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19. IT WON'T GO AWAY
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2024-10-29 19:42:56PRESENT-DAY
LONDON
“How’s your over boring work?” Blake shouted amidst the loud music playing around them.
“As awful as a work can be,” Ayla replied with the same loud voice.
“What did your boss say?”
Ayla shook her head while looking at the crowd gathered on the dance floor. She wondered if they are really happy and peaceful like they seem or if this pub is their only escape? Do they carry voids, unsettling feelings, and an unknown homesick as she does? If they do, would they find an answer? The only answer she once had is her job which was now become the biggest question in her life.
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