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2021-09-20 13:23:22It's August and the grade 12 STEM students will be camping. I don't know if it's just us because I haven't heard from HUMSS students.
I decided not to go, but when I told my mother, she forced me to go camping. I had no one to talk to there, except Syrien. I also don't enjoy what's happening because almost all my classmates don't like me.
"I'll buy you a tent later, so come along." Mama forced me to kiss her on the cheek. I was about to go to school and every time I go to school she reminds me the camping.
I snorted and ignored what she said. I saw Dave heading towards me, but I had already met him halfway towards my house.
"Did you eat already?" I asked. He nodded at me and helped me walk. The road wa
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