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NIRVANA

“Hey. Where are you? Our flight will leave in less than an hour.” The boarding area had just started checking in. 

I quickly went behind the woman with a kid. I wanted to get it done soon so I could rest during the fight.

“I’m sorry, Vana.” The voice from the other end of the line was somber. When he followed with a deep sigh, I knew what came next. “It’s obvious I’m the only one trying.” 

I briefly closed my eyes. “I’m trying, Axell. That’s why we’re doing this.”

“Not hard enough. I’m sorry if I have to do this over the phone.” 

“You could have answered my call, Axell. And maybe I also canceled the trip we planned for almost two months.”

“You should go on this trip alone. Who knows, maybe you’ll find what you’re looking for and maybe shed some light on what you want in a relationship. I hope we can still be friends when you come back.”

“Sure.” I had to bite my tongue not to argue or call him names, but that was all I could say. What was else left to say? He broke up with me over the phone before our trip.

 I stared at my phone screen when the call ended. In my other hand was my only luggage. Somehow, I felt relieved instead of wallowing in heartache. 

“Next!” 

I dragged my not-so-sorry self and gave my economy class ticket with a smile to the flight attendant. It was now or never. Maybe Axell was right. I badly needed this trip alone.

I slept throughout the flight. I always traveled light. I didn’t need a bag of cosmetics, a suitcase of clothes, and another for shoes. It was a miracle the kid beside me wasn’t grumpy. 

The weather was a little humid in California. Kailin arranged a taxi to take me to the vineyards. She was my classmate and best friend, but she had to go back to be with her family to help her cousin run the winery business. 

The taxi took me to her place. The massive sign of Blackwell Vineyard and Winery appeared before me while the driver seemed in a rush.

I was amazed at how vast the place was. I knew Blackwell was loaded, but Kailin never bragged about how filthy rich they were, especially her cousin, who ran the business. 

The taxi stopped before the iron-wrought gate. It automatically opened, and the humongous colonial estate house stunned me. I immediately saw two big guys— McKaye, Kailin’s twin, and the other was just around his age. 

Kailin was already grinning. 

Before I could open the door, the guy opened it from the outside.

“Vana, you made it!” Kailin engulfed me with a tight bear hug and then looked at me from head to toe. “Oh, my God! You look incredible.” 

“Excuse me?” I couldn’t help but smile. “We Facetimed almost every day, and we last saw each other just three months ago.”

“I miss you.” She then looked behind me and oddly raised a brow. “Wait. You’re alone?”

“Yup,” I said with a pop. 

I wasn’t entirely disappointed, but Axell and I planned this trip for two months. 

Before the takeoff, I wanted to tell Kailin I was coming alone and that Axell wasn’t coming with me.

“Care to explain?”

A clearing of throat interrupted me before I could tell her about Axell. 

“Where should I put this?” A male voice behind me asked.

I turned to see a guy around our age with curly dark hair. 

“Take it to the room across mine. Thanks, Zander.”

“Um. That wouldn’t be necessary,” I resisted. The least I could do was to be less of a burden since I would be staying here for free. “I can take it. It’s not that heavy.”

“It’s okay,” Zander said before he left, leaving me puzzled.

“So, you finally made it.”

I smiled at McKaye as I offered my hand. “Hey, McKaye. Glad to finally be here.”

“We don’t do handshakes around here.” He pulled me into a bear hug, just like Kailin. “My sister’s friend is my friend.”

“Appreciate it. And thanks for accommodating me.”

He smiled, showing off the resemblance of his twin sister with their dark copper hair and chocolate brown eyes; he was born on December 31st, while Kailin was born on January 1st, making him the eldest. “Well, you should thank our boss.”

“Silly. Ignore him.” Kailin held my hand, dragging me away from her brother. “You must be hungry.”

“See you around, Vana.” McKaye waved a hand. 

“See you later, McKaye.” I looked at Kailin. “You must have questions, K.”

“Yeah. What happened? You sounded excited last night.”

“Well, Axell broke up with me over the phone while I was boarding. I knew something was off when I called and texted him, and he didn’t reply or return my call, but I had no plan on canceling this trip. I wanna be here, K.”

“I’m so sorry, Vana.” Her voice was tender as she squeezed my hand.

“I’m fine. Maybe he got tired of waiting and my regarded excuses. I just wanted this trip to be special.” I followed her inside the house, and I was pinned with pairs of eyes coming from steroid-boosted men who could snap my neck with their fingers.