[Fineon’s POV]
Why am I here? Why did I even bother coming? Was I a glutton for punishment or something?
Feeling my heart squeeze painfully, I stare up at the mansion where my first and only love lives.
Inside I’m sure she is somewhere smiling and laughing, but that smile and that laughter aren’t meant for me. No, they’re meant for someone else.
Feeling a knot form in my throat, I lift a finger and hook it under the tie that has been fastened too damn tightly. Giving a tug, I hope to find some relief, but find that I still feel like I’m suffocating.
"Fineon?" My older sister, Andira, calls out, drawing my attention away from Fire Rose's pack house. "Are you okay? I’ve called your name three times now."
"Yeah," I respond, forcing a smile. "I’m alright, just a little tired."
For a moment, Andria doesn’t speak as she takes me in.
"Could you stop?" I ask, beginning to feel uncomfortable. "Shouldn’t we be heading in instead of standing around out here?"
"You’re right!" Andria gasps, "I’m sure they’ve already realized we’re here."
When we begin to make our way up the long path leading towards the large building in front of us, Gale appears with two large men who look exactly like Chance following closely behind her.
Grimacing, I take in the thugs as their eyes narrow once they see me.
How the hell is it even possible that Idris and Cyrus are already so fucking big? They’re only eighteen! Does it run in the Tutor bloodline to be hulking giants?
"Andria!" Gale calls, snapping my attention away from the irritating duo.
I can feel my heart squeezing and that knot forming once more.
It seems that my memories just don’t do her justice. She’s a vision to behold, and I can’t help but find myself wishing I could take her from Chance.
Stopping in my steps, I watch as she rushes forward with her arms wide, ready to wrap them around Andria, and then I’m sure she will come for me too.
"It’s been so long." Gale announces letting her silver eyes shift from Andria to me. "When did you grow to be a man?" She continues, seeming genuinely shocked.
Irritation and pain shoot through me as I realize that she still thinks of me as nothing more than a child. Dammit, when would she see that I wasn’t that child anymore?
"I’ve been a man for quite a while." I point out, keeping my voice neutral.
"Of course you have." Gale giggles in response. "Andria, I bet you’re always having to beat the girls off Fineon, aren’t you?"
"You have no idea." Andria huffs, shooting me a glare. "Everywhere he goes, there is someone or another trying to win his heart."
"Could you two not talk about me as if I’m not here?"
"But it’s such a shame he hasn’t managed to find his mate yet." Andria sighs, ignoring my demand. "He’s going to be twenty nine this year and still hasn’t found her. I worry he will spend the rest of his life alone."
At her words, Gale’s smile falls into a frown, and a look of pity fills her gaze. I want to tell her not to look at me like that because knowing she wants me to find someone hurts, but I remain silent.
"Do you remember the twins' first birthday?" She suddenly asks, giving Andria a knowing look. "When Fallon told him he would be her luna?"
"Do you think?" Andria gasps, seeming genuinely excited. "She turns twenty-one next year, right?"
"That’s right." Gale confirms. "It is always a possibility."
Frowning, I find myself remembering that day. Back then, the pipsqueak was so damn cocky with her announcement, but I didn’t think much of it. How could they possibly take it seriously?
"There’s no way he is good enough for her." One of Chance’s clones huffs. "I’ll be damned if I let him touch a hair on her head."
"Idris," Gale hisses, shooting her son a glare. "Fineon would be the perfect match for Fallon."
"I’m with Idris," the other, Cyrus, agrees. "Fallon only deserves the best."
Trying to contain my irritation, I look from one twin to the other. Who the hell were they to say whether or not I was good enough for their sister? Not that I had any interest in her, but it still left a bad taste in my mouth to hear that regardless.
"That’s enough!"
Jumping, I snap my gaze to find Gale giving the twins disapproving looks.
"Your father and I are forever indebted to Fineon. If he turns out to be the one meant for your sister, I can rest easy knowing she will be cherished and well taken care of." She begins, her frown deepening. "I expect both of you to treat him with respect, understood?"
Smirking, I watch as they both seem to deflate and nod.
"Sorry," Idiris huffs, his cheeks turning slightly pink.
"Yeah," Cyrus grumbles after.
"Great, then how about we head inside?" Gale beams, her mood changing immediately. "Before your father comes looking for us for taking so long."
As if he were summoned by her words, the big brute burst through the front door and began to make his way towards us.
"What’s taking so long?" He asks once he reaches us.
"Just catching up." Gale responds, snuggling close to him as he wraps an arm around her waist. "We were just about to head in."
"Then let’s go."
Inside the pack house, which is alive with activity as members busy themselves decorating the halls and main alcove of the building.
"What’s the occasion?" I ask, trying to distract myself from hyper-fixating on Gale and Chance’s public display of affection. "Do you have the moon goddess herself coming for a visit?"
Given the grand set-up, it is clear that it is someone big that they’re expecting, but it couldn’t possibly be someone royal, especially since Gale and Chance were close with the current reigning kings.
"Even better." Chance beams proudly.
"Better?" I repeat, raising a brow. "Who could possibly...?"
"Our sister, idiot." Idris huffs. "She finally comes home from basic training today!"
"I thought I told you that she was returning." Andria murmurs.
"I don’t remember." I admit.
Even if she had told me, I wouldn’t remember anyway. I didn’t have much interest in anything that involved that annoying girl.
Sighing, Andria simply shakes her head as we make our way towards the dining area.
Inside, a long table is already set, and food sits atop it, waiting for us.
Great, that means that I can eat and get the hell out of here. Watching Chance and Gale snuggle and act lovingly towards one another is already grating on my nerves, and I don’t know how much of it I can actually handle.
Plopping down, I watch as everyone else does the same.
To my dismay, Chance and Gale sit right in front of me.
Instantly, I feel like getting up and moving, but I know that would be rude. It wasn't either of their faults that I was uncomfortable. No, it was my own for pining after a woman who was already mated and in love.
For the rest of the dinner, I have a front-row seat to their display of love as Chance helps feed Gale as if she isn't able to do it herself, and she happily accepts his offers.
When the dinner ends, I'm more than ready to go and see myself out after declining Gale's offer to stay the night since it is already so late.
Once I’m free, I make my way out into the night and stare up at the moon above, cursing it with every fiber of my being. Then, in a flash, I shift and surge forward, making my way back to Grishan and The Red House, where alcohol and the promise of beautiful women wait for me.
[Fineon’s POV]The world around me sways as I chug the burning liquid that still rests in my cup. This is drink number eight, maybe nine? I don’t know and frankly I don’t give a damn. As long as they keep doing the job of numbing my emotions they could keep coming!"Another," I announce, fixing my bleary gaze on Jim’s. “Make it a double.”"Don’t ya think you’ve had enough Fineon?" He asks, giving me a look of concern. "Don't ya know drinking your problems away ain't the answer?""No, I haven’t."Frowning, I try to push images of the dinner I had to attend earlier aside, but they come unbidden along with her beautiful face. The same beautiful face that has haunted my mind since I was young.Why the hell did Andria and Elleric force me to come along?‘Because it was to celebrate a return.’ Franz tries.A return? HA! No one returned and I had to spend the whole night watching her be cozy with him!Gale… Why did my heart give painful squeezes every time I saw her?How was it possible that
[Fallon’s POV]My heart hammers in my chest as I stare down into Fineon’s blazing blue eyes, which are staring up at me through his shaggy brown hair.The pain I find there leaves me at a loss for words, especially because I know that the pain he is feeling is due to his unrequited love for my mother and has nothing to do with me."You’re too drunk to think straight." I whisper, trying to diffuse the situation. "Come on, get up. You need some food and water to sober up.""I’m not!" He snaps, reaching out and grabbing my arms. "I’ve never been thinking more clearly.""You’re not." I repeat, attempting to shake myself free. "This was a mistake."Using as much strength as I can muster, I stand and yank my arms free as he just stares at me as if I just hit him.Shaking off the sudden desire to comfort him, I begin to move.I shouldn’t have let my guard down. I shouldn’t have come into this room with him. Hell, I shouldn’t have even approached him to begin with, but the minute I saw him st
[Fallon’s POV]I stare up at the large mansion that I haven't seen in years and prepare myself for what is to come when I walk through those doors.Even though I was coming to terms with the fact that I would forever be stuck with the beginnings of a mark that was forced upon me, that didn't mean that my family would.I was sure the minute my father saw it, he would go berserk and demand to know who was the one that did it. And despite the anger and betrayal I felt towards Fineon for what he tried to do, I couldn’t find it in me to give him away.‘Weak.’ Artemis huffs, not bothering to hide her disgust. ‘You don’t owe him a thing, yet you’re still willing to lie to your family on his behalf.’‘Yeah, I’m a weak fool.’ I respond, shoving her aside. ‘We’ve determined that.’Squaring my shoulders, I head inside, where I can sense my family waiting for me. There was no point in lolligagging outside; it was only prolonging the inevitable.Inside, I find mom and dad flirting.Gagging, I forc
[Fallon’s POV]Later that evening, I slowly make my way downstairs, where I can already hear the sound of people gathering for my welcome back party. As much as I wish that I could just spend a quiet evening with my family, this is necessary to properly begin my transition from alpha heir to actual alpha of the pack.As the sudden realization of just how important this night is hits me, I stop mid-step and slowly look over the banister to find members of my pack making their way through the main alcove of the packhouse towards the banquet hall, which I’m sure is decked out for this event.‘Getting cold feet?’ Artemis smirks, sending waves of annoyance through me. ‘How do you plan to lead when you’re too nervous to even face them.’‘Who says I’m nervous?’ I challenge.Sure, I am nervous, but that doesn’t mean that I have to admit it.Taking a few calming breaths, I begin to move again, this time with more purpose. When I hit the final step, my brothers pop out from either side, startl
[Fineon's POV]I pace in front of the large mansion that is brightly lit for the night's event. Again, I find myself wondering why exactly I even came here.'To beg forgiveness.' Franz growls, not bothering to hide his disgust. 'Like you should have done before she walked out that door!'Cursing under my breath, I run a hand through my hair in frustration. He's right; I should have chased after her, but I was too much of a damn coward.Closing my eyes, I see her face again, filled with so much hurt and betrayal that it causes an odd emotion to roll through me. What the hell was it that I was feeling? Guilt? Regret, or something deeper? I didn't know!'Stop acting like a fucking bitch and go in there!' Franz snaps, attempting to take control so he can move for me. 'The sooner, the better.'Letting out a frustrated growl, I do as he says while everything in me yells to turn and run away.Slinking inside, I fall into step with a couple who appear to be traveling in the same direction as
[Fallon’s POV]My eyes grow wide as I stare up into Idris’ crazed eyes. Gone is the little brother that I knew, and in his place is a creature that is only interested in taking my life.‘Idris?’ I whisper, unable to quite believe what is happening. ‘Why?’Instead of responding, Idris bares his teeth and lets out a snarl of warning.Unable to fully process what is going on, I begin to take in the energy that is radiating from his wolf and realize that something about it is terribly wrong.‘Idris?’ I try again, but find that I’m only meeting an impenetrable wall instead of getting through to my brother.‘It isn’t him.’ Fineon’s voice hisses. ‘Get out of there!’Before I can process what is being said, Idris is being tackled off of me. Scrambling up, I watch as he and Fineon hit the ground and begin to fight for dominance. ‘Don’t just stand there!’ Artemis hisses. ‘Go help him!’Him… Which him is she even referring to right now? Am I supposed to be helping my little brother, who seems
[Fineon’s POV]Shifting back to my human form, I rush forward just as Fallon collapses. She is no longer in her wolf form and has curled in on herself while tears stream down her cheeks. Whimpers escape her parted lips, along with words that I can’t quite make out."What are you doing to her?" I growl, snapping my gaze to the demon standing in the middle of the room. "She’s in pain!""Only giving her a glimpse at the many different futures that could possibly come to be." He shrugs unapologetically. "Do you truly think I would hurt what was mine?"His… LIKE HELL I’D ALLOW THAT!Lifting Fallon into my arms, I kept my gaze fixed on the bastard that was giving me a condescending look."I’ll tell you what," he chuckles, "I’ll allow you to take care of her for now. Think of it as a parting gift because when all is said and done, she will be by my side."Biting back my argument, I look down at Fallon, whose face is now covered in sweat and tears. Reaching out, I place a hand on her cheek an
[Fallon’s POV]The world around me disappears as Fineon’s lips press against mine so hard that our teeth click together. The whole thing is awkward, and it is easy to tell that he is a beginner in this just like me, but it is also hot and sends wave after wave of desire through me.Whimpering, I snake my arms around his neck, pulling him closer as years of suppressed desire begin to crash into me. From the sudden groan that escapes him, I know that in this moment he wants me just as badly as I want him.Yes, I know that this is wrong and I shouldn’t be doing this with him, especially when up until now he had wanted another woman, but dammit, I couldn’t stop myself.‘Snap out of it.’ Artemis hisses, sending a sudden pain crashing into me to clear my head. 'He's only thinking with his dick right now!'At her words, my eyes fly open, and my arms untangle themselves from Fineon's neck."No!" I gasp, shoving him away as hard as I can. "Stop that!""Why?" Fineon pants; his eyes, which meet