said so a while ago at the office.""At the office?" Jonah exaggeratedly asked.I chuckled as I changed to the next channel."Whoa. Whoa. Whoa. You mean to say he
41Kylie groans. "You know I am not a huge fan of art. Why are you taking me?"The three of us were riding inside the taxi as we sat down at the backseat."Art exhibits are cool. And you can meet eligible men there and not at clubs." Jonah answers.I smiled as I chuckled. "Kind of true.""´Course it is, hun." Jonah answers me.Kylie rolls her eyes. "It's gonna be so boring there and I'm sure I'm not gonna enjoy.""You will enjoy if you'll think positively that you will." I say to her."And besides, I heard the paintings there are all made up by a father and son team-up. What if the son is hot?" Jonah smirks.I pat her shoulder. "He is hot.""You've already met him?" Jonah gapes. "Why do you get to meet all the hot guys without us?" Kylie whines."I met the dude because he's Bethany's boyfriend." I answered.They nod in unison."Bethany Saintclare?" Jonah asked.I nod."What is she like? Is it really true that she's like a little Paris Hilton slash Kim Kardashian? I heard she's got a
42A FEW YEARS EARLIER..."Liv, c'mon I won't peek I promise." I say to him.Liv covered both of my eyes with his huge hands as he leads the way for me. I hear him laughing while he kept instructing me on where to go."Are we there yet?" I asked.He laughs under his throat. "Almost.""Where are you even taking me?" I asked him again while he walks behind me."Just relax, baby." He says to me and everytime he calls me baby, something deep inside of me kind of hates it.I hate it because it reminds me of our age gap.It has been a huge problem to us even from the very beginning but he doesn't make me feel like he's way older or I'm way younger than him. But then both of us can't really avoid that situation. Most especially when we listen to music when we're just driving on the road. He likes listening to classical rock bands from his yesteryear while I like the new pop music of my era. Right then, I can instantly compare us with our age.There are times when he would be busy for work an