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18. First Home Visit
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2024-10-29 19:42:56I go back to hospital again to stay with Carol.
"How are you doing know?"
"I'm feeling devastated." She whispers.
"You're scaring me, Carol." I sit down beside her bed side. Bandage is wrapped around her head. She is looking weak and sad.
"I feel so broken. My feelings were sincere for him. I can't believe he was thinking to molest me the whole time." She chokes in grief, "He was so drunk and then all of sudden, he became wild and forced me to...to..."
Tears begin streaming down her face. I hold her hand, "Carol, relax. Please. Over-thinking will worsen your health. Forget about him."
It' difficult for me to console her at such a moment when I need some encouragement too to solve my own problem. This is the most difficult phase of my life. I don't know how to call it...a wife? Not wife or half wife? What I am now?
"You were right about him. I should've listened to you." She sniffles, drying her tears with her hand.
"You
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