Chapter Nineteen
Sam
The little shit was serious.
He’s putting the moves on Chloe, right in fucking front of me. She looks a little confused as she taps her shot glass against his, and gags when she tosses the whiskey back. She and Mason both burst out laughing, and Chloe waves her hand in front of her face.
“That’s terrible! Oh my god!” She’s still laughing and turns around to go to the sink. She rinses her shot glass and fills it with water, taking a drink.
“Now that we’ve gotten the worst out of the way, try this one.” Mason unscrews the lid to a bottle of peach vodka.
“It’s probably not a good idea to be mixing types of alcohol like that,” I say.
“Told you he’s lame,” Mason huffs, and I glare at him, still in disbelief he’s hitting on Chloe. She’s my— Well, she’s not my anything. She was my best friend but she’s not anymore, and I fucking hate how much that hurts.
“He’s right.” Chloe’s eyes go to mine. “I shouldn’t mix booze like this, and I had wine with dinner. I don’t want to get drunk or feel sick or anything.”
Mason puts his hand on top of hers. “Hey, if that happened, you know I’d take care of you.” That’s it. He crossed a line. I storm over, ready to put a stop to whatever the fuck he thinks he’s doing.
Then Jacob, Rory, and Dean come into the kitchen, followed by my parents.
“You’re drinking without me?” Dean asks and looks at the choices of alcohol on the counter. “Never mind.”
“I tried the peanut butter whiskey,” Chloe says. “Jacob was right. That strong rum was much better.”
“I could get that,” Mason offers, and Chloe shakes her head.
“I’ll pass for now and will stick to water. Or kombucha tea, but I’m guessing you’re all out.”
“I don’t even know what that is.”
“It’s fermented tea that’s supposed to be good for you.” She shrugs. “I don’t think any of the health benefits have been proven yet, but I swear I’ve been healthier since I started drinking it. I used to get a cold every few months, and I haven’t been sick since December. That’s a record for me.”
“You’re not going to counter that with medical facts?” Mason looks at me.
“I don’t see an issue with drinking tea daily,” I say, and Chloe and I both move closer to each other. It’s instinctual for me to be near to her. “But tell me your essential oils work better than modern medicine and we might have an issue.”
Chloe laughs. “I have a few friends who would argue that. All with peer-reviewed articles to back up their claims, and by that, I mean viral F******k posts.” Her eyes meet mine. “I can see how frustrating that would be for a doctor. I get annoyed enough when horses whinny and rear in movies. They don’t really do that.”
“Right?” Jacob agrees. “It’s so fucking annoying.”
Dad shakes his head. “Between the four of you, we can hardly make it through any medical, animal, or law enforcement shows without someone pointing out how wrong something is.”
“There’s certain jurisdiction that has to be—I’ll stop,” Mason says, and everyone laughs. I’m still glaring at him.
“Let’s get started,” Mom says, waving everyone into the living room. My phone rings as soon as I’m seated next to Chloe. I turn my wrist, looking at my Apple watch to see who’s calling. If it’s the trauma center, I’ll answer. If it’s anyone else, I won’t.
“Stacey?” Rory says out loud, letting the whole room know who’s calling me. “Again?”
“She must really want to talk to you,” Chloe adds. “This is the second time she’s called you today, isn’t it?”
“You’re still talking to Stacey?” Mom echoes.
“I’m not.” I hit decline. Talking about my clingy ex is the last thing I need right now. I sit back, arm brushing against Chloe’s. “What are we playing?”
“What about that picture game?” Rory suggests. “The one where you draw something and then pass it to the person next to you and they have to write what they think it is.”
“That sounds fun,” Chloe says. “But I’m a terrible artist, which I’m guessing is part of the fun.”
“It is,” Rory assures her, and Mom passes out the game pieces. We get started and play for a solid half hour, laughing so hard at some of the drawings our sides hurt. We play one more round and then stop for dessert since Rory wants to try to get Adam to bed soon.
Mom made apple pie, one of Chloe’s favorites when we were kids. We crowd around the dining room table again to eat, and then Rory and Dean go upstairs to get Adam asleep. Mom, worried about her chickens, has Dad go out to make sure the fox isn’t back and has Jacob come with her to check on her chickens, worried they got too stressed.
Mason, Chloe, and I are in the kitchen, and I bring my plate over to the pie to get a second piece. “Do you want any more?” I ask Chloe.
“I do!” Her eyes light up and her smile splits her pretty face. “Even though I shouldn’t.” She pats her stomach like she has weight to lose, which couldn’t be further from the truth. I don’t like a woman who’s all skin and bones. Everyone likes to eat, and denying such a primal thing is a turn-off. I, for one, am not going to deprive myself of anything when I want it.
Well, anything besides Chloe.
“One night of indulgence won’t hurt a damn thing,” Mason says, taking a seat next to Chloe at the island counter. “Giving in to what you desire is good for you.”
Chloe blushes and looks down, slowly shaking her head. She opens her mouth to say something and then her phone rings. “Oh, that’s my agent’s ringtone. If she’s calling on a Sunday night, it has to be important.” She hops off the barstool and goes to her purse, fishing out her phone. “I’ll be right back,” she tells us and slips out onto the patio to talk in peace.
“What the fuck are you doing?” I round on Mason.
“I told you, I’m making my move on Chloe. She’s smoking hot, and since you’re not emotionally invested, she’s fair game.”
“She’s not a game to be played.”
“If you like her, then admit it and I’ll back off.” Mason holds up his hands. “But since you already said all you want is to be her friend, why do you care?” His eyes pierce mine, testing me. “We both know that’s not true, and I can’t stand here and watch you strike out again and again.”
“Fuck you.”
“You should be thanking me.”
“For hitting on Chloe? No fucking way.”
“Admit it,” Mason goes on. “You want to be the one fucking her tonight.”
I open my mouth only to snap it shut.
“Your loss. Her tits look fucking fantastic in that dress.” He holds his hands up. “I bet they feel even better.”
Anger boils inside me, both at Mason for being a shithead just to be a shithead, and to hear someone talk about Chloe that way. I swing my fist at him, not actually wanting to punch my brother. Mason blocks my arm as I expected him to and tries to kick my feet out from underneath me. I grab him, trying to pull him down instead.
“I don’t want to hurt you,” I say through gritted teeth.
“Hurt me?” Mason rams us forward into the kitchen table. “Go ahead and try.” He puts his foot between mine and knocks me off balance, but we both go down. “Admit it!” He tries to pin me down, a typical move he always did in our youth. I dodge out of the way and go to stand back up, but he grabs me again, wrestling me back to the ground. “Admit it!” He swats at my face. Now that we’ve started the fight, we’re going to end it, though neither of us wants to actually injure the other. But like hell I’m just going to roll over and submit.
“Admit what?” I say through gritted teeth as Mason knees me in the gut.
“That.” He swats at me again. “You.” Somehow I get his shoe and start smacking him with it. “Are in love with her!”
The fuck? He knows I’m in love with Chloe? This whole thing was a show just to piss me off, forcing me to admit it. My own brother fucking played me, and I’m not sure yet if I should be mad. Mason takes advantage of my hesitation and knees me in the stomach again, and I hit him once more with his shoe.
“Boys!” Mom’s voice rings out around us. “What the hell is going on?”
I let Mason’s shoe fall from my grasp and look up and see—shit—Chloe.
Chapter TwentyChloe“Hey, Vanessa,” I say when I answer the phone. I close the sliding glass door behind me and am surrounded by the sounds of the night. “Is everything okay?”“Yes, and I’m so sorry to bother you on a Sunday night,” she starts. “I got a quick question for you before I pursue this any deeper.”“Pursue what?” I walk along the patio, looking past the white picket fence at the barn. The lights are on, and I can hear voices coming from inside. I know Mrs. Harris still has chickens, but I’m not sure what other farm animals they have now that the kids are grown.“I went out to dinner tonight and just happened to strike up a conversation with a producer. Of course you came up, and to make a long story short, they’re interested in getting you involved in an upcoming show. They’re putting a twist on medieval legends, based on a book written thirty years ago that ended on a huge cliffhanger. The author died before he got to finish it. Basically, they want to say the writer of t
Chapter Twenty-oneSam“It’s beautiful out,” Chloe says quietly, and I pause before looking up at the star-studded sky. I’m standing just inches from her, having come around the car to open the door for her to get inside. It’s cooled down a lot from the heat of the day this afternoon, but not so much that it’s uncomfortable to be outside. I love nights like this when I can be out in sweatpants and a hoodie, covered up enough to keep from getting eaten alive by mosquitos without breaking out in a sweat.A soft breeze rustles Chloe’s hair, and I reach out, not even thinking, and tuck her hair behind her ear. I get zapped with an electric shock when my fingers grace over her flesh, and Chloe jumps slightly.“Maybe you’re a merman.” She reaches up and puts her hand over mine.“What?” I ask with a chuckle.“It’s something from a made-for-TV movie I used to watch when I was a kid. He shocked people when he touched them.”“I think I remember that one.” I flip her hand over and lace our finge
Chapter Twenty-twoChloe“I…I can’t do this.”The look on Sam’s face just about does me in. But I can’t. I have to stand my ground or that momentary look on Sam’s face will be on mine for months, if not years. Or forever. Because it’s been over ten years since I’ve gazed on this man’s gorgeous face and I’m still just as in love with him as ever.“Then we don’t have to,” Sam says gently and takes his hands off me. I miss him right away. “I’m sorry. I thought you…I’m sorry.” He’s flustered and confused, and I can’t blame him. Because I do want to keep kissing him. I want him to undress me and fuck me until I’m screaming his name. I take a step back and blink away tears. “I really didn’t mean it was idiotic to kiss you,” he rushes out.“I know,” I say quietly. “And I agree you were an idiot for not kissing me sooner, because I really like you kissing me.” Dammit, I do, and desire for him swirls deep inside me, but I have to fight it. I have to stay strong. “I just…I can’t.”“I’m confused
Chapter Twenty-threeSam“Sam’s home!” Mason shouts as soon as I step into the house. He’s sitting in the kitchen, eating the rest of the pie, and snickers when both my mom and Rory come practically running into the room. “I almost had to call in a favor and report you as a missing person.”“I was worried,” Mom exclaims. “You didn’t say anything about staying elsewhere last night.” She holds up her hands. “I know, you’re an adult, but I was expecting you home.”“Sorry. I didn’t think about it.” I put my keys and phone on the counter.“Where were you?” Rory asks, doing a terrible job at hiding her excitement. She knows exactly where I was last night. I drove Chloe home and didn’t come back. Ignoring Rory’s wide eyes and grin, I look at the leftover biscuits and gravy on the stove.“I was with Chloe.” I get a plate from the cabinet. Thinking about her sends a rush through me, and I have to stop myself before my mind wanders back to her soft lips.“About fucking time,” Mason says with hi
Chapter Twenty-fourChloeIt was harder than I thought to say goodbye to Sam. We spent as much time together as we could before he had to leave Silver Ridge to go home for work. Being with him feels as natural as breathing. The lost years melted away and the stars aligned in such a way that we’re finally together.We only have a few days until we see each other, but this long-distance relationship thing is already driving me crazy. Sam had to fly home yesterday, and I’ve spent all today writing. Dad and Wendy are back now, and it was nice to spend the evening with them.I’m in bed now, looking at flight information. I thought about staying in Silver Ridge until the weekend and then driving to Chicago since it’s not that far, but I miss Spartan way too much. Plus, I need new clothes. Specifically, lingerie since I’m spending a hot weekend with Sam.I book my flight home for tomorrow afternoon. It doesn’t give me much time to be in LA, but I don’t need much time. I just need to do some
Chapter Twenty-fiveSam“You’re going to miss your flight.” I run my fingers up and down Chloe’s back.“Would that be a bad thing?” she mumbles.“Not for me.” I lift my head off the pillow and kiss her forehead. “You can stay as long as you want. It’s quiet here during the day, so you’d probably get a lot of writing done.”“Well, when you put it that way, it would be irresponsible if I didn’t stay.”I sweep my hand down her back to her thigh. We’re both naked in bed, and Chloe is supposed to be leaving for the airport to take a red-eye back to LA. She has a meeting with her agent about the deal the network is offering her. She told me she’s not sure if she wants to take it, even though it’s a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. It would take time away from her usual writing, and would tie her to LA. Selfishly, I want her to myself, and her ability to travel easily right now makes being together easier.The weekend is already over, and it went by so fucking fast. We’re both already countin
Chapter Twenty-sixChloe“Hey, sweetheart.” My lips curve into a smile and I narrow my eyes from the bright sun, watching Spartan slowly walk across the pasture, clouds of dust circling his hooves. Holding out my hand, I patiently wait for my thoroughbred to take the carrots. “I missed you.”Spartan gobbles up the carrots and impatiently waits for me to pull out a few more from the bag. I shove what’s left in my pocket and pick up his lead rope, bringing him in from the pasture.My meeting got canceled at the last minute, and while I wished I would have known so I could have slept in, it’s nice getting to the barn this early. I rarely do. I texted Sam and let him know, but with the two-hour time difference, he’s already at work and won’t be able to text me back any time soon.“The vet said you’re looking much better.” I open the gate and bring Spartan out of the pasture, swinging the gate shut behind us before Willow, a dapple-gray pony, can sneak out after us. “We can go out for a ve
Chapter Twenty-sevenSamMaybe I’m dreaming.Or having a nightmare. Yeah, that’s more like it. Because there’s no way I’m running on only a few hours of sleep, need to be at work soon, and my ex-girlfriend is standing right in front of me with her hand on her stomach, saying we need to talk.“Talk about what?” I ask, though I already know. But it can’t be. It’s not possible. Except it is.“I’m pregnant,” she says, and the ground goes out from beneath my feet.I blink. Once. Twice. My heart hammers in my chest and I’m suddenly feeling like I’m going to throw up. “Is it mine?” I ask, words coming out on their own accord. I don’t want to be an asshole, but we weren’t exactly exclusive. The last time we had sex was nearly three months ago, and it was the first time in over half a year.“The timeline matches up,” she says and makes a move to come inside. I’m in such shock I’ve just been standing here, rooted to the ground. I blink one more time, hoping the next time I open my eyes, I’m in
EpilogueChloe“Relax,” I tell Sam, trying not to laugh.“I thought they said riding a horse was like riding a bike. Once you learn how to do it, it just comes back to you.”Now I do laugh. I circle Spartan around, clicking my tongue at Drake, an eighteen-year-old horse we recently adopted so Sam can go trail riding with me. Drake is the perfect “husband horse” and has much more whoa than go, and right now is doing everything he can to pull the reins from Sam’s hands so he can graze.“Pull him up,” I tell Sam. “And ask him forward. He’s testing you.”“Come on, buddy,” Sam urges and asks the horse to walk forward. Spartan, who’s ready to race along the dirty trail, speed-walks up ahead, acting as good motivation for Drake to follow us. It’s a rare sixty-five-degree day in early March, and we’re taking advantage of the nice weather while we can.I leave for a month-long tour in Europe in just a few days, and instead of just doing book signings, Charles and are attending panels to talk a
Chapter Forty-nineSamFour months later…I stomp snow off my shoes and enter my apartment building, chilled right down to the bone just from the short walk from my car to the building. It’s been a long day, and work and the snow and cold makes me even more eager to get inside my warm apartment.“Good evening, Dr. Harris,” one of the attendants says.“Good evening. Staying warm?” I pull my gloves off and stuff them in my pocket.“I’m trying,” he replies with a chuckle, pushing the door closed behind me, wanting to seal off the cold air as fast as possible. I quickly grab my mail and then head up, squeezing in the elevator with a few other people.I’m the last to get off and hurry down the hall to my apartment, unlocking the door with haste.“Hey, babe,” I say and step inside, shutting the door behind me. “What are you doing in the dark?”Chloe turns away from the living room window, mug of steaming coffee in her hand. She’s illuminated by the light coming in behind her, so beautiful i
Chapter Forty-eightChloeTurning away from the coffee pot that I was plugging in, I look to see who’s at the door. I don’t remember having any deliveries scheduled for today, but I have a bad habit of buying stuff off of Instagram ads and then forgetting about it. Only delivery drivers and a select few friends know the code to my gate, though that doesn’t mean someone couldn’t have hopped the fence.“Can I help you?” Charles asks right as it hits me that someone could have seen Charles come over and is trying to get a candid photo of him. Which now makes me feel bad for asking him to answer the door, but dammit, I need coffee. I fell asleep early—before I could drink more wine—but I can tell a headache is coming on fast.Eric got up nearly an hour ago and has been out jogging since. Charles and I dragged out butts out of our rooms not all that long ago, both grumbling about being too old to drink like we used to.Unable to see who’s at the door, I sidestep, and Sam’s clear blue eyes
Chapter Forty-sevenSamLooking around the airport, I take a drink of my coffee, waiting for the caffeine rush to kick in. I need it. It’s going to be a long night. There were no direct overnight flights to LA from Chicago tonight, so I’m landing in Texas, changing planes, and will get to LA early in the morning. It’s the fastest way I can get to Chloe, and I cannot fucking wait to pull her into my arms and tell her the good news.I feel a little bad that I didn’t call Chloe when I was leaving the hospital, but I knew I wouldn’t be able to keep this from her, and I know how much she’ll enjoy the surprise. I was able to get the next two days off and then work an overnight shift on the third. As long as I’m able to sleep on the plane, I’ll be fine.I take another drink of coffee and lean back in the uncomfortable chair, fighting off the urge to fall asleep. I’ll close my eyes as soon as I’m on the plane, but I don’t want to take the risk of missing my flight if I fall asleep now.My pho
Chapter Forty-sixChloeI turn on my electric fireplace and grab two wine glasses, joining Charles on the couch. We’re back at my place, and I feel a little better after talking over lunch.“Red or white?” Charles asks, motioning to the wine bottles on the coffee table.“You pick. As long as it gets me tipsy to numb the pain, I’m good.” I grab a blanket and spread it over both our laps. The plan is to drink wine, order junk food later, and just hang out. Charles leaves soon to go overseas to work on a movie, and who knows where I’ll be.“The red then.” He gives me a look and opens the bottle of Merlot, pouring us both a generous amount. “I thought you were feeling better?”“I was.” I take a sip of wine and lean back. “I’m trying to shake the feeling that things aren’t meant to be and I’m struggling.”“Just because something isn’t perfect doesn’t mean it’s not meant to be,” he counters.“I know.” I nod and take another drink of wine, this time setting my glass down so I’m not tempted t
Chapter Forty-fiveSamI grab my phone from my locker and check for missed calls or texts. Chloe called me while I was in surgery, and I immediately call her back. The service in the locker room is shitty, and the call drops before her phone even rings. Quickly changing, I stuff my phone in my pocket, grab my keys and wallet, and head out to get something to eat.I’m on-call and need to stay nearby, but don’t have to stay on the hospital campus. I could go home, though I’ve gotten stuck in traffic, made it into the lobby of my apartment building and then got called back. Sitting through hours of surgery with nothing but granola bars in my stomach isn’t fun, so I pull out my phone to order food as I walk to the car.It rings only seconds after I step into the parking garage. It’s Stacey.“Hello?” I answer.“Hey,” she replies. “Are you busy?”“Not at the moment. I’m on-call and was going to get something to eat.”“Oh, good. I was just saying how hungry I was and I’m near your hospital.
Chapter Forty-fourChloeI drop my bags in the kitchen and walk through my large, empty house, going upstairs to my bedroom. I’m always a little freaked out to come home to an empty house after I’ve been away from a while. I have a top-of-the-line security system, so logically, I know no one could be in the house without setting off the alarm. I can go through the activity log from the last few days too and make sure no doors or windows have been opened, giving myself peace of mind.Though right now, I could use the distraction. I had a lot of time to think on the plane, and I came to the conclusion that while this sucks, I’m being dramatic. Single parents date with no issues. But starting a long-distance relationship while taking care of a newborn is a lot, and I can’t expect Sam, who already works long hours at a highly stressful job, to be able to fly to California for a quick weekend to romp around the set of a TV show with me.And there’s no way he can come visit me in Europe.I
Chapter Forty-threeSam“What?” Chloe asks, and the smile on her face fades away.“My ex says she’s pregnant.” I swallow the vomit rising in my throat. Time slows, and I watch Chloe, heart racing as I wait for her to reply.She pulls her hands from mine. “That is…that is definitely not what I thought you were going to—what?” She shakes her head.“Stacey…my, uh, ex, told me she’s pregnant and I’m the father.” Chloe, clearly stunned, steps back a few paces, dangerously close to the shallow shoreline. She brings a hand to her face and rubs her temples. Seconds tick by, and they feel like years. Say something, Chloe. Please. Anything.Finally, she opens her mouth only to close it again. “Your ex-girlfriend?”“Yeah,” I say, and a weight comes off my shoulders, though judging by the look on Chloe’s face, a heavy weight just landed on hers. “I know it’s a shock. It was for me too.”Chloe closes her eyes, rubbing her forehead. “What?” she repeats. “I…I thought…I thought you were…you’re
Chapter Forty-twoChloe “I have good and bad news.” I set my phone on the patio table and sit back down, pulling the blanket tighter around my shoulders. “Yeah?” Sam settles back into his chair, looking a little uneasy. He keeps flicking his gaze to Mason, who’s giving him a weird, unreadable look back. They’re having some sort of unspoken conversation, something only the two of them can understand. I used to wish I had a sibling solely based on how close all the Harris kids were. They fought like cats and dogs at times, but at the end of the day, they were a family and loved each other. I’ve always considered myself lucky to be part of it, even though I wanted to be part of it in a different way—the way I am now. “My agent was able to negotiate a much better contract with the network. She thinks I’ll like this one a lot more.” “And the bad news?” Mason asks. “The head honchos at the network want to meet with me Tuesday morning, so I’ll have to get