I pace around my office as I'm waiting for Evander. My stomach was tied in knots, and I felt as if I was about to pass out. Maybe this approach was too drastic for me.Perhaps I'm going way over my head. Would I really be able to make contact with the other gods just by touching Miall?Should I perhaps come clean and tell him I was just pretending to be Lun? But if I did that, then the results would be devastating. Oh God, what should I do?I nervously chewed on my fingernail as I was buried deep in thought. Please, God and every higher being, allow me to make contact with the gods or Ylil at least!"Amanah—oh, I mean Lun. It's all ready," Evander said as he pushed his hands inside his pockets. "Let's go."I hope I don't pass out.Following Evander closely, I noticed that he was leading us to the last level of the council building. Was that where he kept Miall?Staring hard at his back, I exhaled, crossed my arms over my chest and raised my chin. If I had to pretend that I was the chao
Third PersonYlil paced around her room, muttering incoherent words under her breath. She stood before her window and stared at the never-ending green fields filled with spring."It's about to hatch," she whispered as she leaned against the window; she stared at the tree filled with ripened fruit eggs. "Wasn't expecting it to happen so soon.""Ylil?" Miall's voice called out for her outside her room. He raised his fist to knock on the panelled white door, which opened before his contact."Yes?" Ylil mustered up a bright smile as she stared at Orion's shell. "How can I help you?""I wanted to check up on you. You seemed distraught that Amanah was here just like last time?" He asked as he entered the room, keeping his distance."That wasn't Amanah," Ylil's doe eyes stared into Miall's desperately. She needed him to believe her. "Just as you're Orion's host, she's Lunaria's. However, Lunaria isn't as kind as Orion is," she sighed as she sat on top of the window sill.She crossed her leg o
Amanah"Trust you?" Evander scoffed as he crossed his arms over his chest; I had just finished explaining the situation to him, or at least what I thought the plan should be. "Why?"Two months had already passed since I visited the sanctuary, and since then, I had felt more of a connection with Lunaria, but sometimes I felt dread—which was way heavier than her anger. She still didn't talk to or reveal herself to me, although it did feel like we were in sync regarding our emotions and thoughts. We hated the motherfucker named Evander and thought Ylil was a bitch. She is."I have to tell you something," I got up from my chair, my butt was starting to feel numb, and my legs were going dead. "Remember when I asked to see Miall two months ago—I was pretending to be Lunaria," I whispered. Evander clenched his jaw, and I flinched, ready to raise my hands and protect myself; even though he hadn't harmed me physically since we confirmed my pregnancy, he had uncontrollable anger issues.He too
"What do you drink or eat?" I asked the goddess as I sat down. "Oh no, I'm fine, thank you," she said softly."How far along are you?" She pointed to my belly, and my finger unconsciously softly patted the sides of my belly. "Halfway through four months," I answered as I cocked my head to the side."I feel like I know you before?" She cracked an uncomfortable smile and scooted forward in her seat. "That's because we've met before, in the sanctuary? You visited a few times." "I did?" I whispered, confused. "Yes, mostly to visit Miall. You don't remember?" "I-I don't know," I breathed as I tried to rummage through my memories. "I always thought they were just dreams whenever I'd see Miall and cling onto him crying desperately," I snorted as I felt my heart anxiously beat. "So that was real, huh?" "Yes, but since it wasn't safe for you in your condition, I had to kick you out a few times. I hope you don't find me rude." "Well, I don't remember, so I guess it's okay, Miss?"
I sat on the bed with Miall, and my eyes felt itchy and painful. It must be from all the crying.“Are you okay?” I whispered as I pushed his hair back. “Did it hurt a lot? Were you scared?” I asked as I held his hand. “Tell me everything.”“I’m okay. Are you fine? Did he hurt you? How are our children? Are they safe? Is mom safe?”“Everyone is okay and safe. You know you can’t meet them until the fight, right?” I asked as I scooted closer to him. “Do you feel okay? Are you dizzy?”“Amanah, baby. I’m fine. I’m here, with you. So I’m good. It’s me, baby,” he smiled gently as he pressed our joined hands to his lips.But it’s not really you. Something’s missing in you. A big piece of you is gone.,I pressed my lips against his and sighed. Yes, I had to believe this was him so they could believe it was him as well.“I’m so happy you’re here,” I wrapped my arms around his neck. “I’m so glad.”“Yes, I’m here to save you all,” he said, and something about the way he said it didn’t sit right w
Facing the area where Miall and Evander were, my heart raced, and my palms felt sweaty. As much as I knew that Miall had been favoured by the gods, could he really do it without Orion? Orion... I miss him. It felt like it was the first time in a while I was thinking about him. Is he healing the correct way? Were they taking care of him? I was sure they would, they all once ruled Nioz and many other nations together. "What are you thinking about?" Mom asked as she drew me out of my thoughts. "They're about to start, Miall needs your support more than ever right now," she whispered as she held my hand gently. Nyleve had never once spoken about Evander every time I was with her, it was as if he never existed to her. Any mother could see she worried for him as well but I guess the hurt had cut too deep for her to even want to consider him as her son anymore. What is the history? Evander seemed to be saying a few words to Miall, probably a means to rile him up, however Miall just st
I lied. The weight wasn't off my fucking shoulders. It seemed as if I had more weight. After Evander's defeat, he simply left as if he was never there to begin with. His minions left, the castle was now empty, and the new place we were building for the orphans was completed after his departure, and we didn't have to pay a single cent. Great, but tell me why when Miall was back, the fucking Epsilon thought it was time for a great vacation because they deserved it. That's not the cherry at all. Ylil, the sun goddess, decided it would be best for her to stay a few more months to check on Miall's progress, just in case he suffered memory loss or something like that. 0 "Amanah, breathe," Anin said as she pulled me out of my thoughts. "Stop thinking of stuff that stresses you out, okay?" "How can I not?" I whined as she measured my blood pressure. I could never get used to how tight this thing gets."Miall's not fully back at work; the summits are being held here now, and his ex-
“Amanah, please talk to me,” Miall begged again as I exited the bathroom. His hoodie sat comfortably around my belly, and the shorts were everything; I felt so alive after that shower.Sitting on the bed, I grabbed my tissue oil and lifted my legs to try and massage them; Miall seeing my struggles, kneeled and grabbed my leg, soothingly pressing in the oil on my foot.“Are you really not going to talk to me?” He whispered as he stared up at me, looking extremely sorry. Miall and I had played this song before, and it was boring now.“What do you want me to say?” I asked him as I leaned back on my hands. “You said it isn’t what it looked like, so it isn’t what it looked like,” I shrugged, and the pressure increased on my foot.“Because it isn’t! I promise you, Amanah. Please.”“When you met me at Frankie’s bar that night, what did you think of me?” I asked as I put my left foot on his thigh.“I thought you were beautiful,” I could tell he was lying because he wanted me to forgive him.“T