Chapter 192:

Ryan POV:

Living in the dark for too long will immerse people and make them think they belong in that ominous darkness. Like me now, there are times when I think it's okay if I won't step out into the light forever because my morning has been taken away by others. Erza, my only sunshine, has left me, leaving only a bleeding wound in my heart.

Even though I sent people looking for her everywhere, there was no news. She was like a cool breeze blowing through my most desperate days, then she merged with the air to let me know she was still there, but there was no way to catch her or see her.

I've lived days like hell. I never imagined that I would fall into this dire situation one day, half dead. I was never an alcoholic or a smoker, but now what? This room has nothing else except empty bottles and burned cigarette butts.

No, there's one more thing. The smell of blood lingers in the air, the lives taken by these hands. She would continue to scold me for being cold-blooded and cruel if sh