[Fineon’s POV]
The world around me sways as I chug the burning liquid that still rests in my cup. This is drink number eight, maybe nine? I don’t know and frankly I don’t give a damn. As long as they keep doing the job of numbing my emotions they could keep coming!
"Another," I announce, fixing my bleary gaze on Jim’s. “Make it a double.”
"Don’t ya think you’ve had enough Fineon?" He asks, giving me a look of concern. "Don't ya know drinking your problems away ain't the answer?"
"No, I haven’t."
Frowning, I try to push images of the dinner I had to attend earlier aside, but they come unbidden along with her beautiful face. The same beautiful face that has haunted my mind since I was young.
Why the hell did Andria and Elleric force me to come along?
‘Because it was to celebrate a return.’ Franz tries.
A return? HA! No one returned and I had to spend the whole night watching her be cozy with him!
Gale… Why did my heart give painful squeezes every time I saw her?
How was it possible that my childhood crush still had so much of an effect on me after all these years?
‘Because you’re mistaken.’ Franz murmurs, popping into my thoughts unbidden. ‘It isn’t Gale that your heart is yearning for.’
Not Gale? How the fuck could it be anyone other than Gale?
‘You’re mistaken.’ I challenge, ‘Only Gale can make me feel like this.’
Instead of responding, Franz just gave a huff of disgust.
‘That’s right.’ I hiccup, ‘go back where you came from.’
"This is the last Finneon." Jim announces, passing me my glass and snapping me out of my head. "After this, you need to eat something and take your drunk ass to bed."
"Gotcha." I salute before downing the glass and getting up from my stool.
Immediately, the room begins to sway dangerously as I work to remain upright. Shit, maybe I did drink too much, but still not enough to stop that beautiful face from showing.
Grumbling to myself, I take a tentative step and then another until I’m slowly heading through the main alcove of the Red House.
Around me, everyone is enjoying themselves as they drink and flirt. It pisses me off because I so desperately want to be like them, but I can’t. At least not this evening.
"A bunch of braggarts." I huff, nearly colliding with a table.
"Careful." A tantalizing voice chirps from just behind me. "Are you okay?"
"Fine." I grumble, turning to see who has spoken. "You…"
My eyes grow wide as I take in the beauty that is standing behind me. But how could this even be possible?
Blinking a few times, I try to determine if I’m seeing things or if this is the real deal. When she remains the same, I feel an odd sense of hope.
"Finneon?" She murmurs, reaching out and touching my cheek. "Are you sure you’re alright? You look like you’ve seen a ghost."
"I may have." I admit.
How else could I possibly explain having Gale standing in front of me? Not the Gale I know now, but the Gale I met as a child. Everything from the sparkling silver eyes to the golden hair that rivals even the sun. Her lips that turn down in a frown are even the same shade of pink, and that absolutely fucking adorable cupids bow is there.
"Come on." She sighs, "I think you should get to bed."
Nodding, I allow her to lead me out of the room and down the hall to where the guest quarters are since I no longer live amongst those that inhabit the red house.
When we arrive at my room, I stop and just stare.
Is this it? Will this be the last time I see her here? How could I possibly allow this to end?
"Do you want to come in?" I ask slowly, hoping I don’t sound too desperate. "To catch up, I mean."
There, that doesn’t sound too weird, right? It seems normal.
"I don’t know if that’s a good idea."
"Please," I gasp, reaching out and grabbing her tiny hand. "Just to talk, that’s it."
For a moment, her eyes snap down, taking in our entwined hands. A clear look of longing crosses her features before she finally smiles.
"Just talk." She says, gently pulling her hand free. "Nothing more, got it?"
"Of course."
Inside, the room has nothing more than a bed and a single chair that rests against the wall beside a large window overlooking Grishan.
"Have a seat." I say, heading towards the small cabinet that contains drinks and snacks. "I’ll pour us something to drink."
"Just water, please." She says continuing to take in the area.
Goddess, she looks so innocent sitting there, just like she did back then. How could it be possible that this isn’t the same woman?
"Water it is." I assure, grabbing a chilled bottle and bringing it to her. "Ta-da!"
With a flourish, I hold out the bottle of water and wait.
"You haven’t changed a bit." She sighs, taking my offering. "Still a complete show-off."
"Show-off?" I repeat.
"That’s right."
Letting an amused smile play on her face, she opens the bottle and takes a sip.
Reaching out, I stop a small bead that manages to escape her lips. A small gasp sounds, and I find myself suddenly getting lost in the wide eyes that are staring into mine.
In the moment, it feels like the world around me disappears entirely and all that exists is the woman in front of me.
‘Don’t you dare.’ Franz warns as I begin to lean closer. ‘You’re not seeing her properly!’
‘How am I not?’ I demand. ‘It’s Gale!’
‘It isn’t!’ Franz roars in frustration!
Before I can make any more progress, a small hand lifts and touches my chest, stopping me where I am.
"What are you trying to do?"
What was I trying to do? Wasn’t it obvious?
"I think it would be best if I left."
Remaining silent, I watch as she gets up from her seat and goes to move.
In that moment, all the emotions I had been suppressing for the past eighteen years came crashing down, threatening to suffocate me.
It’s all too much, and all rational thought seems to disappear entirely as panic takes over due to the threat of her leaving me alone.
"Why him?" I demand, reaching out and grabbing her arms, forcing her to face me. "Why?"
"I don’t…"
"What does he have that I don’t?"
I couldn't stop by this point; I was a desperate man in search of answers to questions that had plagued me for years.
"Please, tell me why."
For a moment, the room around us grew silent, so silent you could hear the slightest pindrop.
"Why aren’t you speaking?"
Tightening my hold, I lifted my gaze to meet hers only to find an unreadable emotion there that made my heart squeeze painfully.
"Let me go." She hissed through gritted teeth. "Right now!"
Before I could react, she was breaking free of my hold, stumbling backward, and plopping back down in her seat.
"Please," I repeat, dropping to my knees right there in front of her. "Choose me. Forget him and choose me."
[Fallon’s POV]My heart hammers in my chest as I stare down into Fineon’s blazing blue eyes, which are staring up at me through his shaggy brown hair.The pain I find there leaves me at a loss for words, especially because I know that the pain he is feeling is due to his unrequited love for my mother and has nothing to do with me."You’re too drunk to think straight." I whisper, trying to diffuse the situation. "Come on, get up. You need some food and water to sober up.""I’m not!" He snaps, reaching out and grabbing my arms. "I’ve never been thinking more clearly.""You’re not." I repeat, attempting to shake myself free. "This was a mistake."Using as much strength as I can muster, I stand and yank my arms free as he just stares at me as if I just hit him.Shaking off the sudden desire to comfort him, I begin to move.I shouldn’t have let my guard down. I shouldn’t have come into this room with him. Hell, I shouldn’t have even approached him to begin with, but the minute I saw him st
[Fallon’s POV]I stare up at the large mansion that I haven't seen in years and prepare myself for what is to come when I walk through those doors.Even though I was coming to terms with the fact that I would forever be stuck with the beginnings of a mark that was forced upon me, that didn't mean that my family would.I was sure the minute my father saw it, he would go berserk and demand to know who was the one that did it. And despite the anger and betrayal I felt towards Fineon for what he tried to do, I couldn’t find it in me to give him away.‘Weak.’ Artemis huffs, not bothering to hide her disgust. ‘You don’t owe him a thing, yet you’re still willing to lie to your family on his behalf.’‘Yeah, I’m a weak fool.’ I respond, shoving her aside. ‘We’ve determined that.’Squaring my shoulders, I head inside, where I can sense my family waiting for me. There was no point in lolligagging outside; it was only prolonging the inevitable.Inside, I find mom and dad flirting.Gagging, I forc
[Fallon’s POV]Later that evening, I slowly make my way downstairs, where I can already hear the sound of people gathering for my welcome back party. As much as I wish that I could just spend a quiet evening with my family, this is necessary to properly begin my transition from alpha heir to actual alpha of the pack.As the sudden realization of just how important this night is hits me, I stop mid-step and slowly look over the banister to find members of my pack making their way through the main alcove of the packhouse towards the banquet hall, which I’m sure is decked out for this event.‘Getting cold feet?’ Artemis smirks, sending waves of annoyance through me. ‘How do you plan to lead when you’re too nervous to even face them.’‘Who says I’m nervous?’ I challenge.Sure, I am nervous, but that doesn’t mean that I have to admit it.Taking a few calming breaths, I begin to move again, this time with more purpose. When I hit the final step, my brothers pop out from either side, startl
[Fineon's POV]I pace in front of the large mansion that is brightly lit for the night's event. Again, I find myself wondering why exactly I even came here.'To beg forgiveness.' Franz growls, not bothering to hide his disgust. 'Like you should have done before she walked out that door!'Cursing under my breath, I run a hand through my hair in frustration. He's right; I should have chased after her, but I was too much of a damn coward.Closing my eyes, I see her face again, filled with so much hurt and betrayal that it causes an odd emotion to roll through me. What the hell was it that I was feeling? Guilt? Regret, or something deeper? I didn't know!'Stop acting like a fucking bitch and go in there!' Franz snaps, attempting to take control so he can move for me. 'The sooner, the better.'Letting out a frustrated growl, I do as he says while everything in me yells to turn and run away.Slinking inside, I fall into step with a couple who appear to be traveling in the same direction as
[Fallon’s POV]My eyes grow wide as I stare up into Idris’ crazed eyes. Gone is the little brother that I knew, and in his place is a creature that is only interested in taking my life.‘Idris?’ I whisper, unable to quite believe what is happening. ‘Why?’Instead of responding, Idris bares his teeth and lets out a snarl of warning.Unable to fully process what is going on, I begin to take in the energy that is radiating from his wolf and realize that something about it is terribly wrong.‘Idris?’ I try again, but find that I’m only meeting an impenetrable wall instead of getting through to my brother.‘It isn’t him.’ Fineon’s voice hisses. ‘Get out of there!’Before I can process what is being said, Idris is being tackled off of me. Scrambling up, I watch as he and Fineon hit the ground and begin to fight for dominance. ‘Don’t just stand there!’ Artemis hisses. ‘Go help him!’Him… Which him is she even referring to right now? Am I supposed to be helping my little brother, who seems
[Fineon’s POV]Shifting back to my human form, I rush forward just as Fallon collapses. She is no longer in her wolf form and has curled in on herself while tears stream down her cheeks. Whimpers escape her parted lips, along with words that I can’t quite make out."What are you doing to her?" I growl, snapping my gaze to the demon standing in the middle of the room. "She’s in pain!""Only giving her a glimpse at the many different futures that could possibly come to be." He shrugs unapologetically. "Do you truly think I would hurt what was mine?"His… LIKE HELL I’D ALLOW THAT!Lifting Fallon into my arms, I kept my gaze fixed on the bastard that was giving me a condescending look."I’ll tell you what," he chuckles, "I’ll allow you to take care of her for now. Think of it as a parting gift because when all is said and done, she will be by my side."Biting back my argument, I look down at Fallon, whose face is now covered in sweat and tears. Reaching out, I place a hand on her cheek an
[Fallon’s POV]The world around me disappears as Fineon’s lips press against mine so hard that our teeth click together. The whole thing is awkward, and it is easy to tell that he is a beginner in this just like me, but it is also hot and sends wave after wave of desire through me.Whimpering, I snake my arms around his neck, pulling him closer as years of suppressed desire begin to crash into me. From the sudden groan that escapes him, I know that in this moment he wants me just as badly as I want him.Yes, I know that this is wrong and I shouldn’t be doing this with him, especially when up until now he had wanted another woman, but dammit, I couldn’t stop myself.‘Snap out of it.’ Artemis hisses, sending a sudden pain crashing into me to clear my head. 'He's only thinking with his dick right now!'At her words, my eyes fly open, and my arms untangle themselves from Fineon's neck."No!" I gasp, shoving him away as hard as I can. "Stop that!""Why?" Fineon pants; his eyes, which meet
[Fineon’s POV]"I’ll go with you.""Why?"As Fallon doesn't bother to hide her suspicion of me, pain shoots through me."Are you aware of what those black creatures were that took over your pack mates?" I ask.I watch as she opens and closes her mouth in an attempt to respond. I have to admit, it brings me satisfaction to see her so at a loss for an argument."Fine," she finally huffs. "Let’s go."Inside the banquet hall, things have calmed down, and a few warriors are going around taking attendance of those who are still present.Standing to the side, huddled together, are the big brute and the others. It is easy to tell that whatever they are discussing is serious, given the atmosphere that surrounds them."Should we let them finish?" I murmur, leaning close to Fallon’s ear.A small yelp of shock escapes her as she scrambles away from me."What the hell?""Sorry."Despite knowing I shouldn’t, I find her quite adorable when she’s startled and her cheeks are painted a soft pink. It ma
[Idris’ POV] "Are you sure you’re going back?" Mom’s eyes begin to fill with tears as she waits for a response. I don’t know exactly what she expects me to say. "Yes, I am. It’s been a month since Mateo and his underlings were killed, and the academy is finally reopening. As a student, I am required to go back." She knew that I still had a year left before I graduated. I couldn’t just never go back, no matter what had happened since the school shut down. "But…" "Don’t give him a hard time," Dad warns, cutting her off while wrapping a comforting arm around her. "The academy is one of the safest places on the continent, and the threat is gone. I’m sure the next year will simply fly by." "That’s right," I add, taking advantage of dad’s opening for me to leave. "I promise to keep in touch, and before you know it, I’ll be back to irritate the hell out of you." "You heard him," Dad beams, squeezing her closer. "Now, you should allow him to head out; otherwise, he won’t make it there
[Hindrick’s POV]"Welcome back!"Uncle Elleric doesn’t wait before he pulls me into a hug, crushing me against him and making me extremely uncomfortable.Growling, I work to break free, and once I manage to achieve my goal, I take a few steps back."Ever the stoic," he chuckles, taking me in. "Can’t you drop the act just for a day? You’ve been gone for a month, and you didn’t even bother to send word.""Because I was busy cleaning up the mess that was left behind," I point out. "Anyway, I didn’t come here for a heartfelt family reunion."At my words, Uncle Elleric’s face grows serious, and I get the feeling that he is expecting me to deliver a killing blow."Don’t worry," I sigh before his head can come up with some ridiculous scenarios, "it isn’t anything like that. I was actually asked a favor by an idiot.""Fineon?" Uncle Elleric asks, knowing perfectly well who I would be referring to. I didn’t know if I was that obvious or if he also saw Fineon as a fool. "Or is it Chance?"I bit
[Fallon’s POV]A month passed in a blur before things were finally beginning to become normal once again. With things being so hectic, I didn’t get to see much of Fineon since he seemed to always be busy, but this time when we met, I wasn’t going to let him go until he told me what it was that he was up to.I manage to find Fineon heading out of dad's office with a look of frustration on his face."What’s wrong?" I ask, startling him."F-Fallon!" he gasps, taking me in. "Why are you...""Here?" I offer for him, moving forward. "Because if I wasn't, you would find some way to evade me like you have been doing for the past month."At my words, his expression shifts from shock to guilt. So he was intentionally avoiding me, which is interesting."Anyway, I was hoping you’d come somewhere with me today," I continue, wrapping my arms around his and squeezing. "Saying no is not an option.""But…""No buts!" I snap. "Come on."Giving a tug, I begin to move, dragging Fineon until we arrive at
[Fineon’s POV]Returning home was a bittersweet thing, given the circumstances we were returning under. Whether it should have been a time of celebration, it was instead a moment of saying welcome back and saying goodbye.As we made landfall and began to unload, Fallon rushed off to see her parents and allowed herself to get lost in their embrace.Deciding that the moment should be strictly for family, I stay back as the tears begin to fall."You want to help us with this?" Ramone asks, coming up behind me. "He’s a bit heavy."Nodding, I turn and follow him back onto the boat to collect Cyrus’ body, allowing Fallon and her parents to be alone with each other.Inside the cabin, I can feel the chill of death pressing against my skin, and it makes the fact that Cyrus and Gavin are gone that much more real. Now all that was left to do to say goodbye was give them the proper send-off that they deserved.Sighing, I move forward and help Ramone collect Cyrus first so that his parents could s
[Fallon’s POV]I don’t know how long I stayed in place, staring at the slowly disappearing door that Cyrus took to his final resting place. It was only when Titiana gently touched my shoulder that I finally snapped out of my daze."You need to get back now," she murmurs, giving me a smile filled with sympathy and sorrow. "Although your brother is no longer on earth, there are still many waiting on you.""Right," I sigh, getting to my feet. "I’m sure Fineon and Hindrick are at their wits end.""When you go back, you should really think about yourself more," Titiana chuckles."What do you mean?""You’ve worked so hard to gain everyone’s approval that you have lost yourself," she explains, touching my cheek."That’s what being a leader means," I counter. "I can’t think of myself. I can only think of my pack.""That’s not true," Titiana says, shaking her head. "You must also think of yourself, otherwise, you’ll end up regretting it one day. Now, go back to them."Before I can respond, I’m
[Fallon’s POV]"You had something you needed to speak with me about?" I ask hesitantly as Titiana examines me.After all the bombs that had been dropped on me earlier on, I wasn’t quite sure I was ready for another, but since this was the goddess’ request, there was no way that I could deny her."Not so much me," she responds, giving me a sad look.My stomach starts to roll as a bad feeling begins to creep up in me. Why was she looking at me like that, and why did it make my heart hurt?"Who is it?" I ask quietly, realizing that whoever it was must be someone close to me, and if they were here instead of on earth, then that meant that they were dead."It’s me."The world comes crashing down around me as I turn and find Cyrus making his way toward me.No, this couldn’t be real; there was no way it could. Was he like me, on the edge of life and death? If so, that meant he could be saved. Why was he here, and why did it feel like whatever was going to be said was goodbye?"Cy-cyrus," I w
[Anika’s POV]I continue to stare down at the lava where Mateo disappeared while Fineon and Hindrick remain silent, allowing me the space to process my emotions.Mateo was gone, for real this time. He would never come back to this world in this lifetime, and I wasn’t even sure if we would be able to find each other when we reincarnated like we promised. So that meant this was it, right?That thought alone left an immense loneliness in me that I thought I would never have to feel again. However, I had to admit, the second time around was so much more painful."Sorry to disturb," Fineon murmurs after a bit more time passes. "But how will we be sure that doing what Mateo said really did the trick?""I don’t know," I admitted, frowning."You don’t think that this was another trick of his, do you?" Hindrick growls. "What if...""He wasn’t lying," I say, cutting him off. "The one that was there in the end was Mateo, not Parker.""I understand that, but nothing seems to have happened," Hindr
[Anika’s POV]I wait as Fineon and Hindrick examine me as if trying to determine if they could convince me to stay. It is only when Mount Malum lets out another ominous roar that they seem to concede and begin to move again."Stay close," Hindrick orders when I scramble to catch up. "If you cause anything to happen to Fallon’s body, I’ll destroy you, understood?""Of course," I respond, not taking offense to his threat. "I know my limits.""Then let’s go," Hindrick sighs, though he still doesn’t seem fully convinced.Nodding, I begin to follow, staying close behind the two men who insisted on keeping me safe from any possible rockslides or attacks that may happen."It’ll take at least a day to get to the top of this," Hindrick mutters when we reach Mount Malum’s side. "Do we have that much time?"Looking up, I take in the lava that bubbles up and then explodes and the smoke that is quickly surrounding the mountain, blocking the rest of the world from view."I don’t know," I admit. "Bu
[Anika’s POV]Pain rips through my chest with every inch the anima sword makes through Mateo’s body. Even if I managed to destroy the mark he left on me, our bond was still there, and I wasn’t too surprised I was feeling what he was. This was how strong our bond had always been, and in a way, I was happy he wasn't alone."An…ika…" Mateo rasps, his eyes finding mine. "Why?""Because this must be done."Everything in me screamed to stop, to help him, and to save him from the painful death that he was currently experiencing, but I knew this had to be done. And I was the one who had to do it. Not Hindrick, not Fallon, but me. I had to end this once and for all.Closing my eyes, I allow all the beautiful memories that we shared to begin to flash across my mind. This would be the last time I allowed them to overtake me. Once this was finished, I would fully let go. I had to; there was no holding onto something that would never be again.SIghing, I let my tears flow as Mateo’s love-filled ey