To say I didn't think much about what Ethan said was a lie because I thought long and hard about it. No matter how hard I tried not to, I just couldn't. I was definitely becoming crazy. Replaying and evaluating his every move and searching for small signals.
After we finished lunch, we went back to the hotel for some free time. Once again, I sat alone on the bus. But this time, every time I was caught staring at the buildings that we passed, Ethan would occasionally give me friendly grins as our eyes met.
Leighton hesitated at first but decided to sit next to Ethan, even after his sudden outburst. She apologized with a pout, and he said it was okay — it wasn't — but I wasn't going to say that out loud. I mentally curse at Ethan for being way too kind and forgiving her way too quickly.
I was currently sitting alone in the lobby, waiting for Leah to come back. The bright light in the room acted as the perfect reading light as I tried to escape the loneliness by burying myself in Gone with the Wind by Margaret Mitchell. I only brought one book with me on this trip, but one thousand and thirty-seven pages were probably enough to keep me company for the reminder of the trip.
My little moment of peace was interrupted by a group of large boys walking down the stairs, dressed in athletic clothes. Connor had two black stripes painted across his cheeks to show that he was in the team spirit. Not long later, Ethan came down with a muscle tee and a pair of casual black shorts. His body was lean and hard, and he was looking far too fine for someone who wasn't even trying.
Leighton took the elevator instead, coming out with her long blonde hair pulled into a high ponytail secured with a pink scrunchie. Obviously, she was going to join the boys in playing capture the flag. There was a large field behind the hotel which is available for guests if you book through the reception.
She was wearing one of the tightest booty shorts I've ever seen and a white tank top which she made sure clearly showed how perky her boobs were. I couldn't imagine myself ever running in something so uncomfortable.
She reached her hand out to rest on one guy's arm as he was flexing his muscles. I tried to stay unnoticed by hiding my face behind my book. I must be the biggest loser here, reading instead of exploring this beautiful country or hanging out with friends. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from panicking.
He turned his head and flickered his eyes over at me. He took his time to gaze at me and then sent me a warm smile. Maybe he wasn't staring at me, but wondering to himself why the hell I was sitting alone reading a book.
When I noticed he was coming this way, I held my book tighter, like I was holding onto my dear life.
"What are you reading?" He asked.
"Gone with the Wind."
"Oh, by Margaret Mitchell right?"
He never fails to surprise me with his extensive knowledge of writers.
I nodded.
"I've read it a few times."
"What do you think about it?" I asked, genuinely curious about his opinion of one of my favorite books.
"It's a ruthless book for sure," he chuckled, "the last fifty pages was the most tragic and upsetting thing I've ever read."
"I agree. Once I finished the book, I had to tell Leah to burn it and never let me see it again."
I continued. "But any book is considered a great book if it has such a strong effect on the reader."
The entrance door opens, spilling light towards me. I see Leah standing by the door, finally back from her activity. She raises her eyebrows, and her lips turn into a smirk upon the sight of Ethan and me together.
"Oh my god." She mouthed, slowly making her way toward me. As Leah comes up to the couch, Ethan greets her with a friendly smile.
"Do you guys want to join us?" he said, "We're playing capture the flag."
Before I get the chance to pass up the opportunity, she agrees.
"I think I'll just watch," I said quietly.
He took a step forward to me. "Don't be ridiculous."
"I'm not a very sporty person," I said with a determined grimace.
All my high school sports memories were my least fond ones. We played basketball, softball, volleyball and basically any other sport you could think of in Physical Education class, and I hated every single one of them. I remember every time I came to class late, Mr. Duncan made me run around the school playing field four times to learn my lesson.
I couldn't help that my class was on the other side of the school. Not to mention the horrid changing rooms that gave you absolutely no privacy whatsoever. All in all, whenever I hear anything sports-related, I get shudders from the bad memories.
Ethan chuckled. "Don't worry. I'll make sure you get your chance to capture the flag."
"If that's the case, then we're in!" Leah cuts me off before I get the chance to refuse his convincing offer.
"Great, get comfortable and I'll see you out back," he says before disappearing to the back.
A grin lifts from Leah's mouth as she gushes about how Ethan was helplessly flirting with me. She pinched her lips together to refrain from smiling again. "He was totally flirting with you!"
"He was just being nice." I defended myself. But I really wished that he was flirting with me.
"I'll make sure you get your chance to capture the flag." She mocked, pulling off the best raspy Ethan impression she could. It did Ethan no justice.
"He doesn't sound like that!" I laughed.
"Maya, you know there's a fine line between being friendly and being flirty," she said, "and Ethan obviously just fucking hurdled across that line."
I tried to change the topic by asking about her morning trip. I didn't need her to tease me about Ethan anymore. "How was your tour today?"
She was dancing back and forth on her feet as she continued to tell me about what she did. I laughed and shook my head.
"What about you?" she asked, "How was the Colosseum?"
"It was breath-taking, but lunch was a disaster. I got attacked by Leighton and her group of friends."
Instantly, she stopped dancing and came closer to me. Her eyes were widening with surprise. "Tell me what that demon said to you. I'll let her have a piece of me afterward."
"She asked why I was sitting by myself, probably making fun of the fact that I had no friends in the group."
Leah cocked her eyebrow in disbelief. "One true friend is worth more than three fake friends!"
"Well, she doesn't understand the meaning of a true friend anyway."
She leaned forward and propped her elbows on the armrest. "If I were there, I'd bitch slap her face for you."
I chuckled. "At least Ethan did something about it, again."
"No way!"
"Yeah, he asked her if she had anything better to do than be a bitch."
"Ethan swore at Leighton?"
I nodded and chuckled at her surprised expression.
"This day keeps getting better and better!" She exclaimed.
Leah put both of her hands out to pull me up from the couch. She was determined to have me join her in a game of capture the flag. Apparently, it only consisted of running and nothing extreme. Little did she know, I was incapable of running too.
After going to the extreme length of threatening to rip my precious hardcover book, I put my hands up in defeat and joined her to change into something more movable.
Fifteen minutes later, I was wearing black shorts and a plain white v-neck shirt. I pulled my hair into the rubber band I kept on my wrist as a habit. The breeze was gentle, and although it tangled my hair a bit, I couldn't care less.
Leighton looks at me, barely concealing her scowl. Anxiety flew through me as I walked to the field, feeling a few eyes land on me. They were probably wondering why someone disabled like me was joining them in a game of capture the flag.
Just as things couldn't get worse, I see Leighton approach me with her group of friends, strutting in sync with each other.
"Sorry, this game is for people who actually know how to play sports." She said with a sly, piercing look.
"Yeah, and society is for non-bitches only!" Leah shot back at Leighton.
Leighton looked horrified, and I wasn't sure if it was because Leah just called her a bitch or was it the fact that the boys were chuckling at Leah's comeback.
I didn't say a word, just thankfully smiling at Leah. She seems to get the memo as she smiles at me. She takes my hand and leads me across the field and towards Ethan.
"So, what are the teams?" Leah asked.
"Maya, you're mine. Leah, you're on Connors."
"I thought we were talking about teams, not favorites." Leah jokes.
I had my head down to avoid any eye contact, feeling my face heat up once again as Leah openly jokes about me and Ethan. He takes it better than I thought and shrugs it off with a chuckle.
"Alright, you ladies ready to play?" He asked.
I gave a wary nod. This was going to be the biggest mistake ever. Leah joins her team as they plan out a strategy.
Ethan was explaining the rules, and I couldn't help but stand awkwardly, trying to release the nervousness that I was feeling. No matter what, I always knew that sports and I never went well together, meaning this game can't possibly turn out any good. I was somehow going to fuck up, either by tripping on my own feet or capturing the wrong flag. Was that even possible.
Without looking at his friends, his eyes gazed at mine as he shot me a smile. "You're going to do great."
His hands were resting on my shoulders, making my stomach flutter. I really do appreciate his non-stop encouragement. Don't get me started about when those damn dimples appeared, making my heart stop a beat. For a moment, my breath stalled, and I felt like a giant balloon was inflating inside my body. He noticed my uncertain look but still held no doubts.
"Let's do this," I said, half trying to persuade myself.
Maya's P.O.V"Does everyone know which role they're playing?" Gabe asked.He was also part of the football team, playing as the left tackle. His job was to protect the quarterback's blindside, which was Ethan, to prevent him from getting tackled. Being almost 6'5" tall, everyone referred to him as the mountain.His hair was an unusual mix between a light brown and dirty blonde, slightly ruffled, but he didn't look like he cared. Gabe was reasonably quiet compared to the rest of the team, always did his own thing and minded his own business. He was one of the bearable ones."We can't win if our team is unsynchronized. Everyone needs to know precisely what they're doing." He repeats.The team nods as he goes over the roles of each person again, probably for the fifth time now. Once he's done, he huddles us close together for a final pep talk before the real thing begins."The New England Patriots wouldn't have been able to win so many games if their team didn't know what they were doing
Maya's P.O.VIt was currently two in the morning, and I was standing by the balcony, watching the glint of starlight and the radiating moonlight. Nobody was here to accompany me, not even the wind. The streets were quiet and empty, and not a single person was outside. Damn, this is what loneliness must feel like.here were a lot of things I enjoyed doing alone, such as reading, listening to music, or going to the park. But despite my introversion, this very moment made me realize that although I liked being alone, I don't fancy being lonely.The only sounds that filled my eyes were the sound of chirping crickets. It was like they were mocking me because even they had someone to accompany them. Leah was fast asleep after spending hours comforting me. I found it quite amazing that I didn't even have to tell her that something bad happened. Just with one look at my face, she could automatically tell that something was off.I was too busy crying to remember what she said to me accurately,
Maya's P.O.VOnce our curfew was up, Ms. Wilson came by all of our rooms to check on us before wishing us goodnight. We both pretended to lie in our beds with our pajamas, telling her to turn off the light to make it seem like we were going to sleep.As the door shuts, my eyes go wide open as Leah hops off her bed.I had spent hours going over in my mind about my outfit choices, wondering if the night of freedom was worth the risk of being caught. As the goody-two-shoes I am, breaking the rules was a big no-no for me.I knew people judged me for being the way I am, but it was nothing new. It bugged me at first, but Leah would tell me to ignore any opinions that didn't come from someone who cares about you. At this point, I've gotten used to the constant criticism and was now letting it roll off my shoulder. Not like I needed that negativity in my life anyways. As they say, misery loves company.Digging through my suitcase to find something appropriate to wear, I mentally cursed at mys
Maya's P.O.VInstead of deciding to go back to the hotel, I stayed and waited for Leah as she prances around the dance floor, arm-in-arm with Connor. They looked like they were having the time of their lives.Meanwhile, I've decided to kill as many hours as I can by sitting at the bar alone and drowning myself in drinks. It's kind of funny that although I'm sitting in this crowded nightclub, it hits me that I still feel immensely alone.I guess that's what you get for being insecure. I've always lived in fear of judgment, avoided meeting new people, and never thought that I was good enough for anyone, even my best friend. I've never done anything exciting, stuck by the rules, and always did what I was told.Leah, one the other hand, learned how to not give a fuck since forever. She got along with everyone, and her confidence radiated through everything she did.Maybe if I were a little more like Leah, I'd be easier to handle, and I'd be a better company.I grab the drink in my hand, s
Maya's P.O.VBeing my second night in a row that I'm unable to sleep, I'm surprised I even had the energy to stay up after tonight's hectic event. By the time we stepped foot into our room, Leah immediately jumped onto the bed and passed out. Meanwhile, I'm sitting on the couch and having a quarter-life crisis about a boy that I barely even knew. What the fuck was wrong with me?It was almost three in the morning when we got back, which meant I had no more than three hours of sleep before we had to get up for breakfast. There was no point in sleeping, especially when I had the urge to throw up every fifteen minutes.I go to the toilet to check myself in the mirror. Unlike how I looked like when I left the place, my hair was bundled up on one side of my head, and mascara was streaking down my face.I decided to take a shower to wash off the nasty scent of alcohol and people, which I thought would be the first step in solving my problems. After a good fifteen minutes of drowning myself
Maya's P.O.VIf anyone told me I would be waking up to the thought of Ethan Morrison, I wouldn't be as surprised as that happened way too often. But waking up knowing that I was somewhat dating Ethan Morrison?Never in my wildest dreams did I think that would ever happen. If you asked me before this trip, I would tell you that there was a higher chance of Earth getting invaded by zombies than Ethan liking me.Since it was the last day, Ms. Wilson decided to give us free time to explore the the places that we wanted. We all got some rest before changing our clothes. Leah wore a cute t-shirt dress that was incredibly soft. We planned to meet up an hour later to hang out and explore Rome before we head off to Paris tomorrow.After a quick shower, I wore my standard summer wardrobe that consisted of a light and breezy summer dress and a pair of flats. I retrieved all the things I needed for our afternoon exploration session."You look cute," Leah complimented."Thank you," I smiled, "so d
Maya's P.O.VThe sunny weather slowly faded, and the cold droplets of rain started to pitter-patter around me. The sky that was once bright yellow was now grey.When the gloominess takes over, everyone seems to take it as some sort of discomfort that the rain brings along. But for me, I love the rain. It gives me this excited and high on life feeling. Something is refreshing and soothing about the sound of the rain.Lucky for me, Ethan didn't seem to mind walking under the rain with me either. Any sane person would have taken shelter as soon as the rain started to get heavier, but Ethan kept his coolness and continued to accompany me around the mark et without one single complaint.Seemingly hours later, Leah and Connor emerged from the market and through the huddles of people crowding under their umbrellas. Despite us all getting rained on, it was dawning on me that we all still had so much fun.Finding a cab to go back to the hotel, we sat in soggy clothes and what felt like inches
Maya's P.O.VIt seems almost surreal that I'm wearing pyjama pants, a hoodie, and a pair of flip flops to sneak out at midnight. Never in a million years would I think I'd ever sneak out anywhere, let alone sneak out to be with Ethan Morrison in Rome. Not that I was complaining.I had already told Leah about night's meetup, resulting in a high-pitched scream from her. In exchange for her looking out for me, she demanded that I tell her every single detail afterwards. She spent a minute or two digging around in her suitcase."Here, keep this." She said before handing me a couple of condoms."God, Leah!""What?" I rolled my eyes at her."It's just in case anything happens. I want you to be safe!" She defended."Why do you even have this much condoms in your suitcase?"A small smirk appeared on her face. "You don't want to know."I took the condoms she gave me and shoved it in my bag so she would stay quiet, but I had no intention of using it. I never really thought about having sex wit
Ethan's P.O.VIf someone told me years ago that I'd find the love of my life and get married on the beach, I'd think you were crazy. But now that it was becoming a reality, I felt the hairs on the back of my neck lift in excitement as the limo pulls up to the resort where our wedding is being held.Maya has always dreamed of having her wedding on the beach and who was I to protest against it?The driver walks around and opens the door for me. "I wish you all the best on your special day."I sent him a nervous smile and tipped him. "Thank you. Have a great day!"The warm glow of sunlight rested upon my shoulders. Today, Maya was going to become my wife. God, I don't think I'll ever get tired of thinking her that way.Upon entering the room, the atmosphere was buzzing with excited chatter as children ran around between the tables. Since our wedding was on the beach, there was a pleasant breeze that rustled in the surrounding trees. Sweet strains of classical music drifted through the cr
Dear Ethan,I suppose that since you're reading this letter, it means that I've decided to come to the airport to send you off. If I'm going to be completely honest, I didn't think I was going to go. Not because I hate you, but because I didn't know how I'd react seeing you leave. I have so many mixed feelings that I can hardly wonder where to start when it comes to saying goodbye.Being a hopeless romantic, I believe that everyone deserves a chance at love. It might sound silly, but after the countless romance novels and movies that I've watched, how can I not?My whole life, I believed the definition of love was two people being romantically attracted to each other and living happily ever after.Oh, how wrong I was.Ever since I could remember, I was known as the girl with very good grades, and I can't deny the fact that it was in fact true. I absorbed every material teacher taught with ease and excelled in tests. I know how to describe the process of protein synthesis in detail and
Ethan's P.O.VI gaze at my reflection in the mirror, taking in that this was going to be one of the very last times I get to do this. Was it weird to say that I'm going to miss this mirror?Or this bedroom.Or my everyday routine.My friends.My life here.My shoulders tighten when I hear a knock on my door, yet I felt relieved as the knock probably spared me from what would have been hours of overthinking.Hurrying over, I opened the door to see my dad standing in front of me. I was sủprised, to say the least. The last time he knocked on my door was when mom was still alive, which was years ago. And for the first time, he doesn't reek of alcohol and cigarettes."So, your flight to London is today?" he asked, still standing outside.I nodded. "At one.""You packed everything?"He sounded like he actually cared, which worries me."Yeah, I'm done packing.""That's good."A heavy silence fell and we stood there facing each other for what seemed like an eternity.His voice came out in a h
Maya's P.O.VThe exam week passed in a blur.My face was so deeply buried in textbooks that I had no recognition of what was going on around me. My friends would ask me to hang out, but I'd always end up declining. Time was precious, especially when exams were so close, which meant I couldn't let myself waste it.I could slightly recall the tingle I felt when I walked into the exam room. I hated being in exam conditions. It was suffocating.But I got over it anyways.Couldn't say the same about my break up with Ethan though.A few days later, we received our end of year school reports, which included the final exam grades that I studied so hard for. I let the happiness soak into my bones as I savored in my perfect final exam grades. All A's — except for that one A-minus — but I wasn't going to beat myself over it. For the first time in weeks, I finally felt relaxed. No more vigorous studying, no more deadlines, no more schedules to meet.Also no more relationship.After our exams, sen
Maya's P.O.VThe loneliness I felt was beyond anything I have ever felt. Before I knew it, my life changed significantly in very little ways, and in such a short period of time that it affected me more than I thought it would. Nobody brought up the conversation about Ethan again, nor dared to mention his name when I was around.Instead of spending all-day around people, I've become more introverted every since our breakup. I spend most of my days flipping through textbooks and rewriting my notes. One week prior to our exams, our teachers usually gave us free time in class to study, but everyone just procrastinated or talked amongst themselves. Nobody actually studied — except me.Being someone that couldn't study in a loud environment, I've asked the teachers to let me go to the library to study, so it's become a routine now. Just like every other day, I've headed to class for attendance before making my way to the library aka my second home."Look who's here," Jason said, approachi
Ethan's P.O.VI woke up the same way I had fallen asleep, tired, and emotionless. Rolling over to my nightstand, I removed the charging wire before checking my phone.Gabe: Wanna head to the gym today?It's not like I was going to do anything at home, so might as well.Ethan: Sounds good. Meet you there in an hour.Setting my phone to the side, I close my eyes. The moment I do, the image of Maya crawls into my head.It's been a week. One cold, lonely, and meaningless week of me avoiding her. I haven't replied to any of her texts, calls, and would head to the gym instead of eating lunch together at the cafeteria.This is what you have to do.As much as I don't want to, I have to.Grabbing whatever was closest to me, I buried my face deep into my pillow, screaming in the process. All this thinking was going to drive me crazy.I'm going to the gym. I'm going to gym out all my problems.Walking to my closet, I picked and changed into the first tank top and pair of shorts that I see. As I
Maya's P.O.VIt's been almost a week and not one single text from him.Even after a few days, I was still in a great deal of shock after my conversation with Ethan. In fact, it's eating me up so much that I couldn't even remember what I learned in class today. As much as I tried not to obsess over what he said, it seemed almost impossible considering I've sat on my table for thirty minutes and haven't started on any work yet."Honey, dinner's almost ready," my mom hollered from downstairs. Sucking up all the air in my lungs, I yelled back just as loud, if not louder. "Coming!"If I was going to be honest, I had no appetite whatsoever, but it would look suspicious if I didn't come down for dinner. My dad didn't even wait for my mom before stuffing his mouth with the cheese-filled lasagna. It was his all-time favorite so she would make them every Monday. Usually, families had their unhealthy cheat meals on Friday night, but not in this household. My mom believes that since Monday wa
Ethan's P.O.VI glanced around to see where they were sitting before easing my way towards them. From far away, I could already hear the guys talking about which girls they thought were hot, and what they did after prom (which I'd prefer not to say).Scanning the table, the moment I laid eyes on Maya, a part of me couldn't believe that this gorgeous girl was my girlfriend. She was wearing a light-colored floral top that complemented her figure well. My gaze slowly traveled down and I take in her tight skinny jeans. My god."I love your outfit today," I said, giving her a quick peck on the lips. Her cheeks flamed as she tried to hide her smile. "Hey."Maya stared up at me as I slide into the seat net to her. She shifted her eyes to me, and the worry plastered on her face didn't go unnoticed.She shoved a fry in her mouth. Why was she worried? "You okay?" I asked.Once I settled down, I squeezed her thigh for reassurance, but she didn't muster up a reply. I tried to let it go until th
Maya's P.O.VLeah and Connor dropped us off before heading to the back to park the car. Right away, I noticed that everyone was super dressed up As I stepped out of the door, I felt a rush of cool air hit my body. God, I should have brought a coat with me or something. While we waited for Leah and Connor, I tried hard not to shift around and I was pretty sure he noticed considering he put his arm around my shoulder. "You okay?" Ethan asked, "you look nervous.""Just a bit," I smiled, "I've never actually worn anything like this before, especially in front of so many people."His brow wrinkled as he shook his head. "That's crazy, there's nothing to worry about. You're the most beautiful girl here."I frown. "That's a lie.""Well, my eyes are only going to be on you tonight so technically, it's not a lie," he shrugs casually. I guess it makes sense..."Are you ready?" he asked.I smiled and nodded as he intertwined our hands together. The moment our hand makes contact, a wave of ha