Elena.
There's only so much one's mental health can take. Only so much one can take. "Get out," I snapped, my fingers pointed straight at the exit, "Get out, get out, get out...." If my ex had decided to run a silly game and I was to be used as bait to get him, then I wanted none of it. I wouldn't drag Charlotte down that rabbit hole ever again. The blond woman did not move. Neither did her goons. Instead, she walked into my apartment and made herself comfortable on my worn-out couch, her face devoid of any emotion. My eyes followed each and every movement from her, from her nimble fingers opening her bag and bringing out an envelope that she placed gently on the table. Her eyes met mine, and she made a gesture to the envelope. I had no idea what might be inside. If it was a bomb, then she wouldn't want me to open it while she was still here. Except she was some sort of sadistic bitch. I tore the envelope open, the content inside being a white sheet of paper with information on me and Charlotte. From our dates of birth to facts about my parents and Charlotte's dad. Thorough. My eyebrows scrunched up in confusion, "I don't understand....what is this...why?" "We did a thorough search, we wanted someone like you and we got you," She made a signal with her hand to one of the men, and he walked forward with another envelope in his hand, placing it gently on the table for me to pick up. "You're in debt. The rent would expire soon. You have no job, and you have a daughter that's about the same age as the young master. Good....." I opened the envelope the goon had placed on the table, picking up another sheet of paper. "....you have nothing to lose in this. Just agree to be the nanny for a year and six months, and we got ourselves a deal." The sheet of paper was a nondisclosure contract. To never tell anyone about what happened in the estate for the eighteen months I would be there. What my job entails. "And a sweet little thing," She spoke like a fucking princess, "Your daughter would be offered the chance to attend a prestigious high school after the private tutoring with the young master." Connect with the rich kids. Learn their ways. Become rich. Through a rich man ready to spend his assets because he needed someone to take care of his child. 'Everything I do, I do it because of Charlotte' the sentence kept on replaying in my head as I mulled over the situation. I stuck my hand out for a handshake, "Yes, I would be delighted to work as a nanny." "Just sign the contract, I don't need to shake your hand." Cue the tragic embarrassment. The mansion was a hundred times larger than any other house I had stepped my foot in. The interior decorations were done in such a way that would make whoever walked in salivate at such a design. Fucking intelligent. The blonde lady smiled at me, "You'll stay here for a year and six months. That's how long the master needs you to be a nanny," her eyes flickered shortly to where my daughter was, admiring some sort of painting on the wall, "You won't see him though, maybe on occasions. Your daughter will be privileged to attend the same private tutoring as the young master, clothes would be provided when needed, a chef would come on specific days to make the meals for two days and your salary would arrive on the same day each month...." She spoke those words like she was reading from a sheet of paper. Her mouth moved, but her face was stuck in the same position, like even a smile would affect how she spoke. I let out a low sigh and placed the brightest smile on my face, "And I won't leave? My daughter and I would remain here forever?" She nodded. Those were the rules. I had to take care of the child of a man I might never see while also getting suspended from going to the outside world for a year and six months. The warmth I felt when Charlotte's hand grabbed mine was the last thing I needed to strengthen my resolve. She needed something stable for a while, I was willing to give her something stable. "Well, I am here already," I said softly, adding a bit of cheer to my voice. "Where's the young master?" The blond lady....she really needed to give me her name...eyed me with disinterest now. For someone I just met, I had the desire to take her to a mental hospital because of how fast her emotions and facial expressions changed. "Come with me." There were no goons with us now. Just her, Charlotte, and myself. We walked till our feet hurt. And then she stopped in front of a large door. Knocked once, knocked twice, knocked thrice. And then the door opened to reveal the cutest six years old boy I had set my eyes on. His green eyes and blond hair were refreshing. His cheeks pink due to his shyness, or perhaps he had naturally rosy cheeks. I had no idea. "Hi," I waved at him, "I'm Elena, and this is my daughter, Charlotte. Nice to meet you." I had no idea what this trust fund kids did when a stranger waved at them, so I waited. It felt like hours. It felt like years. But slowly, he walked away from the foot and towards us. He waved back, his little fingers dancing in the air. "Hi, I'm Jaden." I had no idea my heart could possibly fall in love with someone other than Charlotte. But at that particular moment, my heart felt like someone was trying to embed himself there. "Nice to meet you, Jaden." **** "Jaden, where do you think you're going to?" I asked the little dare devil who thought he could sneak past me because I was making breakfast. He wasn't supposed to be awake till at least an hour after. "Daddy comes back today, I couldn't stay asleep." I couldn't help the eye roll that occurred after he made that statement. He did it every single time someone sneaked in a little whisper that his dad was coming soon. And then, he got disappointed when he does not show up. It had been exactly one month and a week since I came to this mansion. Jaden and Charlotte had become fast friends... Best friends if I was to be a daredevil. He was a sweet little boy. He had nightmares when it rained and would snuggle up to me. For some reason, I felt safe within the four walls of the places I was allowed to explore in this estate. Ari visited me whenever she got the opportunity. She took pictures of Jaden playing alone, playing with Charlotte, learning, eating, or perhaps just doing anything. "Don't get your hopes up. Remember what happened the last time." But he didn't listen to me. He walked around the kitchen, touching things he wasn't supposed to, while talking about what he was going to do with his dad. I had never met Jaden's father. The only information I had on him were the ones Jaden talked about when he was in the mood, the stories of all the adventure they had whenever he decided to come to the estate. He had been slacking off lately. I placed breakfast on the fancy plates Jaden loved to eat from, before placing Charlotte's and mine on our plates. Something simple. "Give me a minute. Let me wake Charlotte up." Along the way, I saw men dressed in black all over the place. They weren't here when I dragged myself to the kitchen to make breakfast this morning. They all stood straight, like rods. Their eyes unmoving. I kept walking until I got to Charlotte's door. Then, I heard the familiar clicking of heels on the floor. She had her hair in a bun, her dress seemed tighter than normal, her cleavage in full display. The makeup was minimal though. "Elena," She spoke in a singsong voice, a pitch higher than normal, "Wait up." "He came around this time then, Jaden was correct," I tried to sound casual as I tried to calm myself down. I turned around so I could open the door. But Ari placed her hand on the doorknob first. The smile on her face gently morphed to something of distaste. "You have to make yourself and the children scarce. The men here are not your everyday kind of men," She looked like she didn't want to give me this information, "Move to the east wing, your things would be brought later." Without waiting for my reply, she spun on her heels and walked away. I moved to the east wing with Jaden and Charlotte as fast as I could. I had no idea what kind of men were in the estate, and I didn't want to expose the kids to unnecessary danger. Once they were safe, then I would get into unnecessary danger myself. "Who are those men in the house?" I asked Jaden once we were in a large room in the east wing. "Daddy's business partners," He replied. I had never explored the east wing before. There was no one in this wing, so I felt it was safe to explore. The first room I tried to enter was locked. And so was the second and the third. The fourth time happened to be the charm. The place smelled like dust. No one came in here to clean. It had a simple design, devoid of warmth. Just a bed, a dresser, and a closet. But the closet.... The sound of a metal falling on the floor and someone cussing broke my concentration. Someone was in this room with me. "Who's trespassing?" I shouted, much to my distaste. My legs moved on their own accord towards the door, while my eyes searched around for where an appropriate location to hide was in the room. And then I felt like the air was being knocked out of my lungs. It all happened so suddenly. The hand held onto my throat, and I thrashed around. "Who are you, and what are you doing in this room?" The person asked, his lips dangerously close to my ears. Oh my.Elena.He smelled like coffee, mixed with cinnamon. Ash. The woods outside. Oud. I froze in place, partly because I could easily die here, but mostly because I had left the kids alone.I was such a terrible nanny."I won't ask you again, so you better answer fast," He spoke like a cat, soft, slow, and purring each word. "Who the fuck are you? And what the fuck are you doing in this particular room in this estate."My fingers dug into the hand that was draped across my body, my head grew a bit fuzzy and it seemed like I couldn't think of who I was anymore.He held unto my neck, a little too tightly for my liking. At the point of the attack, I had not even registered the fact that he had a literal knife tip pointed at my back. He could kill me if he so desired."I am Elena, I am the nanny for Jaden Halloway,"The chuckle was not what I expected as the response. The chuckle and digging the knife a bit harder, almost enough to break skin."Who are you? Sebastian hired a nanny? Do you real
Elena.He followed the track of my fingers before he pulled his eyes to meet mine."How is Jaden like? I hope he isn't any trouble?"I almost snapped the end of my finger off with the knife I was currently using to cut the spring onions for the omelette. One whole week, he made me stay in a room with the kids, hidden from the rest of the house and the world, because I dared to check out a room while he had visitors at the estate."No," I said simply. Quietly. I did not want to seem like someone who was rude to their employer."Right."I knew he wasn't dumb. Not by a long shot. Those pictures and videos of him I saw on YouTube and tiktok were enough evidence to know he wasn't socially awkward as well.He was just rude.I found it sad that he had to keep all this a secret. He kept Jaden hidden from the world like they would snatch him away if they ever found out about him, and he had to go through such lengths to get someone who needed money desperately as his nanny."Though I reckon he
Elena.Sebastián's wing, at the other end of the property, was empty. There was nothing hanging on the walls. There was nothing next to it. His office wasn't much better, just a stupid brown desk and some chairs next to it.He felt like he had no personality at all.Well, he was a jerk, so I assumed it was some kind of personality.The children were still in the other wing, safe behind doors that were closed. I had no idea if Ryan was still on the property and if he would make a move against Charlotte or Jaden just to spite me.Luck wasn't something that was always on my side, but finding the office door open seemed to be the only good thing that had happened to me since I arrived at the farm.qSebastian's personality seemed to be reflected in his office. The room had been painted a rich, deep coffee brown to match the mahogany desk in the centre of the room. There was a plush sofa next to it filled with pillows of different sizes.Did Sebastian sleep in his office? Different pens an
Elena.Someone left fries, burgers, and drinks from a fast food place on the kitchen counter. Enough to feed ten people. "Burgers," Charlotte squealed in delight. The little girl had been forced to eat healthy or eat my greasy fried eggs that were beginning to lose their appeal.Jaden, on the other hand, approached the counter with much more refrain. His little eyes searched around the room for something. Or someone.A piece of white paper peaked from behind one of the cartons of fries. I scowled as I read the contents.'Ryan can be a handful sometimes. I know you miss the outdoors and freedom. Love, Ari'It came with a signature, too. If this was truly from Ari, then I guessed it was safe to eat. I had not seen any of the other known inhabitants of this estate since yesterday.Helping Charlotte and Jaden with what I was sure they would be able to finish allowed my mind to be focused on one thing. Not what it desperately wanted to think about. Sebastian Halloway. Billionaire. In the
Elena."Fuck this," I muttered to myself as I watched Jaden and Charlotte taking lessons from the barely there teenager, who Sebastian forbade from giving me any information about himself. The shiny glint of glass beckoned me as picked up the extra wine glass. Just in case I was interested in having a drink with him."I don't like this," I thought, watching Jaden speak to his tutor. I had developed some mouth-reading skills that were amateur at best. I watched him drop the book the tutor had given to him on the table.He crossed his arms together, his childlike lips pursed in a stubborn pout. Charlotte, on the other hand, picked up the book and placed it gently on the table.She had become even more careful after the accident yesterday. I didn't even look around for anyone watching, quickly unscrewed the cap of the bottle of vodka, and chugged down the nasty thing. The liquid burned as it raced down my throat, and I forced down the cough so I could bear it.I needed this if I was
Elena.If I was being honest, I was about to play a dangerous game.One that could possibly get me punished. Or worse, get kicked out of the estate with not even my dignity. "Is he okay?," I heard Ari ask someone. Ryan? Possibly one of the numerous men that guarded the estate and kept to themselves."I saw a trail of blood when he dragged himself into his room.""What the fuck happened?" This wasn't a voice I recognised. The person's voice sounded a bit faded, like he kept a respectable distance away from Ari.Ryan's voice was next. "He refused to tell me, tell anyone what he does when he disappears for days. I had to give him fluid. He was both in shock and drugged out of his mind."I leaned in closer, my ears almost touching the cold wall. The voices had been muffled, but I was able to make out the tone of urgency from Ari's voice, while Ryan's was mixed with confusion and frustration.He seemed like the kind of person who tended to become angry when they had no idea what was going
Sebastian.I tried to remain anonymous for the time being. When people found out the leader of a certain group was twenty and inexperienced, in their thwarted opinion, they considered the person a dummy.I clenched my fist so tightly my knuckles turned white as I stood outside the door to their family home. My palms were clenched into fists at my side.I knew the Walters like the back of my hands. They were probably already seated together, hands clamped together while they watched me fidget on their home monitor. Maybe the mom, the bastard of a woman, was trying her best to convince her daughter what a great match this certainly was going to be.I had always hated the idea of arranged marriages, and now one was being forced on me against my will, just so I could keep my group.I wondered what else they would use to convince her. Giving that they didn't want her to know what was actually going on in our world.I took a deep breath to steady myself before I knocked on the door. Once. T
Elena.Something smelled delicious, like a bundle of cinnamon roll, spice, and heat. I wanted to wrap it around me like a blanket.I snuggled closer to the source, enjoying the strong, solid warmth beneath my cheek. If I could stay on that bed forever, I would, but I had promised to help Jaden learn finger painting today.I had to allow myself to have one more moment of coziness - had my bed been so wonderful and big, without any other human attached to my arms - before I opened my eyes and yawned. My room looked different. Weird. My bed was closer to the window for some reason. There were no pictures of Charlotte and I on the nightstand, no vase of roses by its side. And certainly no Charlotte and a silly Jaden with legs sprawled everywhere, on my bed.My eyes searched around the room until it landed onto the broad expanse of bare, tan skin by my side, and my stomach dropped. Familiar blue eyes stared back at me, with no hint of the concern I had seen last night.He flicked his gaze
Elena.Two weeks later.The day I decided to end the marriage contract with Sebastian, the sky was an endless stretch of grey.The kind of grey that blankets the world in a dull, heavy silence, making everything feel colder, more distant. I found it fitting, really. I was about to make the hardest decision I had ever made. The world should feel as bleak as I did inside.We sat across from each other at the kitchen table. The kids were in the other room,playing with their toys and whatnot.We both stared at the divorce papers in front of us, Sebastian’s face as unreadable as ever.He hadn't said much when I told him what I wanted. No anger, no argument. Just an unsettling calm that made me wonder if that was what he wanted."I think this is the best thing for all of us." I said quietly, breaking the silence that threatened to envelope us. "After everything that happened. The lies. I need to focus on gibing those kids their own lives. And you need to take care of your demons."He looke
Elena.The weight of everything that had happened pressed down on me as we were escorted out of that hellish place.The men were all around, their voices distant as they checked around the area, and talked to each other.But all my focus was on the two little hands gripping mine tightly - Charlotte on one end and Jaden on the other.Sebastian was by my side as well, his face distant but resolute as we made it outside.There were paramedics around, checking us over. Their gentle hands tended to the cuts and bruises we had.But no matter how many times I told them I was okay, I knew I wasn't. I kept glancing at Charlotte and Jaden, reassuring myself that they were here, that they were safe. But each time I looked at them, I couldn’t help but remember Ryan’s cold, calculating voice, his cruel smile as he threatened the children. It haunted me, replaying in my mind over and over again.I had no idea how I was going to tell Charlotte that her father was dead yet, and that was the reason
ElenaThe cold floor bit into my skin, the damp air thick with the scent of mildew and....urine. Thud. Thud. Thud.My heart pounded in my chest, a frantic rhythm that drowned out the echos of Charlotte whimpers."Mommy." Charlotte's voice was barely a whisper as she unwrapped her arms around me and moved to my side.Jaden was on the floor. Passed out cold from the looks of it.The terror in my eyes mirrored that in Charlotte's. They must have brought him in when we fell asleep.I held unto him.I had to be strong for them.But how was the possible when every breath felt like it could be my last.Footsteps echoed along the hallway, signifying the presence of a couple of people. The door creaked open, and I felt my heart stop.Ryan stepped into the cell, his face twisted into a mask of cold, calculating fury. Behind him, Sebastian’s limp form was dragged in by one of Ryan's men.Blood matted his hair and clothes, and I had to bite back a scream."It's only fitting that I kill the whole
"Elena. Get up. Now."I woke up to the harsh whisper slicing through the silence.Disoriented, I wasn't surprised to find myself alone on the bed, the remnants of last night's comfort dissipated like smoke.What was happening?"Sebastian?" I called out softly, sitting up and rubbing my eyes. My heart pounded so loudly I was sure he could hear it.Something was wrong.He was at my side in a flash, his hand gripping mine tightly.For the past eight months, I had worked with and even married him and I had never seen the expression he wore on his face."Get dressed quickly." Sebastian commanded, his voice low but firm. "We need to leave. Now."Panic clawed up my throat. "What's going on?"Sebastian's jaw clenched. "I have no idea what kind of deals you held with Ryan and Elliot but Ryan has gone rogue. He's going to kill you the way he...."A pang pierced my heart at the realisation.Scrambling to my feet, I could feel my heart racing as I yanked on my clothes. "Charlotte, Jaden...""She'
Elena."Hey."I had my arms wrapped around myself, unshed tears glistened in my eyes. "I'm sorry you had to see me like this, but... I didn't want... Charlotte..."My lips trembled in an effort to keep the wobbly smile I had on."Fuck whatever happened." He was by my side in an instant, his eyes scanning my exposed body for any sign of injury. "What happened now? Did Ryan..."His words hung in the air. I could see the way he struggled with himself mentally."It's Charlotte father." I swallowed hard. "My first husband, James Miller. The hospital called and said he was admitted after a car accident. He's..he's..." I choked on a sob I didn't want to slip out.I guess I didn't need to finish my sentence before he understood what I was trying to say. But I didn't expect sympathy from him - his wife crying over her first husband - or anyone in this estate. I expected rage."Come here, sweet girl." The rough crack in his voice was unexpected.He opened his arms, and I didn't hesitate to ste
Elena."My old man's name is Adrian Romanov too. He wants to meet you, and only you."Adrian Romanov's words played a loop in my head like a broken record. Two days after we met and I was yet to find the pause button.Even now, as I watched the kids play, I sensed the torment from Ryan when he couldn't come close to me since Sebastian stayed home and by my side a lot.I also sensed something else from Sebastian. An hostility I never knew he had until now towards Ryan.We'd returned after his conversation with the Russian lord, my heart a vigorous drum in my chest, my blood vibrating in my veins. It was like he had something important he wanted to ask, yet kept himself at a distance. "Does he plan to hurt you too?"Yes.Ryan would stop at nothing to hurt me or the kids if it meant he would have a chance to get some time with his precious James. But I needed his help with Elliot.I'd always been the good girl. The one who loved her parents and hoped for a healthy marriage like theirs w
Sebastian.If Elena was to be described with one word, it was stubborn.The novelty of being our little argument at the estate faded quick when she insisted on coming with me to wherever I was going to.The way we had left things moments ago gnawed at me, and it was quite possible I would go insane if nothing was done about it.I gave in.I was happy that I finally got an audience with Adrian Romanov, but all I could think about was Elena.I stared at her as we walked through the door of the apartment complex where we were supposed to meet. She wore a simple black gown that flared out at the waist side and ended at her knees, but she glowed in a way that made it impossible to look away.I traced her features with my eyes, soaking in the curve of her lips and the way her features came together to birth a beautiful being. When she gave me a little smile to show her support, my heart dipped.Where people smiled with just their mouth, Elena smiled with her eyes. The way the corner of her
Elena.I had no idea how on earth I was supposed to follow a man who was using a car to get to his destination, with a group of people tailing him already.But I knew I had to do it. Even if it was the last thing I did.**Sebastian's face had leached of colour. "That was days ago." He said, his voice low. "People tell their kids stuff all the time. Just to get them off their back.""Did yours? Because until you needed me for some sort of deal, I wasn't more than a nanny to your son to you."He flinched. "Look. I shouldn't have said what I said, but I'm very protective of... Jaden, he's my son, especially after what happened to Rachel. You know, as well as I do, how a child would feel if something happened to someone else he cared about.""So what would happen years after you're done with me?" I couldn't change the sting from the memory. "Once I can be disposed.""You would never be disposed." He raked his hands through his hair, successfully destroying the sleek back look. He was cl
Elena.No one actually thinks they are a bad person.I was playing the game for the long run."There are two options. Get me in on your husband's business and everything it entails, or provide the money and diamond you and James stole from the office."A tough call.I could never be able to provide those.In my defence, I had a good reason for shooting James and inadvertently causing the destruction that followed. I had good reasons for staying away from my dad and Evangeline.When I made attempts for them to end James's life quietly, they had refused.Blackmailing me shouldn't be an option in their lives.The blackmail wasn't something I could tell Sebastian, not when I made a deal with Ryan already.I should have told Sebastian from the beginning. He would have handled the situation in a way that I never could, with poise and dignity. Then again, if I had done that, Elliot wouldn't be able to care for James anymore.I adjusted the tablet in my hand. Between learning how to use devic