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I was surrendered and, yes, troubled on yet another layer. Another one of… I don't know, I've lost count. As my tongue tangled with Stephen's, my mind traveled in several directions.“Someone will see us. If they do, screw them too. And Max? I'll see you tomorrow. What am I going to do after today? He's already had a jealous fit when he saw me in an apparently innocent conversation with Stephen, what if he found out we kissed? I mean, that I've been kissed? Oh, okay, I kind of reciprocated. I found myself ensnared somehow. I don't know how to explain it, they are different sensations. I want to be in that kiss. A hot and at the same time sweet kiss. Something touches me beyond the chill down my spine and the famous butterflies in my stomach when I'm with Stephen. It's more cuddly than sensual, you know? Already with Max, I feel alive, burning, powerful, on fire. I wouldn't say it's just a boner, but… Oh, I don't know. Did I mention I can't explain? It's crazy, it just has to be."" So
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Max's povToday is one of those days to mark on the agenda, in the mind and I dare say that also in the heart. It is a day that cannot end without a resolution on my part.I'm anxious to see Aria, see how she is outside the university environment and rationalize if that's really what I want to do, surrender to my most primitive desires for this nymph of a student.Since the sun rose in the sky, the minutes seem to pass more slowly on the clock until the moment arrives for me to meet her. I don't know how else to disguise my anxiety about this meeting. It feels like I'm back to 15 or reliving prom preparations.My best friends have already noticed that I've changed. I'm more on my own, withdrawn, introspective. Inside the university, a magnet seems to draw me to it all the time. So this last week I tried not to leave the teacher's council room anymore so as not to run the risk of bumping into her.But at yesterday's meeting, the smirk of the new teacher, that linguist with the gruff Fr
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Aria's POVIt wasn't enough for Max to be this all-around good man, he makes it clear how much he wants to impress me by taking me in his big car to one of the trendiest restaurants in Metropolity.We arrived at Taba's Gourmet after almost an hour of travel, which even seemed to pass quickly with our relaxed conversations and teasing. I took the opportunity to ask him about things from his past, to clarify some curiosities. And it worked. I just found out he even has a son!This information was playing in my mind. But first of all, I needed to solve another little problem.Well, a little problem if you consider a very optimistic view. If max knows, it's going to be a big problem.It turns out that as soon as I got in the car, there near the university, as soon as I found Max, my cell phone vibrated with a new message notification. Okay, this happens all the time, but this particular message was why I got a little unsettled a few times during our car ride.The number was unknown, that
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" Is that a catchphrase you're going to use in your first book? - I ironize, trying to keep the dialogue relaxed, but I know exactly what Aria meant." Who knows." Still curious about the toilets?" You know I do. - She assures, never abandoning her malicious expression."It always baffles me, you know?" Here's a piece of information that surprises me. He didn't seem disconcerted when he saved me from that prank call. And he didn't seem disconcerted when he called me to the bathroom in the cafeteria." I am impressed with your good memory. - I affirm, knowing that she will have a retort on the tip of her tongue." These are memories that I make a point of reliving always, never to forget..." Will I be in your book? Or… am I in your diaries?" State secret. - She answers, in the act, and again smiles, coquettishly.The waiter arrives with the starter, a colorful salad perfectly seasoned with ingredients that hark back to the coast of Metropolity. We served and slowly enjoyed each on
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Aria's POVI decide to literally leave Stephen on standby while I receive the third provocative message on my cell phone. I flip the screen down and proceed to ignore him for the rest of the night.The mood with Max is going way beyond my expectations. The dish, handpicked by me from the menu, the wine, the conversation, the atmosphere, I can't classify which is better. Maybe it's the work as a whole.Our dialogue is like a roller coaster, between ups and downs of ironic, dramatic moments and also full of provocations. Like a foreplay of foreplay, where we both know where and how the night will end.I savor Max's words the way I savor a fine meal at Taba's Gourmet: slowly, appreciating every detail, every ingredient. As if it were the last time. Like it was just a good dream and at any moment I was going to wake up." Well, you already know my favorite colors, movie, book, pet, place, food… Um… let me see… you know I intend to be a writer. What else am I missing?" Favorite position?
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We reached Max's far from modest summer home in a few minutes by car. We held back our instincts to the fullest and let one more experience of sex in the bathroom go by to experience, for the first time, more conventional sex, in a bed."Your home is beautiful. Cozy.”" Thanks, I tend to have good taste in most of my choices."You're silly, you don't miss anything..." Taking advantage of the pun, I'm going to make a coffee, do you accept?" I would love.While Max makes coffee in the kitchen, I delete Stephen's messages from my phone and send Loretta a message to let her know I'll be sleeping outside. She answers me a minute later."I already knew. Go with everything, babe.”Of course, she wouldn't be surprised. Maybe Mellanie, but that was something for later. And registered too. Ah, how I want to tell everything soon for my diary..." Trouble in paradise?Max is back with two steaming cups." I wouldn't say a problem. Nothing worth worrying about. I'm delighted with your bookcase.
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It's almost six in the morning and I just can't stop reading. Max turns over in bed next to me and, afraid of waking him, I take a brief tour of his house and continue reading lying comfortably on his sofa.Outside, the sun welcomes another day, as if smiling at me and new possibilities. My cell phone lights up too. I remember that it exists and must be almost out of battery. To my relief, just a message from Loretta.“Are you coming back today?”The tone of the message and the time at which it was sent indicate that she also spent the night out and drinking too much alcohol.I decide not to respond for now and resume reading. She was simply fascinated by the character of Lily and her feminine strength.“" Don't you know that only women are allowed here? Or did you come to wash clothes for me?"I need to talk to you about something.Ping. Pierre could be quite inconvenient when he wanted to be."Then speak." Is it true that Doriana goes to the king's arém?" Pierre, did you come to
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Max wakes up and appears in the room wearing only boxing briefs. He caught me in nothing but lingerie on his sofa, fully absorbed in reading and surely berating me for not making coffee." Good morning hottie." Good morning." He abandoned me. - He says, approaching to give me a kiss on the cheek." I was sleepless and didn't want to wake you, I'm sorry."Okay. Enjoying the read?" What do you think? I'm already on chapter three." Productive morning, then. - He jokes. - I'll make us some coffee. What do you usually eat in the morning?"Hmm… wholegrain toast?" You're in luck, I've got all kinds of toast here. And cheese. There's plenty of cheese." Perfect. - I smile in response and take the time to read a little more."" What do you think about getting married?I stand up, suddenly, in disbelief of his words. It felt like a conspiracy. Marien on the river, now the madman himself was proposing madness to me."Calm down Lily, you didn't hear everything..." And I don't even need to.
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From the bus window, I begin to recognize the place where my father said he would be next to the new house. By my count, there's only another ten minutes to go.I don't know if it was reading during the trip, the many turns the bus took or everything together, but I feel extremely nauseous, hoping that the bus arrives at its destination soon.I avoid eating cookies anymore, I've come to despise them in the last few days, so these are the ones I love so much.I check my phone quickly, no messages. Screen light also gives me a headache. The truth is, I've been feeling weird with unprecedented frequency these past few days. I also felt that my hips are a little wider. I need to stop eating cookies at dawn.Suddenly, the cell phone rings. It's Loretta."Hey friend.""Hi, babe. Are you there yet?""Hmm... almost. Not long, why?""Nothing, I just wanted to know if it arrived okay."" Missing your crazy friend already, I know." Also." She nods. "Don't forget to say hello to Ethan." Never m
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“This is about my first time with Doug. He was experienced and I was just a girl. I tried to describe in detail. Enjoy it!Being warm in Doug's arms inside the car was quite inviting considering the chilly Perth night. After the brief flurry of sincerities in the square, we decided to ease the tension with a lighter conversation inside the car. Talk, and some kisses, of course. We talk about different topics. College, family, future. Until, perhaps a little motivated by the effect of the beer, I decided to take the conversation to more uncomfortable paths. After the honesty shown in Doug's words in the square, and after, even after midnight and with a few pints of beer, he hadn't tried anything, I felt more than ever that I could trust him. I felt safe to the point that my desire increased every minute I stayed close to him."You must be quite experienced" I hinted.He chose to ignore it and placated the silence with a kiss. But I had to insist."Well, more than me for sure."What dif
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Dear Chaos Diary,Not in a thousand lifetimes would I have imagined that everything would end up like this. My conscience is clear, I was honest all along. With myself and with them.I helped wrap up a story that wasn't even mine. So don't ask me again to feel guilt that isn't my place to bear.Loretta says I went too far. Ethan says I should be in psychiatric treatment with Peter. Everyone says something. But nobody lives for us.We are our choices.And I chose to just live. Live as you can. Live with fulfilling my desires whenever possible. Live Free. No strings attached. No label.Which is not to say without love. Love can be translated in other ways.Not just in that romanticized way, like in books and movies.The genuine love we feel for ourselves and our loved ones, that, yes, should be a priority.Then no. I will not take a fault that is not mine.I'm sorry, spare me, but no.The sick are the others.Those who hide behind trauma, I don't see courage. I see fear.I see cowardice
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I get up scared, I almost lose time. Ironic how much my last readings spoke to the situation I was currently going through.A question mark insists on pondering in my mind. But after Loretta broke into a fit of laughter after my last comparison, I never brought up the subject again.It won't be now that I'll be back. I felt compelled to go ahead with my plan above all else. I do one last check of my outfit and make the last adjustments to my makeup. It is at the same time light and seductive.I grab my bag and walk discreetly to the teacher council room. It's three minutes to five o'clock, Max will be waiting for me by now. Fortunately in the conversation I had with Stephen in that same room, Max was busy, in another class, and they didn't bump into each other.Perfect.I'm in front of the luxury wooden door. I look around, assess whether there might be someone lurking in the hallway.Anything.Perfect.I give three soft taps on the door and push it open without waiting for an answer.
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“It was a fifteen-minute drive to a modest little house that was located among a few dozen trees, in an area far from the center. Louis and his brother, Gustave, were curious about our search for Jimmy's whereabouts and decided to also embark on “the investigation” after we summarized the story for them along the way." Is there anyone at home? " Paollo asked, as soon as he got out of the car, when he saw the whole place closed." Mary almost never leaves the house. Unless today is really not your lucky day. " Gustave said, trying to relax. Louis went ahead and knocked on the door, which a short time later opened. I breathed relieved. There was still hope of learning more about Jimmy after all." Hi, Mary. I've brought a visit. " Louis said, in a joking tone. The petite woman looked at us with an expression similar to that of the Indian lady. I would also be wary of foreigners on my doorstep. Louis explained the story quickly and she seemed to understand right away. In the end, she
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“I also thank you for being honest with me, Professor."“And you said you had a proposal. I'm curious."“I know you're…” I smile slyly.“Okay, I'm listening."“First, I'd like to know how much you're willing to invest, not financially of course, in this pseudo relationship of ours.""After everything I just said, do you have any doubts that I would invest big? Max smiles."“High really high?”“What are you up to, Aria Thomas?” he inquired, completely anxious." I wanted to know if you would really do anything for me… including… trying a threesome."“And do you have any friends who would be up for it?” Or would it be a call girl?“No, you don't understand. I didn't say it would be with one more woman."Max briefly widens his eyes. Clearly, he hadn't expected this one."Well, I confess that it's something I've never done."“Everything has its first time."" I agree, but… it's audacious of you."“I'm proposing this to you because I figured you were an open-minded guy."“I'm open-minded.
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When class ends and all the students leave the room, including Loretta who runs to the next auditorium, I remain seated to talk to Max.I see he sent a message on his cell phone."Wait for me here or in the council room, please."Geez, he really doesn't want to let me get away.But before I even got the message, I was already determined not to go out to have this conversation with him. A conversation I rehearsed several times, in my dreams, in the shower, in different places, even when awake. A proposal whose content even scares me, due to such audacity.But now I won't go back on it. I need to try. It's stronger than me."Hey professor." I start with my sly voice, which I know always drives you crazy.Max finishes gathering his stuff on the table on the small dais and looks at me over his glasses.“Hi, Aria. How are you?" He asks, seemingly unconcerned that we're alone.“Now I think I'm calmer. Some things are back to normal apparently"."And truth." He pauses. “Well, most things at
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I arrive late at the auditorium, but miraculously arrive before the professor. Looks like he had to sign the end of his suspension at the rectory first before he came to teach.Unlike before, I wave to Loretta in the distance and take a seat in one of the last rows, blending in and practically disappearing behind the heads of the taller crowd.There are two reasons for this: I really want to hide from Max's gaze during class. And I arrived late, which makes the first option even more viable, as the first few rows of seats are almost all occupied.Before class starts, I text Stephen. As strange as that sounds, it's part of the plan. My strange plan, to be exact. I think of a phishing-style message, to hook him without him noticing.“I miss you and your class. I wanted to see you today, is there any way?”That's pretty straightforward.The students chat excitedly about the latest events of the week as they wait for Max to arrive. Two minutes later, my phone flashes the new message notif
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Like after a long bad dream, after facing several days in the dark, Monday arrives again, with new air, a new glow. Classes resumed, the case was covered in the local press and the movement of students walking all over the campus returned with a vengeance.Peter is still in recovery. His lungs were badly affected by the water he ended up breathing in."Are you going to make it in time for the first period?" Loretta asks, finishing touching up her lipstick.I still need to brush my hair, which, now waist-length, keeps getting knotted.“I just need to stop by the closet in the main hall to get some books. But I'll meet you in the auditorium.“Okay, don't be too late. She winks mischievously.She knows I'm in an internal battle looking forward to seeing Max again after a week of not making contact. After all.It takes me a few minutes to find the key to the little padlock that opens my hall closet. I know it's in some bag, but it's that old story, which one? I turn everything over, find
