NIRVANA
“I look ridiculous.” I glanced at my reflection in the mirror.
I chose the square softline neck black midi dress since I didn’t have many to choose from. Kailin offered her closet to me, but I bothered her enough.
“Yeah. You look ridiculously hot.” So was she, in her velvet teal midi dress. Kailin had an athletic body. She preferred going to the gym and heavy lifting to my Pilates.
“So, you’re not dating anyone?”
“I told you. My family is traditional when it comes to marriage. So why bother dating if I can’t be with him forever.”
“You dated in college.” I recoated my lips and pressed them together.
“Because I was bored, and I needed dicks.”
That cracked me up. “Really? So these bunch of dicks are off limits?”
“Lower your voice. They can hear you,” she whispered but still smiling.
“Noted. They have superpowers.” I snorted and picked up my phone to check some messages. I got one from Grandpa but nothing from Axell. What was I expecting? We were over. I was not even sure if we could be friends.
Axell was a coward. He could have just told me before I went to the airport, like everyone else would. Instead, he chose the easy way out.
“What are you thinking?”
“My ex.”
“Don’t waste your breath. Axell doesn’t deserve you.” She offered her hand. “Let’s go before my cousin sends a cavalry to drag us downstairs.”
“Your cousin is weird,” I told her honestly, yet she didn’t look offended as I grabbed her hand.
“Yeah. He’s a good guy, but I don’t know why he acted like he forgot his pies in the oven.”
I laughed softly as we headed downstairs. “Maybe he really had pies waiting for him.”
“I told you. He’s not a commitment type of guy, and I never saw him bring women into the vineyards.”
“I bet he hooks up a lot.” I instantly heard chats and murmurs. I wasn’t expecting to see a lot of people. I thought it was just a family dinner with me as a guest.
“Well, he’s a guy with needs.”
I felt a sudden jolt in my chest. “He’s loaded and hot, and he can have any women he wants.”
“Exactly.”
The chatting stopped. The house went silent, except for my own heartbeat. My pulse quickened, and heat spread from my neck to my chest when I saw everyone’s eyes on me. Most were guys in shirts and pants. They all cleaned up well.
“Hi. You must be Nirvana.” The man in his early thirties with tan skin came. He looked like he was important around here, wearing a light blue suit without a tie.
I shook the hand he offered. “You can call me Vana.”
“Nice to meet you. I’m Kaleb with K.”
I smiled. “Nice to meet you, too. Well, Nirvana, like Kurt Cobain, Nirvana.”
“How do you find the Blackwell Vineyards so far?”
“I have yet to take her on a tour around the property. All we did was stay in my room all day, but we will do it tomorrow,” said Kailin.
“You won’t regret it. It’s pretty nice down here. It’s not the same weather in New York, but if you love vines and wines, you came to the right place. How long are you planning to stay? I hope for a few weeks.”
“She will come more often, Kaleb. Trust me.” My best friend patted my back.
“You guys love K, huh? Do you like Keeping Up with the Kardashians?”
Kaleb chuckled. “I prefer Desperate Housewives.”
“Is Knight here?” asked Kailin.
“He’s on his way.” Kaleb took two glasses of wine and gave one to me.
Kailin was already sipping hers. “Try our Merlot. You’re going to love it. I know you like fruits.”
I swirled the dark liquid in the wine glass and took in the rich, fruity flavor before I took a sip. The blackberries, cherries, and red plums flooded my tongue with the hint of vanilla and spice aroma of tobacco, a lingering finish of chocolatey taste.
“Amazing. Three years old?”
“Yes.”
“I just turned twenty-one, but I used to steal my grandpa’s leftover wine. I learned a few things. And I really like the dryness and spiciness of it.”
“You have a good taste, Vana.”
“This is just so good.” I raised the glass at an eye level so I could see the red liquid.
“Knight just arrived. Let’s go to the dining room,” Kailin informed excitedly.
I suddenly felt nervous, which I never felt before. I was the type of person who went with the flow, but right now, I wanted to go back to the room and just drink wine there until I passed out.
The dining room was surprisingly big and elegant, with a long, lengthy table, and the dark red velvety curtains were drawn to the sides. The crystal chandelier hanging low from the ceiling and interesting pieces of antique wood sculptures, particularly a wolf’s head, caught my attention.
Then, the room went silent. The man of the hour walked in, drawing all the attention to him. What was with this guy that caught all my attention and my senses alerted?
NIRVANA Knight Blackwell was only in a formal white shirt, sleeves rolled over his elbows, showing off those huge muscles and veins. He matched it with dark pants but clearly knew he could pull it off effortlessly. He was massive and taller up-closed, and he looked unbelievably attractive, not to mention his neat quiff cinnamon brown hair, full lips, straight nose, and the dark stubble covering his hard jawline made him look like he was ready to seal the billion-dollar deal for tonight. I couldn’t call myself petite with my height of five foot and seven inches, but he made me look dainty before him. “Nirvana.” His expressive green eyes met mine. His voice was pleasing with a husky rumble that he didn’t want anyone to hear. He somehow didn’t look pissed off than this morning, but he wasn’t happy either. A gasp escaped from my throat. My cheeks burned, realizing he was already standing before me. He was close enough that I could see the flecks of light green in his dark forest-gree
KNIGHT Nirvana was fucking gorgeous, it should be a crime, and she wasn’t even aware how beautiful she was that she caught everyone’s attention. These guys had been warned beforehand to behave— this meant she was off-limits as Kailin’s best friend. Despite only seeing her once, I couldn’t stop thinking about her. She had already become my distraction. And her name alone was like a nirvana to me, and I wouldn’t allow it to happen tonight. The dinner went well despite the constant glaring coming from Kailin, warning me to be polite to her guest. I quickly left the dining room while McKaye and Kaleb showed the Blackwell wines to Nirvana. “Where do you think you’re going?” Kailin followed me out. “To my office.” “You’re lying. You’re leaving.” She sounded disappointed. I stopped and faced her, sighing. “I did my promise, Kailin. I showed up and introduced myself to Nirvana. I can’t stay here. I have tons of paperwork—” “Boring,” she sang with an eye-roll. “You can show her ar
NIRVANA What a jerk! Prick. Prick. Prick. I felt rejected. A sliver of pain pierced my chest. Disappointment seeped through within me. I didn’t know this guy, but his words hit different coming from him— they sliced right into my heart. And it felt like I’d known him for a long time, that he meant what he said. When Axell broke up with me, it didn’t hurt like this. What was with this man that caused me such agony? He was gone for a few minutes. His footsteps faded in the hallway, but his expensive taste of cologne still lingered in my head. When he knocked on my door, I was expecting an invitation, maybe a walk in the vineyards under the moonlight. Obviously, I was way over my head. But something must have happened after he left the dining room. I saw the rage in his eyes and the clenching of his jaw. Whatever enraged him that had twisted his boxers— if he wore one, had nothing to do with me. Maybe he just hated me. Perhaps he was just an ass. Whatever. I picked up my
NIRVANA “Anyone there?” I bent over to see who was on the other side but saw no one. Until a giant brown wolf appeared that almost gave me a heart attack. With my breathing stuck in my lungs, my heart pounded so hard, and my feet seemed rooted to the ground. My gaze was still glued to the wolf, and I had no idea there were wolves around here. And then the cracking sound of something broken pierced my ears— it sounded like bones crunching and excruciating. Goosebumps erupted all over my skin. Shocked, my eyes bulged out, but I couldn’t manage to blink or breathe until my lungs almost exploded and my chest began to heave. The wolf deformed before my very eyes. The bones cracked, and from the four-legged animal, it turned into a two-legged naked human in just mere seconds. It was not real. I was just dreaming, or the shadow was playing tricks with me. This was impossible. “Oh, no, no.” Shivering, I stepped back with my shaky knees and immediately crashed into something h
KNIGHT Shit. Things went out of hand quickly. She had just seen Gage shift, and she was terrified. Who wouldn’t be? She was human and only aware of our existence in fantasy, fiction books, and movies, and our representation was a terrifying beast that ripped human parts apart. And I pissed her off. It was better that way. She was away from our dark and dangerous world. She was better off out of my life. The longer she stayed at the vineyards, the harder it was to stay away from her. The pull was so strong it drove me crazy in just a little time I sat with her. She better hate me than drag her into my world. I dialed Alpha Califf, one of my allies. He had one of the biggest packs in the world, a witch coven, and the Lycan Alpha King at his disposal. “Knight, how’s life?” Califf found his mate, a lycan princess, Shadow Hawks, and they were stronger and fought enemies together. If I was being honest, I envied him that he had a stronger mate. Shadow was also a half-witch gif
KNIGHT “Yes.” I nodded glumly. “She’s better off without me. She’s—” “Human? Yeah. And the intoxicating mating pull was nothing I’d ever felt before. It was so strong I couldn’t control it, and it started to drive me insane.” “Poor thing. I won’t help you, Knight. You’re being selfish. Werewolves and Lycans can have human mates. It works just fine.” “Really?” I met her gaze. “What’s the lifespan of a human? She grows old, and I barely age. I can’t go through that. When my father died, my mother took her own life. And they were both werewolves and were strong, but my mother couldn’t handle losing her mate. She couldn’t handle the pain.” Every time I thought of having a mate, I saw my mother’s lifeless body in her bed as she took poison to end her life. “Is that why you don’t want a mate?” “Yes. We will both suffer in the end. Considering how weak humans are.” “You’re wrong. When Shadow lost her wolf and her ability, she did everything to fight against Aciano. She may not have wh
NIRVANA I felt so cold, my chin trembling. I was in my pajamas, barefooted, and walking in the woods alone in the dark. I couldn’t remember how I ended up in this place, but I had a feeling I was lost. I wrapped my arms around my body when chilly air seeped through my bones. My body shivered, and my breath steamed as I mindlessly walked through the dirt path. Then, a big gray wolf appeared before me. I stood frozen. My heart hammered as its dark eyes narrowed, and the rings around the irises glowed golden as if it just found its prey. I’d never seen a wolf so big before, taller, more robust, standing with pride, its fur shining against the darkest night. The wolf prowled, growling, exposing its long, sharp, white fangs. “Don’t hurt me!” I jolted up in bed from a dead sleep, drenched with sweat, still catching my breath. My heart pumped so hard in my chest till it was so uncomfortable. And my dream felt so real. “Oh, thank God.” I wiped off the beads of sweat all over my for
NIRVANA “Knight is visiting Blackwell Firm, and since I’m his assistant, I came with him and used his card to book a suite for myself.” I couldn’t help but chuckle. “You book a suite for yourself?” “That’s what we agreed upon, or I’ll leave the vineyards, stay with you, and find a job.” “Huh.” That was all I could say. “He’s loaded anyway. He has a penthouse here. He can stay there or book a suite for himself, but I didn’t.” Of course, it wouldn’t be a surprise, but Knight, besides his nasty, gruesome attitude, seemed grounded. Before I could reply, a knock on the door interrupted us. “That’s our coffee.” Kailin rose to her feet and went to the door. Since she was my roommate, she still had keys to our apartment, even if she left months ago. I was about to get up when I heard a familiar voice from my small living area. I was curious to know if it was still a remnant of my dream. I went to see if what I heard was right. “Be nice, or I swear to—” Kailin warned Knight when they
NIRVANAThree months laterThis man wrecked me in every way possible, in a good-to-be-true way. The private island Lycan Alpha King Sebastien owned was more beautiful than he described, and we were here for the third day of our honeymoon. Yes, honeymoon. Knight asked me to marry him again, and I said yes before he could finish popping up the question. And here I was in bed, legs spread at his mercy. His searing gaze burned my skin. He stood at the foot of the bed, naked, and my hungry eyes devoured him. He was perfect from head to toe, and those muscles and his long thick erection in his hand with a small drop glistening in the slit of his crown.I licked my lips, squirming in bed. Knight knew precisely how to drive me crazy. My hands fisted above my head. No matter how I struggled, the rope laced with magic he used to tie didn’t even budge—no thanks to the book of spells my mother’s own. Dylan sent me a box full of my mother’s books and tools. Knight found out about it, and he u
NIRVANAI smiled at Carter. “Yeah. I’m a werewolf.”“You look wonderful, Vana. If he’s over you, come find me.”“Cut the shit, Archie.” Knight chuckled as he hugged Archibald. “Glad you could make it.”“I would not miss for the entire world,” Chance was the one to reply.Kain and Dane were engrossed in their conversation at the corner.“Hey.”Kain hugged me. “I thought we lost you.”“So do I.”“We wouldn’t be here without you.”“You all keep saying that when it was more of a team effort.” I patted Dane on his arm. He remained at Kain’s pack of assassins to protect Kailin and our allies. “You take care of my best friend, or I will rip your throat out.”“You can stop threatening him.” Kailin, in her beautiful blue gown, came and kissed me on the cheek. “I will be the one to rip his throat out if he betrays me.”The tapping of a spoon on the glass caught my attention. The whole pack house went silent, and the music stopped. Our attention went to Victor, Lennox, and my grandfather, who no
NIRVANAI shuddered at the loss of his thick dick inside me.“On your knees, Nirvana.” He growled. His breathing was rougher.“I don’t bow nor kneel to anyone, but sure.” I was too eager to do as he commanded me to, so I moved to my knees and faced him.“Open your mouth for me.” His eyes almost glowed. His jaw locked harder, every part of his body tensing.I opened my mouth as he gathered a fistful of my hair and gripped it, pulling me closer to his erection.“Now suck me.” He flexed his hips as he shoved his cock past my lips.I took it too eagerly, one hand gripping the base, the other on my knees, balancing myself on the bed. I swirled my tongue around him, sucked, and stroked him.My mouth stretched around his girth. I struggled to breathe through my nose, my eyes watering as I tried to accommodate him without gagging.“Relax your throat. You can take all of me.” He pushed my head into his cock, and quickened his thrust until a guttural groan erupted from his throat.He threw his
KNIGHTI stopped at the edge of the bed and watched Nirvana strip off her clothes one by one. Nothing fancy, even her skin tone bra, but her body, though, the sexiest and hottest fucking thing I’d ever seen, always would be and forever.She was on the last thing, her cotton panties, and there she was, the same body and curves I’d felt many times against mine, and the same woman I fell in love with over and over again, smiling at me as she spread her legs wide apart, revealing her always smooth and waxed pussy.Her cheeks flushed as she slid her hands between her thighs, and a low groan rumbled from within my chest as she let go of a shuddering moan.I found myself gripping my erect cock, stroking it. Locking her searing gaze against mine, she lay on her back, inviting me into bed. She didn’t have to do that because I intended to join her and make her feel what I longed for over a week.I crawled into bed, joined her, and braced my forearms on either side of her shoulders. Then I held
NIRVANA“No freaking way! That’s impossible.” My eyes grew wide as I stared at them one by one.“Is it, though?” McKaye said. “We trained for months.”“To fight that freaking monster?”“Your bloodline is some kind of link to an ancient warlock from Greece,” McKaye explained. “And you were the only one who could kill that son of a bitch.”“Yeah. My mother’s side from my grandmother were witches.”“And you don’t have a gift?” Knight asked me hesitantly.“No. Why? Should I?”He glanced at Zarah.“You’re a witch, Zarah. Can’t you jag my memory or something?”“It doesn’t work that way.”“Then I’m sorry to disappoint you, guys, but I don’t remember fighting an evil warlock named Cyrius.”“What about him?” Kaleb, the beta, tipped his chin at the alpha.Alpha Knight finally groomed himself, looking hotter and smelled so good.I couldn’t help but smile, and every time I looked at him, my heart skipped a beat. “No.”“You’re lying.”“Excuse me?” I arched a brow at him.“I can hear your heartbeat
KNIGHTWhen Kailin called urgently via our link, I thought someone was in trouble again in the tasting room, like the twins.I had struggled the past week without Nirvana, but I never gave up searching for my mate. Scratch that. I once considered jumping off the cliff, and there may be a minuscule chance she would appear and come to save me. But somehow, her promise kept my sanity intact.Everyone helped me check for the lost women or unclaimed bodies in every morgue in the region, but none of them was Nirvana, and I couldn’t find a record of her death either. I felt so relieved and hung in a thinner thread as the days passed, and there were still no signs of her.The underworld was back to normal— no more viruses or killings, thanks to my mate, and my uncle was offered a job at the council while I barely hung in there and not dealing with my loss. I barely slept, or I found myself in the woods mourning. I lost some sense of self-love and belongingness. I couldn’t work, and I hadn’t
NIRVANA“Grandpa! Where the hell have you been?”“Vana?” His eyes widened like he’d never seen me in years. He ran in my direction and squeezed me into a tight hug. “Oh, Goddess. Thank Goddess.”I chuckled as I hugged him back. “It’s only just been a week, Grandpa. You’re overreacting.”He looked me in the eye from head to toe, cupped my head, and kissed me on the cheek, and he was about to get all teary-eyed.“We don’t do that, Grandpa. Where have you been, anyway? I was worried when you did not pick up my call.”“What do you mean?” There was pain, confusion, and relief in his eyes.I slumped my ass to his couch. “You’re acting weird. What’s going on with you? How’s the pack anyway?”He came sniffing me, making me freeze. “You’re a—”“A werewolf?” I scoffed. “Yeah, since birth. Duh. You taught me how to shift. Don’t tell me you suddenly forget about it.”There it was again, the staring, and then he smiled. “I’m proud of you, kiddo.”“Of course, I just sold two pieces of my paintings
KNIGHTGasping for air, I woke up on the ground. The blood’s bitter, sweet, metallic taste dried on my mouth.A shudder of terror rocked through me as I got up. It felt like a new day, or nothing happened last night.Trees stood tall, leaves dancing against the soft breeze. Sunlight streaked from the sky.I saw broken trees on the ground from a distance, a reminder that something had happened around here last night.“Guys!” I went to Califf, shaking him. “Cal, wake up.”He sucked in a breath, staring at me. “What happened?”“I have no idea.”Luka and McKaye stirred and froze as they realized we were still in the forest.“What the hell?” McKaye looked at his naked self.“Did we win?” Sebastien dusted the dirt off his body.Alpha Frye came from behind us, confused, eyes roaming around. “I think she did it.”“Fuck. Nirvana. Where is she?” Terror filled my chest. “I can’t feel her.”“We’ll find her.” Michael, Grady, and Ryden went separate ways to find Nirvana.“Nirvana!” I called her nam
NIRVANA“Asina? Wow. You are gorgeous.” I was surprised to see her standing before me. For the first time, she showed me herself— a beautiful and tall woman with straight long, dark hair, brown eyes, and a smile that could bring men to their knees. She was truly captivating, a real strong heroine in a white flowy dress. “Am I dead?”“About to if you won’t wake up.”“I can’t. There’s too much pain and loss. I can’t do this, Asina. I’m too weak compared to his power. He killed everyone I loved, and I want to die along with them. I give up. And you leave me alone there.”“Nirvana, you take it all wrong. You don’t need me to win the battle against Cyrius. All you need is your courage, your strength, and your heart.”Frustrated, I sobbed as I fell on my knees. “He is powerful to stop, and you’re telling me to use my heart and my strength? I don’t have strength anymore. I can’t even level a percent of his power.”“Because you believe you can’t.”“Are you kidding me right now?” I growled in