PROLOGUE

JUSTINE'S POV

How can I be genuinely happy if I am not free? Free to live myself of who I am really is.

How can I be happy if I am living in a gold cage? Am I indeed a bird or a...

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"Butterfly! Yes! I feel like a thousand of butterflies were going wild and crazy inside of my stomach everytime I see him!" my friend Ayen giggles as we were walking to go in the soccer field.

I just shook my head in disbelief and I even tsked as I can't take and reach her enthusiasm.

We were classmates from grade ten to senior high school and luckily, we were also blockmates this college.

We are taking up Bachelor of arts in fashion design and merchandising.

"We're still freshmen and the academic year was just starting but you are already showing your true colors," I said and laughed a little.

She faced me and rolled her eyes. "Duh, the class started one month ago and it's already fine. Come on! Let's walk faster or else we won't see him or them!" She grabbed my arm, lead the way and walked even faster.

"Oh my goodness! I should practice how I'm going to introduce myself to him!" She even closed her fist and giggles again.

"Hold up? He doesn't know you?" I asked her as my eyebrows met.

"No," she sparingly replied.

"Oh my! I can't believe you!"

"Come on, who said that it is a must that your crush should know you?" she asked and walk even faster.

Why does this soccer field is way too far from our building! I hate this! I already wanted to rest but this crazy thing grabbed and forced me!

Why I didn't say no? Well, simply because I love her.

"I thought he knows you or even you two are in good terms," I said in disbelief.

"And what made you think that we talk?" she asked.

"Because the way he was the one you're always talks about," I replied.

"Come on, you know m---"

"Yes, you always having a new crush weekly and forget the others when the time comes," I cut her off and do a flat smile.

"But, this one is different! He's an architecture student, third year and a super hot soccer player with a super handsome face!" she hysterically exclaimed.

"It's my bad that I didn't know him when the class started," she added and even punched the air in frustration.

I won't ask for the name of that guy since I'm not interested.

"So, how should I introduce myself?" she asked to herself and pointed in the air when she thinks of something. "Oh! I know! I know!" she giggles again.

She cleared her throat first. "Hi! I am Almira Yesha Elizabeth Nicole! Ayen for short or you can just call me love, baby, honey, wifey, my queen, it's up to you what will be our endearment!" She then shriek softly and laughing on herself about her crazy idea which also made me laugh.

Her whole darn face was already turning red and she looks like a tomato now that she's already thrilled.

"What do you think?" She immediately faced me which made me startled a little.

"I think he's going to freak out and he's going to ask for a help to get you away from him?" I replied.

"I don't care," she replied in a crazy tone. Her eyes and smiles are all wide, she looks very excited.

I just sighed and let her take me wherever she wanted us to go.

When we got to the field, her jaw just dropped and looks like she was about to cry in any minute now.

She looks like it was as if heaven and earth fell upon her when there was no one on the field.

There was literally no one.

Her shoulders fell and she looks so blue, miserable, gloomy, name all the things that you can say as sad.

"I think this means better luck next time?" I keep tapping her shoulders and sighed.

"Come on, let's go get some drinks instead." I grabbed her arms and she let me lead the way.

"Where are we going?" she asked in a sad tone.

I just hold my laughed first before replying, "At Sweet and Strong café."

She inhaled deeply when she heard that and a small smile formed in her lips. "Okay that will do, maybe there's someone there who will be my new crush."

I can't believe her.

I am working there. I started working there one week before the class started.

One week before the class started, I already move to the small apartment I am renting near the university. From my apartment to university, I still need to take a walk for about three to five minutes.

But, from university to café, you need to ride a bus first for six to seven minutes trip. You can also walk from university to café if you want to but I think the walking will be fifteen to twenty five minutes.

As my shift is always closing whenever I have a class, I am always taking a bus to go there as I was already tired from studying to still walk to get there.

My father nor older sisters doesn't know that I am working. Yes, they are all giving me allowance. It was enough and I can save if I want to but not too much.

I am working to have extra money and buy something. That something is the reason why my idol notices me during his shows. And everytime he noticed me, I am so happy and my tiredness disappear. He saves me from loneliness and sadness even though he doesn't know.

I hope, one day I can be with him even though that was impossible since no one knows what does he really looks like. But, I am pretty sure he is handsome.

Should I be honest?

I think I fell in love with a cam boy. Yes, a guy that jerks off in front of a camera to satisfy his audience.

And that is the reason why I doubt myself that I can do what my mother's want.

I just feel pressured, especially that I'm the only guy among us siblings and I am the youngest.

If I can only have the courage to tell the world especially to my family that, "Yes, I have a bird, but I am a butterfly."

I would do that.

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I got home by seven pm and I just rested first for a bit before doing my chores and other stuff.

I didn't realize that I fell asleep on my couch and luckily I got up by nine pm.

I immediately go to the bathroom to pee and when I got out I prepared the food that I just bought earlier.

After eating I did some cleaning before opening my laptop and sit in front of my study table.

I checked my phone and saw some missed calls from my dad and some texts that I all replied afterwards. I know he is already sleeping by now so I won't be expecting his replies anymore.

I turned it off and put it beside me.

I surfed in the internet first and waited for the show of my idol to be started. I know he will do live streaming now since he is always doing live streams every three days, and it's been three days since his last live.

I immediately looked at my phone when it vibrated and its lock screen opened beside me.

I get my phone to unlock it and see what is it.

"Grae_wolf posted an announcement." Is what written on my notification center which I immediately clicked.

"We're going to live in ten minutes, get ready." My idol posted on his private group chat where I am also in. You need to pay to get in here and he is the only one who can message here, we, his followers can only do reacts on his messages.

As expected, hundreds of his followers reacted with different nasty-like emojis that immediately turns into thousands.

Okay, I also reacted, but I did a simple blue heart emoji. Unlike his other followers that reacted fire, tongue, lip bite and some fruits and veggies that can describe as down there.

"Better lock yourself up, go in the dark and prepare your tissues." He posted again, and once again, thousands of his followers got excited.

I immediately faced again my laptop and entered his channel to wait for him to start his show.

I got up first to get my tissue and I also immediately sat down again and waited.

When he posted a countdown stream, I immediately clicked it to join and there was already more than ten thousand of people in the room that were waiting just like me.

I felt that my throat got dry that's why I decided to immediately run to the kitchen and go get some water.

When I got back to my room, I was already bringing a tumbler with me.

I sat down in front of my laptop and gulped when in thirty seconds, the show will going to start.

I also count down when the timer hits ten seconds.

"Three, two, one..." I whispered.

I just stared intently at him when he already appeared on the screen.

My heart just beats fast when he smile. Oh my! His smiles can make someone drown! He have these nice set of teeth and luscious red lips!

We can only see his lower face as his upper face was covered in a full silver wolf masked. But, you can still see his eyes. His eyes that can make you go crazy as they are very seductive and sexy!

"Okay, let's start this. How are you, guys?" he started talking and moved away a little from the screen to show us what he was wearing.

Many people were already throwing him 'surprise boxes' even though he wasn't really starting what he should do.

Surprise boxes are like tip to the creator or to 'Effers' as what they call to them in this website. You can buy 50 surprise boxes for one dollar.

I can already see a lot of people sending him minimum of one hundred surprise boxes to three hundred. I also saw two users sent him five hundred.

"Woah, calm down, guys. I just showed my costume for tonight for our theme and you guys already showering me tips? Come on, y'all making me blush! HAHA!" he said and rubbed his own body with his hand.

He was wearing a fitted jersey soccer shirt and a jogging pants which made him look super hot and sexy. His biceps and well-build body highlighted and by just looking at him in the screen, I can already feel my down there starting to getting awake. Plus his signature korean hairstyle made him look hotter.

"I guess you already have a hint what will be our theme for tonight," he said and smirked.

He grabbed the collar of his shirt with his two hands and smirked again.

"Yes, you're right! Tonight, I am your hot soccer player boyfriend who's going to score a goal on you!" He ripped his shirt with his bare hands and his drop dead gorgeous sexy body showed up.

He started to roam his right hand around his own hot body with matching lip bite and smirk.

I can't help it but to grow a boner by what he was doing.

I started to grab my down there when he also grabbed his bulging dragon.

I am willingly and will warmly welcome that dragon of his to my cave if ever I will be given a chance.

He started to stroke his bulge which I also did on mine.

I want us to move in harmony, I want to touch mine like how he was touching his.

He played his bulge while it's still inside of his pants for about half minute and tips again rain on him.

I accidentally looked at the live comment section and I just hold my laugh when I read one of it saying, "I haven't yet see his sholong but I already came. Darn! Your charm is very strong!"

"Make sure that you are already all alone and there's already a tissue beside you. Actually, watch in way what you want, I hope you are all ready because the real show will about to begin." He pulled down his pants and his big brick showed. He stretch his feet which made his shlong look longer. It's already long but it got even longer whenever he's stretching it out.

He stopped playing his pet and took off his pants fully.

He then leaned on his chair and opened his legs which made him look like the hottest nak*d human being alive! Anyone would die just to kneel down to him and give him a head!

I just also pulled off my shorts and started stroking mine when he started stroking his.

He looks so sexy and hot whenever he added lip biting and lip licking while he's stroking his brick.

He looked at the comment section and read one of it, "How long is your shlong?"

He looked up and think for a while, while still stroking his gifted dragon. "Uhm, okay let me think of it. The last time I checked it was six and a half, that was six months ago. When I started doing this kind of thing, I haven't yet checked it again. I will check it for you tomorrow, I just don't know where did I put my ruler right now. You know that I started doing live cams and pre recorded jerk off videos three months ago. Who knows it is already seven now or longer?"

I just gulped at what I heard. How would it feel if he will put that inside of my body?

He started to stroke his brick faster and faster.

He roam again his other hand on his huge chest and on his eight pack abs while he was still stroking his pet fast. He also played his own pinkish n*pples. His skin is so fair!

He have a heart-shaped like birthmark on his right v line and two moles on his upper right side abs near his core that were looked like a snake bite.

He then stroke his brick faster and even faster.

"Ugh, sh*t!" he sexily moaned which tickled my ears for I don't know the reason.

I also stroke mine very fast as he stroke his more faster and he let out sexy moans from his mouth.

"Oh my, I am c*mming, I am coming. Aahh!" He stroke very very fast and hard then an abundant juice came out from his pet which goes all around his hot body.

Seconds before he came, I can't help it anymore and I already came and it splashes around my laptop that made me nervous.

I immediately get a tissue to remove my own juice in my body and some that got in the screen of my laptop.

When I got already relieved and cleaned all the mess that I did, I looked at my screen again.

"How was that, huh? I bet y'all get satisfied," he said while breathing heavily.

I sighed first and tapped on my keyboard.

"Woah! Thank you very much for the one thousand two hundred thirty six surprise box, Tiny Tine!" he excitedly said and smiled that made my heart melt. He even intently looked in the camera as if he was looking at me directly in my eyes.

Yes, he was talking about me.

My user name is Grae-Wolf, then a blue heart, Tiny Tine.

"You're making me thrilled, baby Tine-tine," he said in a seductive voice. For a minute I forgot that I was watching a cam boy that was also being watched by thousands of people right now.

It was just making me very happy and I felt that my tiredness gone everytime he picked me among his thousands viewers. It's like in the midst of the crowds he don't see anybody but me. Of course these were just thought of mine, I am only giving him a huge number of tip that's why it's an advantage for me and he notices me.

"Anything you want to request, baby Tine?" he asked and I just bite my lip.

"I could sing, just request a song," he added.

Aww, it will be a dedication for me?

I just asked him to sing 'Paper Rings' by Taylor Swift and he did. I felt like he was only singing that for me even though he have a lot of viewers right now.

Can I really have a chance to meet Grae Wolf in person?

/W.W/